WaveInTheOcean

The Divine, Intelligent, Loving, Infinitely Mysterious, Dancing Light. This song is a manifestation of that. I hope no people on this forum are reading and writing comments WITHOUT music. Always do it with music. Always try to smile. Look at the blue sky. Get bathed in the sun. Love <3 "All conclusions are the mind's way of trying to grasp magic." Ivankiss, write a book, brother. This quote is golden. Instantly posted it on my facebook

I have been through pretty much the same process. I joked to my friends that I would write a book called "you dont exist". I was very attached to the idea of not existing/no-self/nothingness. When Infinite Divine Intelligent Love/God/Light finally made every cell in my body surrender to the ACTUAL truth, I could nothing but let go of everything I believed, including the idea of "not existing"/no-self/nothingness. The ego is such a sneaky bastard. Self deception is so extremely sneaky. The ultimate way for the ego to hide is in 'the idea of not existing'. HAHA <3

I think Path A is very necessary for most people. You have to break down to build new:> I stayed on path A for the first 4 years of my spiritual journey and only last year joined path B, which obviously is the path I vibe the most with now. I think Path B has just as many traps as path A. But I agree, path A is more extreme than path B, and thus contains more "danger". But I also think it works faster for most people. But they still need to join path B, eventually, if they are to become God/Infinite Love/Light again.

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throwback tuesday. Lol. I just watched Ruperts explanation here (didn't do last time). And the clarity in his words is astounding. VeganAwake, my dear dear friend <3, don't you find it puzziling that on the first page of this thread, it's filled with messages like: "Yeah, I also was amazed by clarity of explanation" and then you come with this belief: " I also have the sense that guy that asked the question was probably more confused after Rupert was done explaining what it was he was attempting to explain." lol "I think Rupert had some sort of Awakening but then completely filled his apparent experience with lots of conceptual dogma." I think this is the case for you. You had an awakening and then filled your apparent experience with lots of conceptual dogma about no-self. No-self is also a concept bro:D Of course, there isn't the personal, separate self. THAT is illusion. There is truly no separateness. It's all one. Subject and object: identical. But: what is then real? What do you get when you merge subject and object? What is it that is aware of the fact that there is no seperate, personal self? Rupert calls it Consciousness. I call it God or Love. Some call it Light. What do you call it, veganawake? <3 Nothingness, perhaps? Perhaps you insist on giving it no name?:D

MDMA is very social. Sure, it can probably be benifical in contemplation/shadow work/meditation as it really puts you into the present moment, if you aren't already there. But it's probably best to take with 1-2 close persons/friends in your life. Talking with others is pretty nice on MDMA, you should try it.

You can enjoy all those things/life without being attached to it, hehe. Psychedelics help. You can only accept death by becoming conscious of the fact that you don't exist as an individual (delusion) and that death isn't what society portrays it to be ("bad" in short, delusion) but a blessing (the death of that which isn't real: you as a person/human body/separate mind). Then, when you have realized no-self/nothingness, the next question for you becomes: what is then real? If anything? One thing at a time????❤️?

haha, lol, this discussion is funny between you and ivankiss There truly is no one here, and nothing going on, except Light/Love/God/The Self/Nothingness dancing with Itself End of discussion right?:> Calling it "nothing" or "light" doesn't matter, both words are - objectively - equally direct and indirect. Sure, to you, traveler, no-self/nothingness/nothing seems more fitting, while to ivankiss "Light" seems more fitting. To me, Love or God is most fitting. But hey, The Absolute/The Divine/The Godhead/Nothingness expresses itself in infinite ways. It is the SAME Nothingness, or the Same Light, just in different flavours/frequencies, perceived slightly different, and expressed slightly different by different "avatars" (human beings:D). Sure, he has a resistance to the words nothing, no one or no self. But you have a resistance to "Light", haha. Sure, no one is real, no one is special, which means that everyone is The Divine, everything is Nothingness/Light, and Everything and Everyone are infinitely special/mysterious. Hehe. <3

I believe the more trauma you have in your inner unconscious mind, the higher the dose you need "to break through". in other words, the more clean your soul is the more sensitive you are and thus you don't need a high dosage to break-through Just a belief tho, anyone agree or disagree?

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no, even that is idealism - an idea. Consciousness. "Psychedelics" and "the idea of measuring a dosage of a physical compound" is imagination; mental, consciousness.

