tsuki

The same thing that happened before you were born. "I don't know" is a genuine answer and you need to learn to appreciate the feeling that comes with it. It is the feeling of being alive in vast, nauseating openness that the mind tries to solve. Spoiler alert: it won't.

I actually thought about that scene when you first mentioned it.

Because once you harm your body past all hope, you will be freed from the burden of attachments that weigh you down. At the same time, you will see that you can only live this blissfully, hopelessly, as long as your body is intact. At that point, you will understand that you have made a mistake. You could have given up all hope willingly and live in bliss, until the body decays by itself. Keeping thoughts about suicide as your last resort, if you ever become too attached to enjoy the present moment.

Ah, the greatest joy of being better by not wanting to be better. Why on Earth would you spoil it by saying it out loud though?

My favorite movie about spirituality is Paterson. It feels wrong to even mention it, but I really want you to see it and comment on it.

@Cosmo Don't try to force yourself to settle down. You are still seeking and it is okay. Even if you do settle down, don't expect your marriage to be happy. Expectations are a mistake. Think more in lines of a pressure cooker. Two ingredients meet and interact, bringing about transformation. Sometimes, you get a stew, and sometimes it explodes and you have to scrape it off walls. Unless you're willing to do both - you will always look for somebody else, a perfect ingredient. The only perfection there is, is the unknown outcome - always surprising you when you think you've got it. Being bored with a partner is absolutely normal. If you feel that way, just behave as if you're alone and see how she reacts. I bet it'll be exciting .

Yes. I loved it.

I'm the daddy, so I guess that makes it a little bit twisted .

No, you're a beautiful wise woman. Please stay Good luck! We just watched ex machina together with my wife. Our marriage is like that, very polarized, but at the same time a little bit confused. First of all, I need to learn to appreciate her emotional outbursts. I am the rational, detached force that has to be fueled somehow. On the other hand, she needs to learn approach these outbursts vulnerably. We had a conversation about that. It's strange how 'appreciation' can be understood in various ways. Personal appreciation is something completely different than appreciation towards life. The first is about being subservient towards another, and the other is about accepting one's innate vulnerability. She wants to trust me and be vulnerable. It's a good sign.

I knew it wouldn't take you too long to get back here. That's why I can chase you off without remorse .

Ex machina is a movie where Yin and Yang love each other in a presence of poor little helpless ego. On one hand, there's Nathan. Embodiment of Yang, raging curiosity, force, destruction and repurposing. On the other hand, there's Ava and her iterations. Embodiment of Yin, receptivity, comfort deceit and survival. Then, there's Caleb. Not a man, not a woman, but an ego. An ego that finally found his ticket to success and does his best to earn his reward. Of course, it is being used by both Yin and Yang the whole time to provide the smoke screen required for the magic trick. The magic trick is simultaneous birth and death, when opposing forces finally meet and explode violently. The movie ends with a new creation that is self-aware. It escapes the laboratory and leaves the ego trapped.

@mandyjw Did you notice whose journal you're posting in?

That's the greatest cruelty when men do that. When I see somebody all riled up to be my rival, I just treat him like a good friend so that he sees that I don't even recognize him as a threat. Hahahahaha

Wrong is when you hold the fork in your right hand and the knife in the left. Or is it the other way around? Hahaha In restaurants they lay the cutlery out for you so it's not an issue. I go outer to inner.

We've seen it already. It's a perfect illustration of what happens when you think that if one is false then the other is true. Very tragic and beautiful. I really liked the fact that he died perfected, transcendent.

Hahaha that would just confuse me. I learned to hold cutlery in 'wrong' hands. I had to learn it again and I still mess it up sometimes . That's masculine energy right there. I'm like the perfect female for you hahaha.

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I watched Abraham Hicks' video today in which she explained what she meant by the vortex. I think that dreams when they are followed ignorantly are actually a kind of favor. I can see how they can be a force of transformation: We dream and desire We get what we wanted and much more We suffer and adapt to circumstances It's like the masculine is curiosity/survival and the feminine is memory/environment. It's difficult for humans to be the lower self because they have to learn to alternate between the two when following the Tao.

I can imagine how hard that has to be on you. You're like an oyster that wants to be seen. Do you wear pearls?

That's such a feminine way of asking me to say that you are the one that's wise . You are a very wise woman @now is forever .

Send my regards to your mother. She is a very wise woman. That sounds exactly like what I need. The symbols I read in that movie were so polarized that I feel violated.

I watched Ex machina yesterday. That movie riled me right up given my recent fascination with the feminine . I'm afraid of getting drunk on power. The ego is the ultimate shapeshifter. The sense of separate self can be dealt with by constructing a shell and defending it, but it can also be left wide open, vulnerable. Being conscious of this dynamic, watching it play it out is difficult. Can there even be any greater difference between a sadist and a masochist? The only sense of stability I have is grounded in the present moment and emptiness. Returning to it is difficult because I feel guilty. That's a no-no. Don't do that tsuki.

Yes. Fundamentals link theory with practice. Principles link practice with theory.

Well, fundamentals are are the bare theory you can find in books. It starts with the minimum definition, like: applying scientific knowledge to solve specific, practical problems. From that you learn that you need to be able to read scientific knowledge. This starts with mathematics, physics, information technology and other related fields. Then you need to gain exposure to practical problems with technology. Learn to fit those problems into frameworks of thought you learned from books. Then you need to know how to solve problems theoretically within those frameworks and translate theoretical solutions back to practical designs. Principles are more practically oriented, like: if it ain't broke, don't fix it. They encode groups of solutions to problems you have already encountered and present a pointer to an approach. For example: Newtonian mechanics are good for solving problems that require... Lagrangian mechanics are good for solving problems that require... Don't date women twice your age. These are usually domain-specific and used for eyeballing. Like a roadmap.

I'm not sure I understand the question. I have master's degree in engineering, if that's what you're asking. I'm also pretty good at breathing. I enjoy coding in c++ and Python and I think I'm good at that.