Atmos

You need to take the time to realise that these things wont actually fulfil you. It sounds like you have some unresolved ghouls on your mental, and that they are somewhat deep routed, an unhappy mind will fill itself with fruitless desires in an attempt to bridge the gap between where you are and where you want to be. As impossible as it seems embracing the fact you don't need these things you have convinced yourself you do is the first step to overcoming endless desire that will never be actually satisfied. The aim is to curb urges, not fulfil them:) Being spiritual will help you with your goals more than you might think as you will spend less time wishing and more time acting, being spiritual also lets one set achievable goals.

If you are meditating for any reason other than to be present, you are not really meditating. On a less anal note I have been meditating consistently for ~8 Months and am only now starting to feel perceivable differences in my general state of mind. I personally meditate as I have had a racing mind (mostly nonsense) that I could never quiet for as long as I can remember, Its taken me this long to even start breaking the habit consistently and may be years before I have reached the tranquil state I desire. Imo if you are serious about actualisation you should be meditating till the day you die irrelevant to if you are getting what you wanted out of it:)

If you want any significant/long lasting change in consciousness don't expect to invert your entire lifes crystallization of ego by watching a video. These kind of things are fantastic eye openers but it frustrates me a little when I see something as sacred as a spiritual awakening in the form of a packaged product.