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Alrighty, what are you? Are you? Are you not? What is the world? Is there a world? Is the world not there (or here)? What is knowledge? What is God?

What do you mean by 'real'?

Hmm, can you avoid learning things? No reason can be attributed to unity that can explain its fall to multiplicity. And what perspective is that, exactly?

The article went over my head, I'm preoccupied with Meditations for now. I find it charming that Tomberg seems to argue in favor of Christian yoga over Advaitan non-duality. I need to re-read the second chapter (The High Priestess) because his arguments seem to me like petty squabble and I can't accept that.

Both books are superb. It seems like 1000 is challenging to you emotionally, while I find Meditations to be difficult intellectually.

All theories are built from the fundamental duality of yin and yang. They are comprised of visible, inert, passive 'things' and hidden, active, alive 'interactions'. Dimensions are the fundamental 'trick' that lets us think of yang in terms of yin - it is a quantitative measure of freedom that the theory accounts for. The more dimensions a theory has, the more expressive it is: interactions (yang) can unite the various kinds of 'things' (yin) into a tangible, unified, system. Dimensions themselves, however, are neither yin, nor yang - they are a mirror that lets us see one in the other. They are what informs our notions of possibility and designate the extents of paradox and ambiguity. A theory beyond its application is like looking at a projection of a cube to a plane and arguing whether it's viewed from 'up' or 'down': The connection between God and dimensions is such that it can be viewed as Nothingness and Absolute Infinity. Nothingness is the divine Yin, zero dimensions, where everything is explained because nothing makes sense. Absolute infinity is the divine Yang, infinite dimensions, the God of Love and ultimate freedom of creation. The former is stillness surrendered-to, while the latter is genius possessed-by. Of course, they are symmetric in the sense that it takes a genius to be still because reality abhors vacuum, and it takes stillness for a genius to express his/her inspiration. So, humans are meso-dimensional because we choose the theories based on their dimensionality, and we're meta-dimensional because we create theories to fit the dimensions of any given problem. Both of are divine, as they require from us a choice in directionless conditions - to unwrap the unknown into knowledge and wrap it back to unity.

From Meditations on the Tarot

Yes, the feedback is a mystical experience. The point however is to not cling to it, not making it into an 'achievement'.

Yes it does. Worship is a very powerful method of releasing individuality, but at the same time it's also very prone to misunderstanding because of its simplicity. Today's culture makes it difficult to have a personal relationship with God, so there is no feedback from this method. To become self-realized through it, it requires immense surrender followed by Grace given by God itself. I don't picture that happening too often in the West because of our materialistic/scientific disposition. What we could use though, is a prophet of science that would express God in terms of technology. Maybe, with more man-machine integration and artificial intelligence, being a man of God would be feasible again? Hmmm....

@Zigzag Idiot Thank you! ❤️

I've been reading Meditations on Tarot, and I stumbled across an important distinction. Hermeticism deals with multiplicity of the world by using its underlying unity in the unknown. This multiplicity, knowledge, is two-dimensional. One dimension is time (past-now-future), the other is space (below-here-above). The author of the book makes a distinction between these two dimensions and classifies spiritual technology (that, which makes one arrive at unity) into two categories: mythology and typology. Mythology are universals that show the multiplicity relating to time as inherently unified, while typology shows the apparent multiplicity of 'things' as unified between levels of abstraction (subtlety). The example of a Mythology would be Hero's journey, while an example of Typology would be Enneagram of personality, MBTI, or endocrinal type. I'm still quite baffled by the Enneagram itself, as it seems to be a map of maps, something that can be used to express both typologies and mythologies.

So, for the past few weeks nothing happened. I kept the momentum of my everyday life at peace. The dust after my recent happening is settling down and I'm resting in the state of no-mind. It's still difficult in the morning after the night's sleep, but noticing the struggle to be struggle-free seems to end it. My nights are usually peaceful and dreamless. I am aware of that I am sleeping and the constant thought creation and annihilation seems to carry on into the night. The thoughts that occur in this space are often profound insights about love, truth and beauty, but I'm unable/not interested in retaining them in the morning. There are a lot of synchronicities happening there, but they are expressed in terms of things that happen during the night, like my wife squirming in bed. I noticed that I've been asking myself "what now?" often, and the only satisfying answer that comes up is simply: 'now'. What now? Now. If I were to say what the world needs the most right now is to simply need less. The only worthwhile contribution that I can make is to teach, by example, how to be free of desires and offer guidance to people in need. However, teaching is not a desire of my own, so I will not venture out on a quest. Making myself publicly available is the only thing I'm going to do. I found a meditation group in my city and I'm planning on going there few times a week. It's equally an opportunity to help others that seek help, as it is an opening for them to show me my place. Both are fine with me. Now that I'm a steady state of surrender, I no longer need to be 'on my own', without a teacher. I started reading a lot. In the past few weeks I finished the Kybalion and started reading God is Nothingness, but lost interest halfway through the latter. The book is great, especially for those mistaking Nothingness with nihilism (@mandyjw) but did not offer much value to me. I bought myself Kindle Oasis to fuel my passion for reading and ended up short on money this month. Thankfully, Amazon lets download previews of books, so I can keep my space from the black hole of youtube cat meme videos. Talks with Sri Ramana Maharshi are giving me a lot of insight into the process of self-realization and the nature of various practices that I've done. Maharshi is very intelligent and somewhat cheeky, so reading it is entertaining. I'm Just getting started with Meditations on Tarot, but I can already tell that this book is very profound. I may start to study Christianity more deeply because it's very popular where I live and I need a common ground to work from, if I want to help people. When I was reading Ramaji's 1000 I stumbled across the fragment about Lama Tsultrim Allione and immediately resonated with her. Her books have been translated to Polish and I was hoping to find Feeding your demons, but it has been sold out. I bought Women of wisdom instead and gave it to my wife to inspire her. The results are mixed because she's interested, but it's tearing through her trauma a lot. I also bought her Loving what is by Byron Katie and she seems to be much more into this one. I find it a little flattering that she finds mine and Katie's teachings regarding the heartmind similar. In the future, I will probably study the practices of Kriya Yoga from the book list. Unfortunately, the most important book is not sold as an e-book, so I will have to order a physical copy.

You are both welcome

Then I don't know what he was talking about. Burning yourself alive is painful, but suffering because of it is optional.

Why would one self-immolate, if there is no future to protect or past to run from? How would one self-immolate, if there is no self or other to protect or defeat? While being mastery of pain, it is a failure at mastery of self.

You are conflating suffering with pain. Notice that you are never addicted in the present moment. You can only be addicted to something in relation to past or future. Getting caught up in thought-spirals fueled by imagination/memory is what constitutes ego=suffering=time. With enough mastery of the mind, there is even no pain. There is only intensity without a point of reference, which is ultimately meaningless. Loving yourself means to love yourself to death. To accept everything that occurs and surrender any meaning that drives time.

What we experience is irrelevant. You had an insight expressed in terms of something that you can understand. Work on understanding and embodying that insight.

If you decide on your dose recklessly, then what you get is exactly what is needed to put you back in your place.

I wanna disagree.

I never practiced astral projection, but it is supposedly possible to harm a person physically by harming their astral body.

That's a good way to put it. You can ease into presence this way, but ultimately, any notion of growth needs to be surrendered as well. I didn't mean to imply that I'm an expert on 5-MeO. I was making a point that everything takes skill, so does tripping. If your true, genuine, desire is to experience highest states of consciousness with psychedelic substances, then you will be guided that way. This does not imply that you should dive in blindly, on the contrary - you will feel the urge to study this topic thoroughly and it will not feel forced.