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Do not be cheap part 2 " I trust the process of life." "Life supports me. " Stay true to yourself. Don't be fake "I flow freely and lovingly with life." "I experience love wherever I go." "life is not over yet. There's still time but the time is precious." Do not wish to be someone else. "how amazing it is to be alive." "if you face challenges with a positive attitude things may not be as hard as you first thought." Do not immerse yourself in misery or dwell on stuff too much. Life is a fast game and the end is coming soon. No time to regret too much. IT'S OK TO FAIL. Be true to your values. Do not give in. Do not worry about consequences. Things will automatically flow to you if you are in control. Therefore don't give into peer pressure and lose yourself. That way things flow against you eventually. "know your own power" "having and stay true to your own opinions" "listening to your inner voice" means your decisions will be right for you and life will flow your way. Save money but don't think too much about money Be generous Everything happens for a reason. Love even your enemies Have a big heart but do not let others take advantage of you I am awake and alive and full of energy. I release any negative or fearful thoughts. I am safe. We are here to enjoy life and the experiences we have. Life cannot be lived by a particular rule or formula. Your life is important. Talk as much as you can about it. Chart your journey and your progress everyday Give up trying to have a perfect day. Life is never perfect and so also no day is ever perfect. "When I embrace myself and treasure who I am then love and respect flows into my life." "I choose to fill my body with nutritious food and treasure my soul." Think Big Don't be around miserable people who think it's ok or not a big deal if you suffer a little more. That's asking for trouble. Think this to yourself "I am meant for something better" just because they are poor and miserable doesn't mean that you have to be one of them. They make think that way about you because they suffer themselves. But you don't have to give in to their validation of how things should be for you. They will obviously not think better about you because they don't care about you. You clearly don't deserve that or them and always remember that you deserve much better than what you have been given in life.

I tell myself regularly to not be cheap. 2_ ways to not be cheap Focus on health first Don't stop trying Give value to yourself the way you are. Do not care about societal expectations of yourself. Embrace your uniqueness Express yourself fully and be honest and upfront and not pretentious Be detached and indifferent from the world. Be a goal setter but don't be too ambitious. Give value to your time Stop giving value to objects. Take care of your self Remember that you are better than you what you think you are Remember that you are important Do not spend your time in frivolous stuff Stay away from anything that is even slightly toxic Cut off people who are annoying, painful or harass or difficult. Be very open and assertive Be matured in your choices Develop healthy habits If you constantly feel like you are not good enough or you wish you could have been this or that or you had something you wish, it's natural to feel that way, but remember that you are not the only one and remember that life is not meant to be living with pity and regrets but with hope and faith towards a better future. Be appreciative of whatever you already have and embrace and accept it and nurture it. Make good out of whatever you got instead of feeling sorry for what you don't. Remember that there's just nothing about something that doesn't exist or lost, but salvage that which you can. Regretting your life is like crying over spoiled milk, the milk is not gonna come back, so what's the point of crying and regretting and feeling deprived or unlucky for not having what others got. It has no benefit other than a momentary feeling of upset and disappointment and sadness. It's like adding insult to injury. Find peace. Constantly reminding yourself of what you can't have is a recipe for adding unhappiness to an already frustrated unhappy mind. One thing is - you never know if others have it better. What if they don't. What If they are tired of their shit and want out. ..you might think they have it better but maybe think don't think same. Often times we hear a celeb commiting suicide and we think it's absurd but it's actually not. You never know what they had to deal with. Therefore don't be quick to judge or don't think everyone has it perfect. In fact most don't. It's just that most people don't tell how they suffer cause they are shy or embarrassed to open up about their struggle...... ..... So if you think you aren't good enough, don't beat yourself, you weren't expected to be, you are already good as you are and frankly if you are constantly thinking that then you are obviously taking life too seriously. Fuck that shit. How does it matter if life turned out bad or good. Competition only exists because you create it. Your create your own thoughts of misery and despair. Yes life can be complicated and painful but we can control how we react, we can definitely choose not to react at all. So it doesn't even matter if things didn't work out. If you did your best, you should be at peace. Remember that nothing in this universe is perfect or free from chaos. Even if anything is perfect its mostly rare. And everything that is perfect doesn't stay perfect forever. That's how time causes everything to finally degrade and disappear. So enjoy it in the hear and now. Beauty lies in experiencing beautiful moments every now and then because these moments once gone are not gonna come back ...... .... Appreciate who you are because you are the product of your circumstances and you are not to be blamed and you are not at fault. You can only do as much good as you can and that's the testimony of how much good you are. Your trials are a witness of your strength and your determination to make it good. Don't be let down by them. Life may not be worth living because there's not much to enjoy but it's definitely worth struggling and fighting for. Don't let it slip by just cuz it doesn't get better. Your effort to better your life will bear fruit one day even though now it looks like an unfulfilled dream.

Don't ruin your time by investing in thinking or caring about what other people think or say to you or about you.

The internet is a good place but also a very bad place, very dangerous and very close. Beware of toxic socialization on the internet.

