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Or if we die in a violent or scary situation?

@JustThinkingAloud I think that as soon as one knows a thing, they can go and do it. It's not someone reaches a point of knowing a certain amount and then they're like "ok I'm ready." Actually I think that for someone self-actualizing what will happen is they will get so sick of consuming information that they will start to take action. As the consumption of information can become a sort of addiction.

I've heard this too. Also doing dream work can help with that apparently.

Thank you. I've had mystical experiences, but I still don't think I really understand my true nature.

love. I am going to have a ceremony in a few months. I have a similar "intention"

Asian restaurants have some relatively healthy stuff. Sushi is a really good, probably the best option. Vietnamese restaurants have some pretty healthy and fresh stuff too with minimal ingredients. But unless you live in an area that has good Asian food you might be out of luck. Honestly, eating out isn't very healthy because restaurants, unless you go to a specifically "health-focused" one, use a lotttt of oil, salt and cheap ingredients. Then it's cooked in high heat which adds to the unhealthful qualities of the food. When you do go out just do it rarely and always get stuff that is fresh, not many ingredients, not super greasy etc.

I’ve been realizing that I have spent my entire self-help “career” taking on others’ teachings blindly. My parents have always kinda been into this sort of stuff and I just took it on without thinking twice about it. Im at a sort of cross roads now, actually. Realizing this recently, I’m second guessing if I even want to be doing this work, as I’m suffering so much and I’m tired of not fitting in and everything is just horrible. I guess in a way I feel I’ve seen too much, and now there’s no going back. But I’ve been having inkings that maybe I do want to give up, and live a normal life, no more of this seeking. Ignorance is bliss, I guess.

@DoubleYou I’ve been thinking about that too! But then I worry, I don’t want to lose everything I’ve worked for! So it’s kind of a two sided deal, I both want to give up and don’t want to haha. But I really have been trying to work with this idea of just letting go of all the ideas I have about myself, total transformation is upon me.

Thank you, this comment feels like a breath of fresh air

@JakeyAwakey Wow, this is incredibly insightful and spot on, you are psychic.

Haha I’m in the same boat. I think I’ve been putting the cart before the horse this whole time... ugh

@Nickyy yea that’s the thing with studies, they have to be technical. I read part of it and noted the part about cannabis which I find relatable in my situation because, I actually was using cannabis heavily during my binges. I think this study is really important though, while we can’t rule out the use of cannabis as being the cause of the memory loss, it’s hard to believe that my memory loss and paranoia is related to solely cannabis, and it seems more likely to be a combination of the two. I did find a bunch of studies that say they don’t know the long term affects of heavy usage, and also that MDMA is safe. But I’m not buying it, I’ve seen it mess with people and it messed with me. I think we can’t just look to studies. Sure these people may have been smoking cannabis, drunk or on something else, but those things alone don’t necessarily cause the devastation that can happen when MDMA is added into the equation. So after all this, I don’t know. I would have a hard time believing that someone who abuses MDMA for a period of time will experience no negative effects, but that’s because it seriously wrecked me so I’m going off my personal experience.

of course haha. how about this study? It's interesting looking into this. I'm sure I could dig up a lot more if i spent the time. I think it's also valid to note that not a whole lot has been done in the way of studying the effects of heavy usage on humans. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1525102/ Personally, I experienced significant memory loss and trouble retaining information after my abuse, I also experienced paranoia which I noticed was directly caused by the MDMA. There are others like me, too.

I questioned your story's validity, and went on to say that everyone is different. I'm not dismissing, solely questioning. Why are you dismissing my direct experience? You are biased too, can't get around that. And just because you and people you know didn't experience brain damage doesn't mean it doesn't happen.. I was part of the rave scene for a little too, not the early, hardcore rave scene, but I've raved a good amount in my life. My experience with MDMA sounds different from yours in the sense that I went on binges, doing it almost every day for months at a time. It 100% fucked with my memory and I wasn't doing anything else crazy, just MDMA, pure shit. I'm also a woman, of small stature and have a low tolerance for drugs in general, all of which play a role.

