Elysian

You've put yourself in an extremely unhealthy situation, in the future it would be best to place your well being above all else whenever possible. But since you're already here, theres a few things you can do. You need to get more sleep, period. It doesn't matter if you have to study less or not, it's dangerous to live on this much sleep, and you're actually less productive overall than if you got more sleep. You need at least 6 hours of sleep a day. Lavender incense or essential oil helps with relieving stress, reduces anxiety, and calms your mind. When you take showers, don't take cold showers. Warm showers are relaxing and reduce stress, and if you are doing cold showers you can't handle the extra stress right now. If you do all 3 of these things you're quality of life will improve significantly, and even still if you're already taking warm showers. This way you only have to spend an extra 2 hours to improve your situation, because you can use aromatherapy while you're studying.

You're overthinking it, and ending suffering is impossible. The desire to end suffering is an egoic desire, and at higher states of development even this egoic desire falls away.

It should be clarified, enlightenment doesn't end suffering. Buddha said enlightenment ended suffering, but what he should've said is resting in the Absolute ends suffering. Which is to say resting in the Absolute Void, which you can achieve through meditation/Samadhi, will end suffering, but only while you're there. In the Void is nothingness, all sense of self is gone. But if you sat in this state indefinitely, you would die if you weren't hooked up to medical equipment. You come back from that eventually and suffering will be waiting for you when you get back. When Buddha came back from the Void he came back to suffering, he said enlightenment ended suffering to encourage people down the Path, which would certainly reduce their suffering and improve their quality of life. He was deceitful, but for the Higher Good of humanity.

It's very difficult to recognize Coral until you are Coral.

It's through pure authenticity. The better question is what does it mean to be truly authentic? True authenticity is surrendering completely to Truth. What is Truth? Truth is love, God is love, you are love. When you surrender to Truth, you are allowing yourself to become a vessel for Divinity, for unconditional love. Intuition, the desire to grow, the desire to heal, the desire for unity, this is God manifesting the Absolute into the Relative. The Absolute is pure love. Authenticity is allowing God, your true nature, to flow freely from your individuality, for love to flow freely. That's what it means to be Coral. And that's why it is so rare. How can you be authentic as an individual aspect of God in the Relative, when you think the Absolute is where your attention should be? God is trying to manifest love, through the aspect of God called you. You meaning the individual. That's how God expresses itself in the Relative. The whole point of the Relative, is for this exact purpose! I have a list of Coral musicians here that I'll try to update daily.

All you need to know about nonduality is that it is the realization on the highest level you are one with everything. Everything within your experience is you, because you are God. Anything your told beyond this is nondual masturbation. It serves no purpose and only complicates your spiritual growth. The real question is, once you reach the pinnacle of nondual awareness, where do you go from there? That's only the second step of the spiritual path, the first being enlightenment. Most enlightened individuals fall into dogma and stunt their growth by assuming nondual is the finish line of spirituality, when they only just started the race. The real challenge comes in the next step, which is paradoxically integrating the nondual perspective with duality. Ken Wilber touches on this, even though he doesn't fully understand how to do it. Absolute and Relative Truth have to be merged, that's the next step in our evolution. Christ was a good example of these two merging, Buddha is an example of getting stuck in a nondual rut. The Integration of Relative and Absolute Truth is Coral. It's beyond nondual dogma and since some of the best teachings for spiritual development only take one to nondual you have very few that ever reach it. It's probably somewhere around .001% of the population. And reaching Coral is only just the beginning, so don't let yourself get stuck down at what 2000 to 3000 year old books point towards. Considering how many enlightened individuals are stuck behind dogma, it makes it even more difficult for deeper Truth to come out.

What they're saying is nondual masturbation.

