WaveInTheOcean

Haha - I love you bro. Really. Good luck! Might not be stupid to leave this forum for a while.

Ultimately, the subtle difference between what is 'discovered' and whay is 'invented' is imaginary and arbitrary. You invented (imagined) this Universe. It's happening nowhere, or we could say: it's happening inside Your Mind (as The Universe Itself - the ultimate strange loop - God - Love - Consciousness). You even imagined certain hidden things that could eventually be discovered by your ignorant dream characters ?❤️❤️❤️

It doesn't occur anywhere. Nowhere. That nowhere is God. Just God. "Mind" isn't something you posses. Everything is mind. Consciousness. Everywhere you go, every sight, sound, emotion, thought, it's just the ?-dream of God. Which is You. Yes, relatively speaking, you - as a human person / dream character - have a so-called "inner life" of thoughts and emotions. But it turns out that everything you call 'outer' -- such as objects, animals, other persons, the ? -- is actually also 'inner'. That is, the so-called 'outside world' is made of the same substance as your emotions and thoughts. Consciousness. Infinite Mind. LOVE. God.

Thank you You're right ❤️

Well I am mostly speaking from my own experience. To put it into context, I was very happy last sommer. Felt like 24/7 ecstasy almost. Felt like I had awakened. "Thought" 'I' was "done", enlightened. I had a very deep 2cb trip in June. Yet, when winter came, from September-February, I was very very depressed. Worst period was October-January, just 3-4 months filled with suicidal thoughts almost every hour I was awake. Wasn't that far from actually doing it - when it was worst, I planned it deliberately, and almost followed through. I suffered a lot. Deepest pit of depression. Yet, when I look back now, at my suffering, at all my major suicidal depressions (3 now, last 3 winters in fact), I can only see them as humbling, teaching experience. I have managed to transform the suffering into deep healing, wisdom, greater self-knowledge and more appreciation for my shadow and for - in general - what it means to be human.

It doesn't always happen with a God-relization. I had a nightmarish/very hellish Changa trip september last year. Probably also around 100 mg smoked. My ego couldn't handle the Infinite Love. I feel like DMT just opens up all your pores in your body-mind-soul-complex so that you can receive the Infinite Cosmic Love that is always present. Yet, if your ego isn't ready to accept (surrender) this Infinite amount of Love, well then that Infinite Love will feel like pure hell, like your soul is getting burned for eternity in the purgatory. That's at least how my changa trip felt in September. Very traumatizing. I was already down on the slope towards suicidal winter-depression (I probably have some mild genetic bipolar) but that trip speeded it up. Ultimately, it was just Love though, inlcuding my depression. Very humbling experience. Suffering = Healing

HAHA . Awesome. Who made it here from the forum?

Do most men know how to be a high value BF?:-)

Watched this interesting video yesterday What do people think of Teal's views? Especially interested in @Emerald s take.

It was only 40% DMT content btw. (40% DMT, 15% Syrian Rue Maoi extract, 45% leaves). I meditated 30-40 min daily every morning (typically after an 8 km run) for the 3-4 weeks leading up to the trip. No doubt it helped. (Note: have been meditating on/off for 5 years, but this month long streak - still going - is actually the longest hehe). My meditation technique is 10-15 minutes of whimhoff. Then 10-15 minutes of deep slow breathing through the nose, with the silent mantras: "I Love, I Love, I Love" on the inhale "What would Love do?" Slowly when holding the breath. "I let go, I let go, I let go" on the exhale. Then ~10 minutes do nothing just bathing in the blissful state. On this particular day my meditation was extra deep, I already felt like I was in touch with DMT beings sober (higher aspects of myself). I knew I was in for a deep ride. I contemplate daily. It's 2nd nature for me. I was kind of fasting while tripping (like u know the 5:2 IM fast. I had only eaten one ? smoothie the day before and two bananas in the hours prior to the trip.) I hadn't had ejaculation for 7 days leading up to. Just didn't feel like fapping. I think your inner vibrational state prior to inhaling the DMT molecules to a larger extent determines your exp and whether you'll break through or not. I was feeling amazing prior, in part due to two prior very healing changa trips beforehand (one was the same session, perhaps 80-90 mg, and one was 1 week earlier). Just to give some context ?

Does any part of life hold any value?:-) See, it's all just a dream, a game, so utterly meaningless (you won't believe it), that the only reason it's occuring is Love (God). It's so utterly meaningless that you are free to attach any value, any meaning, you want. This is freedom. Go with the flow, go with how you feel. Sex can be pretty mindblowing nice at times:-)

?? You're one of the wisest around on this forum, thank you for taking your time to share your knowledge and insights.

Lol, haha. Oh God. The endgame is right here, Now. Believing in any endgame -- especially a spiritual one -- just keeps you from IT.

Just cute stories/delusion/lack of consciousness

What would Love do? If you didn't have any fear (for instance your obvious fear about how your family/friends will see her..."shy", "wierdo" etc..., this fear is actually just your own insecurities coming to surface)... ???

Great post.

Complete bullshit. You are just not yet able to be authentic with women. So it's all fine. Go develop more, then come out of the cage ? But note that it's also possible to grow in relationships. A lot. But yes yes, sometimes if the relationship is very toxic, it can be a blockade. So not complete bullshit, sorry, just a tad. Love ❤️

I think Teal should make a video: Containment, what men needs from women I think both the feminine and masculine wants to be contained, just in different ways. I like her analogy where the clam-shell is the masculine and the pearl the feminine. But turn it around and we could make another analogy: the masculine being 'a warrior' that needs to be contained by his Queen ??

Smoke 40 mg DMT

It feels like Infinite Love Ecstasy beyond anything you imagine ecstasy to be. If orgasm during sex is a drop in the ocean in regards to ecstasy, then a break through changa trip (or likewise awakening) feels like all the planets oceans in the whole universe

ah sorry didn't see the old thread, and Emerald even replied. haha lol

Great comment, thank you. Yes, I'm thinking the same. She seems to sort of take it for granted that every man on Earth *should* be fully masculine, while every women *should* be fully feminine. Of course, generally speaking, more men embody more masculine energy, and more women embody more feminine energy. But for many persons it's a mix. Especially in regards to self-development, I think we should strive to embody both types of energy, no matter our gender. Of course, one type of energy will always be "the core one", the dominant one, and as I'm a man and very heterosexual, I naturally feel that there is more masculine energy inside me than feminine, although I have cultivated the feminine aspect within me a lot the last few years.

I think we gotta appreciate our all our bodies are different. I'm eating pescitarian - mostly vegan, perhaps some real cheese/fish 1-2 times week max -- and I'm eating loads of carbs (oatmeal, berries, bananas, potatoes), like 60-80% of my energy intake probably comes from carbs. And I'm close to underweight hehe (bmi 18-19, 1.96 m high, 75-80 kg). I run 6-8 km 4-5 times a week (~130 km a month) and do light resistance workouts as well. I have never been able to get fat in my whole life. And it's not that i have a bad appetite. I remember when i was a teen, i'd eat loads of meat, and i'd 1-2 times a month have terrible stomach pain (not sure if related to meat, could also be all the candy:D)

That seems mostly like abuse/escapism.

Whatever arises, Love that. What would Love do? That's the question we have to ask ourselves frequently.