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So, you basically created a problem, and want us to solve it? Do you want this problem or not? If you don't want it, then why create it? If you do, then why do you want us to solve it?

@Carl-Richard So basically, the problem is a matter of perspective? Interesting. Maybe solving it has something to do with how you view it? am playing with you.

Holy shit. I just realized that no object has an 'inside'. It's all outside. It's all a shell.

The mind is conditioned by beliefs. Some of them express experience honestly, some don't. You do exist, but not as a 'me' that is contained with a body. This is a false belief. You suffer because of it.

@Carl-Richard I thought that glass is inside of the cup. Water is outside of it. Isn't it why you can spill it by turning the cup upside down? I am playing with you.

@Carl-Richard I'm supposed to make the water stay inside of the cup. Which side is 'in'?

@Carl-Richard Strange. Which side of the cup is 'in', and which is 'out'?

Realize that these 5 men are not here with you, and are not having sex with her right now. These 5 men are not 'making you' angry. You are making yourself angry by imagining 5 men having sex with your pregnant girlfriend. There is no way out of this situation by making the world behave in certain way, because it is not the world that makes you angry. Every time you are angry, you are bringing these 5 men into the situation. You are doing this. Is this clear? The answer is simple. Stop doing this. Stop the conflict. It does not happen because something else happened. It's just you making yourself angry, wanting a fight with your girlfriend. I know that all you want is to feel better, but there is no way that the method of imagining 5 men will ever make you feel better. It will destroy the trust that she needs to feel safe and will ruin your relationship. It is very, very ineffective in making you feel happy. I would carefully inspect the beliefs around female pregnancy, sex, and your future. There is a false belief lurking there that you are using to blame your girlfriend.

Genius

This is an invitation for you to feel responsible for his decisions. Remember: you are not responsible for his decisions. He does not understand that you love him. He has lost his heart. Remember: you are not responsible for his decisions. You love him, and it's killing you. I get it. But you are not responsible for his decisions. This is a game. A game of abuse. Watch the hell out and love yourself to no end. Love will save you. First, love yourself, feel yourself, do good to yourself. Then, if anything is left, love him. This is the only way.

@Lyubov I read your journal entry, and I was wondering why don't you consider moving with her? I don't know why that occurs to me, but maybe you could consider the possibility that you don't just love her and you already miss her, but that you actually need her to stay for some reason.

By fighting war, you perpetuate it.

Dude, why the hell do you ask us what's right or wrong for you? How would we know? Just toss the damn coin and be over it. Or better, masturbate and see if the question is still relevant. Conventional wisdom says: stay away from prostitution. Given your sex drive, treating a woman like a slot machine to get high is a bad idea. Very bad idea. As for the non-conventional stuff, which way feels better? If you can't decide, flip the coin ad feel whether you are disappointed or not.

That is very true. It seems to me that you feel lonely. I wonder how that feeling ties with your other thread in the dating section? Given your skills, maybe you could start a school for investing, where you could meet people? Or maybe start an organization that could bring the abstract prices down to earth, so that people could understand them by heart? Like, having a blog that explains why certain companies are more valuable than others? You could meet some people this way.

@Vzdoh I remember seeing another thread from you that was similar to this one in the past. You cannot make someone commit to you. If you could, that commitment would destroy the relationship. Conscious choice is the key ingredient.

Despite the fact that you are mostly dealing with numerical representations and abstract concepts, these companies have thousands of humans behind them. This "correct price point" is how we numerically represent trust and reputation nowadays, so I fail to see how trading is not human level impact? Maybe what you seek is simply face-to-face interaction? Or perhaps you are getting blinded by layers of abstraction that is inherent in this field?

Maybe you could research how finance provides value, but not to the people that profit from right trades, but to society in general. For example, how does trading impact the company whose stocks are being traded? When you trade honestly, which is to say that you assess the value of a company based on high quality public information, does the general public extract value from your assessment in any way? How do automated algorithms provide such value? Which automated strategies could be considered ethical, or in other words, could be considered beneficial to the general public? Why is it important that traders "put their money where their mouth is"? If you are interested in my take on these questions, we can continue this conversation here.

@Endangered-EGO Suffering is caused by false beliefs. Don't blame the universe, don't blame yourself, don't blame. You are in a nook that seems to have no way out. Realize this. This is not your natural state. Your natural state is harmony, order. This is all ego speaking, and the Universe will have none of it. This is how God liberates you, by stopping you dead in your tracks and giving you no other option than to look at yourself. You will be fine, just find the falsehood.

@PurpleTree If you feel that the Universe is against you, stop, and inspect your beliefs to see which are false.

@kray I may be biased because I am Polish and we have a history with Russians. I think that thinking of Russia as a country, in the same sense as any other European country is unhelpful. Russia is fucking HUUUUUGE. This is not a technical, or geographical remark, more of a cultural one. This is an empire that spans across practically the whole Asia, and some of Europe. I would be very surprised if they were in any way as culturally homogeneous as countries of Europe to be considered similar.

Yesterday, I received an email with an offer regarding new job that I will be doing. It triggered me pretty much, because the lady called it a "potential offer", and me, a "potential candidate" when it seemed to me that I already passed the recruitment phase. In my mind, I was already a future employee because I had made up my mind, and wanted to work there. There is still one day I will be working on-site on 22nd and it was explained to me that its purpose is to assess whether >>I<< want to work there, whether the culture of the company suits me. "Potential" was triggering to me because it communicated their indecisiveness, as if they wanted to pull our agreement from beneath my feet, when I already made steps based on it. Couldn't sleep at night because I was wrestling with thoughts about this and I realized something. Yesterday a coworker announced that he is leaving the company because he sees no future for himself here without me. I didn't notice how this sleight-of-hand remark boosted my self-importance, which resulted in me thinking that I ought to be treated with honors I deserve. Of course, this is wholly incorrect, as the coworker made his decision with regard of his beliefs, and in accordance with what suits his life, and not because of some misplaced sense of loyalty. The process in which I was making my mind up during the night, was interesting to observe. I had thoughts afraid of the word "potential" instead of expected "realization", as well as a process that observed beliefs that could have triggered it. At the same time, I was feeling my sense of wholeness that was being disrupted by these thoughts, and not giving in to the urge to project fragmentation outwards to blame the lady. What I concluded, is that the lady that wrote the e-mail is not using language as precisely as I do, and she is simply using it to express her emotions, or excitement. This realization only came about when I remembered our telephone conversation, and how genuinely happy she seemed when I said that I decided that I wanted to work there. I knew that this conclusion is right, because I felt that my heart is so big that it barely fits into my chest. This is the sense of wholeness that I experience. Never, even for a second, my heart had doubted this decision. I am very grateful for the intuition that I was blessed with. I would like to think that this process is reminiscent of what I-Ching teaches about commonsense. A consensus of all the senses.

I feel like my heart grew three sizes.

I'm convinced that it's inevitable. Ego-intelligence is limited, and has no internal source of energy. The moment humanity realizes what it truly is, no laws will be required.

You don't have to know how things will turn out in order for them to turn out the best possible way. There is no shame in communicating your needs clearly, even if it seems scary. She can say "no" and it does not invalidate her feelings for you. The world is not a binary choice, as the ego-perception colors it. That is a very important observation. Let it sink.

That's tough, I'm sorry that you're suffering.