tsuki

You do not 'wake up' in the morning. "I" does.

You are your understanding, but you don't understand it. Others are not able to be on your level because there are no others. There is no difference between love and hate.

Your radical rejection of society is genuine, it comes from your unbiased understanding of its mechanics. You see that it is not different from nature, it is just another expression of it. You do not hate society, or nature. You hate yourself so passionately that you emptied your guts and are left with nothing. Keep swimming in what you've made, but realize that it's just just more "I" to let go of. To affirm the creation is to save the creator. There is nowhere to go, because there is nobody to save.

I die for your sins.

Yes, you are 'missing out' the specialness of meditation and that is precisely what ought to happen. Meditation should carry on uninterruptedly into the rest of your day, even the productive parts. Formal sittings are useful in the morning to undo the initial contraction after waking up.

It does not matter whether the motor runs forwards ('being right'), or backwards ('holding space'). The "I" is implicit in "other".

@Inliytened1 Hahahaha

You're wrong and that's why I'm going to stop.

I am a proof? Everything follows from my existence, and yet - nothing is worth following.

@Inliytened1 No more trying left. There is nothing in silence to doubt itself.

"We" are not talking.

@Inliytened1 I thought I already did?

Enlightenment is the ultimate hero's journey. Nothing can prepare you for it. No amount of support will help here. Any person you drag along will have to enlighten with you, so choose wisely.

You posess infinite understanding. Point that towards your writings and see through them.

Let it all out.

I'm sorry, but I haven't caught the significance of this. "Back then", when I was assaulted it felt unfathomable. I was smiling, happy, and yet scared. The notion of pain and pleasure stopped to be significant, it was just an 'intense experience'. It was like my whole body was created by love so intense that it was painful. The discharge of mental breakdown that happened for that guy was now stored in me and needed a release. I wanted to discharge that love in terms of what was available to me at "the time", which was my body. I was prepared to meet them and physically kill them. When I started surrendering that desire and wanted to return home, there was nobody out there waiting to confront me. I knew that what that 'person' did was exclaim his own insecurity, contraction, when he saw a blank slate. I took that in and dissolved it back to nothingness by traversing the path 'for him'. I really can't believe just how perfect the conditions for buddhahood have to be. I don't know if that's surrender what's causing perfection, or perfection allowing for surrender to occur. It really seems like the pyramid becomes inverted at the apex in the initial awakening and folds back on itself in the Absolute.

All theory, knowledge, duality, is time-dependent. Time = Space = I = Other

Look at your hand when it is moving, changing. Open and clench your fist. Watch the motion, change. How can it change and yet, still be itself (a hand)?

@Aakash Dude, stop playing with time. Look at your hand. Now, move it. Is it still your hand? How is it possible for something to be itself and not be itself at the same 'time'?

your perfect knowledge and understanding is the distraction. Its sole purpose is to distract. That's it.

You want to distract yourself away from venturing into the portal. That is the purpose of the perfect, complete knowledge and omniscience. It's irresistible and impossible to give up. It's the greatest sacrifice that outshines the humility of any saint.

Solipsism is true or false depending on the context you're putting it in. For the Godhead, the solipsism of personal self is false. For the personal self, the solipsism of the Godhead is false. In the Absolute, there is no separation and falsehood, precisely because it is unfalsifiable.

I have no idea what you two have been going through, but I'm so happy for you guys.