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Chapter 263 So now I have to cut down on some of my teenagey obsessions. I can even call them addictions. They operate in the form of pathways or feedback loops. Examples. Coffee - - - - >. Stimulated - - - - - > active - - - > tired - - - - >craving - - - - >coffee Food - - - - > filled ---> energetic ----> hungry ----> down time --->comfort--->want to feel cozy - - >food... Sugar - - - > feel good - - - - > excited - - - - > energetic - - - - - >feel down- - - - -cravings >hunger pangs - - > sugar Entertainment, video games, gossip, drama, sports, YouTube, documentaries, Stimulation fun engagement - - - - - ->makes you feel upbeat and engaged - - - - - - - - - > makes you feel productive - - - - - - - -> gets your brain engaged - - - - - - - - -> relieves anxiety through distraction - - - - - - - - > feeling of boredom as soon as you take a break - - - - - - - - - - - > craving for more stimulation - - - - - - - - > Stimulation fun engagement. I have every form of these obsessions. Not to mention the obsession of writing this journal. But this is productive and it helps me a lot with understanding what is going on. At least I can keep a record. To break this habit do limited time contemplation But...... I'm putting my foot down. Enough already No more junk. No more addictions. I have to identify and set a curfew for myself Once the curfew cut off is reached, I need to go back to productive stuff.

Chapter 262 So two nights I spent on the noura Jackson case and bought the book on her. Read it obsessively because I was so damn curious. It had me riveted. Well enough of that now. I have been obsessed with crime for a long time. It's time to focus on productive things. I have done everything that aroused my curiosity but I think I have realized it's the teenage syndrome I mean it's like being all over the place. Being obsessed with anything that provokes my curiosity. But it doesn't bring any real benefit. It's just a mind trick.

Chapter 261 I have developed an interest in the occult, paranormal, not so much in the occult, supernatural, aliens, skinwalkers ranch, afterlife, cryptids, ancient cultures, sasquatch, strange artifacts, strange places, creepy stories, Im trying not to allow these things to shape the definition of life. What I will do is just call this whole bunch of mysterious unknown stuff "never world" I think it's best to leave it as it is and not to dabble too much into all of the mysterious phenomena because I think it contains a lot of negative energy. And the more I invest into it, it eats into my inner energy and drains me. That's why it's mysterious because it's supposed to drain us. The best thing to do is to not dabble into and not attract it to oneself because I think it's dangerous and there's nothing to gain from it.

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Chapter 260 Parts of the mind 1..shadow 2.. Utterance 3. Awareness 4.. Equilibrium 5. Security 6. Nourishment 7. Filteration 8. Observation 9. Memory 10. Judgement 11. Cohesion 12. Avoidance or protection 13. Freedom or release 14. Recovery 15. Contemplation 16. Rehabilitation or therapy.. 17. Visualization. 18. Order or sequence 19. Attention, concentration, focus. 20. Cleaning.

Personal Growth Wabi-Sabi: The Japanese Philosophy For a Perfectly Imperfect Life Thomas Oppong Nov 1, 2018 Photo by Robbin Huang on Unsplash Life is unpredictable. And that’s okay. Embrace it. When nothing is certain, everything is possible! Your plans for tomorrow, next month or next year may not unfold as you expect. But it’s important to make plans and move on. Landon Donovan once said, “Life isn’t perfect, of course, but we all know it’s how you react to things that counts.” Imperfection is the basic principle of Wabi-Sabi, the Japanese philosophy of accepting your imperfections and making the most of life. “Wabi” is said to be defined as “rustic simplicity” or “understated elegance” with a focus on a less-is-more mentality. “Sabi” is translated to “taking pleasure in the imperfect.” The concept of wabi-sabi, is wide and almost impossible to distill in a single post, but can easily be applied simply to moments of everyday life. The relentless pursuit of perfection — in possessions, relationships, achievements — often leads to stress, anxiety, depression and hasty judgement. This is where wabi-sabi invites a pause. The Japanese philosophy encourages us to focus on the blessings hiding in our daily lives, and celebrating the way things are rather than how they should be. Wabi-sabi prizes authenticity. Wabi-Sabi is “a way of life that appreciates and accepts complexity while at the same time values simplicity,” writes Richard Powell in his book, Wabi Sabi Simple. Richard says it acknowledges three simple realities: “Nothing lasts, nothing is finished, and nothing is perfect.” In Zen philosophy, there are seven aesthetic principles in achieving wabi-sabi: Kanso — simplicity Fukinsei — asymmetry or irregularity Shibumi — beauty in the understated Shizen — naturalness without pretense Yugen — subtle grace Datsuzoku — freeness Seijaku — tranquility The timeless wisdom of wabi-sabi is more relevant now than ever for modern life, as we search for meaning and fulfilment beyond materialism. Wabi-sabi is like minimalism with a conscious choice. The concept has its roots in the traditional Japanese tea ceremony. A common explanation is the example of a well-loved teacup, made by an artist’s hands, cracked or chipped by constant use. Such traces remind the observer that nothing is permanent — even fixed objects are subject to change. A great example of wabi-sabi in creativity is the art of