Preety_India

Romantic songs help a shit ton.

I'm resistant to therapy because I don't like opening up to therapists. So I'm figuring out my own ways. So far 4 things have helped Music.... Big time Sexual therapy..... For sexual compulsivity Caffeine... People with bpd should try caffeine. The emotions are clearer on caffeine and more fluid/lucid. Next week - will try LSD

I don't want to deal with people anymore. They only hurt me.

A good metaphorical example of how BPD feels like. I'm usually screaming inside like.... LEAVE ME ALONE, LEAVE ME ALONE. The closer someone comes to me the more I feel like screaming "leave me alone."

Vision I want to be a writer. Goals Solving problems and issues Facing challenges(current and future) Learning new skills and things Spirituality Psychology and philosophy and implementing those in life Health goals Empowerment Learning to keep toxic people out of my life Creating love in my life Living a good life Reconciling with my mom Helping my siblings Helping people

Pete Davidson has BPD. I had no idea. I could relate so much to what he said. It kinda hit home.

I swear the only reason I stayed in abusive relationships was because I felt so guilty whenever I felt like leaving. I'm glad and grateful for all the recent changes in my life Anyone who loves me deeply and cares about me deeply should hold me tightly and hug me tightly and tell me that they aren't hurt by me. That's all I would want from my loved ones. I feel like slamming my wrist on the wall.. I just can't take this gaslighting. I'm breaking down. I'm tired of being called the BAD GUY when I'm just a FUCKING INTROVERT WHO DOESN'T WANT TO BE HURT. I JUST WANT TO BE Understood AND NOT SHAMED. I SWEAR PEOPLE KEEP RAMMING INTO MY WOUNDS AND THEN PRETEND TO BE INNOCENT. IT'S TIRING. IF YOU THINK I'M A BAD PERSON THEN LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE I DON'T HAVE TO DESTROY MYSELF JUST BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T LIKE ME.

@Proserpina exactly. I'm sorry for your experience. Hugs you back. You're a beautiful person and I need wonderful people like you in my life. It helps my energy. Thank you for creating a supportive environment for me. It means a lot. I usually act normal in supportive environments.

I'm not stalking anyone. I'm tired of being called a stalker. I just wish to be left alone in peace to work in my journals. That's all I want. I'm feeling distressed because of these meaningless accusations. I feel paranoid. They want something against me. I'm not stalking this dude. I have no intention to stalk anyone. I can write about a dragon. I can write about anything, whatever I want. If they misinterpreted my writing, it's not my fault. They take personally whatever I write and then call me stalker. It's unfair. They have no evidence of stalking. Next time they should provide evidence. Not past stuff. Done venting. Please support me whenever someone calls me stalker. I Generally keep to myself. People know me.

@Knowledge Hoarder the mod is telling us that there should be mutual blocking. Don't you think that it's absurd that someone says that they have blocked but they continue to talk about you So what was the point of blocking then, why did they block?

@Carl-Richard explain me this thing that shouldn't blocking mean that the person no longer talks about you? Or they keep running their mouth forever and then admit that they have blocked. This is looking funny. Can you explain me the objective of blocking here?

If you have me on block then it's disingenuous to continue to talk about stalking which is basically directed at me. Blocking does not mean that you get to block a person and still get to talk about them. That's not the objective of blocking. I think blocking should also include no gossip about the person who is blocked. Or do you still get to talk to the whole forum demonizing me and then say I am blocked. Huh????? @Carl-Richard

Exactly she gossips like a coward behind people's back. Acts innocent on the front. Starts shit of her own accord. Attacks everyone on their journals but cannot take it when she is attacked. Says everything contradictory. Says she doesn't want drama in her journals and that she is so busy with her life. So she is so busy that she finds time for gossip? And gossip is such a trash activity tbh. This is not like some low level neighborhood. This stuff happens in trailer park lol This is what she wrote in her journal. So she purposely throws herself directly into people's conflicts, writes in big bold letters. Completely demonizes a person's character and sense of self worth, parades that person around the forum, harasses them non stop and when she is called out on her endless non stop bitchiness, she acts high and mighty and goes back to her journal, and then says how she doesn't want drama and how she is busy and valuable are her contributions blah blah blah blah... She is the reason why I did not talk on the forum for 2 full years. Because she threatened me so badly. I was severely traumatized by this woman's attacks. She has harassed me on this forum for almost 4 years now. Someone who is accusing me of stalking should probably look in the mirror. She harassed the user Modmyth for almost a full year. And Modmyth talked about it to me. We even approached Nahm about it. This woman had an account called @Keyhole on this forum. Before that she had the account @Annetta which was banned/removed. She told me that she had close to 17 warming points on her @Keyhole account. She had been accumulating warning points for harassing people. Then she didn't want to be banned. Then she approached the guy Gesundheit (who was also previously banned and this is his second account) and he helped her to create the account Loba. She herself told me all this. Because of her a user left the forum multiple times, I won't take their name, but she used to harass him in the journals. She has the longest history of harassing people and then going quietly into her journals and starts victim narrative. Nobody told her to do this. She herself engaged in gossip, decided to jump right into the conflict, the guy did not even want any action, she did this all on her own. But when called out, she will pretend she was never interested.

I wasn't paranoid about you. You were gossiping about me. So I wasn't off the mark. Maybe mods need to check your pms. Or you have deleted those pms. I was freaking out for the right reasons because you gossip about people and then come around and attack them in their journals. How about admitting your pathetic gossiping behaviour on others personal lives. Gossip hurts. Others life is none of your business Madam

I wouldn't even care to defend myself honestly, if there was at least a modicum of respect. But here I am.... against my wish. I just wish love from the bottom of my heart. Nothing more nothing less.

Thank you so much @Aleister Crowleyy to be honest I'm the coolest person you know. If I don't get along with someone I let them have their way. I even talked to people who have repeatedly fought with me. These people even called for my ban, not once but several times. Even then I accepted them back. I'm all for fun and joking about things. But some people either say hurtful personal things as a joke and on the other hand there are people who just won't let go like people on this thread, who want to pick on something about me and keep repeating it forever like a broken record till I'm driven insane. At some point if someone accused you of stalking them and you defended yourself and they keep accusing, I mean you will reach your breaking point defending yourself. This is like someone is accusing you of stealing stuff in a shop when all you did was simply touch the stuff I'm still trying to stay calm under the pressure of these useless accusations. All of this simply because I started a journal with the title Dragon. I don't even know whether I should laugh or cry It's just so annoyingly absurd.