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Yeah, it's your mantra. It's perfect as you wrote it. I'm done trying and I'm doing it. Now it the time.

I like that sentence. It spells peace very well. You could simplify it down to: Know nothing, understand everything.

@FoxFoxFox Ignorance of the mind comes from its finitude. Ignorance is not an insult, but a law. It is not in the mind's power to cut or restore the connection to the higher self. It is not your fault to be born and it not your accomplishment to die. "Now" is directionless. Laws of causality do not apply to it, so don't expect causal reasoning as a response. The closest you can get is a strangeloop.

Once you're born, you are not responsible for your own birth.

@Adilbek Because both lying and honesty are devil's playthings. By being radically honest, at least you're doing a service to others so that they can be weary of you and think for themselves in your presence. An empty mind can neither lie, nor say the truth.

@Zigzag Idiot What are the mechanics of transforming a hexagram to another one? I just found this.

@now is forever I changed it back to tea-ching. I like that more. I laughed at itching, but there's not much I can say in response. Great pun. Do you use traditional forms of divination?

Yesterday's hexagram allowed me to stay centered during a fight I had with my wife in the afternoon. It was about me failing to meet her expectations that resulted in internalized anger. This anger was not expressed by her at the appropriate moment in fear of taking responsibility of the evening. My observation was that the emotional center (that responds to the moment) was hijacked by the mind to justify its subversive attitude. While the feeling of anger itself is energizing and positive, the mind's tendency to say no to whatever arises is what produces angry tantrums. The yesterday's hexagram was useful in that it allowed me to: grasp the proper meaning of self-inquiry, putting awareness on awareness being mindful during the fight and not buying into readymade solutions suggested by the Ego What was unusual is that I did not respond to her anger with calmness, but with raw energy devoid of hostility. She was very confused, but was able to see through herself. The morning was a little tense, but still very fruitful. I kept being mindful of the arising resentment and said the internal no to it. She admitted to having this feeling by herself it and we had a heartfelt conversation about it. Today, I drew hexagram with no questions like advised by the Sage and received 31: Influence. The judgement: Influence. Success. If one is firm and correct in taking the mate offered, it brings good fortune. I also received the 6th changing line: The influence shows itself in jaws, cheeks and tongue. The judgement brought peace to me after yesterday's turmoil. It is unsettlingly poignant. The author's comments about this judgement has led me to read more about imps, demons and dragons, which allowed me to identify a demon of my own. It was confirmed with a firm yes in the RTCM that it was the message. The demon manifests itself as a flash of primal fear with a mental image when I'm having showers with my eyes closed. The image consists of a figure... as I'm writing this I started wondering if bringing the image of the demon to my inner eye feeds it, so I asked the sage whether it's appropriate to describe it in the journal and I received a firm yes. So, the image consists of a short anthropomorphous figure, approximately half my size. Its whole body is covered in black fur. Its neck is very sturdy so that its head is basically forced to look straight ahead. Its eyes are round, fish-like, but they are mounted at the front of the head, carnivore-style, as opposed to the sides like herbivores have. It has very long claws reminiscent of Edward Scissorhands. It appears during showers when I'm standing with my eyes closed. It's waiting outside of the cabin, still, looking at me. I meet this flash of experience with curiosity and it lasts less than a second. I did the mini-meditation #3 page 553 with the image of the cosmic vacuum cleaner. As the demon was being sucked in, a few associations came to mind. They were about my cultivation of anger towards my manager and about biting my fingernails. Apparently, I also have imps and dragons and I am to repeat this mini-meditation tomorrow. I have a few hunches what are those, I'll investigate them later on today.

@Zigzag Idiot I've been thinking about the format of this particular journal because I don't consider it mine. It's okay if you share them here, but I'm neither encouraging, nor discouraging. I stumbled upon something similar in the judgement of hexagram 35. Page 301 in my edition. It's was about receptivity to openness of another person. I struggle with it a lot in my relationship. I've been sitting on the hexagram I received and I stumbled upon this post by @Preetom: As I was reading the article, something clicked within me and I experienced what it means to put awareness on awareness itself. It's very similar to what I call presence/being in the now, but has an empty, timeless quality to it.

I drew the hexagram 23: Splitting apart The judgement: Splitting apart: it does not further to go anywhere. and received two changing lines: Line 1: The leg of the bed is split. Those who preservere are destroyed. Misfortune. Line 2: The bed is split at the edge. Those, who preservere are destroyed. Misfortune. I have a lot to say about those, but I'm going to listen to the Sage's advice and simply let it sink in.

