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the more i self actualize the more i realize how backwards the entire school system is, it probably taught me 5% of everything i need to know survive... and I live in a great country... its kind of sad tbh

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well... the struggle is a sign that its working so you shouldnt really avoid the exhaustion... I mean dont overexert but struggling improves your patience and discipline in other words no pain no gain

Blue exiting phase/Orange entering phase.

Maybe striving for that might give you some inspiration. ?? Nothing wrong with wanting some natural bliss.

this should probably be in the Serious Emotional Problems section but... •Trust Issues •Depression •BPD •Shame and guilt the list is endless... I also think it depends on how serious the abuse was and how long it went on

Thats so insightful! My body is probably not used to moving this much at all. I will definitely do some light warm up in the future.

Eat some assid. Trip out bruh.

oh how naive... Orange has programmed you so many things, I could make a laundry list of how Orange twists your mind in its favour.

Love this guy, an hour lecture but totally worth watching if youre going from Green to Yellow.

Thanks man! Sometimes you care too much to make a change that you go overboard, patience and moderation is key. ??

Nah I do it in intervals, run-walk-run, like you said. Hm... interesting... maybe Ive been too ambitious.

Homeostasis, some people are so damn protected and comfortable in their worldview that only a serious disaster would wake them up, even then they could just dig their toes in even more. If you were a Purple tribal man would you sacrifice the tribe to go out and live on your own? If you were a Red criminal would you give up your drug empire to become a moral Christian? If you were a Blue Christian would you give up your religion to live a material life full of sin? and so on

But still... Ive been healthy all my life... Wouldnt like that Anyway... I will take a break from running tommorrow and see how I feel... If I feel okay then its probably overexertion/defiency since Im pretty skinny and not used to exercising.

Thanks! ?? Scary... I dont have any other symptoms though

You buy them... and then they dissappear from the site, so basically the ones Leo bought are his. Dont quote me on that... im 80% sure thats how it goes.

Not that much... alright Ill try to eat a bigger breakfast! Thanks! I doubt its anything worse, I was never lightheaded before I started running.

Intutition is very subtle and usually beneath more pronounced emotions.

how did you do it? how long did it take?

Have you ever had any breakthroughs in your practice that gave you any type of bliss?

Just sounded kind of dry, I do Self Inquiry because its enjoyable, I would never say I practice it because that sounds like I do because I have to and because I need to get somewhere. Ask yourself what you really want. If youre uninspired maybe theres something else you want to do, maybe go party or something and then come back when that gets boring. ??

You call it practice, theres your problem.

jerking off and watching tv are two great ones

He gets them on Shutterstock, I peruse Shutterstock alot and the images are very similar to alot of his. Theyre cool as fuck though, I love them, the one from the Going Meta video is gorgeous. Eventually you run out of facial expressions to use as thumbnails.