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Curious to hear the responses. I need to do it more consistently, but I used Leo's idea of a metronome app on my phone. I put my headphones on and concentrate on the ticking sound. After 10 minutes, it's almost like there are "aftersounds" when each tick was done. Like a curious echo that I hadn't heard at all in the first 5 minutes. Kind of like "TICK" wumpwump "TICK" wumpwump and so forth.

Hell yes it's possible. May not happen today or tomorrow, but spreading love and happiness one person at a time has a measureable effect. That's the inner hippy in me coming out, but I believe it! (and I'll watch the video when I get off work )

Thanks, folks. I don't expect that giving up the beats will have any effect on my desire to sit and meditate, so I may as well back off from using them over the next week or two. I mean, if it's something that's in my best long-term interest to move away from, I see no benefit to keep it a part of my main practice. Thanks again for the advice.

LOL, cool. His videos wouldn't be the same without the "Yeah, but Leo....."

Leo's meditation videos were the very first ones I watched when I started moving toward personal growth, so the dude holds a special place in my heart. I wouldn't have made meditation a part of my life without those first videos, so in my book, I owe the dude. I respect his motivation and intensity, even when he yells. "You won't do it because you're a soft, lazy twat."

What happened while you were beatin' and why'd you stop?

Shitfire, I just got my DNA activated last week. I'll see if I can get a refund on it so I can try your video.

He's mentioned them in the forum here, if not in his videos. I think he came down on the side of them having a positive use in meditation.

I don't know what you will or won't feel; everyone is slightly different in what their threshold dose for perception is. I have never microdosed with LSD, only psilocybin, so I can't tell you what a common microdose is without looking it up. My microdose with psilocybin was .15g every 3rd day. But whatever a proper microdose for LSD is, you can go ahead and start microdosing today.

Well, you shouldn't feel the effects with a true microdose, but if you're asking when you can trip again with the same intensity as you did before, the general consensus is to give it about a week and your brain will have reset itself.

Kind of what I was thinking, too. It's hard to say that meditation makes me ok with reality if I choose to shut reality out when I meditate. But I love my beats, dammit! *pout*

I'm fairly new to all this as well, so I'll just say to keep meditating and know that you're not your thoughts or your emotions. Those might just be your pouty ego not liking what you're trying to do to it.

Well said. My own feelings as well.

I'm impressed that you're focusing on personal growth at your young age......good job, wow! As far as the LSD goes, I think it sounds like a fine idea, as long as it sounds like a good idea to YOU. Don't do it just because you think it's "next on the list" type of thing in your development.

Dang, that's a LOT of meditating! I can't really give a helpful comment as I've only been meditating daily for 2 months, but just wanted to say hi.

Extremely strange to see this thread. I've had a weird periodic twitch/zip in my brain for the past few weeks. I don't remember ever having it before. It only lasts for a second, but it's disconcerting. My stress level has gone down by 80% since last year, so I can't chalk this up to mental tension. I've been meditating more the past couple months then ever in my life, but that shouldn't have anything to do with a brain twitch.

I think the proof that I'm changing is most obvious when I talk with old friends and realize that while they're saying the same things they always did, their low-consciousness vantage point becomes immediately apparent, and I'm finding it difficult to not focus on the widening gap between us. One of my oldest and closest friends is very neurotic and looks at life in a helpless way, like there's not a thing he can do about his circumstances. It never bothered me before, because I think I basically shared his life view, but now that I've been focusing on improving myself for the past year, it jumps out to me as the most disempowering way to look at life. Thoughtful analysis tells me that I'm seeing all the things I'm trying to change in MYSELF in him, and that's one reason that I find myself distancing myself from him. I see his mindset as contagious to a degree, especially at this early stage of my self-development. He lets someone cutting him off in traffic ruin his whole day. If a girl doesn't agree to go out with him, he says he's f**king done with dating. If it's a beautiful day, he focuses on the shitty weather that's forecasted tomorrow. He's ALWAYS comparing himself to other people, especially with income. He's always looking for external ways to hopefully fix his life. I really love the guy, as he's a friendly, intelligent and kind person, but we are both frustrated. He's frustrated because I point out the obvious to him; that he's letting other people CONTROL his life, and if he'd find a healthier perspective, he'd be so much less burdened. I'm frustrated because he's so smart yet he seems to be willingly stuck in his (to my way of thinking) negative foundation of thought. Being so close, I find it extremely difficult to simply listen to him, acknowledge his feelings and let it go, like I would do with a more casual acquaintance. I'd love for him to have a more free mind and to be less troubled by people and life itself, but at the same time I need to realize that I can't just download my perspective into his brain, and if he's not ready to change, he's going to stay mired in the mud. I want to love him for who he is, flaws and all, but it's hard to see all that potential squandered. Thoughts, por favor?

Dang, lots of useful and helpful posts since I last checked in. I was going to say "You folks don't know how much I appreciate your words" but since you've all been through this, or are going through it currently, you do already know this experience from my perspective. Simply put, thank you.

In my opinion, no, you don't have to be willing to lose your sanity. Psychedelics would have to be one's last ditch hope in life in order for that sort of a wager to be worth the risk. You certainly need to surrender yourself to the experience, but the possibility of permanently going nuts isn't a needed ingredient in that surrender.

Naviy, that was a thoughtful post and it rings true for me. I'll just love the guy and remember that I can't drag other people along with me if they don't want the same things that I do. Thank you so much for posting.

Thanks, all. I do agree that it'll work itself out and find its own balance in time. I'll do a search for other similar threads; if anyone has one in particular that they found helpful, please link me. Thanks again for your help.

Does your loved one know about your commitment to self-development? Does he/she share that lifestyle and ambition? If so, and if they're right for you, I'd think they would be respectful of it and allow you and encourage you to maintain your practice. Then again, it's easy for us to get caught up in falling in love, even when it might leech some of the energy that we'd heretofore put into bettering ourselves. Even so, I'd think a healthy equilibrium would return in time if he/she is right for you. If it doesn't then it's not healthy for you. Does he/she know about your struggle with depression?

Excellent post. I can't disagree with what you said. I've enjoyed thinking that my frustration with him is more altruistic than that, but you have a solid point.

Yes, I like the guy's attitude and persona. OK, the "rewind this side" thing is a bit weird......

Ha yes, quite often. Emotions have always been very close to the surface for me.