WaveInTheOcean

Hate and denial are ultimately speaking also Love. However, relatively speaking, hate and denial is not 'in alignment' with the 'human embodiment of Love' ('enlightenment, liberation, being fully awake'), so if you are still - from time to time - acting from a place of denial and/or hate, it means you still have more 'trauma work' to do.

Self-awareness is imaginary, illusory Investigate if there is a real self

Enligthenment can best be described as freedom from chasing happiness. Enlightenment isn't unconditional happiness. It's unconditional love. Whatever arises is honored, loved while simultaneously acknowledging the fact that it - in the end - doesn't matter

Tbh ego is just thoughts. All kind of them, but especially negative thoughts. So mind = ego Thinking without thinking, acting without acting, that is divine intution, being directly in touch with Source.

So I just had a DMT trip where I experienced every human emotion possible. And it was overwhelmingly painful. The Universe raped me. It raped me by screaming to me: LET FULLY GO NOW! LET FULLY GO. And I realized that I had let go of everything -- was letting go of everything, could let go of everything -- except my breath. I answered to the Soul of The Universe: "I'm letting go, look, I'm one with You already, but I'm gonna keep breathing through all this pain" and The Universe replied (all my closest friends and familiy basically smiling and reaching their hands out to grab my soul out of my body (physically die, let go completely) and I answered that "I Love You, but I'm gonna keep breathing now, okay" .. and I kept breathing, and I didn't die. And now I'm here. Shaken as fuck, but with a smile on my face. This is peak "Faith/Meaningfullness" for me, right now, as I'm writing this. Life has infinite meaning. Death has infinite meaning. We will all die, so no rush, but I can say one thing with 100% confidence now: Dead, as in real physical dead, will be the most meaningful experience in your life. Or you could say: Your whole life will be the most meaningful experience you ever had, because you are going to die. Imagine a painted beautiful colourful canvas -- a piece of absolute art -- with foreground and background. It seems like -- to most people -- that LIFE 'is the foreground' and that DEATH 'is the background', but actually it's the other way around: LIFE is the background, DEATH is the foreground. Life IS suffering. Death is Bliss. They imply each other -- arise simultaneously -- THEY ARE ONE. Death = Life Life = Death Contrast you know. Fucking Contrast. God is a work of genius. Contrast. Play. Everything is frequency, Reality a symphony. We are all going to die, though, so no rush. And also, the secret is basically to die metaphysically before you die physically, so you can live the rest of your life fully and whole without doubt, but in faith. Have faith. <3 I am lucky to be born in Denmark, I'm eternally grateful 'my soul' chose to be born here. But even in arguably the best country in the world (from a ego-safety perspective) suffering is still widespread. Life is suffering. Your job doing life is to transcend it.

I don't know. But something obviously. Everytime you judge someone else so fiercely as you're doing here with ivankiss, it's because there is something in ourselves we are disconnected from.

You have a natural talent for writing ivan. Keep it up bro.

Me: "Hey I'm just quickly going to run down to the center to buy some food for tonight". You: "Run? Don't fool me or yourself newb! Say it like it is: you are going to drive down there -- it's 10 km!" Me: "facepalm". Consider that you yourself are even more in denial about something than Ivankiss ?????☯️

