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It just struck me what the popular notion of death is. It is the world collapsing the bounded self into a conscious point-like singularity that has sight, but cannot see, has touch, but cannot feel etc. It is the total collapse. The more I understand, the more I get that the ego is such a sophisticated tool that it takes many lifetimes to master.

You're gonna love this @mandyjw.

@ActualizedDavid Because fame comes with certain responsibilities that you may not want to shoulder. Being famous for "no reason", is a pipe dream and a straight way to a mental hospital.

OH, now I get it!!!! Eureka!!! Jordan Peterson is afraid of post-modernism because it is the deconstruction of culture. He tries to understand the world through knowledge and he can't admit the possibility that it can always be deconstructed! He equates post-modernists with chaos and he can't see the harmony beyond the mind! The chief mistake he is making is that he tries to understand reality. He tries to gather examples and extract principles. That is not how it works! You cannot construct grace! Just imagine what would happen if he started tripping properly lol. That would be magnificent.

2:41 - a rant against postmodernism 4:17 - Deconstruction of the deterministic, Newtonian view of the operation of the ego on the basis of the fact that "objects" we perceive have no definite boundaries. 6:48 - the frame problem, "how to limit your perceptions". Emergent properties of systems. 8:40 - the archaic view of Sacred is grounded in the presupposition that the Absolute is "the sum total". The encounter with the Absolute is the encounter with all the consequences of the emergent properties of everything that exists. "The absolute is always something that transcends the finite frame you place around your perceptions". "Finger pointing to the moon": Concertizing it, representing it symbolically, denies its absolute nature. 9:50 - It seems like this is where Peterson confuses the "Finger pointing to the moon" with a moral statement that humans should be mindful of their finite capacity to understand. Weird. 10:25 - This is very yellow. Understanding reality requires multi-paradigmatic perception. 10:48 - Deconstruction of the ego. Actuality is "colored", "framed" by the wants of the ego. Ego as a walled city. Very reminiscent of existential philosophy of Martin Heidegger ('ready-to-hand'). The mind linearizes, simplifies, concretizes reality for the mind's purposes ignorantly. 12:17 - Context shapes distinctions that are used by the mind. "The room is a theater". "The room tells you what to do". The ego is not contained within a skull, the human is interspersed with its environment. 14:27 - "You are in a walled city". Walls are subtle. 14:40 - Yin yang. Peterson thinks that metaphysics aren't practical lol. Chaos vs order. Chaos attracts attention because you already understand the order. Personal failures are 'the world falling apart'. That relates to the previous sections with 'walls interwoven in reality'. Peterson seems to be terribly fearful of surrendering to life, he calls actuality "chaos". Total disregard of the underlying harmony of the world apart from human effort. 17:04 - Accidental descent into chaos is "the worst experience of your life", that is Peterson's projection. Confuses presence with emergency preparation mode LOL. Uses biology to justify the unwillingness to surrender (cortisol levels etc). 17:54 - Discussion of yin-yang symbol. Very good. Talks about enlightenment. 19:18 - Discussion of Christian symbols. Argues that society needs to be formed through effort of its members. Seems to be not aware that society emerged from nature's harmony (he calls nature chaos). "Chaos is murderous and unproductive". 20:36 - Society (order) as an archetype. Positive and negative expressions but only the negative ones are given emphasis. 21:38 - Nature as an archetype. Medusa is the unknown that "turns you into stone". Uses Buddhism to justify his worldview that "life is suffering". Implies that Buddhism views yin as the absolute. Uses that to justify his fear (I'm finite and I contend with the absolute). This is completely wrong, the absolute is not "lots of stuff". Infinity is not a number. At this point, I lost interest in dissecting it. There are very good yellow-level nuggets interspersed with fear-mongering. I watch Peterson's lectures from time to time and I'm steadily losing my interest in him because of this.

This one is awesome. He even mentions Godel's incompleteness theorem.

Freedom is correlated with selflessness. If you have the freedom to incarnate as someone in the past, the will to do so is not arbitrary. What most people call freedom is "I can choose this or that, or whatever else comes up my mind". After you're dead, the mind of the person (that you are currently reasoning with) will be gone. That is 'what is a person?' question. You can spend years contemplating it and no explanation will do it justice.

