Saumaya

@Max_V Its very simple, you want certain results, so you're doing certain things. Other people unconsciously or consciously want other kinds of result, and they're doing certain other things. Your just happens to be eating healthy, meditating etc. Its all the same, there no purpose to life so you create your own purpose or results that you want.There is nothing special about anything for anyone whatsoever(not just you). I think this should help

^ Also pursuing enlightenment doesnt make you special in anyway, just more ordinary

@Ryan_047 You cant have low or high self esteem because self has no value inherently , only perceived value. Saying "I don't really like myself" means nothing, its just a thought...who is not liking who?. If you think that you're somehow worthless, thats also false because value doesn't exist no matter what you say. Also having a terrible past or mistakes you have done in the past means nothing. It was always now and will always stay now and you can always gradually change now. It doesn't matter what anybody says, you're here means you're a sensible human being

You make it sound like your doing "special things" that separates you from other people. Do meditation if you want, eating healthy should be very natural and authenticity is a by product of being honest with yourself which should also be very natural. Being a "better self" is great but a tougher challenge is to mesh with people and talk to anyone whoever they are and wherever they are coming from and not making any judgements. Also if people cant be open to this "Better self" then its better to cut them off( This very rarely happens). Weirdness is a numbers game anyway, people live in a socially accepted levels of madness. Don't be afraid to be weird.

You say it like being depressed is normal..total silence and existential dispassion is your natural state.

Doing whatever you want

The only suggestion I can give you is be conscious of your mortality..if you're truly conscious that you are going to die, you're not going to take any moment lightly, at the very least not being bored. As far as watching people on twitch, just be aware of what you're doing without any judgement. Be conscious about the fact that you're not going to live forever.

The thoughts are not you but just a collection of meanings, perceptions and judgements. Contemplate this...Also the point is not to stop the thoughts completely but create distance between yourself and your mind i.e disidentifying with your mind and its content.

How do you know that the tiger exist?Through senses?How can you trust your senses?..Also absolute infinity means that there is no physicality limiting you as in no space and time(It doesn't mean you can teleport or time travel now but you stop experiencing space snd time as real). So the sense of Self will expand everywhere. The point of realising absolute infinity is not that you and tiger are different things but part of the same whole. The whole is absolute infinity.

When the "ego" is dead there is no "you" giving food to the body so the question of why shouldn't arise. Body does whatever it can to survive

Sadhguru calls it going beyond your physicality. i think thats a good definition

@Pallero When the self dies, there is nothing left...it is like dead body. What happens after enlightenment is your awareness leaves your body and spreads everywhere, so it is like leaving the body or death.

I don't believe so, becoming a master pianist and identifying with being a master pianist are separate things

Chyawanprash definitely

@Rilles Life is not a dream but life is like a dream. Think about it...when you sleep you fool yourself that you're the dream character but in actuality you aren't...which is the same as in your life. You think and feel like you're the actor or some role you play, but you aren't any of those two. If you're "enlightened" then you would be sort of lucid dreaming..

be lazy fully..and then you will be inspired to take action...not in reaction

When you have realised that the self does not exist...you kind have mastered the self already. As far as mastery in dream goes like with body or techniques and skills...thats a separate issue

No experience is real, there is no if. As far as your experience is concerned...it seems like a good step forward

If u mean by determination that you're excessively focusing on the next step, I still wont rate that method very high. Being one pointed is enough with taking the right steps..

Who is the one asking the question?

I don't like this saying one is enlightened..because the is no you. It is better to say that enlightenment is enlightened...no you in there

Don't be mistaken..Obviously the statement the All beliefs are false is not the Ultimate truth..it is a finger(statement) pointing to the moon (Ultimate truth). The statement anyway assumes that beliefs can exist but are false...can u see it?..its a paradox.

Authority is not the truth, Truth is the only authority

Congratulations! you get it...some people dont

Nah..Your determination has nothing to do with the speed of your journey, thats buying into the illusion of free will. Just be conscious; Do not resist and deal with whatever arises in the journey...thats the fastest path.