Solace

This is exactly what I'm going through: I've lost my sense of self. I don't know who I am anymore. I feel lonely, with all of these dark emotions arising. I feel like demons are watching me in the night while I meditate. I know it's my mind projecting thought forms because that is the power I have as a God, yet when face to face with one, it destroys me. They are in my dreams for sure, I am lucid, just watching these beings, and keep remembering to surrender to my heart, to it's love. I don't know what to do with my life, where to go, who to speak to. I have no-one except for my pets, and nature for comfort. I now realise I've been going through the dark night of the soul for the past month. It's like a battle where one side of me knows everything is God, and love; and another side of me is going insane, is confused, feels empty, and is quite schizophrenic. I am actually seeing a psychiatrist out of love for my family who of course are just worried about me, which makes things so much better! One thing that has helped is spending as much time outside and in meditation as possible. I have also filled my room with the most positive and empowering things I could find; so I know that no demon could even enter here, it's just my mind playing sick tricks on me. I have relinquished all addictions over the past week because I wanted to face the present moment where the dark night of the soul is with my full being as God's infinite love. I choose not to hide in my thought stories to change my emotions, or eat food, or brainwash myself with media; no, I face whatever hell-like environment is in my mind with the love of my heart. My whole reality has broken down, I have seen through all of this suffering, and know that focusing on my heart or as the awareness all day long is the only way to heal. My priority is love, more than any focus on thoughts or emotions or "doing" anything. I try let my heart move my body, and do what it wants, I try and surrender. I will remember, that this too shall pass. That this is the final stage of acute spiritual awakening, where the worst of the detoxification symptoms in the mind, and emotional body are released, and returned to the light of God. I feel empty, alone, paranoid, high anxiety; deep in the darkness that I can't avoid, doesn't matter what I do, that emptiness just follows me. I trust in my heart, I trust it's love will heal me, that it's love will attract a beautiful loving reality for myself to create in as God. I am the heart, and I am God: these affirmations help in the darkest moments. I will not dilute this experience with anything but being in the present moment, just sitting there throughout this process. This is rock bottom, I can't go further down than this. I know now why I yearned for video games a month ago, it was the one place where I felt understood, and loved, even if it was artificial. Same with this forum, same with spiritual youtube videos, it made me feel understood. But now, not even I can understand myself. I don't know what I am, I don't identify with being a body, or an emotion, or my thoughts, or a "mind", I identify with nothing really, not even a perceiver, or love; I don't know their reality. But I'm attempting to identify with love by being it, which is not fun when you are being psychologically attacked by emotions and thoughts of limitation. God save me from my own mind. How did so much shit fit into it God? And God, you give me no answer because you want me to see that I am God; but don't you know how painful of a pill that is to swallow? The universe must think that I can handle this, and I will show it with courage, and grace just how unconditionally loving I truly am. Cast me into darkness, and see if I run. It's in the darkness that we find the light, I didn't know how real this sentence was. Such simple words, yet the result for me is utter devastation, without a trace of it's origin. Dancing with demons, surrendering to hell.

I'm going to start being a whole lot more grateful for just how much I've accomplished on this path. I am amazing. I have literally overcome the need for food, something few human beings on Earth have done. I am fit and healthy, and am intending to start meditating 12 hours daily (because I don't need sleep and I want to see myself as God) which is like superhuman. Yet I sit down and don't give myself praise when I am doing the best I can to find endless happiness. My goal too, is basically the hardest thing for a human to realise. I deserve more love, not less. I just feel with the meditation, so much love will flow through me that all if this will not be in doubt. Everything is perfect, and so am I, and all of humanity. We are already those Gods we wish to transform into. There is no transformation to do, no heaven to ascend into either, heaven is already on Earth, and in our hearts. It all depends in what we focus on; love or separation?

Still your criticising, judging and unloving thoughts until nothing but the silence of the cosmos is there, and then the sound of Gaia will permeate through all that is you. If you cannot speak or sing with love then be silent, for silence is the void of the cosmos which is nothing but that love.

Enlightenment is realising oneself as the infinite love. And love is beyond positive or negative, it is neutral.