MDMA is most often laced with meth, the type of brain damage associated with long term meth usage is different from what happens with misuse of MDMA. Plus, I'm more interested in discussing direct experience.

@Nickyy I don't believe you, haha. For four years you have done MDMA every weekend (consecutively) , and sometimes three nights a week, and mixed with other things and you have zero negative effects? MDMA tolerance builds up very quickly, so you will have to be taking more and more each weekend. As such you are putting massive amounts of the drug into your system. There comes a point, in my experience, that MDMA basically stops giving you a high, and only destroys your brain. This happens with repeated usage ie using every weekend. So yea, when you say every weekend for years, you must not mean that literally. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1071023/ They talk about the memory loss here. And there's all kinds of studies out there proving it. Of course, everyone is different and everyone will experience different responses to heavy usage, but just because you or no one else you know has experienced negative effects doesn't mean it doesn't happen. It's common to hear of people who abuse the drug to report memory loss, and I have first hand experience of it.

You're right, it's not a psychedelic. However it is an extremely dangerous drug. Memory loss is the biggest one. MDMA can be safe in very small doses, done very infrequently. Anyone who has done it for years without problems, I don't believe/want more information from. It basically heats up your brain, and does cause actual brain damage, whereas psychedelics do not. It's not really something to be messed with. When it is done often, in large doses and without much time in between it can really fuck with memory and information retention. It also has the potential to send someone off the deep end, ie. can cause very paranoid delusions in otherwise healthy individuals. It can take years and years, with intention, to heal from excessive MDMA usage, and one may not ever be the same again, like you mention. So yea, it's not a joke. Of course, everyone is different, a small person will react differently than a large person etc etc however the jist is the same, don't take the drug lightly.

There's your answer. But honestly, you could go the other way and be fine, too. Both will be learning experiences.

The Life Purpose Course completely changed my life. It gave me the blueprint on how to discover my life purpose. I had always wanted to know my life purpose but was lost on how to find it. The results from the course gave me so much insight into myself and I got my life purpose out of it, which is the best part. The thing is though, you have to be motivated to do the exercises and complete the course. It took me about 4 months to do it. It was the most money I had spent on personal development and I think that was a motivator for me as well as I trusted Leo's guidance. Anyway, the course doesn't magically change your life, you have to do the work.

What is the point of Leo telling us that not many people are doing this work? Awakening, meditation, life purpose, doing the emotionally difficult thing etc.. For me, I took that and made myself seem better or cooler or more well off because I was “doing the work”. Maybe it’s to inspire us?

@Freedomesong I enjoyed this perspective and reading your response. Sometimes I get all hoity toity so to speak, when thinking about others who may not realize they are on a path, but that is empty and doesn't get me anywhere good. Thank you

I've been taking improv classes once a week and sometimes going to a show to watch others do it and that gets me laughing good. We laugh so much in class, it's great.

@oMarcos they don’t consider psychedelic usage a problem because it’s not a practice

Guys, I’m super close to having my very own business. This isn’t my life purpose or anything, but it is a massive step in the direction that I need to go. In fact this will be the thing that really gets me going. I’ve wanted to have my own business for years. But I’m terrified!! Part of me is teetering on the edge of doing it but I just haven’t made the step. It’s like when you’re at the edge of a diving board, right before you jump off—that feeling. So I’m just not taking the dive. A lot of the things I need to do are so simple too. I have a few clients already and kind of my own thing going, but taking the final step into it is holding me back. So I’m thinking, maybe there is a way I can work up to taking the plunge? Like take a business class, do more stuff to help me be more confident (I’m shy). But I’m paralyzed because I fear that will take too much time and by then it will be too late. How do I get out of my own way with this? This will be the first massive step I’ve taken in my life in regards to my growth, ever. I really want this. The business is dog walking, by the way.

Just a suggestion, but try getting into stretching/yoga. You might find it helps.