@Kushblow You are asking many deep questions in rapid succession without realizing it. Questions such as "what is a person?", "what is God?", "what is the relationship between the person and God?", and "what is existence?". There are many persons, but God is neither one, nor many. God is absolute. God is God. it is a completely different category. Every single person that has ever existed, existed "through" God. At the bottom, of everything - you are that, regardless of whether you are aware of it or not.

@flowboy I remember having terrible trouble getting up in the morning when I started my first regular job. Waking up at 5:30 was a nightmare because all of my morning negativity was happening at work and it was making me despise it. I even made a rule for myself to never reflect upon my life in the morning because it was spiraling into depression. The answer was to start waking up at 4am to enjoy myself in the morning instead of waking up to get to work. It was something like "getting up for my own sake instead of waking up because my boss wants me to". Many years later, I'm still waking up 2 hours before getting to work to have a normal breakfast, iron my clothes, and do basic stuff at my own pace. I can't stress enough just how much it had improved my life.

Damn, this guy is so good. Five sheaths, consciousness in dead objects, reincarnation.

I think I finally got the lesson that life has been kicking my ass for. I need to let go of my compassion, just like I have let go of my humility.

I decided to quit it because I was seeing the difference in the quality of my mindfulness practice in the morning. I felt as if it diminished my sensitivity by overstimulating my nervous system. I also suspected that it decreased the quality of my sleep. Also, I have a "less is more" policy when it comes to organizing my life. If I can do without coffee, then I feel that it is better than relying on it. After quitting, I feel a lot calmer and I don't need coffee to get back to my baseline. I feel less groggy after waking up and a few hours into the morning. When it comes to my sleep, I started having dreams again, but I think that it is related to meditation rather than coffee, but who knows? I can definitely release micro-fears much more easily.

Zero. I haven't got a cup ever since I decided to drop it and noted it in the journal. The withdrawal symptoms are gone (headaches, sleepiness etc) and I don't crave it anymore. I still get occasional sleepiness during the day, especially after meals but I'm probably eating too much.

So, the past few days were pretty hectic, details are no longer important because they mostly slipped my mind. Yesterday was our first anniversary and we had a good day together despite being on the verge of a fight. Later that day we had a big discussion/fight and for now, we're putting the pieces back together. I bought a book about herbalism written by Thomas Easley and Steven Horne. For the time being, I decided to dedicate my attention to studying herbs. I always wanted to know their properties. I'm currently testing the Tilia tea out as it seems to have warming and relaxing properties. So far, it proves to be effective. I even felt dizzy while drinking it. I also decided that I will be making some herbal tinctures soon. Coffee is long forgotten and that is precisely why I need to be vigilant. I slipped back on my meditation habit. I need to get it back up.

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Pfft. Don't watch movies for the plot, you're waay too smart for that. Watch them for the message, plot is just the mean to express it. The movie is about the relationship between suffering and freedom.

@Truth Addict Have you watched V for vendetta? I think you would enjoy it on a very deep level.

Atrocious. That is weaponized knowledge. Knowledgeable preying on sick people, treating symptoms instead of diseases. Still, the greatest disease of all is devilry and I don't know the cure. I don't know how to enlighten people. Ignorant devils. Just imagine what would happen if you cured them.

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This is so funny that it's actually very tragic. When seekers hear 'I am wise' they automatically think that you're an idiot that is blind to himself. They don't even conceive of the possibility that someone can actually be wise, know it, and say it. They think that saying that you are humble contradicts your humility. They think that humility means that you don't talk about yourself, that you dismiss praise. They are the same kind of people that think that 'to be compassionate' means 'to give comfort to the ones that suffer', 'to hug them'. I am so tired of playing people's games. Sorry for this rant. I know I was supposed to leave your journal alone.

@Truth Addict Now, now. Every spiritual seeker knows that it's objectively bad to be angry ♥️.

@flowboy I suggest reading From fixation to freedom written by Eli Jaxon Bear.