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Let's just pretend it's an Ego backlash, okay?

Lots and lots and lots of confusion. The mind wants to express something, but it ends up in jagged sentences dropped midway. Can it even say anything useful? Without blaming? It even blames itself for blaming. Lots of confusion. Turbulent flow of chi. Still, my heart is stabbed open and I don't want to embrace it and I can't seem to think about it. I think it is a good time to meditate. Good that I don't have a lot to do at work today.

I have no clue what Love is, but I'm glad that it knows what I am. Egoic love on the other hand is just a shadow-based attraction. Unexplainable familiarity of another that promises to satisfy the needs that we disown. It is reciprocated when shadows are symmetrical. It is unrequited when they're not. This is how we know that we want that person, but we can't explain why. At least now I recognize what Love is.

Nope, no boundary. That's the whole point.

My heart chakra is active. It's been a while.

Hmm, I need to thank the Sage for the opportunity to bring the Joker out this much. Now I can kill that little rascal. I'm gonna need a bigger boat.

Please don't cast spells like that. It's harmful. You should know better than that.

No, it's just that I'm left with nothing. I got attached. It was so much fun. Would you like me to rip you apart? I really like doing that. Maybe I like that too much, that's why get attached and time springs back and forth. Now that's a no-no. I'm blaming myself lol. Still is enough, even if it flickers. It will settle. Or not Haha.

The dust is settling.

He is playing with language and thought. All strengths have weaknesses associated with them. Lao Tzu has no weaknesses because nothing can be said about him. He's like a black hole. Of course, it means that he has no strengths too. You seem to have missed that bit.

What do you mean?

@bejapuskas Whose pride is it, really? Do you believe that it's inappropriate to think highly of oneself? Did that belief get triggered?

No, that sort of delusion is something only a mind can pull off.

Never seen any of those movies.

@mandyjw I already tried. She's not getting it. She's prejudiced against empty stuff.

Okay. No pressure.

Would you write a little essay about the Squirming Idiot for me? Did it?

@kindayellow Similarity between the concept of physical death and ultimate happiness is an unsettling one, but in my experience, it's undeniable. In moments of great peace, it also slipped my tongue that 'I could die right now". The reconciliation of this morbid connection comes from understanding the mechanics of desire. When we desire, we want something to be present. We strive for it to release ourselves from this feeling. Satisfaction comes from release, not from fulfillment/happiness. This is why desire is suffering. In this sense, death is the ultimate release. The end of time. To conflate this understanding with harm of the physical body is a great misunderstanding. To kill the body in escape from desire is to desire to be desire-less. Suicide is the ultimate confusion. If you feel truly happy, truly free, there is no need to do anything. Why would you kill yourself then? Why would you keep on living? This is why enlightenment is not-knowing.

@now is forever That's a good one.

Are we?