There are negative and toxic poisons in nature that damage existence. Similarly there are negative toxins in your close environment that you tend to ignore or underestimate. Learn to cut out bs from your life. Keep it as clean as a clean clutter free table.

Just be yourself and just focus on yourself. That makes everything a lot easier.

☂️☂️?Don't ruin your time by investing in thinking or caring about what other people think or say to you or about you. ???

Cdes tsks DLOW DMETHW STMNOS DRKAMLJU Positive engagement is Making task planners Writing on this forum. Or Journaling Playing Facebook game Watching YouTube documentary Doing health tasks Reading books aloud Gave up poker addiction Participating in Facebook groups Upward or downward momentum.

Cdes tsks DLOW DMETHW STMNOS DRKAMLJU Upward or downward momentum.

?? Criticism or self accountability questionnaire ??Are you sleeping No.. Insomnia ??Have you neglected or ignored yourself Yessss a ton ??WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems Not much ??How is your overall health and performance Very bad today 12 July ??What steps have you taken to combat health issues Today wanted to try out some herbs ??Are you too lazy Yes I am. But health issues are a factor. ??Did you give your 100 percent Nope. Not at all. Far from it. ??Are you committed to yourself and your life I am but i haven't done anything to show my commitment. ??Have you been working harder Yes I have. But not up to the mark. ??Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up Not at all. Not even least ??How have you been managing your depression Not well. ??Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life Yes of course. Certainly. But only partially. There are environmental issues and factors. ??Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements Often ??How much are you on the self destructive scale Maybe 6 from 1 to 10..10 being the highest. ??What did you do today to improve your situation. Tried posting positive quotes on Facebook to uplift my spirit and be positive Need to work on the emotion of "despair " "hopelessness" and "helplessness" ??Do you think you have done enough Not at all. There's a mountain of work pending. ??Are you into toxic relationships Yes I was. I still am Need to keep away or set free. ??How are you connections and social support network Very very bad. Almost nil and toxic ??What effort have you put in improving your self esteem Nothing at all. It's downward momentum there ??List 3 things you did to solve the situation Code words used. Codes words stated in messenger. Nothing yet. ??Are you giving too much priority to people Yes a ton. This habit needs to be done away with. ??Are you wasting time Yes a lot. Months to end. Not good. No more wasting the most important resource at hand.

?? Criticism or self accountability questionnaire ??Are you sleeping No.. Insomnia ??Have you neglected or ignored yourself Yessss a ton ??WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems Not much ??How is your overall health and performance Very bad today 12 July ??What steps have you taken to combat health issues Today wanted to try out some herbs ??Are you too lazy ??Did you give your 100 percent ??Are you committed to yourself and your life ??Have you been working harder ??Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up ??How have you been managing your depression ??Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life ??Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements ??How much are you on the self destructive scale ??What did you do today to improve your situation. ??Do you think you have done enough ??Are you into toxic relationships ??How are you connections and social support network ??What effort have you put in improving your self esteem ??List 3 things you did to solve the situation ??Are you giving too much priority to people ??Are you wasting time

Journal entry for imp day 2 Thursday July 12 My current emotional state and Shadow work My current emotional state How do I feel : I feel okayish I feel a little tired today morning. Lethargic and like everything needs to be done in a day. A little too much but anyway will get through today I feel positive since I have posted positive stuff on Fb today. So feeling better. Been motivating myself and rooting for myself. Giving myself a routine self esteem boost from today. Shadow work Past abuse issues Spiritual health check Need to keep up the praying habit. Lying low on that Shadow work questionnaire Goal questionnaire Goal progress questionnaire Criticism or self accountability questionnaire Are you sleeping No.. Insomnia Have you neglected or ignored yourself Yessss a ton WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems Not much How is your overall health and performance Very bad today 12 July What steps have you taken to combat health issues Today wanted to try out some herbs Are you too lazy Did you give your 100 percent Are you committed to yourself and your life Have you been working harder Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up How have you been managing your depression Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements How much are you on the self destructive scale What did you do today to improve your situation. Do you think you have done enough Are you into toxic relationships How are you connections and social support network What effort have you put in improving your self esteem List 3 things you did to solve the situation Are you giving too much priority to people Are you wasting time

Emotional State check. Shadow work Spiritual health check Shadow work questionnaire Goal questionnaire Goal progress questionnaire Journal entry for imp day 1 Wednesday July 11 My current emotional state and Shadow work My current emotional state How do I feel : I feel okayish I feel a little tired today morning. Lethargic and like everything needs to be done in a day. A little too much but anyway will get through today I feel positive since I have posted positive stuff on Fb today. So feeling better. Been motivating myself and rooting for myself. Giving myself a routine self esteem boost from today. Shadow work Spiritual health check Shadow work questionnaire Goal questionnaire Goal progress questionnaire

Only you can change your life. Nobody else will.

