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Meditation and shadow work Don't ignore unhealthy habits

I was agreeing with you

I'm not, just saying what my experience has been. I do find it more credible coming from you instead of what could simply be false accounts. What has your experience been with It? Where did you start on their scale? Where are you now? What did you feel in the moment? I feel subtle energy flowing at all times of the day, especially when meditating and Kundalini energy. Would I definitely feel this?

In my experience, if Source wants to pass you insights or mystical experiences/beingness, it simply does, directly. Sure people can point you towards the action you need to take to show Source you're serious and sincere, but that's not the same thing as a person passing those experiences to you. Source doesn't need a middleman like that. If you're ready for Truth, I find it simply comes.

Source has done a good job holding my hand so far, I'll stick with the path I'm on instead of taking Ramaji's hand instead.

Honestly, if someone had the ability to enlighten you simply by directing energy in such a way, wouldn't they simply do the first one for free? In one act you raise the consciousness of the planet and get a ready customer. Because it seems you would likely need several or dozens of session by how it's described above.

The problem is that we are simply told to allow emotions to happen and that's all we need to do. Well it's actually not so simple. We should allow original emotions to fully be expressed when they occur. Like when a loved one dies. You begin to grieve, and might even feel multiple emotions. You need to sit with those feelings and not push them away. Feel the emotions until they are not there to feel anymore. A lot of people will do whatever they can to stop feeling them. Get drunk, play video games, go out with friends, anything to avoid feeling the emotions. The problem is emotions are our bodies way of coping with stressful situations. We literally need to feel the emotions so our body can come back to a homeostasis. If we push those feelings away (unconsciously or not), the emotions become trapped/suppressed. That doesn't mean they just become some thought in the back of your mind. Emotions literally get trapped within your body. We are energetic beings and any energy you don't fully process stays within our energetic body. That's what people are talking about when they say emotional baggage. You are literally carrying around your emotional trauma with you. And these emotional traumas usually can't just be felt away, you often have to reach out to the unconscious mind and figure out why the emotion got there in the first place. That's what shadow work is about. Once you show the emotion respect, possibly understand exactly why it's there, then you can allow the emotion to be felt. Everything you felt before this trying to release the emotion was just the trauma bubbling up into the conscious mind to let you know it needs your help. Once you fully feel the emotion after doing the digging, then it will be released. I struggled with this for over a decade. People make it seem like: "Oh, your depressed? You just need to stop fighting the emotions and allow them to be there. That'll get you through it." Well actually no it won't. Usually people become depressed for multiple reasons, multiple traumas, and have been for years. Allowing bubbling up trauma to be felt instead of finding the root causes itself is just going to cause you to needlessly suffer. I did that for SO LONG. Sitting in my anxiety and panic, meditating with it, letting it just be there. When the whole time that was just my body screaming for me to do something about it. There are many techniques online for doing shadow work. I tried a few but none resonated with me. Then the other day I tried the technique outlined in the book the Emotion Code, by Dr. Bradley Nelson. Here in a couple days when I fully clear everything I'm going to make a post about it explaining everything, but basically this technique is the only one that ever worked consistently for me and was quick to do. The only other that sort of worked was the Completion Process by Teal Swan, but each memory sometimes took me 1 to 2 hours to process. And I'm not even sure how many actually worked. Yesterday was the first day I used the Emotion Code, and I released over 50 separate traumas. Some required no effort to release, a couple were very traumatic and I had to allow the emotion to be expressed for some time before I could release them, but it was worth it. I'm not even done, and I'm telling you I haven't felt this light in over 15 years. My anxiety shot way down, my chronic fatigue is gone, my sadness is gone, it's blowing my mind. Just 2 days ago I had so much anxiety/fear my dogs would start to get anxiety just by being in the same room as me (licking their lips/gulping). I suggest watching the E-motion documentary before you get the book. It's a movie entirely about emotional trauma and how to deal with it, and I think Dr. Nelson is the director. It's high stage stuff, these experts in the movie are doing a huge service to humanity, I never thought I'd overcome my trauma. The movie is on Gaia for free if you have a subscription, it might be elsewhere for rent or to buy. Like I said, I'll make a detailed report about my experience in a few days when I finish. Although I believed in Source before, I have no doubt after some of what I experienced yesterday. Infinite love and gratitude. Hope this helps.

