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@PurpleTree Travel the world, gain new perspectives, move to the USA, do fun stuff, dunno

@Nahm Not obsessed about being a millionaire or anything, I just want to quit an everyday job and become financially independent and gain true freedom, that's all.

@neutralempty Mate, you don't know me, I'm working 24/7, doing everything, like perfection-type-beat, not slacking off, putting all my heart every day, it's just after all of that struggle it's still not really worth a penny imo. If you would see one day of my life you would say that I'm a robot or something. @Nahm Right now I don't really see an alternative, to pursue my dreams I need tons of money, to make it I gotta hustle @PurpleTree These type of things doesn't really move me, I tried, I forced myself, I'm just not that kind of a person I am talking a walk everyday, I got a cat recently, I know it's all human things, but I just do them (like meeting with people and stuff I mentioned) to feel better and be more productive, as it's part of our nature.

@Michael569 What's macho about being real? @Breakingthewall I'm always looking inside first because the outside is the reflection, I know. I have to either move out from Poland or find really valuable people here. @neutralempty Not sure if I'm bullshitting, it's all true, yet, I know I might be just looking for excuses. @aurum I don't think it's a belief, it's truth @lmfao Because that's my overall state of being right now

@Michael569 Dude, don't know, let's be fucking real, there is nothing that "makes you cry", life is not a fairytale

@Preety_India Don't know, I'm an "old soul", if you believe in that type of stuff, I don't give a damn about petty things, but I would not say I'm mature, I'm a silly, goofy dude in general. I troll all the times not to get bored with life. About everyday life - I don't know, I'm pretty excited about out of the ordinary world stuff, signs from universe, synchronicities, basically when life becomes a little bit more psychedelic then normal, spiritual awakening was huge for me, I will never forget that shit. I also experienced telepathy and clairvoyence, that was pretty fucking awesome. Not really sure what's lacking - I would say people, that are hyped with all of this stuff, not society bullshit. People in Poland are still living in 2000s lol. About love - don't know, never been in love, I think it's just chemistry and a person to impress me really would have to be freaking awesome, never met person like that in my life, not to mention a hot chick. I don't want to slow down, I wasted tons of time, because of tens of traumas that I am not even guilty for, no father, narcissistic mother, fucked up growing up environment, I just left a fucking cage just to find out that zoo is full of shit and I want to get out of zoo right now, USA is my dream, but to leave Poland and move there I have to get six figures company, so I am working on that right now. @Megan Alecia Not sure, i would say it's a mix of INTP INTJ and INFJ. 5w4 enneagram

Yeah, that's pretty obvious, just this one is pretty personal, esoteric, out of this world post. Still - thank you

Why did you quote me on that? Don't get it

I did tons of work, I'm a motherfucking beast and great human being, to be honest. Not bragging here or something, not to prove you "Hey, I'm top 5%", whatever. That's not what this post is going to be about. Maybe it's just human nature, just how things are, but I'm pissed, that there are moments in my life when I don't do the things that I should be doing when I don't find the motivation when I lose the battle with myself. But I can't find motivation big enough to ALWAYS convience me to do these things, that I know, I should be doing. Maybe it's just a myth and these successful people are not grinding every day, they lose focus, they do not stick to their daily disciplines and it's just a show for people to show them - Hey dude, you're not there yet, keep moving, keep grinding, you can get there! I have no idea how you can become a person that is just disciplined and true to her purpose all the time. Not falling of the track, doing the things that should be doing every single day. Like what the hell? !

@Chimera there is a video by leo called "ego stages" or something it's not like you become selfless and just give and be loving without boundries, that's just being a bitch your ego has to get that first and why it also serves it's needs, there are levels, that you have to go throught to exhaust your ego to reach another one and another one, repeat until infinity

Can anyone explain, how in their perception this whole thing might work? When you die, you look for another life to be conscious of? How the transition might work? According to the reincarnation theory you get to another "level", higher soul, but how would that look in practice?

@UDT I'm 100% what? Build what?

@Strangeloop get a dude friend - company get a hooker - sex get a maid - domestic needs never met a girl that would inspire me in my entire life (like intelligence, beauty, interests, etc - wise) not even kidding, are there any worthwile girls to chase after? no direct exeprience of that in 30 years, and I lived in like 10 cities and worked in like 20 jobs, where do you want me to look, on a fucking moon?