Criticism or self accountability questionnaire Are you sleeping Have you neglected or ignored yourself WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems How is your overall health and performance What steps have you taken to combat health issues Are you too lazy Did you give your 100 percent Are you committed to yourself and your life Have you been working harder Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up How have you been managing your depression Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements How much are you on the self destructive scale What did you do today to improve your situation. Do you think you have done enough Are you into toxic relationships How are you connections and social support network What effort have you put in improving your self esteem List 3 things you did to solve the situation Are you giving too much priority to people Are you wasting time

Yesterday I had been dealing with stuff. And thinking to myself. That life is bs.. It's a big joke. The whole world is. The dysfunction is taken care of by universal laws. Good that we have the cause and effect or else we would have chaos. Life fools us. And there are many illusions. We buy into those. Family is shit as well. It's all a sick joke, a distraction called reality, the biggest reality drama show on earth. No script can be better written.

One thing I need to tell myself is, "create the life you want and don't give two fucks about the world." the world wasn't made for you anyway..

When you feel helpless you look for distractions. Those distractions add to your woes. I liked a comment that I came across today on a website. It's very beautiful. " you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think, and twice as beautiful as you'd ever imagined."

Journal entry for imp day 1 Wednesday July 11 My current emotional state and Shadow work My current emotional state How do I feel : I feel sad and in despair. [no compromise with time] I feel depressed I feel suicidal I feel frustrated. Life seems like a burden I feel like I have given up. I feel hopeless and helpless and like nothing can change my situation. This has led me to follow toxic behavioral patterns like engaging in addictions and negligence and self destructive behavior. Time to get out of this rut and motivate myself to fight back although it looks impossible that a positive change will happen. Right now I can describe my state of life with one word : impossible It seems life will not change and everything is impossible and that my health problems will never get resolved. [The biggest stressor is emotional stress. It rules the body and the mind. The spiritual state of the mind is important to bring a positive state in life] [if you wanna give up then do it after trying everything.] Emotional State check. Spiritual health check Shadow work questionnaire Goal questionnaire Goal progress questionnaire Self criticism questionnaire-- . This will involve getting angry at yourself, criticising your own behavior, judging yourself a little harshly, targeting your own whiny behavior, finding faults, pointing out mistakes and where you think you might have gone wrong and blaming yourself, holding yourself responsible and accountable for whatever happened or happens.

Working towards D day. Wednesday July 11 Today is Implementation Day 1or imp day 1 Imp day 1 DLOW codes will be on messenger Imp day 2 Imo day 3

I have decided to give up on him and not have a relationship with him no more. He said he can't be committed. Now thats a joke. I won't take anymore. It's only friendship for me. I won't be heartbroken again. I tried too many times. I have finally given up on this whole male relationship thing. It's BS. I DON'T NEED A MAN IN MY LIFE. CUT THE BULL. too much is too much. All drama and its seriously toxic.. I thought I will be the one to create drama. But hey, who knew that even men can act like women lol.. This day is a new chapter after cutting off with him. A new beginning. Maybe in future I will finally find a guy I can peacefully live with

July, August, September, October, November, December. Time is running fast. No time to complain or look back. Time to get going and start work and finish it before D day. First thing and foremost. Cut off people. Cut out crap from life. Cut all the BS... Focus on the essential.

OK hey. So I'm back tl . Lol This is July. 2018. Time to work on certain. Things and situations. I did left off... For a while. Missing in action. Good news.... That I have given up the video game addiction I had. Had to find something to engage in. Something peaceful and nice. Found something engaging finally. Now I can finally be in peace. *DAILY STRATEGIES * WHILE I WAS AWAY I LEARNED A LOT,MAYBE THROUGH THE GAME. BUT I REALIZED THAT EVERYTHING IS NOT SO EASY. IT'S DAILY STRUGGLE. EVERY DECISION YOU MAKE DAILY IMPACTS YOU IN A WAY YOU DON'T KNOW. SO NOW IT'S DAY TO DAY. ONE DAY TO THE NEXT. one thing that is good is that I gave up toxic socialization at last. Now things can hopefully get better from here. This month is important. Last year this same time I had been struggling with the same problems. So much has changed since then but still the same problem and not much change healthwise or workwise. But I've grown up and become matured in some ways. Communication helped a lot in the growing up process. Leaving the past behind for now. I know I neglected myself for almost a year. Had too much going on. Shit to handle. My new motto is *daily strategies * and *work hard, get peace *. There is a rainbow at the end of the tunnel if you just weather this storm. Shit takes time so be patient. There's a mountain to climb. And December is the deadline month. The Final D day wil be 31st December 2018..heart racing. The biggest lesson learned. It takes a certain amount of strength, courage, pain, hardships and forbearance to get there through the storm. But once you take all the pain and get to the level where you can take on you will pass through and the struggle will end. Hang on till then. Don't think you are helpless. I have felt helpless for ever. Now I think it was something that was just holding me back. Once you cross that bridge, you won't be helpless anymore. You will get there somehow and the struggle will be over. The escape door will open. ...... *door opens.* in my dreams as a kid, I was told a door will open finally to light. There I will meet God. I remember it very distinctly. The door opens and it's freedom or liberation at last.