kintsugi, where cracked pottery is filled with gold dusted lacquer as a way to showcase the beauty of its age and damage rather than hiding it. The fault is not hidden but highlighted. This is not to say the Craftsman was sloppy (wabi-sabi isn’t an excuse for poor craftsmanship). Wabi-sabi draws attention to the cracks in a tea cup as part of the beauty of the object. In his book The Unknown Craftsman, Soetsu Yanagi argues that imperfections are necessary for a full appreciation of the object and the world. We in our own human imperfections are repelled by the perfect, since everything is apparent from the start and there is no suggestion of the infinite. Wabi-sabi is everywhere, you just need to know how to look, and what to do to embrace the concept in your life. The cracks in the old teacup are seen as assets rather than flaws. “Wabi sabi is a different kind of looking, a different kind of mindset,” explains Robyn Griggs Lawrence, author of Simply Imperfect: Revisiting the Wabi-Sabi House . “It’s the true acceptance of finding beauty in things as they are,” he says. What does it take to embrace Wabi-sabi in your life? Robyn explains that you don’t money, or special skills to appreciate your imperfections and make the most of life. Bringing wabi-sabi into your life doesn’t require money, training, or special skills. It takes a mind quiet enough to appreciate muted beauty, courage not to fear bareness, willingness to accept things as they are — without ornamentation. It depends on the ability to slow down, to shift the balance from doing to being, to appreciating rather than perfecting. Mike Sturm says Wabi-sabi is about accepting yourself and building on what you already have in life. He writes. Embracing wabi-sabi is as easy (or as difficult) as understanding and accepting yourself — imperfections and all. It’s about being compassionate with yourself as you are, and building on whatever that is — not feverishly trying to rebuild yourself in order to pose as something else entirely. Today, appreciation of the things we have, people we love, and the experiences we have the opportunity to weave into our lives is losing value. Wabi-sabi represents a precious cache of wisdom that values tranquillity, harmony, beauty and imperfection, and can strengthen your resilience in the face of materialism. It gently motions you to relax, slow down, step back from the hectic modern world and find enjoyment and gratitude in everything you do. Put simply, wabi-sabi gives you permission to be yourself. Embrace the perfection of being imperfectly you. 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Trying to focus on many things right now Tarot cards Brail cards Ether cards Shadow personality cards Self expression cards. Rune cards. Parts of the mind 1..shadow 2.. Utterance 3. Awareness 4.. Equilibrium 5. Security 6. Nourishment 7. Filteration 8. Observation 9. Memory 10. Judgement 11. Cohesion 12. Avoidance or protection 13. Freedom or release 14. Recovery 15. Contemplation 16. Rehabilitation or therapy.. 17. Visualization. 18. Order.

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Taken from a website What Is Stoicism? A Definition & 9 Stoic Exercises To Get You Started For those of us who live our lives in the real world, there is one branch of philosophy created just for us: Stoicism. Get Your Free DAILY STOIC Starter Pack Get ItIncludes an introduction to Stoicism, best books to start with, Stoic exercises and much more! A brief synopsis and definition on this particular school of Hellenistic philosophy: Stoicism was founded in Athens by Zeno of Citium in the early 3rd century BC, but was famously practiced by the likes of Epictetus, Seneca and Marcus Aurelius. The philosophy asserts that virtue (such as wisdom) is happiness and judgment should be based on behavior, rather than words. That we don’t control and cannot rely on external events, only ourselves and our responses. Stoicism has just a few central teachings. It sets out to remind us of how unpredictable the world can be. How brief our moment of life is. How to be steadfast, and strong, and in control of yourself. And finally, that the source of our dissatisfaction lies in our impulsive dependency on our reflexive senses rather than logic. Stoicism doesn’t concern itself with complicated theories about the world, but with helping us overcome destructive emotions and act on what can be acted upon. It’s built for action, not endless debate. It had three principal leaders. Marcus Aurelius, the emperor of the Roman Empire, the most powerful man on earth, sat down each day to write himself notesabout restraint, compassion and humility. Epictetus endured the horrors of slavery to found his own school where he taught many of Rome’s greatest minds. Seneca, when Nero turned on him and demanded his suicide, could think only of comforting his wife and friends. But it is not only those three—Stoicism has been practiced by kings, presidents, artists, writers and entrepreneurs. Both historical and modern men illustrate Stoicism as a way of life. Prussian King, Frederick the Great, was said to ride with the works of the Stoics in his saddlebags because they could, in his words, “sustain you in misfortune”. Meanwhile, Montaigne, the politician and essayist, had a line from Epictetus carved into the beam above the study in which he spent most of his time. The founding fathers were also inspired by the philosophy. George Washington was introduced to Stoicism by his neighbors at age seventeen, and afterwards, put on a play about Cato to inspire his men in that dark winter at Valley Forge. Whereas Thomas Jefferson had a copy of Seneca on his nightstand when he died. The