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I watched your video. I think you have have some good knowledge and now need to spend time integrating and figuring out how you would like to share it in a wise way. The forum appreciates high quality content, not repetitive low quality posts with needless swearing. I once thought that Jesus was the way. Then I realized it was a stepping stone and that ultimately it was still all me.

Even if everyone gets a shot, we won't just be "moving on". Things are different now. I also don't want people to get jabbed just so we can "move on" and things can go back to normal. That seems nearsighted.

Do you like being in nature? Also, a therapist may be helpful in this situation.

Find out your life purpose. That will give you lots of work.

@Chi_ Thich Nhat Hanh is awesome. I really enjoyed his books Peace is Every Step as well as Anger.

BJJ is a ton of fun. You'll learn basics on how to protect yourself, get in shape, meet new people, learn body mechanics and it's a really detailed art, making it highly interesting. Just try it out, don't worry about mastering it. You're bound to reap benefits no matter what.

I've heard somebody else say this too. I think Thich Nhat Hanh, and he chews his food like 30 times or something. For him it's about mindfulness and being able to digest food better. It's interesting to see you've had those results.

Sometimes people are just more sensitive to psychedelics. Could also be related to your emotional state before tripping and even if you hadn't eaten much that day. Sounds like you were simply very open to the experience. Don't worry about figuring out if the experience was real or not. Start exploring about how to actualize your life purpose. That sounds like it was a big part of the trip. I think you had some good realizations. You don't have to figure it out all at once. Be kind to yourself, integration does take time.

Logically that might make sense to you but when it comes down to it your emotions are bound to take hold and supersede such ideas.

I love the quote that says something to the effect of, when the student is ready, the teacher appears. Sometimes a mentor or teacher may not look how you think it will. Do you have any favorite YouTubers that offer coaching? If you have a passion like music or art you may find a mentor there. If you're interested in starting a business a business coach that you can meet with in person may help. Therapists, yoga teacher, personal trainer.

Thank you everyone! ❤

@Michael569 The way Loren Lockman puts it (dude in the video above) is that small amounts of food do get lodged in the intenstines from each meal. Which kind of makes sense, I mean, is our body processing each and every particle? And he says that over the years that food builds and builds, lining the walls and creates toxicity. I don't know if this is true of course, I just think it's interesting and possibly probable? I would think so too.

While I'm not necessarily in the camp of believing there is shit stuck on the walls of our colon, I believe that the idea in their community is actually that, the reason you can't see it with a camera is because it's higher up there than the camera goes and even lines the wall of the small intestine (muccoid plaque).

I feel so separate from my family, friends, peers, coworkers. Very few of them have seen what I've seen. Very few of them have done what I've done. They don't understand what it's like to take psychedelics. They don't understand what it's like to meditate and have your whole world fall apart when you're just trying to end your suffering. They don't fucking get it. Very few people fucking get it and I just keep wanting to pour my heart out to anyone who will listen and really truly empathize with me about the pain I feel from not really even being able to put myself in their shoes at this point. I feel selfish. Really fucking selfish because it's all about me. I just want MY story to be heard. I don't want you to listen and then talk about yourself. I want to tell you how misunderstood I feel and have you just listen and hold me in that space. Show a genuine interest in me. And I don't want to have to worry about showing interest in you directly after because I want THAT time to be for ME. I ate mushrooms for the first time when I was 17. I've been experimenting with psychedelics on and off for a long time. Of course I've seen things they haven't. IT WAS A FUCKING ACCIDENT. I DIDN'T MEAN TO DO THIS. I didn't know what I was getting into when I first started exploring these substances. I willy-nilly attended a meditation course when I was 22, pretty much directly after I had a psychotic episode from taking too much MDMA. I'm 30 now and that just seems SO YOUNG. The shit I'd seen at that age...I had no idea about integration, I was a young kid. That meditation course was too much. I had a breakdown. I STILL haven't integrated it. I still haven't integrated a lot... I've been trying to get over my fucking laziness this whole time. Over my 10 year addiction to cannabis. NO ONE that I'm close to has a life purpose that they are cultivating. No one I know personally takes spirituality and personal development as seriously as I do. And to top that off, I STILL work a dead-end, low-paying job. What the hell? After everything I've seen?? After all the supposed work I've done on myself? I know that my life purpose is going to take a long time to actualize. And it doesn't help that I'm working myself half to death. God please help me. Please offer me understanding, please show me patience. Please show me selflessness. Please give me strength.

Don't do it. I'm familiar with Loren Lockman. Look into more of his videos, he's very adamant that on water fasts nothing else should be taken other than water. Be safe, really listen to your body and don't push anything if it says not to. Also warning on Loren Lockman, he's extreme and dogmatic about his beliefs on fasting so be aware of that.

Start doing facial massages. I love this one. It's a method from a Chinese doctor. Follow Along Facial Massage | Full Version | Lymphatic Drainage Face Massage | Anti-Aging Massage These facial massages are the bees knees and will help you with your problem of looking tired all the time. It lifts and tones the skin. Your post is more about being confident in the skin you already have and part of that is upping your self care and doing things that make you feel pretty. Explore that.

Do you see her as a child in a way? As less than you a bit? If so, that's gonna be a tough one to overcome. The best thing would be to be there for her when she comes to you. Cry with her when she cries, listen with your undivided attention, give your advice if she asks for it. But if she doesn't bring it up, don't try and fix her.

This is especially important. Sometimes those of us who have a lot of experience underestimate their power and think "oh I've done this so many times before I know what I'm doing". But they can and will knock you off your ass just when you think you're safe.

I've only dated people who weren't into spirituality like I am. In fact, quite the opposite. They were very much realists. Depending on how good your rant was and you didn't just parrot things Leo says (that you actually have an understanding of reality being an illusion) you may be alright and she's just shocked at the possibility. If it's true that she doesn't want to awaken and you do, that sounds like a big disparity in your compatibility.

He has explained it. But, do some investigating for yourself. From my understanding it's like when you're asleep and don't have consciousness of anything not even dreaming. My grandpa died once and then came back to life. I asked him, what was it like to be dead? He said, there was nothing there. I was a little disappointed it wasn't more "mystical" sounding, haha.

This is incredibly enlightening.

It consumes your life. Even if it's not that severe. I would think about food -all- the time. Planning my meals, stressing about what to eat, feeling anxious or unsettled after eating and then starting that cycle all over again. If there's physical pain around eating that can make things more difficult. It kind of is like OCD because you're always obsessing about food in one way or another.

I'm recovering from an eating disorder. Each person's experience is different. It's a good sign that she does open up about it at all because it's an embarrassing thing for many people. Your ability to help her will depend on the type of eating disorder she has (anorexia, bulimia, etc) and the severity of it. I.e if it's really severe, like she's deathly underweight or throwing up every day, gently encourage her to see a therapist or reach out to an eating disorder support group, (Eating Disorders Anonymous is a good resource) but don't push the issue simply because that can make matters worse. I know you said you really like her, but a girl with an eating disorder is going to have other, potentially serious, emotional problems and a lot of baggage so be aware of that.

Teal Swan is awesome and pretty wise. I used to watch her videos a few years ago but not so much anymore. She has a lot of great insights on relationships and the various dynamics that play out in them. Def not perfect, but a good teacher. She says things to the point which can bring up uncomfortable stuff at times.

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