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The devil is the ultimate scapegoat because it loves to be demonized.

That's hilarious in conjunction with @The Blind Sage 's user name.

No worries, I wasn't able to hear you out, so that response was meant more for me than it was for you. I haven't processed something from my childhood yet, apparently. The cerebral thing may be an imbalance of skill that causes me to have this tendency to express emotions through the mind. When I was pondering your response, I remembered that during some of my early awakenings I had samadhi-like experiences when I merged emotionally with animals and passersby on the street. I wonder if that's what you mean by instinctive communication? I remember taking dancing classes and it was a blast. I feel like the perceptive sensitivity that I posses somehow ties to the way I express my emotions. It's like I don't want to overburden other people with my outbursts. My wife is very sensitive as well, so as much as an angry look may get magnified out of proportion sometimes .

Hey, nice to meet you! Thanks! Yes, I have! It's amazing that Adyashanti talked about this. What I'm aiming at is to integrate the head-perception with a heart-perception and resting in this mode of awareness. In the quoted video I was trying to deepen my understanding of the mechanism of projection. When I'm coming from just one center, the other center works in reverse when the subconscious is triggered. Exactly! Can you see how your attitude influenced your perception of me being a cerebral guy? This is what I'm trying to overcome by balancing my awareness between the heart and mind. It's easy to confuse emotionally non-expressive people with ones that don't feel. It always seems like everybody is screaming their heart expressions at me. I feel like a cat sometimes.

Transcendence is not abandonment, but integration until dissolution.

I definitely do not know the extents of your suffering right now, but when I feel like shit I do my best to avoid feeding it to my mind. Whatever I think when I'm in such a state only serves to spiral me down to oblivion. My favorite way of dealing with emotional pain is to hug myself by placing my palms on the opposite shoulders like this: This will pass. You're a good flow boy. I love you.

Thankfully, this is changing thanks to youtube. Video games are a brilliant medium for conveying unique understanding. It's just like any other media, like with music or movies. It's not about what you do, but how. Even video games can be a valid thing on the spiritual path. It seems like I'm projecting my childhood on to you. Thank you and sorry.

Yes, it's different. If you're successful in scamming me, then the difference between value and price is paid for the lesson in fraud detection. If you don't know how to spot fraud and you care about quality, then you do your research. Alternatively, you pay someone that knows how to do that. Fraud is never sustainable, so it's best to avoid it nonetheless.

Ah! You're right! Thank you! Is there a proper way of dealing with such situations? Is it just about saying an inner No? I find that sometimes it's enough to be mindful of the other person's blind spot and continue conversing despite of it until the other person becomes aware of it him/herself. There has to be a certain sense of trust present in this for it to work. Forcing it is impossible, it just makes me teach another person something at my own expense (being a punchbag). Hmmm, I'll have to ponder this. I'm trying to think this through holistically, without assigning ownership of projections. It's very difficult to communicate because I habitually assign certain meanings to phrases and it makes me slip back to old thought patterns.

Suit yourself.

Your mind is just trying to speak the language you're familiar with. I'm saying this because you seem to have a lot of guilt associated with being a gamer and it's painful to watch you beating yourself over it. I'm willing to bet that it has been picked up in your childhood like it was in my case. If you're shy - don't be. Only you can understand your dreams, they are a message for you.

You seem to be assuming that items have underlying value that is apart from the agreement of people involved in buying/selling. The average market price is just that - an average. If a person is willing to buy from you for a high price, they have a reason to do so. They either have a surplus of money and they don't care about it, or they don't know how to manage it properly. Unless you make it so, it is not your responsibility to educate people in caring for their well-being. The money you charge is for the know-how about how to build the supply chain that enables you to obtain and store the items for the customer's convenience. They are trading their money for not having to learn the broader market.

I actually did a few times. @mandyjw also found this thread useful. I'm very fond of things I wrote during mystical experiences, they are sometimes food for ouroboros.

Are you gonna rip through our I=you=we thread? It's gonna be heartbreaking for me.

