taleen

Am going to go out of topic and recommend meaningfull things. First, as you enter the lectures try after the instructor finishs to summerize what he said, really helpfull. And before each lecture, read the previous one, it will anly take ten minutes but also very helpfull. Am 27 and trying to learn italian. It is very hard to go back to studying after being in a break for a while. But i think what you are doing is brave.

It is a life shifting experience. Me myself after trying it for many days i started to feel the value of everything. And the most thing i valued was all feelings.

Pardon my weak english, am not a native english speaker. I feel obligated to work under any condition as a grownup who should be responsible for himself. But i also don't want to be working somewhere where i feel disrespected. Recently i resigned from a post because my boss was unsatisfied by my work in which i put my whole potentials into, he was also vage about his directions and not willing to specify guidelines, and the reason i quit for was him taking his anger on me which was so unprofesstional. Found another job, nice boss, very respectfull, but i had to takeover some other girl's job who disrespected me in many ways, kept me waiting for her all day, assigned tasks to me, before i was offitially hired, and at last kept on delaying handover and her boss was not willing to take any actions against her, so i also quited. Now am thinking maybe i should take any deameaning actions from any human being as long as they are not physical. Its a depate between me and myself but sinse i have already quited i think this depate is far ahead of time and should only take place if i faced the same problem again. Now i should only look for another job. The problems am facing is that i don't have money and if someone called me for an interview and my mom who am living with, was unwilling to give me money am going to have to sell my phone. Am also going to need to buy a new face wash when it is finished but i also will not worry about that untill it is finished. Am also a little worried about my naighbour who lent my phone ten days before her pay cheque and promised to buy it when she gets her payment cheque but then again i do not have to worry about that untill it is an acctual problem. Now am going to go get ready for meeting my boyfriend later tonight. Am a little behind on my daily tasks, cause for four days i was only doing a part of my daily and weekly tasks but after i prepare what i need to prepare to meet my boyfriend i will try to do some tasks if there is much time. I feel that now am not facing an actuall problem, onlu worries and concerns, and nothing will be dicussed untill my mind present an acctual real problem happening in the mean time. Still am not stable with my family because am not following the rules i have put before, which obligates me not to socialize with some members of my family untill they initiate socializing, because some of them are mody and i did not socialize with them untill they initiated but i kept on making too many jokes after that, and it went fine cause but it is dangareous and may cause me pain in the future.

I had law self esteem for a long time too. Byt then i realized it was because my family was disapproving most of my actions. One time they were pressuring me to talkback to someone who insulted me in a cruel way. I could have done that if there were any kind of benefits coming back from that, i did not need the guy ib my life, he was toxic, i only had to cut him off. At that second i realized why they were disapproving of everything am doing. Am simply different, i needed to accept that and force my real personality to be unhidden. So i think you should go back to the main reason that created your suffering. Pardon my weak english, am not a native english speaker.

I agree with you, Socializing with people is always fun. But having a close friend is also usefull, you can help them when they are tight on the cash, they will also help you at the same aspect. And having a boyfriend that gets you and never hurts you makes you avoid feeling "socially awkward". And i personally feel a void inside me whenever am single, i think i might be able to bare but it is nice to fill that vood.