Sit in an Ashram, Sit in a Temple, create a space of meditation that is simplistic and minimal. We are worried about things that do not exist... Cease the creation of further excuses to be God. "Your viewers create excuses not to commit to it. The solution is going within, the answer is the realisation, the tool that you are given is meditation." This is so important, to cease the thoughts, and connect with the higher self. Meditation is the only way to reach the deepest enlightenment with the proper technique That's why most of my day is spent in meditation, for I know it is more important to connect with the higher self, than to keep doing external actions as if I am accomplishing something, but that joy of accomplishments is based upon time and space, and thus it is a false joy. If we can only create authentically by connecting to our higher selves, why then do we not prioritise this above all? What excuses do have that keep us from meditation? How many more lifetimes will you need to realise that all of this is a dream which the soul wishes for you to awaken from, and then start taking external action from a place of true authenticity if the soul even desires that! "We advice you to connect, to be still. To be still until all fears are relinquished, to be still until all thoughts cease, to be still until you do not feel discomfort in your bodies or that your bodies even exist in reality, to be still until you understand the wisdom of the divine that occurs without human intellect and knowledge. We advise you to remain in the practice of this stillness daily. You will have plenty of time for creativity upon awakening from your meditations, and that awakening state will creatively flourish and nurture all of your environments until oneness occurs and until you realise that nothing you see is real, nothing you see or sense is anything but God dreaming. This is the awakening when the dreamer of the dream begins to grasp the fullness of God within such creative environments." "See God in all, no excuses". The real fun begins once we awaken. Always the deepness of meditation, or connection over the time, yet much time is still needed.

@Colin I love the soundtrack too. I played this game when I was really young, and only got to the end of it 2 years ago. It really impacted me, how Tidus was really from a dream (I think is true). It left me feeling very empty; but it was a sobering, full, and expansive emptiness. A brief moment where I woke up out of this dream. It is a true coincidence how related we are with these games and that spiritual teacher, and now fasting on urine. I'm grateful to know that we are doing this together in a way. Yes, I am spending most of my time offline now because I realised that I feel calmer when I can focus more deeply internally on my heart. I do honour any higher desire that sometimes arises to write something here, so I'm not disappearing as long as that is there, and people are gleaning insight (my insight is always based on practicing love and oneness ). For example, I want to briefly mention how accurate our heart rate is in determining what bring us more love and oneness. If you follow the slower heart rate generally, it pulls us into deeper relaxation, slower breathing and hence starts to heal and reintegrate the overstimulated nervous system which we call the ego. We don't have infinite time, so let's use the finite time we do have to realise that time is an illusion! In other words, prioritise what makes us feel at one. Good luck on your fast Colin. It is up to 5 times more detoxifying than distilled water so if you feel tired, or nauseous, it is natural. Lots of love.

Someday the Dream will End (for us all) The idea that God is something to be afraid of shows how insane this world is. Everything is God. Everything is love. But our subconscious minds don't let us experience this, we can, but we've got to work for it, and give everything up ultimately. Practice is not one hour of meditation, it is an ongoing practice of love. One hour can't reprogram the mind... I have a lot of attachment to this forum and people here, and it's challenging to leave for a while. And is the same attachment I have to my thoughts and emotions except such attachments which are addictions, are much deeper than letting go of but a forum, or a few people, or a few luxuries. Thought is the ultimate addiction, the last distraction to heal with the hearts love, for thought is the last line of defence for the ego to stay seperate from love, when we try and focus on the heart. But with unshakable focus the thoughts start to not form, emotions are stopped because they are dependant upon thought, and only love remains. That is my greatest dream; a dream to wake up into love. Oh, this journey is paradoxical when written in the English language. It would make for a good poem don't you think?

Here is the transmission from the Blue Avians, the message is so loving, and thus so far out of our paradigm that the technology is freezing a lot. Peace. I've had a good time in this dream, but it's time to meet the dreamer that I am completely. I am the dream and the dreamer.