120 Euros

Shelling out 1000's in the hope someone else will enlighten you?

Agreed. My friend suffers immensely, possibly more than anyone I've ever met. He even pushed me away in his paranoia, and I might of did more for him than anyone in his life.

I'm not sure I'd compare nondual to schizophrenia, I think an altered state of consciousness would be more appropriate. In my nondual experience although I stopped recognizing with bodymind and instead as consciousness itself, I would say I was more in the zone than anyone around me. I wasn't clueless bumping around into things confused. 'I' saw things clearly, I was noticing things I'd never notice and correcting them with no effort, I knew what to say how it needed to be said, I could take in everything while still engaging with others/consciousness. It was the furthest thing from confusing. It was disorienting for maybe minutes while awareness adjusted to the way of being.

Yea environment is a big deal when you're dealing with compulsive behavior. Food can be especially since people often eat communally, so whatever they are eating you are likely to also eat. Even after getting my own place and switching to healthy food, it took me a bit to sort out what to do when visiting family. Sometimes they eat unhealthy and are big meat eaters. Coming out to my mom about switching to a Vegan diet so I could put my foot down with what I eat was more difficult than you might think! Lol For the meditation if you're talking about porn, I wasn't able to just sit with the feeling at first. Even though some might say it isn't right to be suppressing the feeling, anytime it came up the only chance I had was to immediately remove myself from whatever it was that was bringing the urge on, sometimes physically leaving the area, and then doing something else to get my mind off of it until it passed. Once I got to the point to where the urges were less common and less intense, then I was able to start introducing the feeling into sittings/allowing it to just be there. Now I notice the feeling come up and remain mindful, but it doesn't have control anymore. I make sure not to feed into it and get it too rowdy and I think that's just something you learn with time. Thanks. Yes! Without the proper framework which most people don't have to understand a HSP, it's like the paradox of me saying something is blue while you do too, except we're actually seeing two different colors. I think this is why my mom never picked up on it, she either didn't have the ability to see it, or she might also be a HSP but never learned how to properly deal with it.

I'm not sure where 'true' schizophrenia falls on the spiritual spectrum. I had a close friend who was diagnosed schizophrenic very young, and he told me about intense negative/violence inducing hallucinations he would have. I think a big issue for him was that he had a lot of inner work he needed to do that when combined with whatever chemical imbalances and/or spiritual imbalances, it compounded those issues of inner work. It made him self-sabotaging, extremely depressed, paranoid, quick to violence, untrusting. I think if he was able to focus intensely on shadow work he would be an amazing member of society, because he picks up skills very quickly, is creative, and deep down is a bleeding heart. Medication would make him like a zombie, and without it he would have the occasional manic episode, but he worked through it. Anti-anxiety medication seemed to be the most beneficial for when he got too worked up. One interesting note, is DMT had almost no effect on him. He tried it many times, and to get even a slight effect he had to essentially load an entire large sized bowl in a pipe. Maybe .3 grams or more smoked in very quickly. I think the natural flow of DMT in his brain being much higher than the average person might have been the cause of this. Maybe without having a support structure that knew how to teach him how to properly navigate spiritual states, he fell victim to extreme trauma because of it. Note: his family was extremely Blue and had severe psychological issues themselves to my understanding.

