WaveInTheOcean

Stop differentiating between mind and ego. It's the same. It's you (because you do very much identify yourself as a person(ego) inside a bag of skin). Mind. Ego. Person. Self. All words pointing to the same: the false self. It's false because it truly doesn't exist. It's just a phony sensation that you exist as such a self that makes it seem real. When people say Ronaldo has a big ego, the word is used in another context than in non-dualism. So you want your self killed. You don't have an ego. You are the fucking ego. "it seems like the ego within me wants me to die, or at least to be very unhealthy and unhappy. " "Why is it that my ego is programmed so to speak to want to hurt me?" Questions for you: 1. The ego within who exactly? You? Who are you? 2. Want to hurt who? Can you really be hurt? Only an ego can be hurt. You are that ego - or well, truth is you aren't, what you are is consciousness/nothingness/God pretending it's an ego - it's a fun game, everyone (consciousness in many forms) are playing it, some egos are aware they don't exist (i.e. that it's a game) and some (most egos, 99,99%+) are not aware and instead believe they were born as an ego and will die as an ego (ego= person/body/mind w/e).

Fucking awesome song, thanks!:)

"Don't you think that forcing the mind to obey your desire is more ego fighting and in the long run it will produce an unwanted result (more monkey mind)" Well, the mind/ego = desiring being addicted to thoughts because they are oh-so-important (cos you think they define the essence of you). Enforcing your awareness on the most natural thing in this world: breathing, is in itself something the mind also desire. However it prioritize thoughts higher, so that it's not that focusing on breath in itself is not-desire (it is a desire), it's about focusing on breath INSTEAD of thoughts that's : NOT a desire (=pain) for the mind FOR SURE. But yet you have the ability to do it anyway. It's paradoxical , because 'forcing the mind to obey your desire' is pretty much equal to the sentence 'forcing the mind to obey the mind's desire', and at the same time it's not... just like at some point the ship turns, and the mind wants to prioritize awareness on things like breathing more than thoughts in itself, and it's now effortless to have a still mind. what's most in alignment with our true nature (nothingness, pure being, consciousness): a still mind or a monkey-mind? When I say still mind I just mean mind without thoughts.

this is key. important to try to integrate this perspective in your life when you're feeling sad and depressed.

The incarnation you're talking about, you did experience that on the comedown right? I mean it happened before you went to sleep right? Like 7-12 hours into the trip? I at least know what you're talking about, it's creepy as fuck when you suddenly realize you're back into a human body with all its OCD-worry-thoughts. And when I think about it, that's exactly also why I know that what I REALLY am is not the mind/the body, because I have directly experienced being FREE from that -- and still being 'alive' (alive as in conscious, pure being, no thoughts, just only a feeling of love towards existence, no sense of time or space) -- and then coming back and 'getting' all that monkey-mind back. EDIT: And by the way, in regards to LSD at least, your mindset, set, setting, your ability to surrender is more important than dosage I think in regards to experiencing ego-death. You can easily experience ego-death on 150-200ug LSD, probably even 100ug.