Keep seeking then:-) Or stop. But even stopping is seeking. LOL. Relatively speaking, only when your inner world is full of peace and love, you are considered awakened in my selfish book. However, consider, if the reason your inner world is full of turmoil, unhappiness, stress, hate, is perhaps because of your constant pursuit of - consciously or unconsciously - looking for ways to change yourself/the world/become "better". The striving "to become better" can be a path full of suffering, because it implies that you consider yourself to be pretty bad. Thus, the striving/seeking creates the problem, in a sense. But perhaps a problem is needed, temporarily. Because problems create suffering. And I believe suffering is necessary for awakening because suffering cleanses your soul, at least if you suffer consciously. So keep seeking. Suffer more - just remember to do it consciously.

You are already enlightened, i.e. all your seeking is a part of being enlightened, and thus you should not - per se - stop seeking:-) Existence is inherently mysterious. You can always discover more, thus even the enlightened master seeks..., just not in a serious way, but in a playful way:-)

Plot twist: I am you and you are me. You are God. I am God. Everyone. Everything. Is God. God chose to imagine himself as an infinite amount of seemingly separate selves. These selves/minds (life/dream) are structured (by God of course) in such a way that it feels as though they can only be experienced one at a time. That's why it FEELS as though you are you and I am me (as if we are two separate selves).The story of being born involuntarily as a separate human being feels true, but is in fact just a conceptual story useful for survival, not true in any absolute sense. You can become directly conscious of this. You can become directly conscious of the Truth of Oneness. Of course, even when you become directly conscious of God, Oneness, Love, Nothingness, No-Self, etc., still it will feel like, on the surface, that you are still a separate human body running around with an inner world of emotions, thoughts, feelings in an outer "physical" world. ("Permanent Enlightenmen" is when you have an "inner deep clarity" that shines onto this "apparent surface of separateness" and tells you that it is what it is: Oneness/Love/God/Nothingness , -- thus: many'ness becomes One, differences becomes One, self becomes other, others become you, hate becomes Love, suffering becomes Love, pain becomes Love, death becomes Life, evil and bad becomes Good, separateness becomes Oneness, unconsciousness becomes Consciousness, life becomes Heaven/Dream, seriousness becomes Play, delusion becomes Enlightened, human becomes God, Everything becomes God, Love..., something becomes nothingness, ) That's the genius, brilliancy, of this dream of life We - as God - have imagined up. We knew it had had to have some apparant order and structure, otherwise We wouldn't believe it was real. Hehe. If it was just a mess all of it, survival would not work, and We wouldn't believe it was real. And We need to believe it's real in order to then - eventually - come back to Ourselves (God/Love/Oneness). If We did not believe it was real, then We would not be able to come back to Ourselves, because We would already "be there", i.e. just existing as pure nothingness, unable to imagine ourselves as infinite things. The thing is, We already are pure nothingness (thus infinite potential, infinite love, God), We are always that. It's just that this pure nothingness is equal to somethingness, i.e. what you call 'your own body' or 'a tree' or 'a table' or 'your dog', THAT IS pure nothingness. That which is something is nothing. And that's God. Divine Love. Divine Play. Leela. Heaven is right here, not somewhere else. God is right here, not somewhere else. Enlightenment is right here, not somewhere else. This of course also means that hell is right here. Evil is right here. Delusion is right here. Hell = Heaven God = The Devil Enlightenment = Delusion It's all one. You choose which perspective you want to have. Are you full of ego/turmoil on the inside? Life becomes hell. Are you full of nothingness/death on the inside? Life becomes Heaven. Since my awakening 2 months ago, I feel so death on 'the inside', that everything 'outside' feels so alive. Like I'm a child again. Why did We (as God) choose to imagine Us into being seemingly separate helpless selves? Because We had to, to see what We truly are (Infinite, Nothingness, Love, God). Contrast is needed. We did it out of love. Out of selflessness. It would be selfish to stay as One only:-) Although, paradoxically, We are always One (and nothing else), it just doesn't always seem so (that's the brilliancy of this creation). We did it because We wanted to see what We could create. To test Our infinite creative skills. To test Our infinite imagination. I mean, for God's sake, search some youtube videos on how bizzare nature/wild life/animals can be. Or just humans for that matter. Why is this so? Why is reality so full of crazy shit? Because We like imagining infinite things. We are the very definition of Creation. We Create. We love. Survival as in what we call "darwinistic evolution" is one of the most genius methods for creation, for expressing divine love, for expressing Infinite Creativity, imagination. What is absolutely true, is that ultimately, everything is happening out of Divine Love, everything is an absolute 100% free choice (God is 100% free OF COURSE lol). So you (as God) choosing to trick yourself into believing you are "whatever your name is" as a human being and not God/Love/Nothingness; well, that's a free choice - too -, and it's a free choice that you have tricked yourself into believing it was not a free choice (and that you are a " poor little 'me' " instead), hehe <3

infinite love IS the present moment. It's grounding itself. And therefore it is groundless.