I had a short RTCM session today when I tried to clarify the message, but I was unable to. Apparently, It's not about helping my wife, her mother or her father. It is not about helping at all. It is not about understanding hexagrams and I'm not supposed to draw a new one to clarify the message. It is not even about applying the meditations that are described in the book. @Zigzag Idiot The sage confirmed that your method is more suitable for me, so I'm going to stick with it for now.

I started a new journal where I will discuss my divination sessions using I Ching. I'm not entirely content with its title - it sounds like a half baked pun. The intent was to mimic the pronunciation of I Ching while hinting at a tea party with a friend. It's overly complex and seems forced. Consequently, this journal may become less relevant.

@Andreas Based on academic consensus. Epistemology is also probably much older than psychology.

@Serotoninluv I think that I'm getting what you're saying. I was wondering recently about the relationship between enlightenment and SD and I came to the following explanation: Enlightenment is the possibility of uninhibited observation of the ego. A kind of detachment from attachment. Spiral dynamics is a theory that categorizes development of the ego based on value systems (justifications). From this point of view, transpersonal and transhuman realms as you describe them lie within spiral dynamics and define very radical modes of being. I'm having more and more of these in the recent year and I was wondering what was happening. Thanks for clarifying that.

@Serotoninluv Would you equate trans-personal realm of consciousness with enlightenment? Or is it more related to spiral dynamics tier two? (Sorry for a tangent)

@Dumb Enlightened That sounds like spiritual ego. @now is forever You are prejudiced against empty stuff. Darkness is light. Great post.

@andyjohnsonman There are two kinds of knowledge. Conventional and non-conventional. I'm making these names up, so don't make a fuss about it. Conventional knowledge is just belief. Probably most if not all knowledge you have is belief. I call it belief because what holds it in place is ignorance. Ignorance is blindness - unwillingness, or lack of ability to question/challenge. This is what holds your world together. Unconventional knowledge emerges when you free yourself of beliefs. When you question them to death, to the point when it will seem as if you genuinely don't know anything. That you're not even sure if you are a human, or if you live on earth, or if yesterday happened. When you're unsure whether you were even born, or whether you will die. This is the place from which you can get insights like Leo presents to you in videos. This is the point of deconstruction and a place from which true contemplation can begin. You can listen to unconventional knowledge, but it will be incorporated into your conventional reality as something that upholds its structure. Truth does not work like that. If you heard the truth for what it is, you would be swept clean off your feet. If it doesn't sound like that, then it means that you are probably not hearing it, or it became mundane to you. I'm betting on the first option.

@Manjushri Stop fighting the mind. Fighting the mind is like wrestling with a pig. After 6 hours you realize that the mind loves it.

@flowboy Say hi to our mutual friend, Allan Watts . What is the Tao? Your ordinary mind is the Tao. How can I be in accord with it? When you try to accord with it, you deviate from it.

@kieranperez Given what I know about you from your posts, 210 ug is very risky. I had my first trip recently with 100 ug and I was glad that it was all I took that day. It was not an easy ride by no measure. There is no shame in starting off at low dosages, believe me. One of the insights I got is that if I'm stupid enough to let my ego decide the dose, the trip will be a perfect lesson for it to know its place.

@flowboy Is thinking in opposition to intuition? Did you plan your thoughts, or do they arise spontaneously? (I'm picking on you, aren't I? )

@SoonHei It's not that someone is paying the price. Both of you are paying it. The other person is hurt, but you feel guilty. That's being hurt too! You can't relieve the other person's suffering, so why not focus on your own? It's a part of the bargain, right? You caused that too! Clean that up. Let go. It's not just to suffer eye for an eye. This way, you're both blind, and at least one of you could be healthy.

@flowboy Yeah, I know now that I got attracted to this journal because of my own issues. Thanks for an opportunity to confirm it.

Every day.

@Nahm May I try too? The mind is desire and suffering. When something that is considered unpleasant arises, thoughts bubble up to divert attention from the present moment. These thoughts frantically examine what is needed to stop suffering. That is desire. In order to satisfy it, we attach to resources and think how to obtain them. This is how plans are born. Whatever disrupts our plans, we call unpleasant. When something that is considered unpleasant arises... (see the beginning). This is mind and it is identical with suffering. Suffering is identical with desire. Liberation comes from accepting presence. Whatever arises, arises. Is this what you call love?