Preety_India

There are a couple of things that I need to totally cut off from my life : People especially toxic, dominating and demanding ones. Bad habits and distractions Junk food Mental and emotional stress.

I need to cut down on the junk food I've been eating.

I will write those factors as distraction factors. Have been talking to friends on the phone. Need to cut down on that..though some video games have kinda improved my brain skills so I feel better.

I spend too much time talking to my mom and on the phone. Need to cut that down. Plus the video game addiction has been causing a lot of distraction. Need to work on that.

Work on heart health.

Work on new concepts everyday. First concept. Second implementation of concepts

Daily Shadow work Questionnaire What did I do today? Studies What are my goals? Daily goals Work on emotional state Exercise Work on health issues Look for additional courses in 6 months by December Work on body, beauty, health, emotions Spirituality Max productivity at work management Learning new skills Following pyramid model Reach max potential Work on total mental health Cut off toxic people Exercise Work on health issues How's the progress? What did I learn today? Have I fallen back on my schedule?... Yes/No How is my emotional state today? What are the mitigating factors? Sabotage? what bad decisions I made today? What are the good choices /decisions I made today? Did the schedule run as planned? What were the hurdles? Any tips or tricks I learned to manage my schedule better? How many hours did I practice meditation today? Did it help? Did I use the pyramid method? What does my psychological profile look like? How did I deal with a tough situation? What principles did I put into practice?

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LOL it's a pet amoeba game available on Google play. Petting amoebas

I should never eat anything containing peanuts lol..

Daily Shadow work Questionnaire What did I do today? What are my goals? How's the progress? What did I learn today? Have I fallen back on my schedule?... Yes/No How is my emotional state today? What are the mitigating factors? Sabotage? what bad decisions I made today? What are the good choices /decisions I made today? Did the schedule run as planned? What were the hurdles? Any tips or tricks I learned to manage my schedule better? How many hours did I practice meditation today? Did it help? Did I use the pyramid method? What does my psychological profile look like? How did I deal with a tough situation? What principles did I put into practice?

I have some stuff on my mind now... The pyramid method Clicker spin game Positivity and limiting desires and un-affectedness Nihilism Balance Letting go and Acceptance Wisdom. Bad decisions and good decisions. Knowing what to do at the moment Having enough motivation and fighting depression Having a proper schedule Daily Psychological Profile Daily Shadow work

Everything is nothing

Depression = emotional deprivation Or lack of love and empathy for self Like a deficieny lol. Both love and empathy cultivate intention, desire and responsibility which becomes the driving force and motivation towards progress and reduces the level of self destructive behavior. I have been self destructive all my life. Distraction helps for a while. But the permanent fix is self motivation and cultivation of emotion and desire

I love this new video game lol

Yesterday I had been thinking about this pyramidal structure of development where you work in everything through stages. The last stage or the tip of the pyramid is perfection. Work through all the stages or layers and build it up. That's the way to go forward until you get too old to do anything. But this is like a life long journey of transformation and it should just go on like that till it reaches a level of contentment and satisfaction. Also along the way is the practice of contentment since this plays a huge role in how we perceive our life and how much it motivates us to live.

Nomh

Tips Be more matured Be more honest and authentic from beginning to end. Stop pretending. You are not only fooling the other person but also yourself Be more giving Understand your own exploitative nature. Do not be too possessive or obsessed. Cut down your domination and bossiness. Be honest and admit mistakes Know that you will always need her in some way Be more open Do not be calculated or calculative Ask what the other person gets from you or what you can really offer Be more loving. Love is not about showering gifts but also about care, time, attention, affection, sharing, understanding, caring and giving. Love is not about testing. Stop testing. Test yourself before you test others. This is a real commitment for life not a one day commitment show. Be prepared for what you are signing up for and be ready for it for the rest of your life otherwise drop it altogether. It's not a child's play. Action speak louder than words. Commitment should be in action and not in words. Be less expressive about it because it can be deceptive if not followed by action. If a person is too gregarious about it, it's most likely deception.. Show your commitment more in action than in words. Brutal honesty is better than zero honesty. If he is brutally honest, it's a good sign he won't cheat or do something drastic. Do not discourage this habit. Less likely to be sly or sneaky. Accept failure. If your ego is too big, it cannot accept failure or inability. Do not guilt trip her into having the lowest expectations out of you just because you can't fulfill them. Blame yourself for the inability instead of using blame and guilt tripping as a weapon to shut someone down or make them feel guilty or wrong. That's manipulation, gaslighting and abusive. Stop guilt tripping, shed the ego and be honest about your limitations and boundaries. Men who are secure, confident, capable, strong do not feel the need to blame and guilt trip. Men who are insecure, weak, incapable feel the need to blame and guilt trip excessively to mask their incapabilities and push the blame so they don't have to feel the guilt or shame.

Premise A does not match premise B Like A has a value you assigned but the value is not even close with minimum deviation but it's too far with maximum deviation. That's why all the conflict. Also all of it is just baiting and gambling with maximum risk and zero payoff. The return on investment is not less or little or minus but zero.. Plus the investment is lost too. What kind of a deal is that...

"You are not ugly, life is ugly."

Ok fine fine fine.. Just relax. It is okay to not have a boyfriend in my life. I know I'm too needy. But it's ok.. The last one was terrible and left me with emotional scars. There is no need to hurry. It's not worth it if it doesn't help. Being with a man only to ruin myself. That's not a good recipe. Next time don't give any false hope to any woman in your life. It was terrible I know. I felt desperate, depressed, suicidal, lonely everything under the sun after that. I didn't deserve it. It was awful. A roller coaster ride of mistakes. But better burned than dead. At least I learned my lesson. Don't depend on a man for affection. I know it's hard. But the deep need is still there. Maybe social conditioning that men are good. But that needs to be scraped off. It's a cruel game. Just like any other. A game of survival. A game of tricks and cutting losses. No point of being with a man who doesn't respect. It's hard I know. Loneliness is a struggle and a tough battle. It makes me an emotional wreck. But better be lonely than betrayed and depressed. That's even worse. I have felt betrayed thrice now. Enough is enough. Enough trying to search for love. Love is a word used to fool women. I wish the word didn't exist. It plays games with your heart. Last week has been an emotional crisis. Going to write a email to my ex. Want to tell him to get lost. He is not a bad person but he didn't do right and there's no forgiveness to play games with an emotionally fragile person. I didn't deserve the pain and the betrayal. The pain needs to end finally. Pull yourself up by the bootstraps. It's time to say "f off" and let go and accept reality that it's harsh for many. But whatever.. There is no point in thinking of what's bad. Bad is gone. Welcome good. I have been depressed and feeling lost since the break up. It's hard to come to terms with it. It was hard to know that my trust was completely broken and the person I trusted never existed. It was traumatic. But I guess this year will be better. And I will look forward not anymore to love though but to other beginnings.. There are much better things if humans can't fulfill the need of love. Love is not the end of the road.

Self entitlement syndrome....... Lol In some cultures too much Narcissism is considered sinful and bad In others it's a thing to wear with pride like a birthright..

Give yourself today some.......... Bliss

Half knowledge is always dangerous. Worse than ignorance.