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@Leo GuraI will say though, the fractals seemed to go further and further into infinity the more I surrendered. The more resistance the closer the world of form came. I didn't surrender fully, but yeah it seemed like the end.

In this state there was no concept of body anymore. Only god bathing in its bliss and infinite intelligence flowing. What my point in the post was that the resistance was an integral part of God. Resistance would show up and get showered by love and surrender over and over again for infinity. Mahasamdhi is totally unknown, you dont actually know what it is, how could you?

@Leo Gura also, If that ain't even samadhi, I dont know what is, lmao? Why are you so quick to believe you're the only one who has seen yourself brother?

Might be. I'm not gonna pretend I know. All I know is that the insight I mentioned was complete.

Haha, that was what it took for me. My whole life had led up to that one joint though. Maybe you got 1000 joints ahead of you before you reach that one joint ? Either way, it doesn't actually matter from the absolute perspective, the only one that needs a conclusion to it all is the ego.

Smoked a joint and got blasted into it, faced death. This was a year ago in world of time.

Beautiful. Full circle. ⭕

You're accustomed to this, so you think another this is more true. This room, this chair, this computer, it is all "known," therefore this can't be it. I know what this is, it's therefore wrong and not what I'm looking for. I'm looking for a deeper this, a more exciting all knowing totally different this, then and only then will this be it. What if this ordinariness is just as unknown as a trip on 5-meo dmt, lsd or mushrooms? This is only dead and real because you think you know it, you have absolutely no fucking clue wtf this is, This is total unknowingness appearing as something known. <3

Hahaha Haven't heard of that one.

That made me laugh haha You probably have to be on some funky ass compound to experience an idea punching you in a face, salvia maybe?

I notice that possibility, it's a lovely idea. The thought of going to Australia and petting some kangaroos is not going to Australia and petting some kangaroos though.

Exactly. Yes, believing that this isn't it would create the experience that I'm disconnected from all that is. Yes and that is where the seeking loop of not just there yet begins. Yep!

I'd have to imagine a different this, I'd have to imagine what infinite consciousness looks like for that to be a reality to strive for. That imagination would appear in this and would probably create unsatisfactoriness as I'm then imaging that there IS a different this. This is all there is, either appearing infinitely conscious or not. It doesn't matter. Who is the one that needs to know? And who is here, talking to you? @Consilience I bet theres a quote out there encompassing the idea of going on a journey, reaching the furthest outreaches of reality and ending up right where you started. "Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water" close enough

Infinite omniscience would be this appearing as infinite omniscience.

There is nothing outside or inside of this. You wanna know that you have arrived, but you are in your own way. You wanna transcend yourself and know that you have done it. It's the end of the seeker. The energy is looking for something else. It's experience is that this is real, and that this has to be overcome. It can't be overcome, because there is nothing to overcome, trying to overcome it makes it even more real. There is literally nothing to do, this is what is.

Stop searching, you won't find it. "this" is not a concept, it is not pointing to anything. The individual wants an ending and final destination, full knowing. If the need for knowing falls away, what is left?

It's just this. There is no it to be this, a more accurate pointing would be "this". There can be an experience of a person separate from everything, limited to the body. An experience of an outside and an inside. Of something else. An illusion, because it's not actually happening. You want a this that you can understand and know, you want separate this. If this is all there is, how can you know it? Knowing can only appear IN this, this is totally unknown. There is literally no way to express this through words, words are dualistic in nature, they are this. This can't be found.

But the heart wants what it wants The heart wants what it wants The heart wants what it wants The heart wants what it wants - Selena Gomez

Free will or no free will? Unnecessary complication. Experience of duality trying to escape duality, through duality. There are no rules, no definite answers, nothing right or wrong. Just this, you dont have to figure it out, it is already, it is this appearing as confused. Nothing outside, nothing inside, no position, mystery.

This came up on my youtube, very relatable to the topic

Nothing wrong with it. The ego can turn against itself, and that is where it becomes a problem to itself. Total ignorance is bliss, to a degree. Being aware of something beyond the ego can be a nightmare for the individual. Suddenly you're resisting the egoic energy, which creates more. You're now in your own trap, your own loop, trying to get out fuels it, trying to let it be fuels it (because it is a subtle way of trying to get out). There is nothing you can do, it's just happening for no one. Realise that and it will run its course and not stick.

Levels of spiritual development is just a story. It's part of the game. Degrees of enlightenment is really interesting for the ego. The ultimate specialness. You project the need for specialness onto the "teachers," and see them as all knowing Gods amongst men. Separation at its finest form, tricky trap.

If you are creating it, then stop it! If you are in control and have free will, just stop the suffering from happening! There is no "my" suffering, the claim of "my suffering" is the suffering itself. You dont create it, you are it.

The individual identifies with thought and tries to fit it into its story. It tries to make sense out of what is, as if what is needs you to make sense out of it to be. It is already what is. You are absolutely unnecessary for this to be what it is. The individual makes this complicated, it tries to figure everything out. Thinking about practicalities can happen, might even be easier when you're not around to question if it is okay for that to be happening. There is no distance. You cant find this. There is nothing wrong or right. Just this