WaveInTheOcean

I'd suggest going for only 1 trip (since it's a short retreat). And I'd say shrooms (but LSD is probably fine too, just my preference). I'd suggest somewhere between 2,0 and 3,5 g as a dosage. Up to you. Less is more sometimes. Perhaps 2,5 g? If you do LSD then between 100-150 ug, perhaps 100ug is fine if you know the LSD is of good quality. You have to leave time between trips to integrate, I'd say. I feel the after affects of a strong psychedelic trip for days afterwards. For instance, meditation is often (much) deeper for many days after a psychedelic trip. Do the pychedelic in the middle of your retreat. So if your retreat is friday-sunday, do it saturday. Bliss to you! EDIT: If you decide, anyway, to do shrooms/LSD 2 days in a row (which I again, dont recommend, but up to you!), then yes, there will be *some* cross-tolerance given the trips are only 1 day apart. It depends on dosage. LSD lasts a few hours longer, so it would be wise to do the shrooms first (to minimize tolerance; the longer a drug works in the brain, the more tolerance you build to it. If you do 2,5 grams of shrooms, then you would probably need to do 125-150 ug LSD the next day to feel what 100ug LSD would normally feel like).

Everything that happens / has happened is perfect. Why? Because it happened!:>

dont be so tough on yourself meditation "should" be a relaxing into the present moment you are allowed - of course - to use whatever "hacks" needed to help you getting absorbed into the present moment. meditating in nature often helps or just outside where you can hear some ambient sounds, like the wind. listening to some quiet ambient music can help smoking a cigarette beforehand can help (;D) taking psychedelics can help ( a lot xD) find out whatever works for you my man <3

God = no one <3 If God was 'someone', then God wouldn't be infinite God is God ... is the very fabric and structure of existence ... reality ... which is you; the real you - when you get to the rock bottom of it all.

It doesn't bring anyone happiness per se, as awakening is a deep recognition that there is no one to be either happy or depressed. But in the emptiness of existence is a natural peace, a natural joy. This presupposes, however, that the ego has fully surrended to Love/Oneness, which takes a lot of consciousness-work❤️

yep, it's a duality. as i was trying to point to: if you see that the inside depends on the outside and vice versa, then you'll start seeing that Reality is 0nE. Every duality is a strange loop, basically. Strange loops are everywhere, simply because reality is fundamentally non-dualistic (One/Nothing/Absolute) and not dualistic. It APPEARS dualistic however. It makes sense (from the pov of a human) to talk about dualities such as good-bad, inside, outside. It appears as though there is a world of opposites; this is the ego's job of creating this apparant dualistic world, wherein a separate self shall -by all means- survive.

A thought is energy, play, nothing. You get your thoughts from the outside, which in turn get its thoughts from the inside. A never ending strange loop

Thank you ❤️i'll consider it, still feels like i have a lot to integrate / some ego left to surrender. It's stressful to work in a kindergarten? Hopefully i get accepted at a bachelor of Psychology at a Danish university next year - psychedelic therapy is the future ???

perception implies a subject-object-duality . All that you can perceive is dependent on a subject perceiving an object (thought, body, emotion, tree, whatever). But when you get deep into non-duality you begin to understand that the distinction between subject (me, ego, self) and object (other or body or world) is artificial; it isn't grounded in anything true. The apparent (illusory) dualites of life exist only to serve survival. It's all one/nothing when you get to the bottom of it (if you dare to, hehe). This will destroy you, absolutely. All boundaries must collapse. The Self (God/Nothingness/Infinite Love) isn't something that can be perceived or found. Because it is ALWAYS the case. Everything is *THAT*, -- You are That -- and it is absolutely empty. It's right in front of your eyes... not to be perceived, but to BE. In fact, perception, and your constant insisting on trying to conclude something 'true' about yourself, or the world, is what hinders you from 'becoming IT' (though you already are it). Everything is the Pure Infinite Love-state. To seek it is to lose it. What hinders one in getting carried away? That one is trying to get to something 'true'. To get to the truth is to get carried away. To get carried away IS the truth ... - what else is there to do? Lose yourself to find Yourself.

watch the first 15-20 min

nice one <3

First step is to become directly conscious of that what you call 'I' is a mental illusion/doesn't exist.

