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@Preety_India that was a beautiful and heartfelt speech. I couldn't agree with you more on that life should be about following your heart's desires. Like, that's it. Follow your heart and it shall lead. Lol, I'm glad that we both share our love for kinky boys. ?

Honestly just be her friend for god sakes. That's a huge problem we face as guys and that's you just want to fuck her. If u just want to fuck her and not be her friend, of course you'll be nervous. So be her friend.

Lol didnt you just say that 5 minutes ago?@Yali

Being insecure doesnt sound very alpha to me. Get in better touch with how you feel tough guy.

@Preety_India Honestly I'll come back to spirituality down the road. Right now I got more important shit to deal with. I love the stuff, it's just too far out there to be practical.

Yes, but the fact is saying that someone's survival is evil is devilish in of itself. Cause there is people out there with serious survival obstacles and if you can just sit back and skate on by judging people while they struggle to survive. Cause if you think that the very thing that got you here is evil, it makes no sense. Yall think your so above everyone judging them for being alive, but without life nothing would even fucking matter. Like if yall were so above everyone, yall would do some philanthropic work. Judging people for living is absolutely unacceptable. Is this really what self-help comes down to? Whether being alive is good or bad? That really brings me to tears, to see this. All this buildup just to have a debate whether or not living is good or bad. Is this a joke? Why? I just dont understand.

Honestly, I think if the men would embrace their feminine side more, and women would embrace their masculine side more. Then the guys would be like " Yeah girl, I know how you feel." And the girls would be like" Yeah dude, that is pretty badass." But you won't see this much in people, we all just want things from the other gender. You know, girls want a big dick, and guys want that pussy. So that's life.

Hey guysss and girlzz. I want to tell you a story here today on how Leo’s latest holism videos have helped me heal my mind. So first I want to say that I have a lot of aspirations for life and they have been growing by the day. The thing is I have had a lot of motivation, but I lack the self self-discipline. I can’t focus, I can’t concentrate on anything because I keep eating crappy food, bouncing around between YouTube and video games, and jerking off to pictures of hot girls. I remember I saw this picture of some cute attractive guy and I was like “What the fuck I am doing, turn that gay shit off.”(hint).I was struggling to focus on really anything at all, but I got it done through just forcing that crap out of myself to get it done, and was eating crappy food while always trying to do my work and drinking just to try to get some more power so it speak out of myself to do it. I was always angry, and I always was in a bad mood and I hated myself. I remember this one morning I was playing a video game cause I didn’t want to do the stuff that would better myself, it was last Friday. It was a game where you have to rank up and I had literally almost got to the last level where I stayed up till 3am to try to get there and didn’t manage to get it done. So I woke up the next morning at 7am to try to get to the max level so I could compete at the highest level with the big dogs you could. The game I was one of the most masculine games you could play, it was a racing game as almost no girls like car racing.(another hint) My laptop I was playing on froze and it stopped loading for about 30 minutes as I sat there with my anger building and building and building. I was screaming “Fuck the conservatives and their hatred they’ve had upon me. This computer is worthless”. I couldn’t calm my anger because I was at war with myself, I didn’t realize it at the time, but now I know. So I was so angry that I punched the shit out of my laptop and my mouse bounced off my desk and onto the floor. Then it shut off and went to the blue screen of death. My hard drive was dead and so was my computer, this caused me instant regret. So I went onto the forum just to browse and stumbled into the stage-blue mega thread and read an example that Leo put there saying “Gay Conversion Therapy”. This left me thinking “Why do people hate gay people so much, what it is up with that?” Then I went to YouTube to find out what gay conversion therapy was and they were pretty much tormenting young gay boys and young lesbian girls. I thought it was stupid as I went to search up gay guys kissing on YouTube to see how bad it was. Here I was a fool and to me what I saw was not disgusting as depicted but when I saw these gay guys making out I got this feeling of love and ecstasy. My heart just melted and it brought me into a flashback to when I was 16. (Brace yourself) In the locker room underneath of the school where I kissed this gay guy. Then somehow the word got out, you know how it is with those gossipy teenagers. Then the next day I remember I sitting at the table eating lunch and I’ll never forget this. Some imbeciles came up to me screamed at me “Bitch Boy!”, “fa*****!”, “Why you looking at my dick you scummy cocksucker!”, There were some 30 high school kids who starting laughing at me and I started to cry just sitting hold my sandwich in my hand, it felt like I was in hell. I felt ashamed, guilt, and just like shit. Then remember after listening to some rap music when I was 17 and thinking that’s how I’ll prove to them that I’m manly, I’ll become a rapper. So off I went like a complete fool conforming to rap culture and toxic bullshit just to prove to some people that I was “Manly”. I gained 50 pounds eating ice cream and all kinds of other shit and was too scared to be seen as feminine, as a matter of fact terrified to be. I was always not confident and had no real focus at all. I still kept rapping for these last two years trying to prove myself like a fool that I was manly posting rap songs on the net. I even posted some here on the forum, and I see what I fool I was stuck in hip hop conformity. It breaks my heart to see that I plagued you all with such toxicity. I recently stopped rapping just because of the homophobic culture and gay bashing that it does. I remember I won those people over by making rap songs about saying gay is bad, and say shit like “fuck those stupid faggots”. On the surface I thought oh its fixed. But deep down I was wounded and torn and hated myself for it. I started doing stupid crap like I picked up a vaping addiction from my conformity which I quit last Veteran’s day cause it was ruining my lungs. That was a big foolish maneuver there as I self-reflect on what a fool I’ve been. So anyways last weekend when I watching those gay guys kissing each other I felt an ecstasy and love for life. And like nothing my cravings for playing video games all day, eating junk food, and watching YouTube all day…. Just dissipated like nothing. I have been exercising, motivated, and stronger than I ever was. I got connected back with my feminine side, and it has made me stronger. I can focus now on my work literally all day now, life is magic. This is all great, but something I realized yesterday that the sort of anti-gay conservative mindset was wedged into my mind like a dogmatic mind-virus. So last night I decided I was going to do Leo’s Shamanic Breathing to relieve my mind of this anti-gay shadow. Okay now it’s about to get good. I scowered the internet for the most cutest gay guy I could find. I found this adorable 20 year old guy with butterfly hairpins in his hair. I was like,”If he just isn’t the most sexiest thing”. Then I put my phone away and turned on my shamanic drum music. I did Leo’s shamanic breathing for an hour and I a lot of shit from my past came up especially in the first half hour, but the last hour made me feel like I wasn’t there at all. I had the whole vibration sensation that it gives you and looked around the room feeling this euphoric almost psychedelic state. It was very trippy as I sat there in this heavenly bliss for a couple minutes. Then I picked up my phone and opened it up to see the same picture of that same gay guy. He just looked like the most adorable, cutest, gorgeous, sexiest human being that I had ever seen. Then I got an erection and then got an orgasm while I was in this blissful, heavenly state. Then I really lost control of myself and starting writhing around laughing in a pure joy and ecstasy for a solid 5 minutes. I just felt such an intense love for all LGBTQ people and everyone in the world and the universe, but of course that guy, it was very freeing of trauma for me, very therapeutic indeed. The thing was that I embraced my feminine side because I had been demonizing that part of me for years. I merged with my masculine and now I am more Whole. I woke up this morning feeling so happy, elated, and felt like I could do anything. I was so pumped up and got so much stuff done this morning, this whole experience of embracing my feminine side and becoming more merged with my mind and body is a life-changing moment. I no longer feel bad for being bisexual, and I have been liberated from many of my addictions and lack of passion. Thanks and love you so much to Leo for inspiring me to heal my mind, and I love all of you here on the forum. It’s a real big problem I see everywhere that if you act feminine at all, people act like your a weak little bitch. The fact is that that couldn’t be any further from the case as Leo says all the time in his videos and he is most certainly right. If you read this whole thing, I love you.

