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This one is awesome. He even mentions Godel's incompleteness theorem.

Freedom is correlated with selflessness. If you have the freedom to incarnate as someone in the past, the will to do so is not arbitrary. What most people call freedom is "I can choose this or that, or whatever else comes up my mind". After you're dead, the mind of the person (that you are currently reasoning with) will be gone. That is 'what is a person?' question. You can spend years contemplating it and no explanation will do it justice.

@Kushblow You are asking many deep questions in rapid succession without realizing it. Questions such as "what is a person?", "what is God?", "what is the relationship between the person and God?", and "what is existence?". There are many persons, but God is neither one, nor many. God is absolute. God is God. it is a completely different category. Every single person that has ever existed, existed "through" God. At the bottom, of everything - you are that, regardless of whether you are aware of it or not.

@flowboy I remember having terrible trouble getting up in the morning when I started my first regular job. Waking up at 5:30 was a nightmare because all of my morning negativity was happening at work and it was making me despise it. I even made a rule for myself to never reflect upon my life in the morning because it was spiraling into depression. The answer was to start waking up at 4am to enjoy myself in the morning instead of waking up to get to work. It was something like "getting up for my own sake instead of waking up because my boss wants me to". Many years later, I'm still waking up 2 hours before getting to work to have a normal breakfast, iron my clothes, and do basic stuff at my own pace. I can't stress enough just how much it had improved my life.

Damn, this guy is so good. Five sheaths, consciousness in dead objects, reincarnation.

I think I finally got the lesson that life has been kicking my ass for. I need to let go of my compassion, just like I have let go of my humility.

I decided to quit it because I was seeing the difference in the quality of my mindfulness practice in the morning. I felt as if it diminished my sensitivity by overstimulating my nervous system. I also suspected that it decreased the quality of my sleep. Also, I have a "less is more" policy when it comes to organizing my life. If I can do without coffee, then I feel that it is better than relying on it. After quitting, I feel a lot calmer and I don't need coffee to get back to my baseline. I feel less groggy after waking up and a few hours into the morning. When it comes to my sleep, I started having dreams again, but I think that it is related to meditation rather than coffee, but who knows? I can definitely release micro-fears much more easily.

Zero. I haven't got a cup ever since I decided to drop it and noted it in the journal. The withdrawal symptoms are gone (headaches, sleepiness etc) and I don't crave it anymore. I still get occasional sleepiness during the day, especially after meals but I'm probably eating too much.

So, the past few days were pretty hectic, details are no longer important because they mostly slipped my mind. Yesterday was our first anniversary and we had a good day together despite being on the verge of a fight. Later that day we had a big discussion/fight and for now, we're putting the pieces back together. I bought a book about herbalism written by Thomas Easley and Steven Horne. For the time being, I decided to dedicate my attention to studying herbs. I always wanted to know their properties. I'm currently testing the Tilia tea out as it seems to have warming and relaxing properties. So far, it proves to be effective. I even felt dizzy while drinking it. I also decided that I will be making some herbal tinctures soon. Coffee is long forgotten and that is precisely why I need to be vigilant. I slipped back on my meditation habit. I need to get it back up.

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Pfft. Don't watch movies for the plot, you're waay too smart for that. Watch them for the message, plot is just the mean to express it. The movie is about the relationship between suffering and freedom.

@Truth Addict Have you watched V for vendetta? I think you would enjoy it on a very deep level.

Atrocious. That is weaponized knowledge. Knowledgeable preying on sick people, treating symptoms instead of diseases. Still, the greatest disease of all is devilry and I don't know the cure. I don't know how to enlighten people. Ignorant devils. Just imagine what would happen if you cured them.

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This is so funny that it's actually very tragic. When seekers hear 'I am wise' they automatically think that you're an idiot that is blind to himself. They don't even conceive of the possibility that someone can actually be wise, know it, and say it. They think that saying that you are humble contradicts your humility. They think that humility means that you don't talk about yourself, that you dismiss praise. They are the same kind of people that think that 'to be compassionate' means 'to give comfort to the ones that suffer', 'to hug them'. I am so tired of playing people's games. Sorry for this rant. I know I was supposed to leave your journal alone.

@Truth Addict Now, now. Every spiritual seeker knows that it's objectively bad to be angry ♥️.

@flowboy I suggest reading From fixation to freedom written by Eli Jaxon Bear.

@flowboy @flowboy Tests are generally unreliable because enneagram is cognitive, not behavioral. It is much better to understand theory and type yourself by understanding the mechanics of your ego. I'm type six, but depending on my stress level I can become nine or three. I also have something of a minor ego that is centered in five and can go to eight or even seven. It is very tricky for a six to type itself.

@flowboy That's Eli Jaxon Bear, enlightenment teacher focused on the enneagram. You may be a sexual six. The difference is that six is fueled by fear and stuck in the head. The machoism is then a way of fending the threat off by being aggressive. An 8 is always willing to escalate while a 6 is more of a push-surrender dynamic. If you're unsure if your type, you are probably a six. Doubt is the fear of fear.

@NoSelfSelf For me, emotional mastery is about having emotions as a sense (like sight) and incorporating the information they provide into behavior deliberately. The "mastery" part is about being skillful in it to the point where it becomes second (or even first) nature. It is not necessarily about suppression, although knowing how to disregard some feelings can be of great value because it is very counter-intuitive.

Sinking the mind in the breath: day #18, #19 and #20 OM changing continued, but I was not focused enough because my wife was preparing for her medical examination. Thanks to the tuning, I started to enjoy the sound of my voice and became much more conscious of how I use it. I find this mild fascination very healthy and it makes me feel much more confident and grounded. Two days ago we had a small party and I had an opportunity to dance. It was extremely pleasant to release tension this way. My mother in law visited us yesterday. The three of us went for a long walk to the forest and visited my parents. After she left, me and my wife fought over the fact that we fight a lot. lol.

How does this video make you feel?