If the third eye activates just think of it as a gift and express gratitude to Source, might change your view on it. Something else I'd try is when you feel the energy there (I'm not sure if it's energy coming in?), try to reach out for guidance. Say in your mind that you have some questions if anyone could provide you with some insight. Try to make your intentions of love and gratitude strong while doing so. Then listen with a quiet mind and receptivity/surrender. I'd be interested to see if you hear anything back. I've been in communication daily with what seems to be a few different sources of information. One seems very quick and intuitive, another I think might be someone I personally know but can't confirm yet, and another I'm just going to leave as being 3 here. I think when ajna is activated (when you feel the strong energy there) it opens you up to what they call supernatural abilities. Think channeling, akashic records, etc. I think that is what I've been experiencing. Maybe making all the changes that you know in your heart you should might increase the abilities by letting Source know your intentions/seriousness. Most definitely, my growth is happening exponentially trusting and following this.

I sat to meditate on the breath. About 20 minutes in I started feeling a pressure between my eybrows/ajna. My mind became much less clouded, and I started receiving random instruction. Stand, walk forward, some more, sit back down, all of which I followed. It seemed to be to help me discern instruction from random thought. I started to feel warmth and energy moving through my body. I was then asked why my head was still, and to completely relax. So I relaxed my neck muscles, and my head naturally started moving in a circular motion. After some time of this, I was told to visualize the energy at the bottom of my back spiraling up around my spine. I did, and I continued to spiral it up my neck, around my skull, to the top of my head. Within the several seconds this took place, I became very physically hot, easily 100+° Farenheit. My breathing became very heavy, like I was doing strenuous exercise. When I envisioned the energy reaching the top of my skull, I felt and intense focus of energy there, moving out of my body. There was so much energy running through my body, I could barely sit still. My hands began to clench, toes curling, eyes pulsating, eyelids shuttering. It was almost like having an orgasm but more intense and not particularly enjoyable. After a few seconds my breathing became very intense, somewhere in between exercise and child birth. I was told to relax and just breathe through it. So I slowed down my breath and breathed more deeply. The top of my head simmered down, but my entire body was full of energy, like I had taken MDMA or something, nerves firing off everywhere. I was instructed to do it once more but slowly this time. So I did it over the course of about 30 seconds, similar effect but not as intense. But then I was told to imagine the person I love most in the world, to hold that image in my mind and count back from 10. When I started at 10, I already had tears flowing down my face. And when I went to 9, an image of them from a different memory came up, and my emotions became even more intense. It became hard to breathe I was crying so much. I got down to 7, and I completely lost it and broke the countdown. I felt what needed to be felt, and then I was told to start again. Each number for some reason brought up a different memory, and it was like I was reliving everything we had been through. This time I got down to 0, and my emotions hit their pinnacle. To give a little context, I hurt this person through my ignorance, and with my unhealed emotional wounds. I love them more than anything, but unintentionally I caused them a lot of pain. Several seconds after I got to zero, I was told these feelings were guilt and sadness. A few personal things were said I won't mention here, but at the end I was told to continue healing down the spiritual path. That if I ever see them again, I should be capable of having the awareness and depth of love they deserve. I continued meditating and did one more practice of the Kundalini meditation. I was going to continue after that, but then I was told to stop and rest, so I did. Then the communication ended, and my ajna pressure stopped. And now I still have energy flowing through me, but I'm exhausted. I've never learned how to do meditation related to Kundalini, but this was very intense. I don't understand where these instructions/insights/or whatever they are come from, and I'm not really sure why they've been coming so much when I don't really hear of anyone else having similar experiences? I'm grateful nonetheless.

If you do some inner work, there would definitely be guys interested in you. Not so for every guy trying to do the same.

Also note that Greenish women value those traits in a Greenish man.

