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@Serotoninluv Thanks for your comment. This sounds spot on and thats exactly how it felt - the whole part was connected on a different level and one facet of the party changing would influence the rest of it. Really cool to think about

I would like to share a few insights I got from my last shroom trip. I took around 2 grams (light-moderate dose) and did them alone for the first time. Here is the insights I received/downloaded during my trip: 1. Nobody is stopping you from feeling good but yourself The key here I think is a realization - realize that you are the only thing holding you back from feeling really good. You can feel good if you want, but most the time we chose fear, anxiety, or worry. Its crazy to realize that its really you doing it to yourself. Its not some force outside of you happening to you - that’s a belief of mine that’s not legit. In reality I see how my perspective produces different emotions. And if I chose the one that produces positive that’s just what it is. Its not about morals or what's right or wrong. Its about what feels right to you. If you choose to feel good you will feel good. Its that simple. When I'm feeling down, hopeless, lonely - the key is this realization. Its up to me. Take Extreme Ownership of your OWN emotions. They are yours. If you don't like how you feel - change it! You don’t have to be a victim to your mind. Don’t let it be your master. It is your servant. You hold the power! You hold the power! I think I've just had a big ego backlash the last few days. It doesn’t have to continue though, it can end and you can feel better. Its just kind of crazy how it works - you don’t realize how you got to a point to where you were so sad and down but at the same time the choice has always been with you to just be positive about it and keep going. Sometimes you cant control your emotions, and that’s okay - you just watch them without judgment You know when sometimes you wake up, and you just have a great day for no reason? Its like that. Nothing is giving you that feeling of feeling good but yourself - your mind. It all comes from you. Then in these days we usually have some of the best days of our lives - not because something amazing or crazy happened but because we find the joy and fulfillment in the little things. All the miracles and gold that are in our everyday lives - relationships, laughter, the sunset, the beauty of the sun reflecting off the snow. Its all there waiting - its all there waiting for us to see. 2. Everything is interesting / has depth If you are connected to this source, its like everything is interesting. Everything has depth in all ways. A book I just picked up was so fascinating and intriguing to read, I have no idea but it just is that way when connected 3. Don't expect others to feel how you do If you are feeling good it is the most powerful force in the world to share that with other people but at the same time you cant expect them to reciprocate it 100% sometimes people will be tired and cranky, sometimes motivated, sometimes on the same wave length. But you cant rely on that, all you can do is rely on yourself being there and basking in it. Its like people can throw off the vibe really easily if you let them, maybe that’s why solitude is so important because you touch these parts of yourself that are otherwise covered by other people or negative emotions. So first I would say to get alone, then look at how you feel and challenge why your feeling that way and see that you don’t have to feel that way if you don’t want to and if you do that there is a chance you reach this state of heightened awareness and you just feel more engaged and alive. Then you can go to work. You cant really go to work feeling like shit, your work will be shit. 4. Being highest self and feeling good go hand in hand Direct correlation between being connected to your authentic self and feeling good. Maybe that’s because Joy is your natural state - and your natural state is your authentic self. So feeling good and being yourself fully go hand in hand.

@fridjonk Yeah! that's exactly how it felt. Crazy stuff

@Nahm Thank you for your words of wisdom! it means a lot. The more I reflect the more I feel like that's what was happening - I would let go and flow and I would tune into that intuitive "vibe", then when I put my attention on my thoughts and start thinking about it, it escaped me.

@Serotoninluv thank you so much! That helps a ton

I just broke up with my girlfriend of 6 months tonight and she is having a rough time taking it. It took me around two hours to calm her down enough after telling her I didn’t want the relationship anymore for me to leave. Now she keeps calling saying she has no one and needs me, what do I do? I understand I was in a codependent relationship and she had a lot banking on me; but how do I deal with this? I felt so stuck I had to leave but at the cost of her life because she put so much on me. Thoughts ?

@Anna1 thank you

Hey forum, I have something going on in my life that I literally have no idea how to handle. Basically my girlfriend that I love dearly is severely depressed and is even suicidal. She has faced waves of depression on and off her whole life, has been on Zoloft when she was in 8th grade, and then attempted killing herself when she came off them but her attempt didn't work, so she has a long history with her depression. This past week she has been telling me that this is the worst it's been in years, that she wrote suicide letters to her family, and stopped and broke down when she came to write my letter. She also is constantly sleeping, and barely eating. When she tells me these things I get emotional and just tell her I'm there for her, and that its all going to be okay. I have a pressure on me because I know I am really the only one there for her, but I don't know what else to do - I feel hopeless and trapped. My question is what would you do in this situation? She has said she doesn't want help from a professional, and to not tell anybody so they don't worry, but should they? Is this a cry for help or is it a bad idea to do something she clearly has told me to not do? Any advice is appreciated, thanks!

