NikitaW

What helped me a lot was going the opposite and looking what thoughts truly are. Seeing what i can do with them and where they arise. What tone do they have and what are the patterns? At which particular time in wich moment wich thoughts arise? Are there any noises from other voices? In wich connection do they stand with my senses? What happens with thought when feelings arise and how are they connected? What is the different of unconscious thinking and conscious thinking, when you fall into concocting thinking or when you are able to have a clear focus mind.

1. I would only recommend you to give your parents psychedelics when: A. You are able to snap somebody out of their though patterns. B. You are able to create a space where there is no away for them to get into a bad trip. C. Your parents have a strong foundation of self observing. (What does not seems to be the case) So i would rather recommend you to show them how to meditate. Talk to them about fundamental aspects of life and when you see they builded up a strong foundation and YOU are very confident in your practice, do a trip with them in a nice environment where they can be comfortable and you can be there for them to hold the space. 2. Existing or non existing is a question of what do you point to. Often the notion 'you don't exist' points to the image that you have of yourself. Holding on to such an image can bring up suffering and thats why people say you don't exist. Way more important than thinking about existing, non existing, infinite or not is the question of what YOU truly are and what this experience of this reality is all about. To see the very mechanisms of wich you experience life. To take a deep look of what IS without conceptualizing.

Tension and Trauma Releasing Exercises TRE. You may wanna look that up. It is an exercises that brings you body to shake in a natural manner to release trauma in it. It is a easy and effective exercises.

Yes it is the path of non self that leads to less delusion they say. I will have a look at this book thank you. The monastery from Buddhadasa where i actually go again today is a Theravada buddhist tradition too. Suan Mokkh (Garden of liberation) I recommend if one goes to thailand to do a 10 day silent retreat there. At the end they even give out all lot of books for free. Of course one should donate something if he has enough money. The meditation instructions are very basic that been told there since this is a common place for beginner foreigner to do retreat, but if you are more serious you can stay at the hermitage also for free, live with the monks and you get provided with food from the alms round. Maybe they can give me some pdfs from his books so i can upload them for you guys. These are good books from him.

I spend time here in thailand with monks who sit for 3 days not moving in 7 days in a row without eating and drinking. A monk who life in a room with a bet and a toilet and all he did was meditating and translating the original pali text from the buddha and building up a huge monastery by living the way buddha did. This is not to prove that what he is saying is absolute right, but it shows their dedication to find the truth and action speaks for themselves. Buddhadasa(Slave of the buddha) he called himself has written many books. In these books he says that buddha thought that there is completely no self and clinging to atman a higher self just leads to more attachment. Self only exist in the mind of delusion and this leads to suffering. The supreme state of nibbana is a state without a self. It's been said that buddha went beyond gods and earaised there foundations. Consciousness is just a part of the 5 aggregates: body, feelings, mental formation, perception and consciousness. The monks said also that Consciousness is more like a magic trick once you understand it it has no magic anymore. Of course it plays a big role, but it has no self. Out of my meditation experience in therms of reaching deeper jhanas at the monastery and feeling "infinite", I can say that this is just more like becoming boundless and don't feeling the limitation of your body anymore. It feels like you losing your body. This isn't even a high jhana and with the right teaching not very difficult to attain. When you go deeper they say you can come to a state of observing and not observing but you don't really know. The deepest state is when you drop yourself and truly become emptiness. Now the big BUT, this is not the way of enlightenment how the buddha taught it. He did the same mistake during his path of enlightenment. It can surely help but is not ultimately necessary. The first jhana of having a stable, focus and clear mind freed from the five hindrances is enough to contemplate on the dhamma. Nature itself. To truly study what is really going on within. Beyond concepts, just true experience that lead to super mundane wisdom that shows you the absolute truth.

The discussion of self or non self goes back all the way to the buddha and has often been changed since then. I am in Thailand at the moment and here lived a famous buddhist monk Buddhadasa. He translated the original Pali texts again. He says that there is no self whats so ever. Nor soul. Only in the relative truth one has still a self for he is in a state of delusion. In the absolute truth there is no self (anatta) an no birth no death. He also says to hold on to higher self (ātman) leads to attachment. And nibbāna is more like a extinction zone freed from cause and effect without a self. What i learned from the monks there is that the wheel of dependent origination (basis of reincarnation samsara) is actually not meant in a way of the physical rebirth, but more like the ego that gets created in a second of a thought process in the 12 nidānas and that you can train your mind to bee so fast that you catch your own ignorance in the point of contact with the six senses and transform it into wisdom thru true insight of the very nature of things. Impermanence.

