Flowerfaeiry

Do what you love, whether it’s Quigong or art. Explore both, you don’t need to tie yourself down.

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My advice is to create something that is all your own. Good job making something, keep it up.

It's always tough when people close to you are suicidal because you think "if I don't do the right thing, they're dead". Reading this I can tell you care a lot about your dad and are really distressed over this. He is lucky to have you. Yes this is all love, AND you have human things to deal with so no need to try and bypass this by saying those things. It's OK to feel that this is hard, it's OK to feel fear and confusion. I don't know what you should do, I just wanted to offer you some support.

Yes!! Happening now

I would say, live up to your values and you will attract people doing the same

I'm never going to burn through my desire for deep relationships and artistic pursuits in this lifetime and I have no wishes to I do however wish to burn through my damn weed addiction.

To do more than the bare minimum

I think it's great to do psychedelics consciously so I love where you're going with this. One thing is that even with all the planning in the world you never know what you might see. Encountering difficult situations may be what you need. Psychedelics can bring up things that you never in a million years would have imagined without.

Relationships can be emotional and sometimes that gets expressed strongly on this forum. There is also a lot of good advice here that can be focused on too.

Ayahuasca is traditionally used for shadow work from my understanding and experience with the medicine. Are you taking it by yourself? My personal advice is not to drink unless with a trusted facilitator as they work specifically with things like this!

@Rilles Did you do this?

I think this is a great idea. A man who asks me out and then doesn’t pay confuses me. Many women are really conscious of the money spent on them and will not want you to spend too much.

Oh my gosh I’m so sorry. I’ve dealt with nightmares and they’re the worst. I noticed I had them more when I was in a bad relationship or if my diet was crap. Also, writing down the dreams and contemplating them may help you understand more about why you are having these and the things you can do to make them better. I am going to message you.

The things that helped me were time and not giving up hope. You can go slowly. You can waste time. Maybe you need to allow yourself to rest after those hard things you’ve been through.

IMO you going to a psych ward means you have more experience to teach from. You can use the healing and hurt from what you learned there to help others too.

I think that the way a passion is expressed can change as the individual changes. Maybe a chef who fried doughnuts at a farmers market becomes healthy and now slings epic salads.

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Just being on this sub-forum has reminded me that men are trying to do their best and their intentions are not malicious most of the time

Having a wide range of unique experiences.

I think this kind of stuff can be healed by changing lifestyle to get more fresh air. Sounds like you have some irritation going on from all the stuff you're putting up your nose. Some things to experiment with as well are: Mewing(proper tongue positioning method), nose breathing, nightly mouth taping, nasal massages, taking deep breaths in nature, fresh air in general especially cold/for a couple of hours at a time (like a hike in nature). Sometimes grains, oils, overcooking and other things in the diet can cause problems. Possibly it is a mold problem and if so I have no idea what to do for that.

You're definitely not broken. The mind does all kinds of weird things. What does it feel like when you stop thinking? Maybe it would help to write about it?

I think you have to define it for yourself.

It's OK to regret things. Sometimes you won't know until you have done the thing and learned from it. So keep exploring regardless

Feel it all as fully as you can! Take care of yourself, move, express your emotions if you can.