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@Nahm I've gotten ahead of myself. I was seeing my own story. Instead of loving myself I decided to push myself away. It was a mistake. @Scholar You are going in the right direction. Keep digging, and you will become it. You may be interested in my story even if it's quite lengthy. Here's the link, you may relate to it:

@Scholar Aren't you seeing yourself in the text? Didn't it ever surprise you that a text is ambiguous and people will argue about it? When I say "truth", how do you know what I mean? By asking questions, you don't question the words you use to ask them. Truth is whatever stops you from seeking.

@Scholar Let me ask you: where does truth come from?

At this point all I have to say is this: applying logic is illogical. Logic cannot prove its own method. You apply logic and get results. You treat results as reality. By treating them as such, you create it. There is no difference between you being in control by understanding things and things playing themselves and you narrating a story afterwards. The answer to your enlightenment lies in the answer to the question: where is logic grounded? Once you answer this question sincerely and see what changes in the world, you may become enlightened.

@Scholar Logic is a feeling that A follows B. How is it logical that A follows B? When you see the two above sentences, how do you know that they correlate? Logic is an illusion. It's groundless.

@Scholar Consciousness is unconscious from a different perspective. When you move your hand, does your conscious process make the hand move? Does it move your muscles? Try first moving your hand, and try to move your hand by moving the muscles themselves to mimic the other. Can you? How do you know that you consciousness is the one moving your hand, and not narrating your thoughts, as the hand moves by itself?

See this: logical process itself is illogical. Why is there logic at all? 1) Mary ran over a cat. 2) The cat died. Where is the logical connection that points 1 -> 2? It's a feeling. It's illogical!

Thoughts think themselves. There is no reality, there is only you. What is the difference between you not understanding reality and reality playing itself out as you? You have control if you understand. If you don't - the thing plays itself.

@Scholar What I claim is that your whole life, every single story that you have about yourself is such a paradox. The only thing that prevents you from seeing it is the size of the circular reasoning applied. Every thought is a loop. A paradox.

You are almost seeing it, I can tell. Are you seeing how this thing spins itself trying to produce a result that disproves itself? This is the paradox of reality. This is why you see yourself as you stare at the text I'm writing. There is one difference between someone insane and extremely intelligent. The answer is: you. What is the difference between not understanding somebody because you're too stupid and him being incomprehensible lunatic? The answer is: you. Is someone saying something to you, or are you producing the meaning out of thin air?

@ScholarYou are getting at something important. This circular reasoning is not present only here, but in every other assumption-conclusion, cause-effect reasoning. Every conclusion you make have an assumption. Where did it come from? From the notion of something else being true. Things are true only by the virtue of a "gut" feeling. Your reason tells you that they are. Why do you trust your reason? Is it because it is reasonable? Have you ever tried to assume a paradox and come to a conclusion? Once you try, you get so-called "false" ideas about reality, but that's only true because you assume that you can't assume paradox. Reason has its limits. You are approaching them. Keep going and you will become enlightened.

It's like writing an SMS to your loved one trying to tell her to "enjoy life" and the auto-correct changes that to "I'm enjoying life" and realizing that you are giving the advice to yourself. That correcting it back would spoil the whole thing and you let it go, sending it. And then, she replies: "I'm enjoying my life too!". constant death awareness is seeing your own, so called, wisdom turning on itself, showing you your own ignorance.

I think that I can elaborate on the constant death awareness from my point of view. Some of you may have experienced an event that made your life crumble on itself. Like a huge loss that simply crushes you, obliterates you. That event causes you to be left hanging in void. There is nothing to hold on to. No way to tell up from down. You feel crushing sadness that you were reminded of something you had forgotten, that there is nothing to hold on to and there never were. Sadness comes from you trying to make reality something it is not. You are not letting go. It's like looking at a photo of an explosion, or a wildfire. You look at it, dumbstruck at all of the incredible complexity there is and that you miss it, completely, every second in everyday life. Then, you look at the photo again and see something completely different, thinking that a second ago you were being ignorant in thinking that you understood the thing. That it was spelling your ignorance for you, and yet, you didn't see the whole thing. You look away, embarrassed and smiling that you know the wisdom of life.

When you see solipsism, you are still in subject-object paradigm. If Mary is REALLY the one dreaming the dream, who is dreaming Mary? If She's not a part of the dream, then where is she if the dream is all there is? The answer is: She's in Jane's dream. When you pass a stranger on the street and he looks at you, smiling, is he happy or sarcastic? The answer is: you. Depending on the answer to the above question, you're living two completely different worlds. Every other person, as well as yourself is a mirror. Once you mistake your reflection for another person, you may get angry that he's not letting you through the door

Just wait and see what happens when you let go when you're super stressed out. Try that some time in the future.

When I see life as an hourglass of meaning.

To effortlessly try. To forget to remember and remember to forget.

Funny how death leads to it You need to die in order to live and see the cycle. A positive feedback loop. Completely counter-intuitive.

@Neo You decided to let your mind go, and now you expect an answer that can be accepted by the mind? That's a no-no. Keep going. Trust yourself.

@MarkusSweden Suicide by trying to live the perfect life

Have you even noticed that people have no more knowledge about technology these days than people had about nature in the stone age? Sure, we can flip our phone and connect to the collective consciousness just to scroll Facebook instead of banging two rocks together. We have no idea where our phone came from, just like where the trees came from. No single human being knows how our phone works, just like a tree. No single human has built our phone, just like the tree. We can say that Apple made the phone, so we can say that God made the trees. It just came to my mind after reading your post @Patang .

Depending on what you take reality to be, different methods of inquiry resonate with you. You then apply these methods to see an answer to what reality is. All of them have one thing in common - they take their answers to say what reality is without seeing what they all have in common. They all are the Gateless Gate.

It's difficult to say what we mean by "belief", as we usually don't even remember the last time we used that term.

There is no answer to the question "Who am I?" that prevents it from asking it again. Who am I? I am the thing that does not know what it is. You can only answer that question by forgetting that you don't know.

Sorry, I still see fragmentation as a result of a paradox. One becomes awakened once the fragmentation tries to fragment itself. Once the self wants to see what itself is. It sees it as a tunnel, a path to go, but the tunnel fragments itself. The cycle cannot contain itself and it explodes. The self sees itself for the paradox it is. Still, if one can see a path from paradox to fragmentation, then surely one can go from fragmentation to paradox. It goes both ways. Peace.