Who wants enlightenment? The mysterious ego. What you truly are -- Soul, God, Pure Eternal Consciousness, Love -- is already Enlightened. Of course. So what is 'spirituality' about? It's about 'unifying' your mind, heart, body with YOU (Ecstasy/Spirit/Soul/Love). Yoga. Self-exploration. Self-discovery. Meditation. Self-contemplation. Getting in touch with Ecstasy through various practices... -- Breathwork, meditation, sex, tantra, love, community, silence aka 'observing being instead of doing', life-purpose, dancing, music, embodiment exercises, drugs, cathartic art, nature, travelling, casting yourself into the unknown, challenging your comfort zones, psychedelics. ?⌛☯️??? There are infinite ways. What works for you? What haven't you tried? What are you afraid of? The unknown. The unknown is a symbol for death. ☠️?️??️?☠️?? The only truth, we humans can all agree on around the entire globe, is that we shall all die. Death. Our physical bodies and accompanying memories (ego) shall die. Sooner or later. The past & the future are composed of 'nows'. Do you realize the implications of this? You are already dead. Don't you see? There is only NOW. Time is an illusion. A social construction at best. Time is the ego's mode of functioning. Only the ego 'regrets & worries'. Only the ego is stuck in melancholic/fearful fantasies about the past/future. Only the ego is 'in a hurry'. It's all thoughts. Where do thoughts appear? Now. Now, now, now, now. Where do thoughts disappear? Now. You are Now. Thoughts appear 'in you'. As long as you are believing you are controlling your thoughts, as long will your thoughts (ego) control you. Only when 'the need-for-control' is fully 'let go of', shall you see that thoughts are insanely mystical and appearing out-of-nowhere IN YOU (= Pure Consciousness) without any of 'your doing'. And only then will you be free: You are NOW directly in touch with Divine Imagination: thinking without thinking, feeling without feeling, acting without acting. By letting go of & completely surrendering '(ego)control', you 'remember'/'get back': *true, divine control*. Liberation. The past is the future. The future is the past. You see how they imply each other? You can't talk about 'the future' without 'the past' to contrast it with. But... You are, in actuality, always *right in the middle* - always *NOW* - and the past only happens/appears-to-you as 'thoughts / stories / interpretations' *NOW*, and the future only happens/appears-to-you as 'worrying / expectations / planning / fantasy / predictions' ... NOW! It is always, always, always ... *now* ... - don't you see ? ? ? And thus you are already both alive AND dead, simultaneously! You just 'are'.... Being'ness. But by inwardly, intuitively knowing that you will eventually die, while outwardly, acting like you are eternal, there is a deep dissonance IN YOU. Disconnection. Disharmony. Suffering. *Ignorance leading to fear of death leading to ignorance leading to fear.* A strong, deeply programmed survival-loop-of-ego. How do you get out of it? By realizing you truly already ARE out of it, and haver never *really* been caught;... only 'in-mind' (imagination). To ever believe that you are caught is exactly that: a belief. Imagination. Stories. The ego LOVES stories, haha. How do you realize you are already God? By letting go of beliefs, by letting go of clinging... to thoughts & old ways of behaving. By being open-minded enough to follow your divine intuition instead of 'always doing what you know & what feels safe'. 'Psyche-delic practices' means 'soul-manifesting practices.' You can do Soul-manifesting practices sober by just having a really deep vulnerable talk with your best friend or a stranger. What works for you? It doesn't 'have' to be psychedelic substances; that's actually only for the really curious or really fucked-up (imaginary) ego-brain-minds ;-). It's about being open-minded, curious & courageous enough to surrender to faith, instead of clinging to old conditioned ways of being. It's about going through 'enough' suffering/devilry/selfishness to understand that you don't want to live in ego (disconnection, ignorance, slave-to-fear) anymore. Enough of all that endless self-inflicted mental pain (=suffering), ignorance (=slumber) and selfishness(=devilry). Enough of that. It's then about being humble, brave & curious enough to take a leap-of-faith and cast yourself head-on into 'the truth/unknown, whatever 'truth' might turn out to be. The truth is death itself. And that is the unknown. You see? ... You don't know what dead is. Zero fucking clue; 'no one' does. Only those "who have already died without physically dying" are, perhaps, lucidly aware of 'what's going on'. They have become 'no one' (once again). See, that's the fucking trick: to die (ego death) before dying, and realize that there is no death. That what 'death' is, is simply equal to what 'the background' is in relation to 'the foreground' in a painting. They imply each other. Arise together codependently, reciprocally, simultaneously, 'go-together' ... just like heads/tails, physical/mental, up/down, selling/buying, bad/good GO-*TOGETHER* !! And be open to the possibility that perhaps life itself is actually 'the background' to a much more blissful larger 'foreground' (death). (Death as in 'letting go' -- not physical death per se) Life IS death. Death IS life. All opposites are seen as UNITY. Oneness. One. You are One. Right in the middle of all imaginary opposites. And here, with Me, right in-the-middle, the golden mean, there is infinite nuances, infinite balance ⚖️ ☯️ ? . Here, the world is too full to talk about, just: silence, feeling, looking, eyes, accepting, forgiving, listening, loving. Here, there is no right or wrong, just being. Here, there is no self, just is'ness. Here, there is no bad or good, just wonder. Here there is no selfishness or selflessness, just Eternal Infinite Unconditional Love ('Neutrality'). No judgments, just openness. Here, everything is nothing, nothing, everything. Here, everything is mystery, incomprehensible for the mind/the thoughts to understand or know or speak about. 'Mind' expresses itself through thoughts. The social conditioned survivalistic ego 'hides in the mind' and controls the thoughts, as long as it is untranscended. In other words: you feel 'caught' in the meaningless chaos of life; like a 'conscious poor-little-me', seemingly 'stuck inside a human brain' on 'probation' in a seemingly: physical, robotic, random, nihilistic, chaotic, outside world. Right? But be happy, cos if you're a good well-behaved conforming rabbit that blindly chases the carrots of life (authority, religion, science, looks, success, career, money, power, sex, alcohol, new iPhones and cars, achievements of all kinds, then, well, then you're supposed to be HAPPY! ? Death is simply liveliness. Destruction, annihilation, letting go of the old, dying ... IS: ... transformation, change, growth, novelty, LIFE. ????? Life (mind, thoughts, fear, ego, physical body, survival, safety, sex; judging, dividing the world into good'n'bad; chasing the next dopamine kick) is not your true self. It's a character (body) and a play (world). Death (letting go of all of the above) is not your true self either! It's a new character, a new play. Novelty! ? Eternity! ⏳ Impermanence! ?