economist Adam Smith’s theories on the interconnectedness of the world—capitalism—were significantly influenced by the Stoicism that he studied as a schoolboy, under a teacher who had translated Marcus Aurelius’ works. The political thinker, John Stuart Mill, wrote of Marcus Aurelius and Stoicism in his famous treatise On Liberty, calling it “the highest ethical product of the ancient mind.” Stoicism differs from most existing schools in one important sense: its purpose is practical application. It is not a purely intellectual enterprise. It’s a tool that we can use to become better in our craft, better friends and better people. It’s easy to gloss over the fact that Marcus Aurelius was the Roman Emperor without truly absorbing the gravity of that position. Emperors were Deities, ordinary men with direct access to unlimited wealth and adulation. Before you jump to the conclusion that the Stoics were dour and sad men, ask yourself, if you were a dictator, what would your diary look like? Stoic writing is much closer to a yoga session or a pre-game warm up than to a book of philosophy a university professor might write. It’s preparation for the philosophic life where the right state of mind is the most critical part. Stoics practiced what are known as “spiritual exercises” and drew upon them for strength. Let’s look at nine of the most important such exercises. Get Your Free DAILY STOIC Starter Pack Get ItIncludes an introduction to Stoicism, best books to start with, Stoic exercises and much more! 1.Practice Misfortune “It is in times of security that the spirit should be preparing itself for difficult times; while fortune is bestowing favors on it is then is the time for it to be strengthened against her rebuffs.” -Seneca Seneca, who enjoyed great wealth as the adviser of Nero, suggested that we ought to set aside a certain number of days each month to practice poverty. Take a little food, wear your worst clothes, get away from the comfort of your home and bed. Put yourself face to face with want, he said, you’ll ask yourself “Is this what I used to dread?” It’s important to remember that this is an exercise and not a rhetorical device. He doesn’t mean “think about” misfortune, he means live it. Comfort is the worst kind of slavery because you’re always afraid that something or someone will take it away. But if you can not just anticipate but practice misfortune, then chance loses its ability to disrupt your life. Montaigne was fond of an ancient drinking game where the members took turns holding up a painting of a corpse inside a coffin and cheered “Drink and be merry for when you’re dead you will look like this.” Emotions like anxiety and fear have their roots in uncertainty and rarely in experience. Anyone who has made a big bet on themselves knows how much energy both states can consume. The solution is to do something about that ignorance. Make yourself familiar with the things, the worst-case scenarios, that you’re afraid of. Practice what you fear, whether a simulation in your mind or in real life. The downside is almost always reversible or transient. 2.Train Perception to Avoid Good and Bad “Choose not to be harmed and you won’t feel harmed. Don’t feel harmed and you haven’t been.” -Marcus Aurelius The Stoics had an exercise called Turning the Obstacle Upside Down. What they meant to do was make it impossible to not practice the art of philosophy. Because if you can properly turn a problem upside down, every “bad” becomes a new source of good. Suppose for a second that you are trying to help someone and they respond by being surly or unwilling to cooperate. Instead of making your life more difficult, the exercise says, they’re actually directing you towards new virtues; for example, patience or understanding. Or, the death of someone close to you; a chance to show fortitude. Marcus Aurelius described it like this: “The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.” It should sound familiar because it is the same thinking behind Obama’s “teachable moments.” Right before the election, Joe Klein asked Obama how he’d made his decision to respond to the Reverend Wright scandal. He said something like‘when the story broke I realized the best thing to do wasn’t damage control, it was to speak to Americans like adults.’ And what he ended up doing was turning a negative situation into the perfect platform for his landmark speech about race. The common refrain about entrepreneurs is that they take advantage of, even create, opportunities. To the Stoic, everything is opportunity. The Reverend Wright scandal, a frustrating case where your help goes unappreciated, the death of a loved one, none of those are “opportunities” in the normal sense of the word. In fact, they are the opposite. They are obstacles. What a Stoic does is turn every obstacle into an opportunity. There is no good or bad to the practicing Stoic. There is only perception. You control perception. You can choose to extrapolate past your first impression (‘X happened.’ –> ‘X happened and now my life is over.’). If you tie your first response to dispassion, you’ll find that everything is simply an opportunity. Note: This exercise served as the inspiration behind The Obstacle Is The Way. 3.Remember—It’s All Ephemeral “Alexander the Great and his mule driver both died and the same thing happened to both.” -Marcus Aurelius Marcus Aurelius wrote to himself a simple and effective reminder to help him regain perspective and stay balanced: “Run down the list of those who felt intense anger at something: the most famous, the most unfortunate, the most hated, the most whatever: Where is all that now? Smoke, dust, legend…or not even a legend. Think of all the examples. And how trivial the things we want so passionately are.” It is important to note that ‘passion’ here isn’t the modern usage we’re familiar with as in enthusiasm or caring about something. As Don Robertson explains in his book, when the Stoics discuss overcoming ‘passions’, which they called patheiai, they refer to the irrational, unhealthy and excessive desires and emotions. Anger would be a good example. What is important to remember, and this is the crucial bit, they seek to replace them with eupatheiai, such as joy instead of excessive pleasure. Returning to the point of the exercise, it’s simple: remember how small you are. For that matter, remember how small most everything is. Remember that achievements can be ephemeral, and that your possession of them is for just an instant. If everything is ephemeral, what does matter? Right now matters. Being a good person and doing the right thing right now, that’s what matters and that’s what was important to the Stoics. Take Alexander the Great who conquered the known world and had cities named in his honor. This is common knowledge. The Stoics would also point out that, once while drunk, Alexander got into a fight with his dearest friend, Cleitus, and accidentally killed him. Afterward, he was so despondent that he couldn’t eat or drink for three days. Sophists were called from all over Greece to see what they could do about his grief, to no avail. Is this the mark of a successful life? From a personal standpoint, it matters little if your name is emblazoned on a map if you lose perspective and hurt those around you. Learn from Alexander’s mistake. Be humble and honest and aware. That is something you can have every single day of your life. You’ll never have to fear someone taking it from you or, worse still, it taking over you. 4.Take The View From Above “How beautifully Plato put it. Whenever you want to talk about people, it’s best to take a bird’s- eye view and see everything all at once— of gatherings, armies, farms, weddings and divorces, births and deaths, noisy courtrooms or silent spaces, every foreign people, holidays, memorials, markets— all blended together and arranged in a pairing of opposites.” Marcus Aurelius Marcus would often practice an exercise that is referred to as “taking the view from above” or “Plato’s view.” It invites us to take a step back, zoom out and see life from a higher vantage point than our own. This exercise—envisioning all the millions and millions of people, all the “armies, farms, weddings and divorces, births and deaths”—prompts us to take perspective and just like the previous exercise, remind us how small we are. It reorients us, and as Stoic scholar Pierre Hadot put it, “The view from above changes our value judgments on things: luxury, power, war…and the worries of everyday life become ridiculous.” Seeing how small we are in the grand scheme of things is only one portion of this exercise. The second, more subtle point, is to tap into what the Stoics call sympatheia, or a mutual interdependence with the whole of humanity. As the astronaut Edgar Mitchell, one of the first people to actually experience a real ‘view from above’ put it, “In outer space you develop an instant global consciousness, a people orientation, an intense dissatisfaction with the state of the world, and a compulsion to do something about it.” Take a step back from your own concerns and remind yourself of your duty to others. Take Plato’s view. 5. MEMENTO MORI: MEDITATE ON YOUR MORTALITY “Let us prepare our minds as if we’d come to the very end of life. Let us postpone nothing. Let us balance life’s books each day. … The one who puts the finishing touches on their life each day is never short of time.” Seneca The quote from Seneca above takes part of Memento Mori—the ancient practice of reflection on mortality that goes back to Socrates, who said that the proper practice of philosophy is “about nothing else but dying and being dead.” In his Meditations, Marcus Aurelius wrote that “You could leave life right now. Let that determine what you do and say and think.” That was a personal reminder to continue living a life of virtue now, and not wait. Meditating on your mortality is only depressing if you miss the point. The Stoics find this thought invigorating and humbling. It is not surprising that one of Seneca’s biographies is titled Dying Every Day. After all, it is Seneca who urged us to tell ourselves “You may not wake up tomorrow,” when going to bed and “You may not sleep again,” when waking up as reminders of our mortality. Or as another Stoic, Epictetus, urged his students: “Keep death and exile before your eyes each day, along with everything that seems terrible— by doing so, you’ll never have a base thought nor will you have excessive desire.” Use those reminders and meditate on them daily—let them be the building blocks of living your life to the fullest and not wasting a second. 6. “Is This Within My Control” “The chief task in life is simply this: to identify and separate matters so that I can say clearly to myself which are externals not under my control, and which have to do with the choices I actually control. Where then do I look for good and evil? Not to uncontrollable externals, but within myself to the choices that are my own . . .” Epictetus The single most important practice in Stoic philosophy is differentiating between what we can change and what we can’t. What we have influence over and what we do not. A flight is delayed because of weather— no amount of yelling at an airline representative will end a storm. No amount of wishing will make you taller or shorter or born in a different country. No matter how hard you try, you can’t make someone like you. And on top of that, time spent hurling yourself at these immovable objects is time not spent on the things we can change. Return to this question daily—in each and every trying situation. Journal and reflect on it constantly. If you can focus on making clear what parts of your day are within your control and what parts are not, you will not only be happier, you will have a distinct advantage over other people who fail to realize they are fighting an unwinnable battle. 