@remember thank you

Just a question for all of you, I have this build up of excitement and amazement for this path and everything you want to share with everyone meaningful in your life... then you go and talk to them about it and not only do they not understand or talk with you about it but it puts off a very religious and pushing vibe. I’ve struggled with this as it truly is my passion and I want to share that with the people I love, but I just can’t do it without pushing people away from it. I’ve told them that my door is always open if they are interested. anyone have any solutions or similar situations and how they worked through it? I know Leo has a video on loneliness on the path and I’m going to rewatch it. Thank you.

@How to be wise thank you, I’m sure it has to do with their curiosity and the fact that your eyes gleam like you’re sitting on top of box and they really want to know what’s in that box. But if I’m like “look! Look! Look in the box!” It makes them not want too.

I have a personal Instagram account with around 700 followers, this account is one I don’t really use anymore. Do you think it’s a good idea to promote my YouTube channel to my followers? (my channel is focused around creating unique personal development and spiritual videos) The only reasons I am hesitant is because I have a fear/insecurity of putting myself out there, although usually the people that put themselves out there get the most respect and exposure which is good for my channel long run. A lot of my followers are people I went to highschool with. Is it even worth trying to promote higher spiral dynamics videos if most of these people are really stage Orange/materialistic, or could it help them? Any advice is appreciated! Thanks!

@Dwarniel thank you ?

@Simon Håkansson thank you!

So I’ve been in a 2 month relationship with a girl I’ve known for 2 years. It was great at the beginning (of course) but now I’m questioning. She has what I would consider severe childhood trauma - depression, anxiety, etc. she breaks down a lot and is very neurotic. Of course I resort to trying to expose her to PD but of course it doesn’t work. Any advice? What should I do? Also: I have recommended her a therapist but she denies and just won’t go

@Knock I haven’t payed attention to this, thank you.

Everyone I talk to.. when I make I contact I can tell they get uncomfortable and insecure. I really don’t understand, I’ve been told my eyes “pierce the soul” and it seems like “I know something they dont” does anyone have any ideas on what’s going on? I try to have normal conversation and it seems like everyone I talk to has this same reaction...

@Charlotte I’m confused, I just don’t know why when I talk to people they get all weird okay ?

@Charlotte I have been skeptical of this. It’s not thought, its happens in my awareness, it’s almost everyone I meet. I think it has to do with maybe being awake, and not being a “shoot the breeze” person. I think maybe it scares people because it’s deep

@Jed Vassallo thanks. That’s honestly what I thought too! Thanks for the reply

@flowboy great point and perspective, thank you

I have been hesitant to share this on the forum but my conclusions I come too just aren't satisfying. I really need help. With that being said, let me tell you a little of my situation. Around 4 years ago I fell in love with (lets call her Amanda). Amanda and I have been together ever since I was 15 (I am now 19). We love each other deeply and are very deeply connected. She can talk with me about anything, even personal development and spirituality. And we always push each other to be better. We do just about everything together as far as lifting weights, meditating, going to get groceries, and even her moving into my parents home with me. Just last week Amanda left to go to Washington D.C. to sell door to door to try to make some money. We both decided to take a break from our relationship as this is a great time for solitude and growth. We decided when she comes back we will get an apartment together and rekindle our relationship. I wish it was that easy but here is the kicker: Around 3 days ago I hung out with the only other girl (lets call her Kylie) that I have ever really had a connection and relationship with. When I hung out with Kylie it was very clear: I love this woman. The same feelings of love I feel towards Kylie are the same I feel towards Amanda. But what makes this hard is that Kylie is new to me, I have never know anything other than the 4 year relationship with Amanda that I have been in since a freshman in high school. So being with Kylie is exciting, exhilarating, and makes me feel alive... the problem obviously is that I cannot have both. I have tired multiple days to take time and just contemplate what I truly want, but I can't seem to go anywhere - the only answer I can come up with is "I simply want and love them both" but this is obviously not realistic and just the ego trying to attach and control everything... anyways, I would love to hear the forums advice on this one. Thank you all

@universe @studentofthegame thank you both very much

@Pilgrim such a well thought-out and meaningful reply. Thank you very much. It means a lot to me

@Leo Gura So what do I do now? Or is that just it - there is no point and nothing to do? Its completely paradoxical, because both are true and because all is true. everything that is imagined - its true - do I get it ? or is there no it to get?