@Muhammad Jawad Transition. Start slowly, keep doing what you do and find ways to get some money on the side with something that is less "painful". Also, do what you love in the process. When you'll do enough money with the thing in the middle, you'll start to transition to that, and your passion job will become your secondary, you get it. I would recommend to gain as much income sources as possible, one is too close to zero. Also doing many things at time will keep you busy all day, teach discipline, willpower, work ethics, etc. Good luck

Just train man, training is so underrated Telling you, it's gonna cure all of your problems, not kidding

@Origins Yeah, playing life is really cool and leveling up is fun as fuck. We'll see, there are some old habits of mine, that still stick with me, I'm not forcing anything, just stopping immediately always ended up bringning diminishing returns. As I let go of this perfectionism they slowly devolve / become more healthy. Cool answer btw

@Heart of Space My life is at the point, where I'm basically working, eating, exercising, and sleeping, so I am sure that playing video games is just something I can allow myself for like 1 hour a day. That topic was created, when I wasn't that honest with myself and I used it as an escape mechanism

@HP Lovecraft Of course it's fucking awesome, althought, the video game industries are mostly devil right now and it's really easy to get addicted to that shit. Requires a lot of self-discipline and will power.

@Shiva99 So, there is one thing I learned, there are two types of motivation - inspiration, and desperation. You can do a lot of "good things", but they will come out of fear, aka desperation. The more you force the more desperate, insecure, insert whatever you want here you are. It's not that one day you will do all of your daily activities out of joy, inspiration and you will be naturally motivated to do them, fuck no. It's against human nature. But once you'll stop forcing things, "just to be accepted", "to be liked", "so that people see your value" you will become more of your true self. Then and only then you will get validation, respect, etc. It's counterintuitive, but that's how it works: imagine Cristiano Ronaldo starting a football game and forcing himself to run as fast as he can in the first 10 minutes of the game, just to show how strong and fast he is. We would become exhausted really soon, everyone could see that he is acting fake and just wants to prove something. That's exactly how your coworkers and boss see you. Just be yourself, fuck what people think, and do your best. Improve yourself in the meantime, but when you are at work and with people, just let go and don't start a shitshow. Good luck.

Hey, so currently, the YouTube algorithm is recommending me videos about heart chakra opening, situations in my life also are aligning to that, not saying that it have to be to and always is a thing and YouTube is a God's algorithm or anything, but all of that sounds really interesting. I went through dark night of the soul event and kundalini awakening seems to be part of the whole process that I think is coming my way. But first of all - I don't get all of that stuff, I have no idea what all of that means and I'm a more practical and rational person and would love to know, how that looks like in real life and if any of you know, how can I speed up the whole process. Apparently, I've been depressed for most of my life, I became aware of that not that long ago before I thought that it's just how life is. It is not any better right now. Nowadays I have moments when I feel like - "What the fuck my life even is and was? Such a fucking waste, garbage life that I can just put into the toilet". Please do not empathize with me or give me warm hug comments, I really want to get my shit together and make some significant change in my life, something that will last. Because right now it's going up and down, I reach some point, and depression kicks in to take me down again. I can't live like that anymore.

You can sense that, just from reading my posts?

@EmptyVase There are a lot of ways ego is playing tricks on you. Being arrogant, stubborn, lazy, but also pushing too much, showing off. It's really subtle and you can sense it by observing your inner chatter - is it gentle, rational, and kind or rather it is somehow marked by emotions. I would suggest using journaling to determine that for sure. There are really a lot of things you have to be conscious of, like - being radically honest with yourself, having enough self-consciousness, etc. You can pm me if you'll have any particular questions.

@Quantum Toad Yeah, it's exactly like that, I'm really happy that it's happening right now, I'm sure it's gonna bring great things into my life. @Chakra Lion Is there anything you think I should do in order to speed up the process? I felt an intuition to buy a maca root supplement, that might be silly, but I always thought that Kundalini energy is just your mojo, libido, whatever you wanna call it and I heard that maca helps with boosting that. Big dick energy

@Shmurda Nah man, I know what happened to me, how my vibrational state of whole body changed, how my environment, people, attitude, mindset, everything shifted more in one year than in 10 years of work before that. It's not something you can delude yourself with, it was crazy as fuck, scary and schizophrenic, but right now, after all of these experiences and integrating insights I know exactly what happened to me. Shadow integration, dark night experience, chakras opening, all of that at once. I'm pretty much a new person right now.

It's a long story, I was somehow connected to my twin flame, energetically. Her orgasm with the other dude opened my solar plexus chakra and awakened me from a nap during the day. Then the whole dark night event started, my body vibration changed fast as fuck and my confidence and masculine aspects skyrocketed. Tons of stuff happened. About heart and what is happening right now - Universe is giving me subtle signs, in people I meet, in conversations I have with them, there are too many coincidences to call them that way anymore.