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A must read. The chapters on the noble eightfold path are pure gold! Wish I could write one paragraph from the book but that would be violating the rules.

I woke up the other day and realized I can't precisely find the preset moment. If I clap my hands right now I still have a sense of something happening before the clap happens. When does the preset moment end? I can't find the precise end point of the present moment either. Shouldn't I be able to locate these two points? Memories feel like they are something seperate from this and untrue in a sense.

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So yesterday I was contemplating something that I never gave much thought about before, it came up several times in mind as I was driving. When I checked the new video last night it was on the same subject, collective ego. I got that strange feeling. Probably the first time I ever experienced a synchronicity on that level.

This is a short audio book on YouTube and has nothing to do with Jesus. Looking into antinatalism let me to this book. It pretty much points out how we do every thing to distract ourselves from the truth of suffering and death.

I voted no but 20 years I had an awaking experience on mushroom even though I've had lower and higher doses around that time trying to replicate the experience it never happened again. I'm sure it led me to where I'm at today but I don't feel the need to try and go back there. I'm very grateful it happened. On a side note another time on mushrooms I experienced telepathy with one of my friends who took the same dose as me at the same time. Don't know if anyone here has experienced that but it was quite interesting.

Part of meditation is the pain.

I pick the body farm. I want to rot naturally on top of the dirt.

How about a video talking about the double slit experiment and the delayed choice quantum eraser experiment. Could be an awesome part 3 to quantum mechanics debunks materialism. There are loads of videos on the topic already but I think Leo could add some clarity that others lack.

https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/locations/directory

He's pointing out how quantum mechanics shows we don't live in a material universe. Watch some double slit experiment videos on YouTube.

Here is a video by Shinzen Young where he talks about the topic. He used to feel uncomfortable around people but that changed once he became enlightened.

What do you think killing yourself is going to accomplish? You'll become the tao? You'll give your friends and family sadness that's it.

There is a slim chance LSD can trigger schizophrenia. One of my friends triggered an early onset of schizophrenia when he was about 20 from doing LSD to much. He ended up committing suicide a few years later.

Yes the metta meditation probably makes a big difference. I felt detached as in detached from my body for 4 days or so. I've been reading it can happen to some people from to much mindful meditation. I felt I was on the edge of depersonalization syndrome.

I've had some of the things you are talking about recently and decided to stop meditating for a week because I was feeling too detached in an uncomfortable way. Just curious if your feeling extremely detached in normal life? I didn't have the visions like your saying but almost all the other things. Body going away, pressure between eyes etc. All the hallucinations are known as "spiritual purification"

I've never had sleep paralysis before. Three nights ago the stuff started happening in about three minutes after starting. I'm very awake when it happens. I've been reading some books by the Dalai Lama and read for an hour before I meditate and I can feel this gets me deeper into the meditation right away. Last night from being on this forum I didn't read any before meditating and didn't go very deep. No hallucinations happened.

I have a vipassana 10 day meditation coming up in June and decided to start meditating 1-2 hous a day. I've been getting intense hallucinations every time lately. Will these hallucinations ever stop or is this a permanent part of meditation now? I try to remain calm but it's difficult still. Getting better each time though.

Yes it's creepy because it feels 100 percent real! First time it happened it felt like a spider dropped down on my head slowly crawled down on my eye lid then slowly crawled back up on my hair. That time I didn't even know it was a hallucination. I thought there was a spider there for real but the motion of it's legs was kind of exaggerated.

I had an awakening experience back in 2002 on mushrooms. Had the deep sense I was god and created the whole thing. I could go for another one of those but it was a tough experience for sure, experienced things I didn't know were humanly possible to experience. Pretty sure the crazy effects I get from meditation are unavoidable at this point unless they run their course and stop. Maybe the hallucinations are caused by the strict determination sitting I do acting almost like a sensory deprivation chamber. Interestingly after my meditation last night I had a dream I was in a gas station store and a giant dog was in there. I wasn't sure if it was going to attack or play. It lunged at me and I remained calm. Then it started biting my hand in a playful but painful way and I thought to myself this is a test of equanimity. I was able to remain mostly calm but not 100 percent. I pulled back slightly but gave up after a second and accepted it. It released it's grip and ran out the door.

https://upliftconnect.com/the-dark-side-of-meditation/ check this out

I do workout 5 days a week

I suppose the hallucinations are just a part of spiritual purification. I'm listening to Leo's dark side of meditation video right now again. Haven't watched it in a while. The night my body and hearing started fading out I think I was on the verge on an ego death because a real death felt like it was about to happen and I got up and broke the meditation. Next time that happens I'm going to try and sit it out.

I hit send by accident. Also loss of a sense of body, hearing fading out, sinking into the floor, vibrations/electricity going threw hands and body.

Bugs running comically fast on my skin, body and skin getting really hot, sensation of being pulled out of my body,