Preety_India

Been missing in action. MIA

True wisdom comes with knowledge and knowledge comes from hard work, knowing every minute detail and with maturity, experience and humility.

What's lacking on the outside, try to create it inside.

How to feel more energy throughout the day, any tips would help. I feel very lethargic and exhausted all the time

Today is 2 May 2018 and I guess it's time to start making some real changes after a long time. The entire last week of March was tumultuous and was spent in dealing with a lot of stress like eviction, homelessness searching for a new house, it happened on 22 March, the entire Charles incident and this woman was violent and nuts. Goodness gracious. Got freedom from her. I don't even remember what I did in the first two weeks of April. Maybe I was just fighting with my mom all the time most of the days, it was an awful time, like one ordeal stops and then another starts, felt the same way, the ordeal of 22 March had not even subsided enough that problems of sleeplessness started hogging

My progress is taking place at a very slow speed. Its annoying. Never works out as planned. Decided to take screenshots and pictures of my diary entries in my book. I don't have the patience to type them out.

I see myself having a new beginning

Those are destructive who are Unwise or lack wisdom Lack knowledge Work from a deficient mindset Lack Empathy and Sensitivity Lack Intelligence Do not respect personal space Egotistical and Narcissistic Narrow minded or closed minded Are negative or bring negativity Are hostile Are gullible Stubborn and arrogant Ignorant Bipolar and mentally ill Are Jealous and greedy Evil Are foolish or stupid Unconscious Lacking maturity Vindictive Aggressive and mean Sociopathic Psychopathic

Three divine qualities that cure every problem Courage Empathy, Care and Love Wisdom True knowledge and full knowledge along with experience brings wisdom

There should be an "Energize women" program... For like 3 years.

When you are not shit, you are dealing with shit... When you don't have to deal with shit, you become the shit lol....

I have somehow begun to have some faith in feminism. And turning to it might be a cure to my ills. I mean I know the destructive part of it. But there can be a positive side to it too. I think feminism should be about helping women in distress before they get too desperate. Helping them when they are in trouble and giving them support and resources so that their lives are saved. So she doesn't reach the end of despair.

First work on those things that are workable and then on those that look imaginary or at least infeasible right now. Maybe they can be done later when everything else is settled and done. It's like you are more worried about an advanced degree without even passing the basic or beginner level. People who get too whimsical or grandiose in their ideas about the world like they want to change the world all by themselves and they show like it's all going to happen in a day are just unwise impractical idiots. I call them blubbers and I call all this nonsense blubbery. The world ain't changing that soon so quit it. Quit thinking that you are going to do something historic. You are just having delusions. I remember having those as a teen, what I would call maladaptive day dreaming. A lot of teens do that but we kinda grow out of it and realize that we have to deal with whatever we have at hand first and then see other stuff. First try to get the basic things right. Be on the plane you are. Work from there. No point of jumping on a plane that's impractical or at least infeasible at the moment.

Don't be deprived of anything. The deprivation needs a cure.

Today I want to talk about the concept of deprivation. That we are so deprived of everything that that's the biggest reason why we can't achieve things. We have been deprived physically, emotionally, mentally, intellectually and spiritually. The cure for this is healing. Healing that is physical, mental, emotional, spiritual. I have talked before about deficiency and abundant mindset. Also there is a need to understand that it's not just evil that causes harm but also absence of wisdom giving rise to unconscious behaviors that are toxic, foolish, egotistical, narcissistic, stupid and destructive. That which is toxic, destructive, ignorant, unhealthy is just as damaging as evil. Deficiency mindset is just an example of toxicity. Deprivation is never good.

"what did she do to herself?"

In the following months I need to work on both mental and physical regeneration. This is not going to be easy. When was my life easy! It does seem like an impossible goal. The only thing that will inspire me is beauty. The only thing that motivates me is "work hard, get peace."

My primary goal right now is recovery to my original self, regeneration, reversal and a new beginning to a new life, the kind I wanted. This would need a mountain of effort and some miracle of course. Going back in a decade. No more mistakes or distraction or negligence or interference. Now or never. Fuck that guy. Show him you can live without him and you are not a coward. You didn't lose life. And if you are dead, you weren't a dog, you took it on yourself with bravery . Nothing to fear anymore. Nothing can be worse than life itself not even death. What you fear the most is what you are already living. And the worst that will happen is the least to fear. It's not that you have to fear the worst, but you gotto fear the worse that leads to the worst. You went through a lot, you can still take it, and it's all worth in the end anyway because you are the not loser when you are the taker. There are no losers when you fight. A fighter is not a loser. Losers are those who never fought or never had to...

The sweating and the hot flashes is gone with the Centm. Probably deficiency.

Lack of sleep makes you weak and sensitive. - - - - - - - - - - - - My situation would have been worse if I had been with him. Nothing to lose. So its all good. "don't be a pussy."

You are good and perfect with both your qualities and flaws. Nothing could have been more unique and real than you. Changing for the better and working on the flaws is good but so is embracing and accepting them and realizing that there is no point of crying over spilled milk. Punishing yourself or persecuting yourself for the flaws will not bring anything fruitful but only sadness and frustration.

Settling for a person who is helpless and abusive just because you think you deserve less or because you think you couldn't have found better or because you think you have flaws is a sign of desperation and helplessness and is in no way leading to something better. Desperation is a vicious cycle. When you do something out of desperation you end up being more desperate than before, something like addiction, and the cycle continues ending in despair.

When you try to settle for someone who is directly or indirectly toxic to you, you are asking for trouble.. No matter how much ever you pity yourself or feel like you don't deserve, that toxic person will end up making everything worse for you. If someone is indirectly or subtly toxic, it's even worse because then you have no way of identifying the hidden potential risks of that toxic behavior. Anyone who is passive aggressive is equally toxic and should be put off.