Thanks Tim, I'm really grateful for people like you to join us in this life journey. Thanks Leo, Your work has had such a great impact on my life and so many people's lives, your a real treasure to mankind. Your so right Preety, lots of people are very narrow minded and thanks for your kind support. Thanks rilles, its something a lot of people are scared to embrace, I really think that accepting yourself the way you are makes you stronger. Love you Rend, yes girls are still attractive to me.

It really does John. The lower the consciousness the more the hate people give off. Thanks Willie, We're all aiming for infinite consciousness.

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Nice sounds fun preety.

@Rilles Yea dude orange has its limits for sure. It's a necessary stage to develop though and get that cash in the door. You can be a conscious orange that makes a healthy business instead of something hazardous like an oil company ceo.

I love Mac miller too dude, Good am was fun, but swimming was the most beautiful jazzy hip hoppy rnb album in the world. It is a gorgeous piece of music, especially come back to earth, that song was the most beautiful song with the lyrics, piano, guitar riffs, and the most aesthetic snare it brings me chills it was clear he transformed to green. Which song of his did you like most?RIP Mac Miller?

This song is definitely orange. Especially the line "I'm filthy rich got businesses".

Well said there, well said. After all there is also a lot free porn out there, so no need to buy it. @Javfly33 it seems buddy that you soul is broken deep down and yer gonna have to do self reflection to figure what the problem is and then come up with a way to fix it. Get creative about it.

Huh, that's really interesting as I've never heard of resistance, but like you feel it every second of the day. But this is where stage blue is so critical in the hard work and not giving up.

I was watching the nascar race a few minutes ago and they kept advertising that crap. I was like " I'm here for race cars not politics goddamn it". That's just the way it goes. People think their audience is all conservatives, but they got some liberals in there. If it was a pop rock music festival they would be marketing Biden's green new deal. That's such a big problem though, and that's that conservatives think it's ok that the government is less powerful than the companies. We need to take money out of politics in order to make it the best for the people. I heard from bernie that amazon pays no federal income tax. Which absolutely ridiculous because they all get corrupted by jeff bezos and then that lures them into making laws that suit the billionaires and the politicians lives are made better, but they cant see big picture that it affects the 200 million other people in the country, so our biggest option to counter this is to trust bust these robber barons like jeff bezos and wall street. Guys and girls..... that's all that wall street brokers are, and that's robber barons. Like Carnegie and all his companions from back in the 19th century. So were going back in time almost except we have better technology, and this right here is where biden needs to really step in after we get the covid situation under control. I was also thinking that a great idea of government would be a holarchical social capitalist democracy.

@Preety_India @Striving for more Can we please just stop this argument, I know you all have more important matters in life than some internet bickering. Thank you.

We need to shove our most spiritually developed up in office but disguise them as a rube so they vote for them.

That's the thing, you don't actually want to kill yourself. You just want to be free from your suffering. But yea, life can be really shitty. Just gotta plan out the dream life and pursue that. If your willing to kill yourself, all options are on the table. If your willing to kill yourself you'll be willing to go through a lot of work to make your life better. Like if that's where your at then all options are on the table.

Logano wrecked Busch. So Busch decides to punch him in the face and a big brawl happens.

@charlie cho The reason why semp does that is because he is a submissive masochist to the femdom lords. Your obviously not a piece of shit and he is just enchanting the elustrious will of femdom onto your soul. Dont take things too harshly kind sir,unless you like it that way. Well met, carry on.

Maybe you gotta loosen it up before you sharpen it.

It's alright man. We all know your just trynna have a good time.