Here he touches on what he calls two paths. Embodying Absolute Truth, Buddha. Turning towards the suffering of others and embracing it, Jesus. Where Ken Wilber made the mistake is by calling them two different paths, when in reality it's the same path at different stages. Buddha recognized Absolute Truth, and embodied it for his entire life. Jesus recognized Absolute Truth, but decided if he was going to continue being a part of this existence regardless of where it comes from, he was going to continue to grow through spreading unity. You can stop where Buddha did, or you can continue on to become a part of the leading edge of evolution, the leading edge of love.

I disagree with pretty much everything said so far except @NoSelfSelf. When you are dating someone, the key difference between them and anyone else is that they are a person you have sexual interactions with (as long as we're talking about monogamy). Sex isn't related to love, not true, unconditional love. You can unconditionally love someone and have sex with them, or unconditionally love someone and not have sex with them. Sex is a healthy aspect of life, and even healthier when expressed with someone you love unconditionally. But if you aren't sexually attracted to someone, why would you try to continue a sexual relationship with them? It makes absolutely no sense. Just because you don't want to have sex with someone doesn't mean you love them any less. If you truly love each other, and want to be in each other's lives, then you can still do so in a nonsexual way. You can both satisfy your sexual needs with other people. To be authentic and true to yourself you must. If she can't handle you being in her life without having sex with her, that's emotional blockages she needs to deal with, and it's not your responsibility.

Meditating for 30 to 60 minutes a day at a certain point will only maintain your current state of awareness. Like a sort of maintenance to keep you operating at the same level. What you need to do is set a couple weekends aside and meditate for several hours a day. That's how you'll actually make real progress, or nonprogress. This is the sort of intensity you will need to move into the different stages of Samadhi, and eventually into enlightenment. If you do this for 2 days straight, several hours a day, absolutely determined to find out the Truth of reality, there's a good chance you will enter Samadhi. The first goal should be to reach Nirvikalpa Samadhi, which is just resting in the space before any thought arises. If you reach this state on the weekend, just meditate for 30 to 60 minutes a day on the weekday to maintain your degree of awareness. Then when the next weekend comes around you will easily enter Nirvikalpa Samadhi again. When the next weekend comes, spend the time to get back to Nirvikalpa Samadhi. If you spend several hours a day for a couple days in Nirvikalpa, then it will be much more likely you'll enter Sahaja Samadhi. All that is, is maintaining Nirvikalpa Samadhi all day. This will become effortless the more weekends you devote several hours a day to Nirvikalpa Samadhi. If you reach this point and still need advice, just message me. But trust me, if you're thinking it won't be worth giving up a few weekends to attain Sahaja Samadhi, you'd be terribly mistaken. You've never experienced that level of peace in your entire life.

Everything is perfect on the Absolute level. But as far as the whole reason this existence was created in the first place, a perfect human being is one who perfectly radiates unconditional love. That's how unity occurs.

Do what you can in the moment, don't worry about what is out of your control.

Hemi-Sync has the most effective binaural technology, worth looking into. There are also crystals that specifically aid in Astral projection, crystalvaults.com has a relatively accurate encyclopedia of crystals and their uses.

This is only part of the story. Realizing Absolute Truth, that all is one, is just the first step. Individuality has purpose, and that purpose becomes more clear the farther you move beyond Absolute Truth. Individuality is important all the way up to the highest level. It wouldn't exist otherwise, because God deals in perfection. It would also be more helpful for unenlightened beings to note that enlightenment is the act of waking up to one's Divine nature. People who still haven't experienced this shouldn't be referred to as enlightened, it only breeds confusion.

When you realize the sound of a song coming through the speakers is being experienced at the speakers and in between the speakers. Mind = blown

This is all that really needed to be said. The rest of the topic has been nondual masturbation. It takes individuals decades to achieve these higher states of being/consciousness because the ego of teachers complicates the path to resting in one's true nature. The desire to grow, the desire to heal, the desire to know Truth, all of that is love. Surrender to love, give up your egoic desires. When you completely surrender to love, you'll find that place that lies before every thought, and be able to rest there. Rest in your true nature. If you do that, you will effortlessly soar into the elevated consciousness that's alluded to in these traditions. Energetic blockages will fall away to let the Light shine perfectly through you. Stop complicating this, it's so simple. Recognize as an individual aspect of God, you don't know anything. It's ok, just let go. You're loved, and love has been waiting to catch you your entire life. Ken Wilber and Andrew Cohen eloquently explain love here. This song encapsulates Truth, it tells you everything you need to know.

