Preety_India

Why do I feel like I can't see men the way I always wanted to. Why have men become so weak?

I'm the goddess you need to pray to. I'm the river you need to drink from. I'm your savior in trouble. I'm your pillow at night. I'm your queen, your princess, I'm your feminine shadow you've punished and demonized and Denigrated. I will worship you. With my gentle touch I'll bring you back to life. With my innocence I will mend your hard edges. With my sweetness I'll smoothen your roughness. With my Purity I'll drown out your dissonance. With my playfulness I'll take away your sorrow. You call me a Narcissist. But even a narcissist is capable of loving.

Don't kid yourself. A girl doesn't need to go that far to impress you. I'm on my own. I don't need men to make me feel full. I can be on my own, thank you very much. But somehow P is different. Not like other men. He is super protective of me. He talks to me in a certain way. You think a woman would take you back or even like you, once you have clearly shown that you don't give 2 shits about how she feels. Omfg. Are you serious? No way. Once you've broken the man code, there's no going back. It's over. And for a woman like me (who is emotional and sensitive, but might give off the impression that I'm cold and distant and unemotional) it's next to impossible to come back to me or win me over once again (never happened, never will). I call it the man code. So what's the man code in my head. Man code imo = man protects the woman who he claims/claimed to love no matter what. Once you break this code, everything is over already. I'm attracted to dominating guys. I'm attracted to cocky guys. They sell a perfume for that. But I'm not attracted to fucking uncaring guys. They are carefully marked off the list. In fact they don't even make it to the list. You're an uncaring person and I could care less. Plus..... You got a stick up your ass. I don't like guys like that. I like men who are a subtle balance of both Domination and protection. Who got balls to say that they really want me. I am a feminine woman who wishes to be treated gently. I don't wish to be dragged and made fun of. No thanks. I can pass that. You never cared to begin with. You only cared about yourself. Never me. I never figured in any of your equations. Who cares. I never felt loved. Because I was never made to feel loved. You discarded me like trash. That's why I moved on. I bear resentment too. It's just that I don't like it to turn into some public fuss. I have my limits and my boundaries. And one of those that I don't talk shit. My silence is not a proof of guilt. My silence is my grace. I just keep myself away from talking shit. I'm a special girl. And I'll always be a special girl. I'm like a beautiful bird. I swear. I feel like a beautiful bird all the time. My wings and delicate feathers will protect you from all the harm in the world. I will lick your wounds. I will heal your sorrow. Although I'm still a narcissistic idiot. At least I'm sweet.

You're the guy of my life. The ultimate man for me. The one I fell in love with. The one meant for me. We're so into each other. You're skinny, tall and not too tall hehe. Just the right type.. And appearances don't mean shit. I don't even care how you look to be honest. But I have fallen madly in love with you. We would make such a sweet couple. I'm in love with you. I could shower all of my love all over you and still never get tired.

I can't live without you anymore. I love you. Forever and more. You are always sitting close to me telling me all these lovely things. You are always telling me how much you love me. I like to sit in the dark with you In your apartment. On a rugged mattress.. We just chatting away the evenings. You come home from work and I always wait for you.

P, I just wanna be with you. Drunk in your love. There are two things I like on you. Your lips. Because they are so so so sweet. When you kiss me, I feel them. Velvety feel.. Don't smoke. And I like your neck. Because... Hehe....I feel like your neck is cute. I want to tickle you there. Once you told me that I should be leaving you some hickeys on there. I get so emotional every time you talk about hickeys. And I jokingly said it's something only men do to women and not the other way around. Me want them hickeys.....too. Your passion is irresistible.. You're my shooting star, the light in my eyes and the one that makes my heart tickle.