️ Infinity! ? ☯️♾️???????⚖️☠️❤️?️? So ... Why did you get disconnected from yourself in the first place? Survival: childhood trauma, of course (which you should work on in some form or the other). We must learn to love ourselves, before we can really love others. We cannot fix anyone -- only ourselves. When we have 'healed ourselves' through our 'inner teacher' (soul, intuition), we can 'help others' with finding their own inner teacher, so they, too, can become 'whole' ... again. .… Actual Enlightenment is basically when you integrate all polar opposites into your soul, cos you 'lucidly see' they are complementary (ONE). Many people seeking enlightenment on this forum are believing that if they became enlightened they could sit in a cave in the Himalayas and meditate for eternity in bliss; like that is the point of enlightenment; like you need to do 5-MeO-DMT 100 times or do 1000x 1 month silence retreats to 'achieve, attain' enlightenment…. BUT. GUYS. Let me be the first to tell you that while psychedelics, silence retreats and meditation/contemplation can be absolutely fantastic for some, if not for many, on the path, it is still just 'external, imaginary solutions' to an 'inner, imaginary problem'. The inner problem is let go of when you see that there (truly) is NO problem (only imagination). When you fully let go and see that death is life, life is death. This can happen during regular life, it can happen in a cave in the mountains, it can happen during meditation, it can happen on DMT, it can happen whenever. You have nothing to say in this matter. It is absolutely mystical and beyond your control, if, and when you awaken during this lifetime. God decides. The Universe decides. Not you, your cute little ego. You are just a small, perhaps big, wave skating on top of a bottomless, infinite, eternal ocean. The ocean is doing you, not the other way around;) If you can let go of identification with being a finite wave, you will start feeling and sensing the magic of the whole ocean more, which is liberation, which is enlightenment, which is awakening. After all, your true nature IS the ocean (Infinity, God, Consciousness, Love, Nothingness, w/e u wanna call that which can't be explained through language… *THIS* !). .… To live 'in the world' (the marketplace), or to live 'outside the world' (the mountains); now, that is the question! The hedonist or the ascetic? What to choose? I will say one should choose to land 'in the middle'. But before one can attain/remember the golden mean, one naturally need to have tried out 'the extremes' first. In the middle is where you simultaneously live life in the world (buy and sell at the market place, participate in society, enjoy the small pleasures) while also being lucid enough to see that it is all 'just': an inexplicable, incomprehensible, mystical, mind-boggling magical, infinite, eternal dance, where the best thing to do is to just 'keep dancing' -- always innovating, developing, transforming the dance, so that it never dies, but stays alive, in motion -- rather than to stop or hesitate and cling to one or two dance steps becoming scared, angry, annoyed or ashamed towards other, new or deceased or silly dance steps. Let the dance happen by itself as it unfolds rather than tripping yourself up all tight, alright? To 'strain, hold on, control' is a 'limiting contraction of Infinity' to ego. To 'relax, let go and let happen' is to become 'whole again with the Universe' - to melt back into the 'Now of Infinity'. Dance. Dance. Dance. Lifedance. Follow the Divine Intuition inside & outside 'your ego'. (It is all inside God's mind, anyway). Your ego is that inside you which is afraid, ashamed, angry, envious, etc. Act despite fear. That is being brave, that is following the intuition. Actually embody the sentence 'follow your intuition' by actually doing the things you are afraid of! Like ACTUALLY *DOING them*, I mean WITH YOUR BODY .. *not in your mind!* . (The classic trap on this forum: Replacing direct experience with concepts, trying to eat the menu, mistaken the finger for the moon, mistaken the map for the terrority, ENOUGH OF THAT! <3 <3) .… “Dance, when you're broken open. Dance, if you've torn the bandage off. Dance in the middle of the fighting. Dance in your blood. Dance when you're perfectly free.” “Dance is the hidden language of the soul”. "And hand in hand, on the edge of the sand, They danced by the light of the moon.” “We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once.” “Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain.” “And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.” “To be creative means to be in love with life. You can be creative only if you love life enough that you want to enhance its beauty, you want to bring a little more music to it, a little more poetry to it, a little more dance to it.” "You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching, Love like you'll never be hurt, Sing like there's nobody listening, And live like it's heaven on earth.” “Almost nobody dances sober, unless they happen to be insane.” “Live your truth. Express your love. Share your enthusiasm. Take action towards your dreams. Walk your talk. Dance and sing to your music. Embrace your blessings. Make today worth remembering.” "Let us read, and let us dance; these two amusements will never do any harm to the world.” “You’ll learn, as you get older, that rules are made to be broken. Be bold enough to live life on your terms, and never, ever apologize for it. Go against the grain, refuse to conform, take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path. Laugh in the face of adversity, and leap before you look. Dance as though EVERYBODY is watching. March to the beat of your own drummer. And stubbornly refuse to fit in.” “Sleep my little baby-oh Sleep until you waken When you wake you'll see the world If I'm not mistaken... Kiss a lover Dance a measure, Find your name And buried treasure... Face your life Its pain, Its pleasure, Leave no path untaken.” "Do a loony-goony dance 'Cross the kitchen floor, Put something silly in the world That ain't been there before.” "Nobody cares if you can't dance well." “The job of feets is walking, but their hobby is dancing.” “Who're you going with, then?" said Ron. "Angelina," said Fred promptly, without a trace of embarrassment. "What?" said Ron, taken aback. "You've already asked her?" "Good point," said Fred. He turned his head and called across the common room, "Oi! Angelina!" Angelina, who had been chatting with Alicia Spinnet near the fire, looked over at him. "What?" She called back. "Want to come to the ball with me?" Angelina gave Fred a sort of appraising look. "All right, then," she said, and she turned back to Alicia and carried on chatting with a bit of a grin on her face. "There you go," said Fred to Harry and Ron, "piece of cake.” ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