I've been in seclusion for some time now, working on myself spiritually and emotionally. After some reflection and contemplation I've decided I want to dedicate my life to helping others heal through sound: music, Tibetan singing bowls, tuning forks, etc. I currently have no interest in dating. I haven't the time or energy at this point in my life, nor am I ready emotionally. I've started reaching back out to friends to rekindle relationships, with the intention of helping them heal through my presence and through different techniques when they're ready. But even with just starting to reach out, I'm already noticing sexual desire starting to flare up. I could be talking to a friend with very clear intentions of loving them through action, residing in a place of selflessness, when all of a sudden sexual desire rears it's head and begins mixing with my intentions. I notice it, tried to remain objective about it, but it's there. And at that point I feel like I have three choices: Suppress it. Act on it. Be extremely mindful of it and take great care to not let it cloud my intention. I'm just wondering, what if anything is to be done about this? I don't want to suppress emotion, and I don't want to act on it to then pollute the possibilities of our relationship, and remaining hypervigilant to keep my intentions clear is honestly exhausting. Do any of you have methods of managing lust that doesn't move to suppress it? In the Yogic Sutras they give a method of cultivating an attitude of disgust towards human flesh, so as to make one completely disinterested in sexuality completely; but this doesn't resonate with me at all and sounds unhealthy. I removed porn and masturbation from my life, but even that remains difficult to maintain especially with this new influx of lust not being satiated. And this isn't all to say I'll remain celebit for life, that is highly unlikely. Maybe I will find a person I connect deeply enough with that I want to initiate that kind of relationship. I just want to make sure my heart is in the right place when I'm interacting with other.

I thought I'd give an update: After some more experience in helping other heal, and through contemplation/intuition, I've found that this desire to help other is Pure Unconditional Love. It's selfless desire to lift them up. And because I have such a high sex drive I thought it would cloud my intentions, or push other away. What I've found is that if a person shows interest in exploring sexuality, I can express that desire without it affecting the love I have for them. I've actually found being inauthentic or not doing enough meditation has hindered my love (weakening my connection to the Divine), not lust like I assumed. For me, waiting until it is clear to me that it's something other is interested sets up a healthy barrier for lust, and keeps me from pushing other away who otherwise was open to healing. In this way, I will stay have plenty of opportunity to satiate lust while doing so in a healthy way. This I think, is the balance I was looking for.

This happens to me all day. The more sensitive you are the more you can pick up on the energy coming your way. It's similar to why you can tell someone walked in the room behind you even if you didn't hear or see anything to alert you to their presence. Except in this situation, or whenever someone is close to you, they are walking into your energetic field which extends on average 8 to 12 feet out from your body. You'll pick up on that on an energetic level, most people do. Noticing someone projecting energy at you from a distance is more subtle but alot of people do notice this. Intuition plays a part here.

This music is relaxing Turquoise music/mantras. Being Highly Sensitive it is very calming for me, so if you are too it might be the same.

When someone is being absolutely authentic, they might be kind and humble, or they might be assertive and proud, or intolerant and aloof. Being authentic doesn't mean being a saint.

I recommend getting a really small piece. My intuition says I'm not even ready for any piece of Moldavite yet, and that I need to adjust to the crystals I have first. I think you can find a small piece for 10-20 USD

I thought it was woo woo too. And the deeper I get into spirituality, the more I find that most of what I thought was woo woo was just me being overly skeptical and not open to what was right in front of me. If you're skeptical, look into getting a piece of Moldavite. If anything is likely to make you feel something, it's that. A lot of people can't even hold on to it or keep it near them for any lengthy amount of time.