I am making a big leap tomorrow that I've been holding off. I am transitioning to become a Breatharian, only drinking urine, and a tea at night. I am coming completely offline in response to the high heart rates I'm having which is my body telling me that being here is separating me further from God. In addition in a recent transmission from the blue avians, they have said that especially technology, but also lots of other distractions and addictions such as food, is moving us away from the centre of our beings, our hearts, and that we need to just let go of it for our own good. If there is someone I need to talk to, I will walk to their home if necessary, and feel the air on my skin, and the sun on my face as I do so. I am also dedicating most of my day to formal meditation upon my heart, because I desire to end this suffering my mind is creating, and be in a constant state of bliss. When I know a constant state of bliss is possible, and that meditation is the only way to get there on the deepest level, I just can't not meditate, it would be insane for me to not prioritise meditation as the number one most important thing for me to do. Of course, I use meditation as a tool to become truly enlightened and won't be doing it for decades of my life for the whole day, but I'm willing to commit to most of my day for the next few years in meditation. I have set up a beautiful and calm environment in my bedroom to do this, with soundproofing on my door, some house plants, lots of crystals and inspiring books I've read to make my room conducive for this deep work. This is my greatest dream, and if my family can't even allow me one room to actualise this dream then I will go to this retreat centre nearby: http://medini.dhamma.org Here are some pictures: http://medini.dhamma.org/centre-2/. The centre is deep in the woods, in natural scenery, and it seems just lovely. If these guys do not accept me there are many more forest temples a few hours south of where I am that I can stay at for a few years Likely I will end up here, as I need to be able to concentrate for long hours on my heart, but I'm open to giving it a go at home. My life purpose has always been to experience God on the deepest level possible, and then to express his love purely and effortlessly through myself. It confuses me why other people who are twice my age still haven't understood this, that the heart is the key to end suffering. Why do they so stay within the limitations of their mind? I want to help them, once I'm fully in the heart. There is little point teaching someone how to get into the heart from the limitations of the mind I feel. So I am going to enjoy my last meal tonight with my Mum, and Grandparents; and my last moment of allowing myself to be anywhere but the heart. For tomorrow I will focus on the heart and stay there for all of eternity, even once I've awakened from the dream will my focus be there. I will not eat ever again, for I am fully feed and satiated by the love within my heart. Our potential as human beings is far greater than what we imagine, and I am excited to be maybe one of the first modern explorers of those deepest layers. We live but in a 3rd dimensional reality, animals live in the 2nd dimension, and I want to explore greater than the 11th dimension, to a place where there is only love, such that even the reality of "dimensions" does not exist. We have all of this and more already inside our hearts, just waiting to be explored through the simple act of placing our attention on it. When at the highest level there is only love, why not just focus on love? That's why this practice is simple, because there can be no other practice but the experience of love in the highest realms of this reality. Thats's why love is always the only answer. Acting from the heart, embracing separation from the heart; and making being in the heart the highest priority, so that it eventually becomes the only priority, and then, all you do. You can still be in the heart and live in this world, there is no implication, for the hearts intelligence will speak every word for you, guide you in every step, all without thoughts and emotions which are so used to being slaves of. For we become the heart, and so too, we become it's intelligence in it's full glory. And when I feel my heart, and when I meditate, I will continue to remind myself that any resistance I feel when focusing on oneness could only be the healing of the inner child within, whose prison of conditioning is dissolving by the love I allow to flow through myself. When focused on love, all of the lower dimensional frequencies in ourselves are brought to light, and we experience them as they are being healed, and released, this there is nothing to be afraid of, only infinite gifts to bless as they leave and return to the source from whence they came. I'll remember this while feeling these frequencies leave, and know them as gifts of deep inner healing. And so I'm free; goodbye everyone; love you. Use this journal for wisdom, I'll keep writing in it for as long as people are benefiting from it, and moving more into the oneness and love that they already are. I too use what I write to keep me grounded, some of the stuff comes from a part of myself that is much more intelligent, which I'm moving into, so in effect, it's been really helpful in guiding "me" (as the personal self) as well God Bless guys.