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just because the law is on paper equal for everyone, e.,g. "When it comes to hiring people, it's illegal to discriminate against someone based on his race." , it doesn't mean that all people in the society follow that law. many illegal things happen all the time in all areas of life:-)

- it is not your idea. what you became conscious of was an insight from God/Love. In that sense, it was YOUR idea, as God, hehe, but not as the person you will believe you are (doesn't exist). - "your" insight is golden, and as an enlightened avatar I can confirm that your insight is "on point", so to speak;) - to expand/elaborate on your insight: yes, most people are not aware of the ground they are standing on. I.e. they are not aware that their view of viewing reality (which then becomes their reality) is something they bought from their environment during childhood/teenage-years/early 20's. - they are thus unconcious of the fact that their view on reality is fundamentally a belief-system, not grounded in much direct experience. - yes, they are thus locked. very rigid. not willing to see things from other perspectives, as they think other perspectives are false. ego, ego, ego, unconsciousness on top of more unconsciousness. They are afraid to even consider other perspectives, as their sense of self (what they believe they are) is built around this unconscious belief system (the way they view reality). - language itself is a game and is how the mind works. through language. (language = thoughts). The mind is a powerful tool, and does NOT *need* to be a prison, but often becomes a prison, because people let their mind control them unconsciously. Enligthenment is basically taking control over the mind and using it properly. It is an immensely powerful tool for both "good and bad" things. When you become conscious of how it works, well, that's enligthenment. That's spirituality. That's psychedelics. That's meditation. - yes, freedom = consciousness. The more conscious you become of your inner workings, the more free you become. Liberation from mind. Throw in some love as well. Don't forget to love yourself, no matter how much shit you become conscious of (there will be a lot of shit for everyone).

Everything is mental constructs. That doesn't make it false. Nothing is not mental, except if you believe it to be not-mental (physical for instance). Hehe, then it becomes physical. Ordinary human reality is what ever you believe it to be. Absolute reality, which contains ordinary human reality, is God/Love/Oneness, though. Hitler was relatively speaking a pretty bad guy. Jesus was relatively speaking a pretty good guy. I consider my statements true from a human, relative point of view. Simultaneously I'm aware that, absolutely speaking, all of reality is Good and both Hitler and Jesus are functions of Divine Love; in fact they are One (God). Opposites exist in the ordinary human world. Look around. There are good films, bad films. Beautiful women, ugly women. Strong men, weak men. Dangerous animals, harmless animals. To look at the world in terms of dualism (opposites) is hard-encoded into your mind (by Nature/God/Yourself of course, but still hard-encoded). This means that no matter how enlightened you become about the nature of Absolute Reality, you will still prefer to bang a beautiful girl than an ugly one. You see? Part of Real Enligthenment is understanding that order/structure is necessary to uphold the dream of life, which We (as God) voluntarily chose to participate in as apparant deluded separate human beings. Order/structure = logic = opposites = the way your egoic mind works, because it needs opposites to survive. Your body needs to recognize the difference between a dangerous threat and food, for instance. You can transcend all this sure. And by transcending I mean you can become conscious of it (I have) and then love it. But it will still be how you view reality. In that sense, opposites are very real. Only you know that they are not *absolutely* real, in the sense that they are just imaginary yes. But imaginary can still be real:-) If a bear crawls into your bed at night, then it will feel real, and you will jump out of the bed scared as shit and run away. Cos it feels real. That's the beauty of this dream. Even if it is all imagination, it still feels real. God is a genius. I am genius;) You are! You are still stuck in concepts bro. Let go. You can't eat the menu. Go out and live. The number 1 trap in this work is replacing direct experience with concepts. Love ya <3

You are very wrong here. The very insight that opposites only exist because of each other is in fact an insight into the nature of reality (that it is non-dual). The opposite of that, the false belief that opposites can exist independently of each other, now that is what dualism is, and that is what most people on earth seem to buy into.., i.e. that "evil", "death", "self", etc. are real independent phenomena existing independently of goodness, life and other (just to take 3 opposites).

What was there before you learned apple?:-) Dualism and non-dualism is one and the same thing. Non-dualism 101? You say things exist. Okay. Fair enough. Did things exist before you were born, before your earliest memories??