7. Journal Epictetus the slave. Marcus Aurelius the emperor. Seneca the power broker and playwright. These three radically different men led radically different lives. But they seemed to have one habit in common: Journaling. In one form or another, each of them did it. It would be Epictetus who would admonish his students that philosophy was something they should “write down day by day,” that this writing was how they “should exercise themselves.” Seneca’s favorite time to journal was in the evenings. When darkness had fallen and his wife had gone asleep, he explained to a friend, “I examine my entire day and go back over what I’ve done and said, hiding nothing from myself, passing nothing by.” Then he would go to bed, finding that “the sleep which follows this self-examination” was particularly sweet. And Marcus, he was the most prodigious of journalers, and we are lucky enough that his writings survive to us, appropriately titled, Τὰ εἰς ἑαυτόν, Ta eis heauton, or “to himself.” in Stoicism the art of journaling is more than some simple diary. This daily practice is the philosophy. Preparing for the day ahead. Reflecting on the day that has passed. Reminding oneself of the wisdom we have learned from our teachers, from our reading, from our own experiences. It’s not enough to simply hear these lessons once, instead, one practices them over and over again, turns them over in their mind, and most importantly, writes them down and feels them flowing through their fingers in doing so. In this way, journaling is Stoicism. It’s almost impossible to have one without the other. 8. PRACTICE NEGATIVE VISUALIZATION The premeditatio malorum (“the pre-meditation of evils”) is a Stoic exercise of imagining things that could go wrong or be taken away from us. It helps us prepare for life’s inevitable setbacks. We don’t always get what is rightfully ours, even if we’ve earned it. Not everything is as clean and straightforward as we think they may be. Psychologically, we must prepare ourselves for this to happen. It is one of the most powerful exercise in the Stoics’ toolkit to build resilience and strength. Seneca, for instance, would begin by reviewing or rehearsing his plans, say, to take a trip. And then, in his head (or in journaling as we said above), he would go over the things that could go wrong or prevent it from happening—a storm could arise, the captain could fall ill, the ship could be attacked by pirates. “Nothing happens to the wise man against his expectation,” he wrote to a friend. “. . . nor do all things turn out for him as he wished but as he reckoned—and above all he reckoned that something could block his plans.” By doing this exercise, Seneca was always prepared for disruption and always working that disruption into his plans. He was fitted for defeat or victory. 9. AMOR FATI: LOVE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS The great German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche would describe his formula for human greatness as amor fati—a love of fate. “That one wants nothing to be different, not forward, not backwards, not in all eternity. Not merely bear what is necessary, still less conceal it….but love it.” The Stoics were not only familiar with this attitude but they embraced it. Two thousand years ago, writing in his own personal journal which would become known as Meditations, Emperor Marcus Aurelius would say: “A blazing fire makes flame and brightness out of everything that is thrown into it.” Another Stoic, Epictetus, who as a crippled slave has faced adversity after adversity, echoed the same: “Do not seek for things to happen the way you want them to; rather, wish that what happens happen the way it happens: then you will be happy.” It is why amor fati is the Stoic exercise and mindset that you take on for making the best out of anything that happens: Treating each and every moment—no matter how challenging—as something to be embraced, not avoided. To not only be okay with it, but love it and be better for it. So that like oxygen to a fire, obstacles and adversity become fuel for your potential. Stoicism is Ideal for the Real World The Stoics were writing honestly, often self-critically, about how they could become better people, be happier, and deal with the problems they faced. You can see how practicing misfortune makes you stronger in the face of adversity; how flipping an obstacle upside down turns problems into opportunities; and how remembering how small you are keeps your ego manageable and in perspective. Ultimately, that’s what Stoicism is about. It’s not some systematic discussion of why or how the world exists. It is a series of reminders, tips and aids for living a good life. Stoicism, as Marcus reminds himself, is not some grand Instructor but a balm, a soothing ointment to an injury wherever we might have one. Epictetus was right when he said that “life is hard, brutal, punishing, narrow, and confining, a deadly business.” We should take whatever help we can get, and it just happens that that help can come from ourselves. P.S. Want more? 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Reflection on brail energy.

