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I used to daydream as a child what it would be like if gravity would "flip vertically". I would imagine myself walking on the roof going to the front door and looking down only to see the sky and the clouds and the sun. And looking up there would be a roof made out of ground stuff, with buildings hanging from the roof like beehives(because they would magically still be there). I on the other had, would "obviously" fall into outer space if i ever stepped outside. Note: this is not a picture taken by me

Thanks! That cleared it all up! Stay tuned for more questions.

I can't even imagine how to conjure up a belief in any of this psychic stuff. I begin to yawn when i hear or read about psychic powers or magic or demons or angels or horoscopes or stuff like that. It works for me in videogames and movies but that's it. Life must be so different when there's all that stuff going on.

Tell me something, give me an answer that will satisfy me! What will happen after death? What is reality? Who am i? What is this? Where do babies come from? Endless, endless stream of questions and answers.

I've noticed that when i'm alone at home i tend to think "oh i'm so crap at social situations". But when i actually go out to socialize, everything works fine. I make jokes, they make jokes, we laugh. It's easy, there's nothing to it. Somehow my theory of myself and my "practice of myself" (if i can call it that) don't meet.

I like this. If i'm typing this, i'm typing this. I can't prevent myself from typing this sentence. This sentence happened. Testing, testing.

There is no yoy!

All of this just feels like a mystery. Whether it is the so called "sound" of a so-called "dishwasher", or the so-called "human's" so called "Search" for so-called "enlightenment". The contrast between nothingness and somethingness. I can safely say i can never know what enlightenment is or whether i have reached it or not. I mean, i could be enlightened already but wouldn't know it because i cannot see what they mean by enlightenment. All i got in the end are descriptions and stories from other people.

Life is so easy, a baby could do it.

I've read books/watched videos about "ego death" and "consciousness" and "awareness" and "enlightenment" and "liberation" and "nonduality" and started to have ideas what it could be what it was i was looking for. I tried meditation and self inquiry and pointing at my face with my finger and trying to see who was looking at it and now it seems like i was just making muscles tense and making up a story about it called "finding nonduality" or "if i do this maybe i'll awaken" or whatever. I also did mushrooms and lots of weed and looking back at it now, i believed that being high = awakening. hahahahahaha Before this obsession started, those words would sound to me like some angel healing crystal nonsense. Now they are back to sounding like nonsense. Good luck with your endevours!

I don't know what it really means but i used to joke that a friend of mine sold his soul when he changed his beliefs and values to match his new girlfriend's beliefs and values.

I've noticed that all my efforts and mental gymnastics to find awareness or to see its' nature actually are illusory and are not really doing anything. All of the struggle is constantly always seen from the only "place" it can be seen from. What a relief. I could go stand on a tall building and yell at awareness "what's your true nature?!" i would get no answer and the cops might come.

I'm viewing this from nonexistence and yet here i am typing this. I imagine everyone else is too. I hope the gif isn't too flashy.

My wife sometimes talks in her sleep it seems like the words come out of nothing or out of a tape recorder. I laugh at her and ask her questions and get replies. While doing so, i get this sense that my words are also coming from nowhere. It's like My eyes and ears are closed and open at The same Time. ?

I was trying to understand what is this enlightenment and how can i reach it without realizing that i myself had tricked myself into thinking that there is such a thing i need to reach. I cannot compare my current experience to anyone else's. Any state i'm currently in is The only possible state i can be in. I was asking myself who am i what is this but i could've said to myself "i'm a bucket" and it would've had the same impact ???

The day will probably come when Leo himself sobers up and realizes that he's been fooling himself into thinking that there is in fact such a thing as enlightenment or awakening (except after sleeping). Who knows

I'd say just be honest with yourself/your own experience and be yourself(whatever that means). I mean even if you are pretending to be someone else you are yourself pretending to be someone else. Whatever comes naturally and isn't forced. If "club sluts" are something you like, go for it. I think it isn't helpful to view some people as "low consciousness". It affects the attitude one has towards people and isn't that what's called "being full of yourself"?

@ZenBlue hahaha their shirts resonate with my high self

This relates to nothing mattering. I had some sort of realization of this when i was a teenager. I was in tears of joy and sadness simultaneously.

I was just making stuff up not really expecting help @SoonHei I like how Jesus has a crucifix hanging from his neck. The dr. phil cyborg video is very pleasing to us.

It's all for me! I'm here I was just manifesting some illusory footsteps with my nonexistent dog inside the outside world and i saw an apparent full moon in the apparent sky. I could just say anything i like

If it's about being very old and not quoting other teachers, i think i haven't heard from anyone that met this criteria. In my opinion it's better if you are young when you stop searching. Even better if you don't even start.

In my experience, experience is always unfolding in this mysterious pure subjectivity whether it is noticed or not. I can't imagine how it could be any other way. I could scream, jump around, yell, think, dance, meditate, get drunk or tell any story about it and none of that would affect the knowing of it. I can't not be aware of everything that i can be aware of.

Yes i'm aware of that. I just can't imagine a reason for making a video and calling everyone watching it unconscious or ignorant or whatever.