Flowerfaeiry

Welcome to health advice on the internet. I don't think it's bad. Don't eat a bunch of it (like pretty much everything) and you'll be fine.

How much time do you spend inside? Do you have access to frequent fresh air? You need to spend time outside breathing through your nose. Lift up your sinuses, massage them and clear them while outside. Go on a hike and breath through your nose. Bring some tissue and blow your nose. Really try and get it out. Breath in and out through your nose very intentionally and purposefully. Do this a lot. Like if you can, every day, but a few times a week or even once a week will work. Continue doing this for several months and I bet you'll see an improvement.

Oh ok. Where did I misunderstand your point?

Consider that an individual would feel anger at the foresightedness of the vegan message that "everyone" can be vegan. Unless they have some, as you say, "weird" makeup.

That's just an assumption you're making.

Unfortunately most of the meat we get has been killed unconsciously. I would love to be able to kill a wild animal and have that be part of my food source for a few months. It's not easy to take a life and it takes a very open heart to do so consciously. Biggest problem with veganism is many humans just can't thrive on plants alone. Not all the calories, supplements and food variety in the world can change the way a body uses nutrition from an animal. Except for the perspective it gave me, I regret the 5 years I wasted on veganism.

Lots of reasons, depending on the person. Sometimes it has to do with being genuine. Some people who are positive are doing it blindly and haven't actually worked through their stuff, putting on a fake happy type attitude because that's how they think they should act.

My whole childhood itself was very traumatic. The pain created from that has always been the driving force behind my spiritual seeking.

You're going to feel like shit for a few weeks, but it will get better. I promise you will feel better. For now, try and really feel into your pain. Take good care of yourself and don't run away from it as best you can. Be super kind to yourself. Definitely watch Leo's video on breakups and also his video on how to deal with strong negative emotions.

I know there's many different reasons this could have happened. But im attractive, and he told me he thinks I am. It all happened so suddenly and I'm really bummed about it. Maybe he's gay? Why do I keep getting matched with these feminine dudes? Maybe I haven't actualized my own femininity? I don't know. This sucks.

Actually yea that last part rings true for me. Thank you for the suggestions.

I absolutely have a strong tendency towards masculinity but I can also be very feminine. I'm not necessarily just one or the other, it changes. I only recently have been trying to cultivate my femininity consciously, as it's something I took for granted in the past and kinda just figured since I was a woman I naturally had it figured out. Was wrong about that. I like being feminine. Even with a woman there are many feminine aspects that come out. So it's confusing. My sexuality is confusing to me haha.

Okay, thank you. ❤ You're funny lol.

With a woman, yes, but with a guy I like to be more feminine. Yea, I asked him out, I took control of the relationship. Never really even gave him a chance to be masculine

It's true. At least that's my perception. The last relationship I was in was a lesbian relationship, and before that one, the guy i was with also had a hard time getting it up, more toward the end of the relationship though. He is pretty feminine and I took a masculine role. Not intentionally and I didn't realize I was doing it until I reflected on the situation after in ended.

Lol glad to provide a laugh hehe. Thanks for reminding me not to be so hard on myself. Thank you so much for this advice ❤ you're right.

I'm sitting here in tears thinking about how I got into this situation. I have this complex about myself that insists I am better than that type of drama. But I attracted this into my life because I still haven't worked through a lot of the pain I have from my childhood. I recently moved into a home with 3 roommates. I noticed right away after moving in that I had gotten myself into a situation that I was trying to move away from, drinking and partying. But at the point of my realization, I had already moved in and was settled. In a new city, all by myself. Okay, I should be alright, right? Well, I have a history of using drugs and alcohol and I feel a very strong pull to do those things when I am around them. I thought I could just, not do it, and live in the house regardless. But I was needy, I wanted friends, and my roommates were partying so why wouldn't I join? I tried to not get involved but I was just drawn to the things happening all around me. This girl punched me because she didn't like me being friendly to her. I take full responsibility for it. I walked up to her, she was drunk, high and angry. I smiled at her. She called me a bitch and punched me. I didn't react. It's my fault for trying to prove to her that I am a nice person... I deserve that. I moved out the next day. But now I'm living in a hotel, alone in a new state. I keep turning inwards and looking at how I got myself into this situation. And it's a little overwhelming to see all the ways in which I am at fault for all my drama. I just feel like I should be over this by now. I've been really putting work in for 3 years but have been into spirituality for 10+ years. To think that all those years were just me lying to myself about how "spiritual and good" I am just pains me. I'm a liar to myself first and then to those around me. As a tall, white, pretty girl I have this look that makes me seem like I have my life together. But I am suffering deeply, and the only reason I'm not a homeless drug addict is because I have a really good support system. I just feel like such a fake.

I am eternally grateful for these teachings and ultimately do not regret discovering them. Yet I must tell you, I have many moments of exhaustion and it often feels overwhelming. Many times I find myself wondering what life would be like if I was a normie. I envy my peers who live life without much thought of the existential. I wish I could eat, sleep, shit, watch TV, hang out with friends, all without really trying to get to the truth of what is. Thinking about alllll the crap I tell myself on the daily is just a little too much. These high-level teachings are...wow... a fuck ton to digest. Am I the only one who feels this way? I have other teachers too, not just actualized, and still it's just a lot. All this personal development, deep thinking stuff is a lot. I kinda just want to lay in bed forever and forget it all. I won't, I mean, I've tried quitting multiple times. I keep trying to reason my way out of this stuff. I've told myself I'm done. Yet I can't quite give it up. I don't know. Maybe I'm just having a rough day.

If you have yet to watch Leo's video, or maybe you need a refresher, here's your opportunity. I keep returning to the lessons in this video. I recently got myself into a situation that I think could have been avoided if I had not been so hell bent on proving my "goodness" to the people around me. Having hundreds of psychedelic trips and sitting hundreds of hours in meditation doesn't make you any more enlightened than the next person, tbh. Don't walk around all high and mighty just because you've had a taste of the divine. In fact, you're in almost a worse position than the person who has not done any of those things, because now you have new ways to manipulate or abuse others through the guise of being a good person.

@DLH oh yeaa, thanks for that reminder

I feel the same way about LSD. I prefer to micro dose it, but even then it can be a bit much.

Didn't you make a post about this a couple weeks or so ago?

What do you mean? My understanding comes from direct experience. I have sat hundreds of hours in meditation, I have nearly 100 psychedelic experiences, I've watched videos, read books, I've been working on myself for years. Yea, I've fallen into the trap of just believing somethings, but I've also experienced many, many of these things with my own eyes. The problem is, I've taken these lessons and used them for evil. Used them in the wrong situations and haven't integrated what I've learned.

Women Who Run with the Wolves

I really like the images in the thumbnail. Very excited for these.