This is a very easy concept. Relatively easier than others but still complex.. Once you practice the moment of awareness, the next step is to just sit still and think about the inner brail. What do you think will pacify it. Do you think your choices in life are being beneficial to the brail or toxic to it. Example. Case in point. Let's say you have a friend. They were nice to you up until now. But something seems amiss. And you decided to break away. You were stern and you were rude and angry and you dismiss that person publicly. But other people do not agree with you and consider you to be rude and narcissistic. Now the entire group that you are a part of turns against you. There are more people getting added to the group. There's more drama and more fights and agreements and disagreements. You try to block whoever is against you. This in turn creates more enemies. Now this is the thing. You cannot really please everyone at the same time. It's impossible. If someone is offended and they are trying to smear you, they are just being annoying and harmful. You can do nothing to change it. How would you handle such a situation. I think the best solution is to reach out to your brail. That means think about whats good for it. Do that. Abandon anything that's toxic it no matter what anyone thinks. So you need to cut off specific people from the circle and who are toxic to you. You could be criticized for your actions or behavior so leave it be. It may appear unethical to you. Let's say you have to fire those specific people from their jobs and you get a downgrade for doing so. Even then, you have to do what is best for your brail. It may be an unethical practice to fire those people but if they are toxic then they need to be out even though you might appear rude, bossy, narcissistic, domineering or controlling for doing it. Let people say anything about you. You cannot let the negativity in and ruin your mental health just because you have to be in people's good books. This means you will have to sometimes forgo empathy and be shrewd about how you carry yourself at the expense of criticism and hate.. This seems to be contradictory to the point of cultivating empathy, love and being a loving caring person. Yes it does. But at the same time it makes sense. Being a good person should not mean allowing others to take advantage. And whatever is unhealthy or toxic is eventually only going to bring more harm. The purpose of being good should not be damage to self. Nor should it be a by product of good behavior. That means you gotta be shrewd or stern when you need to draw the boundaries, rude or not rude. This means you have to do the right thing, ethical or unethical. You have to compromise on certain values or principles in order to keep things in order. Does this mean you are selfish? Absolutely not. It only means that you are doing what's right for your mental peace. There's nothing selfish about avoiding what's bad for you. You are selfish only when you do something specifically to achieve a certain objective or goal like using someone for financial gain. This concept further narrows down the path of spirituality and makes it even more specific.. Earlier it was all about being a good person and cultivating spiritual values but now it is also about taking wisdom into account. It's like this. Do what is good. But also do what is right (even though it might not appear good) This is easy. When you contemplate every day, you need to think about what decisions will be helpful in keeping your brail energy calm and stable and what actions or choices are affecting it. Anything that is toxic to it will need to be avoided. All you have to do is focus on it. Think about how you feel. Do you feel at peace inside. Is it creating discomfort Our senses are usually strong and can easily tell us if we are comfortable inside or not. Do what gives you a sense of inner comfort. Avoid anything that erodes your comfort or makes you feel chaotic.

I came up with a different concept right now. And this seems to be revolutionary to me. And I will call it ethereal energy. Which means do anything to preserve it. It's supposed to be your core spiritual energy. I will call it brail. Which means inner ethereal energy or brail energy. This energy is mutable it flows in directions and increases or decreases in intensity on how you grow and nurture it and direct it. But this is not an energy you reflect like chi. It's an energy which you maintain in a stable state. Imagine you have a vessel with water. Constant loud sounds around causes the water to form ripples. Now if you do not want those ripples then you will need to calm down the sounds causing those ripples. You will have to see that the water remains stable and calm and all sorts of disturbances will need to be removed. When certain conditions are met, brail will be calm and show positive growth. And when those conditions are not met, brail will be unstable, out of order and even low in intensity or strength. So to maintain a stable brail, you will have to set things in proper order to keep it calm and flowing in a fixed direction. Everything wrong or right will be dependent on the brail. Anything that irritates the brail needs to be avoided. Chi is outward like a vibe whereas brail is inward. It's similar to the term "inner sanctum". Example. A toxic relationship can affect the mind. It can drain the mental energy. The brail is sensitive to this. Anything affects it and it starts to flow erratically and reduce in intensity causing chaos and stress.

I'm trying to move on with my life. It's difficult but I will do it. My spiritual journey will help me.

Also I forgot to add prayers and mantras. Specific mantras help calm the mind. Practices - Swan manual, meditation, contemplation,invocation (invoking a specific wish, emotion, intention), incantation, Restfulness exercise, fortress exercise, fountain potion exercise. Emotional growth, Mantras, prayers. Spells and incantation, focus on ethereal components, Chakra healing, tarot cards, reiki and rune crystals.

