Hello
Thank you for this topic, I have also had this problem before and now it came back to me again lately.
Even though I have gone through depression before, I know the problem came from somewhere else. And you saying you feel like not wanting to live in the norms of societies and being used by it etc sounds just too familiar to me. Feeling like you see how much it goes wrong all the time and how much you don't want to be a part of it. I had this strongly when I was living in my home country where I believed totally different from the people and most of my family members. It becomes like hell quiet fast. Before I left at the age of 21, all I thought was either I leave or.. I was really angry.
After I came to the new country, it was really hard the first few years, being student and not knowing the native language, but I promised myself I will do it again as it made me grow so much that I can't even start explaining how much!
Now after I have achieved most of the things I have always wanted, I am in this stage again where I feel I have to really change something. It feels like there is different parts of this world I could join, learn, live and work in but seems they won't satisfy me as I have lived in them many times through my day dreaming. Thought maybe I am a traveler and this is how I can live but I am not sure about it anymore. I know that small vacations for short time don't really help as just seeing pictures of those special locations seem to do the same trick; in this I totally agree with going somewhere and staying at least for 6 months. Living, observing yourself and other people. I'm so gonna do that some time soon and at the moment am just looking for clues.
I wish you luck in finding your way to trigger this phase to pass. I guess I wish the same for myself