Last night you implied that I was going to kill you. Telling me that I should place a knife on your neck and that it would be easier that way for me to take you out is probably the worst thing you said to me and the most hurtful. You better apologize right now or else I'll carry this pain to my grave. I can't take it. It's torture. It's torture what you said. Your words could kill me if not your knives or guns. No I'm not afraid to die at your hands so don't tell me how powerful you are. I don't care about it, you can keep boasting about your powers. It wont matter even if you wanted to kill me, I'd rather die that way than any other. At least the satisfaction that I died at your hands in your arms. But don't you ever. Don't you ever ever ever say that again. Don't you ever say that I should place a knife on your neck. Because it hurts like a dagger, your stupid words. It seems that you are good with words, especially when it comes to hurting me. You're pure torture because you made me feel all this guilt by proxy.

I wanna play with you. Sick games. Mind games. All kind of games. I'm just joking

I romanticize placing a knife on your throat. But I can't kill you even if I wanted to. Because I love you. That place in your throat is where my love flows. I want to touch there. The worst thing is to let your blood pool. Nah. I can't let that happen. I can't watch that. These days I'm actively working on my throat Chakra. Because my love flows through my throat to yours. Why do I feel like in my past birth I slashed your throat? I don't have any marks on my neck though.

To be fair I don't want anyone after whatever I was put through.

I don't feel attacked by him. Only "certain types" who kinda enjoy triggering me. Not everyone is like them now.

@thisintegrated can explain me what's going on instead of going in circles quoting things.

What do you mean?

@thisintegrated why do you talk to me if your only agenda is to mock me? Like fuck off right. Are you going to turn this thread again about me?

Pisces dealing with a Virgo Messages You don't know how hard it was to let you go. We both know that I'm not the one for you. One of us feels like we are meant for each other. The other one might be feeling the opposite. My life is not together as it seems. I feel you're leaving me behind. So somebody here just wasn't right for us. So someone let the other person go.. Possibly. Somebody felt like it just wasn't the right time. They didn't have their shit together like they have made it appear or you didn't. Or somebody feels like the other one leaving them behind. Somebody here may feel like insufficient or unadequate to the other. Laugh... Where the fuck is your sense of humor. Somebody here has a bit uptight energy. Somebody here may need to laugh a little bit.. You need a good cry. Get the ugly cry on and let the shit go. Somebody either needs to cry it out or get out with friends, go laugh. Watch comedy. Try to release some kind of tension. Somebody feeling fearful. Inadequate.. Something to that nature Somebody is seeing you in their dreams. Power card for Pisces - strength card. The Pisces is stepping into their power. Stepping into your strength. (Lmao this is so true. I really feel like I am taking all my power back) Power card for Virgo - Wise Counselor Virgo you're trying to find unity with a spiritually minded community. You might need to ask the divine for help. Trust the answers will come. Show emotion card for both Pisces and Virgo. For Pisces Your are bored and emotionally discontented. The angel on these cards is guiding you to accept self love. You don't have to find love in someone else okay/whatever. Just choose yourself. You don't have to pick an option just so that you have somebody, no, choose yourself. The card reads - you guys failing to recognize the magical opportunity, missing the point, distractions of daily life. Discontentment, boredom, lost in your own world, wake up all right. You're feeling strong and courageous and also holding back from love. Maybe you don't want love right now. You're holding back. But the angels are guiding you to fall in love with an earth sign. Emotions for Virgo You could be dealing with someone who walked away from you. If this person walked away from you maybe they want to come back. Maybe this person wants to come back to you but you are rejecting them.

P lived in Colorado before and has now moved to Texas last week. He has been actively chatting with me since last 3 days. I'm keen to see where this goes.

There isn't much to do anyway. Can you see that? Have you listened to music? Have you tried escaping reality?

Wow this was on point. Just wow Omg this. Transcribing Pisces dealing with Virgo We both know that I'm not the one for you. Pisces - you could be emotionally bored, discontent. Wanting to look at other options but

Hey P. I love you.

This guy so funny

Omg haha

@Shae thank you

This video is so on point. About compatibility between a Virgo and a pisces. My Virgo man P is exactly like this Morning we had a small argument. He complained that I'm too vague and confused him too much. Because I never give a straightforward answer to his questions. So I sent him this video.