April 15, Monday. Chapter 251 Final freedom

Emotions are a part of a spiritual experience. They shouldn't be discredited or removed or dissolved or ignored or suppressed or repressed. They should be allowed to be experienced felt, released, and grow and strengthen.

Chapter 250 I feel inspired by the Bible.. I feel like there is so much to learn from it One thing is where it's written that we should worship God and not the creation. Trying to understand this. In my opinion it means that we should worship Ether rather than mass. Because Ether is the quality and is permanent whereas mass is the physical nature of things. So mass can always change but not ether. This is beautiful because Ether does not change whereas mass is subject to the environment. For example a woman so obsessed with the idea of having a child that she cannot bear the thought that she does not have a child. She sees another pregnant woman and makes a plan to snatch her baby. This is because the woman has been plagued by social illisons. She does not realize that a child will never bring happiness because she is worshipping the idea of having a child but not focused on love itself. Once she has it, the novelty will wear off at some point. She is worshipping a very physical thing. We need to worship not the creation but the creator. People, objects, status, money, romance, relationships never bring lasting happiness. Because objects and people when we don't get them, create an intense craving and when we have them the novelty wears off. This is human nature. It also reflects the fickle nature of things and how things cannot make us happy. But ether represents quality and quality never gets old. Quality only builds stronger over time. So in the first example if the woman stopped focusing on acquiring a child but focused on loving a child or loving someone who needs love she is focusing on a quality and not an object. This quality can grow but the object will grow stale or stagnant. This shows that mass is limited and finite and vincible whereas ether is invincible, unlimited or infinite.. And ever growing. This is what the Bible meant. Worship the quality or the ether component. It did not mean worship a person. It means worshipping a quality. It means worshipping godliness and not God himself. Because that would be egotistical. It's like worshiping love rather than worshipping a person who you admire. Because anything, whether it's an object or a person it's all objects. So when you worship an object you become materialistic. When you worship a person it's idol worship. The Bible warns against idol worship. Because God wants us to worship the quality of God, the godliness, the love and the spirit and the innocence and the goodness. To be overly attached to an object or idea in the world is crazy and dysfunctional and destructive for the human mind. It's a worthless adventure. It is a trick played by the social construct that everything that you do not own is very important. Like the Bible says the gifts or rewards of this world are nothing. They are not significant, we make them look important. In reality it's nothing. It's not even worth fighting for or pitying oneself over. It's not like you are missing on something great. So when you are obsessed with something you do not have like money or a degree or a house or any idea like the idea of having a family or being a star is all just rubbish. It's all nothing great. Your obsession with it is just toxic to your mental health. Because to be truly happy you need nothing. You are trapped by your own obsessions. To be free from those obsessions will be so liberating. But at present you are trapped by social constructs and illusions that tell you that this this is what you need or your life is incomplete. Your spiritual and mental state is more important than anything else in the world. And all the social constructs screw your mental State. So when you leave these obsessions and cravings behind and stop fretting over them, you will experience not only peace but also begin to truly appreciate whatever you already have. You will be at peace with yourself and you will realize that your fretting is just in vain because the stuff that you crave so much is not even worth fighting for or crying for. All of that which you want is just fickle and transient. Even relationships. Because they do not last. You get emotionally worked up over relationships when these relationships are more work than happiness. Also these relationships do not last. They are fickle as a penny. The rewards of the kingdom of earth are not significant. The rewards of the kingdom of eternity are permanent and beautiful. And they are worth having. Because they bring peace and lasting joy and remove tension. They remove agitation and bring lasting fulfillment. Eat not what is satisfying. Eat that what is fulfilling. This life is no more important than how important we have made it out to be. The other thing is that this life is a cycle of samsara. The cycle of samsara is the cycle of eternal conflict that never stops. And you do not realize that you are trapped in this conflict. Imagine a circle in which you go round and round vertically and when you reach the top you fall within the circle due to gravity. And every time you think that you need to be back on the circle and hold it tight so that you won't fall again, you go back on it and once again you reach the top and fall again. This circle is just an illusion that tricks your mind into believing that you will not fall if you hold strong. But it's false. You will always fall because the circle is Designed for you to fall. The only time you will not fall is when you are outside the circle. The Bible mentions two kingdoms. It is nothing but 2 cycles. The cycle of samsara or life or eternal conflict. And the cycle of eternity. To be attached to this cycle or kingdom is foolishness. To work towards the rewards of the other cycle is really worth pursuing. Because this is the cycle of conflict. And that is the cycle of pure lasting fulfillment where conflict ceases. This is the cycle of instant gratification and that is the cycle