"Why wouldn't only something exist?" Because you need something to contrast something with to even beware of something. That something is nothing. Something cannot exist without nothing, you see? Just as up cannot exist without down, or heads without tails, or buying without selling. Hence death. Death is what stage orange people perceive as absolute nothingness. And in a sense they are right, only that they forget that even that nothingness is equal to something, namely life. What happens after death? Life. What after life? Death. Life. Death. Life. They imply each other. The only natural thing that can happen after death is life. Just like a wave of light has an infinite sequence of repeating crests and troughs. See, the wave is ultimately only one thing: a wave.., it just assumes different shapes, up, down, up down. The same goes for existence. It is non-dual: there is only existence (equal to Consciousness/Love/God) but it assumes different forms: life, death, bad, good, love, hate, self, other, finite, infinite, conscious, unconscious, etc.

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The 2cb trip 2 months ago

Set and setting: Together with two close friends who also are deeply invested in spirituality. We did it outside in nature in Denmark with no others around. We had blanket, GVG pipe, torchlighter, dmt in capsules, mat to lay on, pillow, eye shades to be in total darkness, hand pan to play beautiful music on the comedown (the nature's delicate music of birds chirping and soft wind was already veru beautiful). We had already done 2-3 grams of dried of mushrooms two days beforehand, which we were still feeling the afterglow of (very playful blissful spiritual experience with lots of small beautiful insights into my own and other's psychology). We were together for 5 days in a summer cottage. On this day of smoking DMT, we also had 1-2 hours before smoking ingested 60 mg MDMA to see if it could help calm pre-flight anxiety/jitter and make it easier to break-through/let go. So my mindset before the MDMA was already very peaceful, loving and calm (been awake for +5 weeks now, never had a bad day since, since all is just love and god and oneness/bliss for me these days) and the 60 mg MDMA made me even more calm and zoomed into the present. I was extremely open and peaceful and couldn't wait to take that one big hit of 30 mg dmt and hold it in my lungs as long as I could. So I did. DMT is very visual for me and the dominant color I see now is yellow. I get the usual feeling of delicious loving heat in all my body, and I start making involuntary movements with my arms, like I'm an angel moving its wings. The next I know these yellow/black-fractals start morphing into some kind of extradimensional extremely metaconcsius entity. First I get a little frightened, but then I remember to just be open, and I communicate through thought to this being: "show me more, show me more". And then I break through. I get shot into this being while losing all contact with my body. While merging with this being, I see that it is me. And I then get a overwhelming extreme intense sensation of being God and seeing that absolutely everything in existence is my own doing, and that it is all absolutely pure Love/Goodness. It's not that I see it. I was it. I am Love. I am God. I am all of Reality/Consciousness. Being in this state of Oneness felt like eternity. Absolute Nirvana. Absolute Bliss. Pure Infinite Love. So Good that words fail to describe how Good it is. After this eternal peak of Oneness/Godhood, I slowly begin coming back. But even this come-down of coming back to my body felt like a looong time (the whole trip lasted actually only 10-15 minutes). The first thing that happens is that I slowly merge out of this yellow metaconcsius entity/God, and then the entity gets dissolved into an infinite number of what I can only describe as Machine Elves. They had little hats and were whirling around in circles in front of my vision. They were so happy to see me, so loving, and they were making lots of music with their voices. They wanted me to participate, so I began making noises with my mouth to tune into their energitic frequency, "laaaaaaaaaa" and so on. It was pure joy being together with these "elves". We were just having fun. Then slowly, these elves dissolved and I started really coming back to my body. It felt like being reborn. Extreme gratitude like I've only felt on my last 40 mg 2cb trip 5 weeks ago. My ego came back and it could nothing but surrender to the Truth of what I had become/remembered myself to be: Love, God, Oneness. I started to say and repeat sentences like "how can living be so good?" ,"I don't understand" ... " I DO understand!" " It's too much" ..."I cant take it" .. "Yes, I CAN take it!" "Its all Love" .."just remember to breathe... there's no rush, nothing to get to" ... And I came back, took my eyeshades off and saw the beautiful sky with the sparkling white clouds. I felt the sand around me, lifted some of it up in my hand and I was just stunned to have a body, to be able to move an arm, and hold sand in my hand and let it fall out down to the ground. I told my friends that I was speechless, that I had nothing to say, because words won't do what I experienced justice. Great trip. DMT is surely something. Remember to breathe guys, take it easy, there's nothing to get to. Heaven is already the case and could never not be the case. There is truly nothing to fear. Of course if you don't feel like it's Heaven and feel stressed and feel like there is a lot to worry about/get to; then that is also perfectly Perfect and absolutely also Pure Love, God having an intense dream. Bless you all❤️