True?

i would have nothing nothing different in fact I could have done nothing different what I call "I" doesn't even exist it was all planned out. infintely intelligent. infinitely lovingly. Perfection. Perfect because it happened.

Great read, thank you <3 Acknowledging and integrating one's shadow should be a top goal for any human being wanting to live life sincerely. Denying, supressing and running away from 'the projected bad sides of one self' only makes them come back 100 times stronger. Accept their presence, respect them, and let the light of your consciousness illuminate them in order to transcend them.

Thank you, great read, so much that resonates here i really agree with your perspective on psychedelics: they are amplifiers

Have faith in the process. You are on the the right path, already - in a sense - completely whole and perfect. Have faith in the design and intelligence Infinite Love is putting into each and every human life, yours included.

Change is love. Love is change. Infinite Love is devastating. It will floor you. It's all-destructive - completely annihilating you.

In a computer game, e.g. World of Warcraft - when your Gnome Mage character dies, do you also die? No. Death "IRL" is the same. It's an illusion. A magic trick of God. Death is the great taboo, when in fact death should almost be celebrated as a great blessing. All that dies is that which wasn't even truly real to begin with: your sense of a finite separated self, the human body/person you think you are. Don't worry, you aren't a human being or a body or a name or a person. You are something that cannot be put into words. Some call it Nothingness, Love, Consciousness, Dao, Brahman, God, etc. ... it's all just words. You are 'that which can't be named' having a meta-experience of being a human being, javfly. Eventually, of course, this meta-experience will also pass, just like all other experiences 'in your life' has passed. Now, what happens when this meta-experience of being javfly passes? No one knows. Cos you are no one. Mystery. Infinity. You see, if you as a human 'knew' what would happen the moment your body died, then we wouldn't call it death, hehe. We only call it death, cos we don't know what happens. One thing I know, is that something will happen. Cos Reality is Nothing. And therefore something will happen. You see? It's all truly nothing; absolutely nothing is going on. It's all so empty you won't believe it. Everything you experience is nothingness. And precisely therefore, of course, since something IS nothing (and vice versa), death is also nothing---- therefore, something will happen. Your question about whether death exist or not depends on perspective. Of course, from the perspective of an ego -- a separated self -- death is the realest thing alive! From a higher perspective that sees that ego/the separate self is illusion/unreal, well, then death is also that: unreal, illusion. Nothing is going to die! Hehe?❤️???? Since you are still asking this fine question, you are still operating from a deep inner persistence on the sense of separate self being real. - there is no one to reincarnate - Infinite Love is what is. It's always the case. You are Infinite Love right now. What hinders you from seeing your true nature (Infinite Love) is ignorance, attachments and unconscious survival-mechanisms. Start from where you are right now: a person. Then start working on becoming conscious of how you came to be that person...childhood and all that. Unravel all your survival mechanisms if you are courageous enough. This takes extreme amounts of openness, radical self-honesty and thus also courage. This isn't easy work. It kills you. Suffering will be necessary. Try to acknowledge/become conscious of the fact that what you call 'your whole life', all your 'voluntary actions', all your rationality, all your 'good, and bad, actions' is one big fat lie. You had nothing to do with it. You are just an extremely efficient survival-machine, an ape in suit, doing everything for only one purpose: biological and social survival: climbing or maintaining the human social ranks of being "a good and/or successful person". Selfish beyond imagination. When you have become fully conscious of the fact that you are one big fat survival machine (which will make your ego cry in pain...- ego hates and fear consciousness/awareness/light), then, only then, can you take the next step, which is: transcendence (of all that). You cannot transcend that which you aren't fully conscious of. Ultimately: love is consciousness is acceptance is transcendence is liberation. Only that which is loved can be understood. Only that which you have become conscious of can be transcended. The roads that do not lead you to the heart are all illusory.

Reality is designed for maximum Love. But God likes pretending - through ego - that it is not. Wake up and you'll see

denying the existence of suffering is denying love, you zen devil <3

Of course there is suffering my young padawan. Look around the globe, your own life. Looots of suffering. But yes, suffering is Love

Without suffering how would one know what happiness is???