of eternal gratification. When you have eternal gratification, it means you won't feel thirsty again. It is done. It is fulfilled. What God wants you to know is that you should not work hard for instant gratification because not only will it be a failure, but also a constant source of torment. It will only leave you constantly trapped in agitation. God wants you to honor, worship and pine for or work hard for eternal rewards which bring eternal gratification or fulfillment. This way your suffering ceases. Now you might wonder why to even live life if the only goal is eternity. There is a good reason. You would not appreciate light until you have been in the dark. You would not appreciate love if you haven't faced hate. You would never appreciate the good things without experiencing the bad things. You have to go through hell in order to find heaven and appreciate heaven. If you always lived in eternity then you might want to be back in an earthly existence and crave for it. But when you have an earthly existence beforehand or firsthand only then you begin to appreciate the gifts of eternity. You see the difference for yourself. What can you do to escape samsara. You cannot die. Because you have to live your whole life span in this earthly existence and at the same time this whole life is an opportunity to cultivate the gifts of eternity. Every moment is precious and every moment lost is a loss of the opportunity to cultivate those gifts. How to escape the traps of samsara. One way is to stop worshipping superficial things like money, beauty, relationships, etc etc all aspects of the material world And to be not anymore obsessed with these things. Or even be dejected when you don't get these things or don't have or when you lose them after having them. Stop being upset about not having them. Then you are free from the trap of samsara. Worship the qualities of eternity and godliness. Worship the Ether and the mass. Worship the ethereal [Ether like] aspects of everything. Like instead of craving for food, think about how you are already fulfilled by it. Worship not a relationship but the love that you have to give in the relationship. Focus on that. Instead of focusing on what you don't get in this relationship, focus on spending that moment with your partner happily. Often you are obsessed with things in a relationship, like, " you are always lazy". "you are always busy", "you don't give sex". "you are always falling sick", "you are not always funny", "we don't have enough money", "we don't enjoy like other couples" "we aren't active like other couples", "we don't have kids", "you didn't call me", "you didn't send me a gift on Valentines day", "you are not good enough"... So much bickering over things which are not going to change. Yet so little focus on being and creating happiness in this little moment that you get to spend with your partner which will never come back. But so much focus on what don't get out of the relationship, what you don't have, so much focus on what the person didn't do, on what is going to be the future of the relationship, what is lacking, so much focus on all the negative aspects of the relationship, yet so little appreciation for what that person already did and how much happiness this one moment can create. This is because you are only focused on the physical aspects of reality and not focused on the ethereal aspects of everything. Once you start focusing on the ethereal aspects of everything you Wil find true happiness and you will be happy, not overjoyed but just at peace and not agitated anymore.. The rewards of eternity are peace, love, happiness, joy, kindness, grace, acceptance, courage, truth, fairness, justice, intelligence, growth, goodness, empathy, compassion, respect, humility, perseverance, knowledge, aesthetics, godliness. When you start worshipping these qualities or ether like aspects, you start seeking them in your life and at the same time you abandon all physical things or physical rewards. This way you are free from the trap and more at peace. And you find lasting fulfillment. Focus on the means not the end. Do not focus on acquiring a plant but rather on growing a plant. Do not focus on acquiring a relationship but rather on creating happiness in the relationship. Do not focus on getting a bigger house but rather on how can you make this little room you have into a beautiful haven of peace. Do not focus on beauty or plastic surgery but on how to create beauty. Exercise, relax, get good sleep, eat healthy, you will automatically look beautiful. Instead of focusing on the objective focus on the positive means of getting this objective, on the ethereal aspects that lead to this objective Example One mother is very fond of her intelligent son. In the future when he grows up into an adult, he doesn't do well in his college. She begins to hate him. She hates him so much that she won't talk to him because he has not fulfilled her objective of becoming a successful person. He feels depressed because of her lack of love and he feels deprived. Eventually he gives into addiction and loses whatever abilities he had. Another mother gives birth to a child with learning disabilities. But she showers the child with attention and love and nurtures him. The child learns important survival skills and gradually begins to make progress and by the time that he is older he has made enough progress and he can now a healthy confident successful life. She prepared him for life. Because the second mother focused on the ethereal aspects like nurturing and Growth rather than selfishly focusing on the final objective of success as the first mother. As a result the second mother created growth and balance and the first mother created destruction and degradation. Fairness Love Peace, growth, grace, care, love, attention, focus, nourishment, nurturing, empathy, compassion, intelligence, humor, laughter, simplicity, justice, balance, happiness, kindness, embrace, comfort, relaxation, fortitude, dedication, devotion, gentleness, maturity, beauty, equilibrium, equality, benevolence, trust, hope, faith, loyalty, perseverance, hard work,