"The Big Bang didn't happen in the past. Also, the Big Crunch won't happen in the future. The Big Bang timelessly appears as the Big Crunch -- the end of every sensation that ever has or will happen. The Big Crunch timelessly appears as the Big Bang -- the beginning of every sensation that ever has or will happen. The beginning of each sensation = its end. The Big Bang = The Big Crunch = everything. There is no separation. This is both timeless and causeless." What are you talking bout bro!!T Thebig bang happened 13,7 billion years ago - simple fact!!!Hippie. New ager. Spiritual mumbo jumbo! Straighten your mind! Be rational! Follow science! Listen to science! The world is prickly, material, physical, can't you fucking see? It aint goeey! Consciousness is an illusion produced by the dead matter and energy in your *Physical* brain! Everything is physical! Made of MATTER! Prickly! Why so deluded? Why so lost? Noob!! Hippie!! Spirituality, buhh!Y Youare a brain! A brain! Not a spirit. Consciousness does not exist at all! Look! See! Think! Think think think. You see, I think, therefore I am! Who's thinking? tHe brain!?

You trying to stop it ... is the core of the problem. Let go. It's perfectly fine to feel how you feel. It will pass eventually. Listen to your emotions, don't repress/run away from them. You need to find ways for you to 'process' these emotions. There are an infinite amount of ways. Exercise, sex, talking to girls, getting lost in something you are passionate about, meditating, psychedelics, write, scream, sing, dance, projects, doing something funny exciting with friends, art, go alone out in the wilderness for a week -- w/e works for you! ??️????????