I needed to read your message, like, 10 times before I could hear it. Despite the fact that you gave as much as two paragraphs of apologies in advance, my fragility made me skim the parts of the text to hear it as a bunch of insults. This is amazing. I believe this is what you're referring to @Bill W . I don't know if that's a mitigating circumstance, or not, but I wrote this post to be deliberately over-the-top nasty. It was not an outburst. Mikael posted a topic about his unhelpful self-image and got about 10 pages worth of compliments and reassurances. His reaction was to argue with people that tried to make him feel good and convince them that he truly is hideous. My intention was to make him reflect on that fact, so I had to go so much over the top that he would try to defend himself. I think that he saw through the ploy. I find this post to be juvenile because I should have known better how low self-esteem works. He does not need to hear such things from me, he probably has those insults on repeat in his mind all the time and he internalizes them. This is why I find helping people so difficult. I don't know what makes people gain distance from their own minds. I was never able to figure it out, the only think I know to work is suffering. This reply actually haunted me for days and ultimately slipped into my LSD trip. I apologized afterwards to make peace with myself. What I referred to as being an asshole in the video was more subtle. It's about witty remarks that slip through in everyday life. They mostly go unnoticed both by me and the recipient, but it still affects my relationships.

@jbram2002 You probably won't be able to hear me out, but I'm gonna say it anyway: space does not exist. It's a concept that glues the world of illusion together (just like time). Since when telling people the truth didn't make them give you weird looks?

She's writing more posts than she's hiding... (I think it's on purpose )

You cannot create love or space, but you can remove things that obstruct them. In this sense, yes - you can make them.

So, various typologies are based on expressions of essence through different means? Endocrine type being the 'body type'? I can now clearly see myself as lunar-venusian and how these qualities are indeed complimentary. They seem like a irreconcilable paradox though, impossibility. It took me solid 20 minutes to decrypt this sentence, but I'm not open enough to dive into Astrology yet. Do you find it to be accurate? There's a lot of information on my birth chart that I just generated, but I'm not going to learn all of that now. Assertiveness was definitely a very strong theme in my life. It's really difficult to find in-depth information about body types on the internet. Is there any specific name for this typology (like MBTI, or enneagram of personality)? I've seen the videos you posted and found a few websites, but it's very sparse. I wish I had known this when I was a teenager. I bet I would dismiss it though

Stage green picking on stage blue. Nothing to see here.

"Lunar willfulness and ability to focus offset by Venusian relaxed openness." is that part about personality, or about essence? I've been reading this to make sense of what essence is and I think that it's what I referred to when I said that I don't exist. It may not be a good way to phrase it, but I intend to shoot a video on that topic soon. For now, I think that personality is what is pieced together to make sense of the world, while the essence is what is left after we've deconstructed the personality enough to see it (or lack of it). Thankfully I was spared such violent outbursts, but I'm prone to yelling when I'm angry. It usually happens when I'm turning the other cheek for too long and the other person does not get the clue, or, when I'm being an asshole habitually (see below). Me being an asshole mostly comes off when I stab people unconsciously after I've seen that they say something pointless/obvious. Sometimes I even poke fun at them for that, it feels like beating a dead horse. I don't do that on the forum too often (I hope!). It's much more difficult in organic situations where it's instinctive and requires reflex. Staying in the heart space seems to mitigate that. It may be a form of expressed Schadenfreude. It was probably the first time I gave an explicit compliment on this forum. I'm mostly challenging and ridiculing people to encourage them. It only effective for the healthy people that don't need to hear it. I also said the same for the opposite case, putting myself above others. I've never been a mother, but I am a son and I know what it does to a child when a mother is entitled because she sacrificed so much for him. I feel that my mother was reasonable in this regard, but she still has trouble respecting my boundaries and using her feelings as a paper shield when I need some space. I imagine that a lot of grown ass men have problems with severing the umbilical cord if they haven't developed their violent side. Making those videos primarily for myself helps me being honest with that. Practicing vulnerability is useful for relationships. I know that relationships are an end in itself for you. Thank you. When are you going to post a new video?