"That's why meditating is so difficult for me. I just can't turn off/let go all these stimulation that surrounds me all the time..."* and that's why it's absoutely nessecary that you do the fucking meditation dude. do concentration meditation where you focus on your breath. Sit down set timer 10 mins on your phone with flight mode, still yourself, straight back, close your eyes, briefly use a few seconds to feel your body (feet, butt, hands, etc). Then start focusing on your breath for the remainder of the meditation. Just keep yourself focused on your breath. Each time you forget to be aware of your breath (because of a thought) just let the thought go and instantly focus on your breath again. Even if it seems impossible to let the thought go away (cos youre SO attached to it), just force yourself to at least focus on your breath again, concentrate on that breath, be aware of the air getting through your nose, gently filling your stomach/lungs, and be fully aware of that air getting out of your system again. Continue forcing yourself to be completely (as much as you can) aware of your breath for all the 10 minutes. I know it's painful. But show the OCD-monkey-mind who's the boss here. When your phone rings after 10 min, continue with your life. Do this 10min breathing meditation every single day for a week. then increase to 15 mins. and then from there increase by 5 mins every week until you reach 30 min. Then stay on 30 min for the rest of your life or if you begin to actually enjoy it, go up to an hour, who knows:) You won't enjoy meditating in the beginning. you will hate it. That's the fucking point. If you enjoyed it, whats the point of doing it?! you can listen to some binaural beats with headphones while you focus on your breath if you like. holosync or just some youtube stuff. if that makes it slightly easier, maybe it does. will still be pain in the ass though, trust me:) And when you noticed that you've been addicted to a thought-stream for many seconds, don't judge yourself, just carelessly notice that you were gone and focus on your breath again. It's not a competition. It's a practice that only takes discipline and time to do, nothing else. EVERYONE can do it. YES it's hard. fucking do it. And it takes LOTS of time and consistency before you will notice any benefits in your everyday life. It's about rewiring the brain (from being 100% monkey-OCD to become more and more still/under "your control" to less and less, 99,9%, 99,8%, etc it takes months to even get to "90%". But when you do, those 10% less monkey-ocd-mind will be noticably doing your everyday life. ) rewiring the brain is a slow process, so don't expect results fast. Slowly you will become more aware though, slowly.

"internet means safety, the real world pain and caos..." it's all the real world. and pain and chaos, well, only if you allow it to happen:> Each time you feel pain, it's because you allowed someone/something to be able to inflict pain on you. simply don't allow it, give a fuck what others think of you, because why actually give a fuck? have your own values and principles in life and go by them, not by others.

"I'm actually not that addicted to porn. I spend 2, maybe 3 hours everyday masturbating" 3 hours out of 16 waking hours wanking = sure an addiction to me. just think about if you meditated those 3 hours instead and what results you would get in your life from that. (AWARENESS)

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this is scientific dogmatism at its absolute highest. wow, what a naive materialistic view on life:) Funny how I would have agreed fully with him for 2+ years ago, but we all change i guess:>

Don't focus on the sex-part too much. Instead focus on working on yourself, i.e. learn to love yourself, self-confidence, exercise, staying healthy, be a "good" person (some important values in life: honesty (towards hothers and being honest with yourself), gratitude (towards others AND towards life itself, realize how mystical this game of life is), patience (towards others and also generally in life)). Fix yourself. Then when you've fixed yourself and there's enough love flowing within your own being, go out in life and look for someone to share your love with; there will be plenty who'll want some:-)

- Eckhart Tolle Hmm. :>

just wanted to share this new video that popped up in my feed.

So Leo, have you tried the mirror-gazing-meditation thing yourself? Since your post here seems to reflect your condescending view on it, I bet you must have and then found it useless, right? Either that, or you forgot your own open-mindedness ideals, and just bashed it based on your thoughts about it, without even having tried it yourself. ?

"Also, im already 25 years old and have not much more time to waste with wrong decisions. " bullshit story in your head. "You would guess that with 25 I should me long finished or at least nearing the end. no, i would not have guessed that. you have all the time you want. chill out! (but still focus on doing what you want in life and how to facilitate that becoming possible, ofc).

Nothing can ever be really wrong. What we define as authentic/correct action and 'wrong' action is relative. This thread is way too serious Consider this ladies and gents: If you believe that any action ANY human being will ever make, will always be entirely selfish, do you then also realize that the word 'selfish' accordingly ceases to contain any meaning at all? selfish vs selfless are relative concepts. To me Trump is more selfish than Obama. I'm talking about the fucking characters being played by consciousness

How long do you meditate per day currently if I may ask?

Life is a walk through the imagination of the unfathomable .

Thanks for introducing me to Koda. I'm so touched by his music right now.

yep, and everything and everyone are pure imagination by that one infinite conscious self.