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50 mg of Modalert today 1st time... to sum it up... Fuck studying I WANT TO CLEAN EVERY INCH OF THE HOUSE

you want a turban? yes or no?

INFP. Me to a tee.

@Nicachi Who are your biggest influences in painting?

Set a goal to not do it for one week then one month then two months etc. Try to avoid getting into situations where you usually do it Be around people as much as possible Stay busy doing other things Dont look up girls on the internet just for fun, if you do youre already screwed Stay mindful Dont judge yourself if you fail, sexual desire is one of the strongest forces there is

when Shamanic Breathing gets real

*stares at ceiling*

This is absolutely beautiful! Just make sure you find a niche and youll be alright.

We would never know unless we interrogated the guy. Hence why we need nuance and you cannot say this is bad and this is good. Are you new to Actualized lol

A person is not good or bad, youre seeing things black and white. We are all devils and angels. Tada! Ive probably killed 10000 cows to feed myself for my entire life but ive also done good things. How would you judge me?

Id say he saved her life so he could rape her which makes the act pretty ugly.

First he is in high consciousness and then he slips back into his lower self.

That last one was a real gem! Thank you for that!

I want to start doing the work on both my own insecurities and the traits I hate in others. Should I do it everyday or once a week? Obviously more is better but what is reasonable?

hes a shaman obviously, a sage for the ages

this whole thread reminds me of this https://www.reddit.com/r/tooktoomuch/comments/b7p17m/mom_walks_in_on_kid_tripping_on_salvia/

This little clump of pubic hair was literally God - Leo 2016 I was hugging the toilet bowl crying - also Leo 2016

I thought of that too actually, mindfulness of your triggers is a form of shadow work.

i recognize that... the lethargic feeling that comes after realizing some bitter truth about yourself. I was once depressed for an entire day when I realized I was responsible for all of my failures (and happiness) and how much Id been lying to myself.

Resist! Thats the only way to learn that resistance is futile.

Trying to surrender is not surrendering. See the problem here? For real though, Leo has a Guided Meditation, check that out, its really helpful.

weak, i take my time with it, atleast an hour with mindfulness and intention while doing strong determination sitting

You probably DO want that. Are you gonna act on it? Probably not, but accept that shadow. You have no choice anyway.

Youre at the mercy of the ever spinning mechanical hamster wheel that is the mind. There is no hope. Surrender.

What kind of backlash was it? I think sometimes a real juicy backlash is what I need to hit the bottom and not go back into the behaviours I dislike. Thanks man!