The one who judges others and others' opinions = ego But wise dude sure. Ultimately, incredibly disillusioned like the rest of us, though ???????????????️???

I'm not rejecting anything. I'm happy for you and just offering a friendly helpful reminder??️????????????

Always more. The one who says it's done with growing is ego. Remember that.

Wound wise I think I'm pretty well healed, right now, but there's of course always more. When your own soul has been healed, become whole, you start feeling the collective consciousness/unconscious, so in fact infinite more wounds to heal. At least infinite more growth to be had?????️??☯️??????

They're God, so not wrong

Yeah, you're right. I thought about it yesterday as well. It felt like I had a choice: to either let go of breathing altogether or hold on to it. But of course, that's delusion. I was orchestrated, made, done by the Soul of the Universe/God/Infinity exactly as It wanted me. Staying alive. Still breathing. Still work to do. Still small pleasures to enjoy. Still Love to be had, given, recieved, done in this dream. "And it is the ego that will die if you let go, that's why it is claiming you will "phisically die". Because it does not want to let go! I'm sure there will be no mahasammadhi if you do." Well, I still feel genuinely that I was at a point where it was I had let go of everything except breathing. And the delusion was only that I had a choice. In fact I let go of as much as I could. I wasn't allowed to let go of breathing (didn't rly want to either, but its delusional to think 'I' (ego) had a choice!) So basically: if you say the ego isn't responsible for breathing, then there wasn't any ego left to let go of (or close to none). You could, on the other hand, also say that the ego is responsible for survival, keeping you alive, and that the ego, indeed, therefore is responsible for breathing. The ego is imaginary in the ultimate sense, so you could also say that everything is just God/Infinity/Me having conversations with Itself... BUT: I think it's helpful to look at the ego as all that which keeps the individual, finite mind-body/self/persona alive, which means all negative thoughts etc and perhaps also breathing. It solely depends on definition, I hope you can see that:-) thx for your well thought out response!

"Follow the intution inside and outside 'your ego'" --- I actually meant 'your body*'... but what the heck. And M. riggle: my pleasure, thanks for reading ! ????☯️

truth spoken

thx!!

Bingo. All negative emotions, i.e. shame, envy, anger, fear all stem from ignorance. Ignorance leads to ego leads to fear leads to ... 'insert any negative emotion, arrogance, anger, envy, rascism, etc.'. When it eventually dawns on you: that the source of ignorance is Love, that ego is God playing hide'n'seek with Itself out of pure Joy that fear is Love that the most unenlightened is the most Enlightened and vice versa (yin-yang) ... ... you'll be floored.

So it is to protect 'the known, the old' ... in fear of ... 'the unknown, the new' ... In short: fear of death -- fear of (missing out of) Love. --- Someone here: I'd say the most delusional are those who say they aren't delusional. I'm delusional. I'm a human being, lol!