So see what understanding means is relative to the thing that you want to understand. Thru that it is a concept and in this very concept we can have a different understanding of what to understanding. So their we have already a misunderstanding that my concept is that i want to understand your point of view, but how can i truly do it without being you other than merely see my own thought coherence to MY logic and feeling to your words? And logic, feeling and thoughts are just concepts again. This is relative to what you consider as truth. Yes that is right as long you are not on the path to find what is the absolute truth. For that you have to transcendent your own concepts and don't fall for that what you are exactly saying. Haha but what is this here right now, Just a clashing of concepts nothing more. Their is no truth whatsoever in it.

Lets burn fire with fire. Their are craps that can see way more colors than we do. Bats live in a sound like world that differs extreme from our experience of this reality. Whales have a whole part in their brain for emotions that is connected to sound that we don't have. So even in the materialistic view of this world their are utterly differnt experiences of this physical reality that shows us that the world ist not only what we are experiencing. By looking deeper in the human experience you will see that you only observe the decoded experience that the mind is showing you. What are you experiencing while looking on this screen? The mind is observing the mind that is processing the raw information from the "outside", we even know in the materialistic view that the image gets flipped upside down. So how can you actually know that there is an outside world when you only can observe yourself? Looking at dreams while practicing lucid dreaming you can see how real they can feel and thru practicing deeper meditation into the Jhanas you can feel boundless. By putting this in considerations, i may ask: have you ever experienced truly something outside of yourself? And what is even the body and mind?

Yes that is the funny thing about language. It becomes problematic when your concepts differ and you misunderstand each other. When talking about what it means to be I go even so far and say that it can deceive you and you will just build up a concept that will satisfy your ego in already having reached that point of being that is talked about. Need to be very careful at that point and mindful of the subtle action of ones own self-deceptive mechanisms.

Like the notion that people think that you reach enlightenment merely by reaching the point of no thought. Is not true. It might be a stage that will bring you peace and joy like you never felt before, but ultimately the concept of a separate self is still in your perception. To get rid or rather see the true nature of this concept is a mind bending task to do.

The very fact that you can read these words right in this moment shows that concepts exist, even though words are empty without you knowing their meaning. Like a language that you don't know, you only see letters that are mixed together. It is your experience with these concepts that are now stored in your memory and are put together while you are reading this to make sense of it.

Seeing in a materialist way, is seeing the concepts as the reality that you life in. Going beyond concepts, you see reality undefined as the absolute that it is. But looking deeply even concepts are a part of the ultimate reality as a finitude in the infinite. So concepts exist and do not at the same time, like this concept about concepts.

It is all about bone stacking. Especially for kryia yoga a strait spine is important. Rotating your hips forward will help you to get your lower back strait. You can archive it by barely sitting on the edge of a cussion or pulling your butcheack's out. This gives you a nice foundation. For getting the whole spine strait you visualize a rope pulling you up on the top of your head and then let yourself fall strait down. If the posture is right your spine should feel like a stick. If you have a partner he can press strait down on top of your head and there should be no movement if you are really strait. For not enough flexibility it is recommended to put pillows under your knees. If you have done everything right you should be able to let go of every tension in your body and then it just becomes an balancing act. To get a feeling for the point in the perineum area, the easy pose or, in that post before, the burmese posture is good. Put with one heel pressure into the perineum area and put the other leg upfront. This is not necessary but can help you a lot a to get a feel for this area. Wich is necessary for some techniques to tense a particular point.

I implemented techniques in my normal meditation. What i can say is that you become way more aware of your spine and if there are any blockages in it. Moving energy up and down your spine with the right breathing is powerful. It should be handled carefully. I don't have the book, but i highly recommend to follow the instruction and feel how your body feels about it. If you doing it for a while and doing everything around it also to clean yourself, you will feel how the energies are going up into your brain and you will become more awake. I don't know what kind of techniques are in it, BUT Don't go to far with yourself take your time, they can be dangerous.

What i can say from observing my own patterns is that the nature in us does function like an algorithm. For example i see an apple. In the point of contact a feeling is created in my stomach. This feeling is connected to images of me eating this apple. Out of this, thoughts arise wich creates a story that is concocting myself to get that apple. When I'm not aware of this, nature is behaving on itself within me. So i have no free will. But if I'm aware of all of this and see it as just connected phenomena that are happening within my body, but i don't act upon on them. Do i have then a free will? Or is the very act of me oberserving also a programmed thing, because i trained myself to that point.