For a guy they find extremely attractive they will overlook all of this cat and mouse stuff. I've noticed in girls that are Green'ish are often also this way, it's just that the lens of values they see through is different from Orange/Blue. Orange/Blue/Green are still all much more likely to be the ones chasing if they find the guy physically attractive. Then the traits that make them even more attracted to the other varies between stages. Blue and orange are often mixed or just orange, and both value success, material things, alpha type behavior (unless they are older trying to settle down, although this varies). Green tends to be mixed with orange at least to some degree, and still value orange success/material qualities just not as intensely (Some don't value it at all that are more green). But they mostly all still value high status, which in the green community just translates into people who are highly valued within the group. Think musicians, performance artists, community organizers, people generally liked by everyone, artists in general really. I'm not really sure how many Yellow+ women I've met, so I'm not sure what is going on there. Across the spectrum though, you're probably just better off focusing on yourself or providing value to others. Even if your underlying reason was just sex/intimacy, women just seeing you rise into these positions and not putting them on a pedestal/easily giving them attention/affection will make them come to you not the other way around. You could even wait until they outright make an advance on you. I try to be as loving/giving of attention as I can to both people I'm not sexually attracted to and those I am regardless of the way hormones/evolution make women sway at these stages. To try to bend to fit those bills is just bending to your wiring for some sex. At green especially, intimacy can be had without sex very easily. But if you are just looking for sex then the path is pretty clear. Good luck. (This isn't the behavior of every woman at these stages, but many).

What happened to all the posts in this thread?

Leo explains this in this video: I've been contemplating/integrating this over the past couple days. Meaning is a creation of the Mind, there being a point to something is a projection of meaning made by whoever sees a point in it. Which is to say everything is meaningless in the objective sense. This really resonated with me because when I had my temporary self-realization, immediately the weight behind everything was just gone. I couldn't put it into words, but Leo explained it really well here.

From someone who tackled several addictions: drugs/alcohol, cigarettes, unhealthy food, video games, TV, social media, porn. 1. Recognizing all of my addictions, and recognizing they are negatively impacting my life. This can be more difficult on socially accepted addictions. IE. Porn, TV, social media, video games, sweets/unhealthy foods. 2. Removing anyone from my life reinforcing those addictions, including things that bring you down like the news. 3. Having my own place that is designed around activities that are beneficial instead of detrimental. Like a bookshelf where a TV stand would be, a desk with art supplies on it instead of a gaming console, only healthy foods in the pantry/fridge, etc. This is huge. 4. Have something to replace the time spent on addictions with. Books on topics I need to understand better, a hobby/passion, a job, exercise, etc. For me spirituality and wanting reach my potential as a human being is probably my biggest driving factor. Sadhguru said that all longing in the world is longing originally designed to know one's true nature. 5. Being careful about even putting yourself temporarily into positions/situations that typically lead to relapse. Like if when you normally lay down at a certain time of day you revert to porn. 6. Figure out what kind of stopping technique works for you. Some people slowly wean themselves off (and you have to in a few cases, like heroin or extreme alcoholsm), but in my case I had to cold turkey pretty much every addiction. If you are on a streak and revert back to it, just get back on the horse and don't beat yourself up about it. As long as you are making progress long term that's what matters, being too harsh will just make things worse. 7. Most importantly, all addiction is just a way of avoiding something. Unprocessed emotions, depression, a rough family life. Figuring out what's really going on and sorting it out is the dissolution of most addiction. In my case my addictions were all causing extreme stress in my life, and I didn't have the time or the emotional capability then to deal with the causes of addiction first. So I sorted those out for my and everyone's sake, and now I'm tackling the deeper problem. You have to truly want to change though, with every fibre of your being. If you are very addicted like I was to most of mine, it takes a will power of steel to fight the urges. But you get better at it over time. If you are dealing with a lot of addiction, you might be what they call a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) like me. I didn't think I was until I saw this documentary and really contemplated my life: Sensitive: An Untold Story. You can find it for free if you have a Gaia subscription or from other sources. The subscription is probably the best $10 I spend a month though, access to more spiritual/Turquoise content than you can know what to do with.

Maybe do the opposite and sell your TV? My living room is so much better without it. Gaia posts content that does touch on events going on in the world, or things going on that governments don't want citizens to know, but I remain skeptical of conspiracy. It wouldn't surprise me if it were all true, since otherwise they are Turquoise media. They have an app too.

Don't resist the emotion, but also don't resist resistance to the emotion either. That's ego taking you on a merry-go-round.