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@bejapuskas @DrewNows (sorry, I'm on mobile) No, I don't know what yawning means. Sorry.

@bejapuskas I call the mystical experience seeking ego a 'suicidal spiritual drunkard'.

On the surface level, you are the only one that perceives your thoughts, but the thoughts that you cultivate influence the behavior you manifest outwardly. I'd say that letting go of these negative thoughts is the precondition for healing a relationship, even if it is done by one person only. Very often, we act out and hurt each other simply because we're wrapped up in everyday matters and do not care to understand the behavior of other people. I'd say that the bulk of the work is not really about letting go, but about trying to get into the frame of mind of the other person and see how the offensive behavior made sense from that point of view. That often leads to release of your feelings of hurt and this release cannot be faked by ignoring negative thoughts. As for prayer, or sending good vibes - I don't know.

Responsibility is not about attributing blame. It is not to be thought of retrospectively as if a person is the sole cause and the origin of something. Responsibility is about being able to respond to something here and now, not being a victim of circumstances that unfold. It is about owning your life, making it something that you are creating in the present moment. In this sense, witnessing our lives and responsibility (response-ability) are one and the same thing. You cannot be responsible unless you are present (witness). It is about not getting caught up in suffering, in mind stories and thought loops that explain things as something that we cannot, but want/desire/must, influence to be happy.

Definitely sounds like ego death. It cracked me up when she said that she "sees it all in color". I thought that cameras were black and white back then, not the world!

Sadhguru on the third eye. https://youtu.be/wJWmrFiqPdg

Sinking the mind in the breath: day #11 My wife had an ultrasound examination yesterday and I decided to fast along with her to test the waters. Surprisingly, I enjoyed it a lot! I woke up energetic and after a light breakfast we went on a walk to the nearby forest. I felt strongly connected with my body and entered a semi-mystical experience where I saw the whole world as one existence of many forms, some of which pass through 'my body'. The usual notion of the material me that is bound by flesh vanished and I became the shape-shifting world itself. On the other end my mind dissolved into the collective understanding that is visible in culture, internet, etc, so 'I' became nothing that mediates between Earth-body and human collective mind. The experience was ecstatic. To my wife's horror it woke a 5-year old me and I embarked on a journey through the forest, off the tracks. Somebody told the forest that the autumn is coming and it shed the leaves to uncover its insides. It was very beautiful and even though I was barely after breakfast, the mere idea of fasting made me feel energetic and hyper-vigilant. The other, parallel, perception was the one of creation. I work as a technologist that manifests ideas in steel, and the tool shop that I work in felt as my cybernetic body. I felt like a giant cyborg, mecha pilot, and my vehicle was the world of technology itself. I remembered the insight I had few months back that we, humans, are artisans of death. We kill things so thoroughly, that they do not dare living for themselves and create order out of that. That is why 'purity' of raw materials is so important for technological purposes. 'Purity' is the measure of how dead something is. During the day, I was shocked to notice just how much of my life is occupied by food and how difficult it is to do something that is not related to it. Just like I'm starving my mind of meaning and do things thoughtlessly, starving my gut allowed me to notice the beauty of the world to a greater extent. Sustenance is an important part of the everyday's business and letting go of that is a huge relief. I will be fasting in the future, maybe one day in a week? This gut-mind equivalence has led me understand that there is just one 'life force' that is driving the world of everyday affairs. Meditation is the process in which we consciously resist, or rather - surrender, that force and keep our stillness. This actually increases intelligence that is rapt by the currents of everyday life and lets us perceive it on a deeper level. I wonder what is the equivalent of meditation for the heart and what is the expression of life force in that center. Is it just attachment? No idea for now. Coffee detox seems to be over and I can comfortably wake up with no cravings or headaches. I will keep track of this addiction to avoid slipping back. Apart from fasting, I meditated for just about 15 minutes late in the night and kept breathing consciously throughout the day.

Yeah, I knew that this one is good when it came up yesterday morning. Welcome aboard the ship of fools!

One of the best channels I stumbled upon on youtube that deals with topics related to self-development. It mostly covers philosophy, psychology and art and is a good introduction to spirituality from the humanistic approach.

@Truth Addict Mmmm, sorry for my projections. I guess I needed to spill my guts.

@Truth Addict We share a similar story. The difference is that I aced the schools with no competition till the day I graduated at the top of my class in the university. I know what it feels to have everything I need in the world and not having to earn it. I also know how it feels to be alone because I focus so deeply on what I'm interested in, that everything else ceases to exist. I can relate to your "genius laziness" a lot. Wherever I look, I understand the end result and see most of the things apart from consciousness work as a pointless treadmill. I rarely even think at work, I mostly meditate while doing the things I'm supposed to do. Helping people in my immediate surroundings and here on the forum is the best way I can utilize my time. I am very hopeful of integrating my green and expanding my life to include "spiritual people" because this forum is the only place I can almost go all out with people. So, I think that we share similar "demons" of having no problems in life. My solution to having no problems is to not fuck this up by having a restless mind that can't enjoy what it has. At least, for now.

Why so?

I swear, one day I will go through every single one of Nahm's 13'000 posts and understand him. There is more to him than just being all lovey-dovey and it vexes me. He's my guru and I can't admit it to myself lol.

@mandyjw Sigh...

@Truth Addict I think that you miss the core of what orange is. Orange is about learning to influence the external world successfully. It's about leveraging your mental capability to produce outcomes. It is not necessarily about being selfish. Selfishness arises in orange when a person leverages power to gain more power and that loop hoists the meaning-making process of the mind. It's a self-harming pathology. Blue's dogma is the cocoon from which the rational mind bursts out. Orange's selfishness is the cocoon from which green's empathy springs. Green's miasma of absolute relativity is the cocoon from which yellow's integration comes forth. We seem to be similar in that we're bordering yellow, but the difference lies in the stage were integrating. You are integrating orange while I'm integrating green. If you're really grounded in green then you shouldn't be too afraid of Orange's selfishness.

@Zigzag Idiot That's interesting. Would you mind sharing some techniques?

Thank you. I agree with your assessment of me. I enjoyed the fact that you've put your ass on the line for once. I would enjoy it even more if you made an honest assessment of yourself instead of pretending to be a clown. ♥️ Playing your projections out is the fastest way to learn them, even if it makes you a pain in the ass for others. In the long run, everybody benefits from it. I consider you to be green as well.

Prayer.

Fasting is how you meditate with your gut.

Sinking the mind in the breath: day #10 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKWt6FPXyxI

Some questions can be answered by showing that they are nonsensical. Pointlessness is the domain beyond the ego. Wherever is a point, the ego is intertwined. If you talk about pointlessness, don't judge it from the egoic perspective and assign value to it. It's just ego running its own loops. If you inhabit pointlessness to the point where it's comfortable and it suddenly becomes pointful, there is nobody to attribute that change to. It is not your fault that the ego arises, because you weren't there when it appeared. The ego is non-originated. Even if it likes to attribute things to itself, it is not a cause of anything. It's so hollow that its eye sockets are empty to see its own emptiness. So, the answer to your problem is: stop mixing the levels. Relax into it until it flips by itself.

The fact that the truth is pointless, is pointless to truth.

There is such a depth to this question, that I'm not going to give you a simple answer. Thoughts appear, but there is no thinker.

@Aakash ?