Elysian

This. When you take psychedelics, especially LSD, you've signed an agreement that you'll experience whatever it is that it wants to show you for several hours, no exceptions. There's no escaping it, and that can be scary for some. This is one problem you simply can't run from. Think about that the next time before you say you're ready to do it again. Because personally I think you got off pretty easy.

It's been experienced directly through several different angles

I've also experienced Kundalini energy while not having the intention of bringing it up the spine. I think the deeper you go into meditation the more open/less resistant you become, and so the energy naturally comes.

It's mind blowing finally having a consistent connection with Higher Self, obstacles are just getting blown away like dust in the wind. What do you think meditation is for? It's to strengthen the connection to Higher Self, which eventually strengthens it so much that 'you' stop existing, leaving only a vehicle for Divine will. The surrendering everyone keeps talking about is really surrendering everything you are to Higher Self, or God. That way, it can use this vessel to manifest it's divinity. Higher Self is just a part of God, which is a projection of Source to inact it's will.

I'd agree here. A 9 to 5 is nothing compared to the time our ancestors had to sink into survival. Especially alone.

Breakdown doesn't necessarily mean surrender. You could've just got overwhelmed, which is an emotion entirely of itself.

Feeling subtle energies can be really surprising the first time. Glad it went well. What I really want to try is Sound Healing with tuning forks! Intuition has told me that is the last step I need to take to finish my shadow work. Do you not feel energy when doing Kundalini Meditation, or do you not do It?

If you're obsessing this much over her, you not only have unprocessed emotions related to her, you also probably have deeper emotional wounds that need to be addressed. First you've got to be ok with feeling all of your feelings. The only way out is through. I just used the technique in The Emotion Code by Dr. Bradley Nelson to completely clear my emotional body. I literally had to release hundreds of trapped emotions. Some were very difficult to allow, but I've never felt better in my adult life. I feel so much lighter. The best part is I got so proficient at it, there was a lot of emotions I could clear in about 20 seconds or so. It's worth checking out so you stop reliving the same emotional trauma over and over again.

But Leoooo, you said that enlightenment is easier to achieve with less distractions. Now you're saying to bring a +1?

Sadhguru, his humanity radiates so clearly I can't help but to aspire to that. Something I told the Universe some time ago, is that I want to be a shining example of a child of Creation finding the Divine spark within. I wasn't sure what path that meant at the time, but it seems since them I've been thrusted rather forcefully down this path towards self-realization. It's like the Universe is saying, "Well you asked for it." Sadhguru embodies that wish perfectly.

I'd be down for either Dallas or Austin, although I'm from Houston myself. So who would be the best to attend this? I mean I'm focused on spiritual growth, and someone else might be focused on their life purpose.

Check out the documentary Sensitive: An Untold Story. You might just be what they call a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP). I know I am, and having a better understanding of how to interact with the world if you are a HSP could prevent getting too overwhelmed. If the depression has been going on for awhile, you're probably dealing with emotional trauma that you need to work through. Shadow work could help with that, it's helping me immensely. There's nothing wrong with feeling deeply, it's actually a gift that's usually misunderstood. It means you can understand things on a level that not everyone can. If you feel more deeply you are more susceptible to depression, but you are also able to experience positive emotions more deeply like joy and happiness. The documentary E-motion gives several tools to work through your emotional trauma from experts that are focused on raising the consciousness of the planet. If you do feel deeply you should definitely know how to properly process your emotions and how to catch anything that slips through the cracks.

One of the last LSD experiences I had was very focused around this. Everything showed it's true colors. Light beams passing through my window we're blowing my mind, how these particles were moving through space and time. I remembered a girl who grew from a very rough experience the day before, and I saw the perfection in the smile she had when she came out of it. It was so beautiful streams of tears were coming down my face. When I caught sight of one of the streams that moved to one of my arms, I watched it magically moving "downwards", the light bouncing off it reflecting the room from it's exterior, the complexity of the innate beauty of all of existence was like waves of mind blowing complexity crashing into my awareness. I looked out at the sky and it felt like Source was just giving me a glimpse of the true nature of creation, because if I got shown anymore it would've destroyed me. I think the most curious of humans probably saw this more clearly than others naturally, like Da Vinci. Anyone who barely felt that way wouldn't be able to stop themselves from exploring existence.

Sounds similar to energetic experiences I've had, but does he say anything about any aftereffects of the experience. He just mentions sensations.

This is what I was already leaning towards, if I'm out $100 or whatever it is, that would be worth testing them out. Not sure who said they were insanse. And no need to strawman by comparing a double digit poster on a forum to Leo in terms of credibility. And don't be so quick to dismiss a healthy level of skepticism.

This is what I was thinking.

So you are doing what exactly? And in person or over call? How do you know that your 'conversations' has an effect and it's not just inner work they've been doing?

As in projecting a thought into their mind, but since they are unaware such a thing can be done they think it's their own cowardice?

When you think someone else has it confused but it's the other way around. Story of life

Meditation and shadow work Don't ignore unhealthy habits

I was agreeing with you

I'm not, just saying what my experience has been. I do find it more credible coming from you instead of what could simply be false accounts. What has your experience been with It? Where did you start on their scale? Where are you now? What did you feel in the moment? I feel subtle energy flowing at all times of the day, especially when meditating and Kundalini energy. Would I definitely feel this?

In my experience, if Source wants to pass you insights or mystical experiences/beingness, it simply does, directly. Sure people can point you towards the action you need to take to show Source you're serious and sincere, but that's not the same thing as a person passing those experiences to you. Source doesn't need a middleman like that. If you're ready for Truth, I find it simply comes.

Source has done a good job holding my hand so far, I'll stick with the path I'm on instead of taking Ramaji's hand instead.