Ask yourself: What is distractions and addictions are in my reality that keep me away from love and oneness? That keep me away from being within the center of my heart? This society is highly distracted by all of instantly gratifying manifestations in external reality. This is the opposite of what we intended for ourselves as souls, as souls we want our human selves to be as center in the heart as possible so that it’s love can be expressed undiluted through us, and so we could experience this love as our true nature In a thousand years all you see in modern society will be dust. People will live a more primitive lifestyle near or in forests, without the internet or phones or anything artificial. They will live on the love inside their hearts, so will not need to eat or drink. Communication will be telepathic, open and honest. I know this natural lifestyle to be the most fulfilling, and continue to move more towards everyday. I know that no technology can surpass the sophistication, godliness, and omnipotence of the human being, no matter what we believe ourselves to be. We are God observing ourselves in a dream separate from God simply by our minds being conditioned to believe in superstation. If we bypass the mind, and center ourselves in the heart, the hearts love will automatically change our subconscious mind, and we gain complete mastery over it That’s the journey. Always do what brings more love and oneness into your life. Focus on the source of love and oneness, our heart. With complete undivided focus on our greatest source of love and oneness, all we start wo see is this. For what we focus on the most is what we will experience the most of. If you are ready to take this journey to a whole new level, immediately drop anything that’s keeping you from your heart, and live inside it. I do this because I want to love in this world n owing myself as God, and I don’t want too a diluted experience of my life. I surrender in every moment to my heart, and whatever stops me from doing that, whatever addiction or distraction, I drop. That’s why I don’t eat anymore, and have decided to not be on the internet; and increased the things that bring more love such as being outside, creating a high vibe environment, meditation especially. Such detachment can be painful for the first couple of days, then it feels liberating and freeing afterwards. Love is also eternal. So why base your life on something temporary which is everything but love and oneness?

@SpyAquamarine ❤️ @Cudin We are all perfect, and we are all nuts; there is no distinction Thank you for your nice reply.

Lincoln Gergar "...the only way to spiritually evolve past the mind and be free of the ego is to create inner silence. In all genuine spiritual traditions, meditation is the final practice and the only practice to arrive at the goal of enlightenment. Other practices, like energy work, mantra, etc, can prepare a person for meditation. However these practices cannot replace meditation." "The Heart knows, it does not "think" or "believe" like the mind does. There is a significant difference. Surrender is the method to awaken and empower the Heart. A person must create space (silence) in the mind to allow the Heart to be known. Adding new thoughts will not allow the Heart to be expressed. Adding new thoughts will change the content of the mind."

Just delayed this challenge for one day to see what would happen if I did an experiment where I ate unhealthy junk foods, didn't meditate, and spend time in nature, while binging as much as possible on the internet so I could see the effects it had on my body-mind-spirit. Although I feel very docile and tired from doing this, I am glad I did it so I can have this comparison between living the life I want and living a life I would've lived if I listened to what society had taught me. And just in one day, I now feel very unwell; which just reconfirms that this way of life, of not eating, meditating, doing what excites me is the one I truly wanted. This clear comparison allowed mw to bypass the subconscious mind, and get right to the heart of the implications of technology, food etc. So tomorrow I am starting the fast from food (forever) and from technology (I'll be back soon ); to convincingly change my lifestyle to one infused with an abundant amount of love, and oneness that I, and everyone on Earth, deserves to have. To do this, I'lll have a small herbal tea at night because I enjoy spending time with those closest after a long day. I'm ready to face any backlash that arises in me, after all all addiction is but an avoidance of the present moment. I replace these addictions with true heart-centred focused meditation throughout the entire day; whether I am meditating, or lying down in the sun; as the heart fills the present moment with it's love, and thus ends all addictions because there is now nothing to resist in the NOW. I love you all so much, and do so on a deeper level everyday that passes.

@Sea Life is much more mysterious, strange, and intriguing than you first thought. There are many things in this reality that are rooted in love and oneness, yet go against the core beliefs that society has. Such is the nature with urine. I always have explored where others would not dare go just to see what the true potential of a human being can be, and the depth of love it can express. I prefer to let experience speak from here on in. Urine has detoxified my entire physical body, and I know this because I do not go to the bathroom anymore. When I did liquids would come out, but now that my body is entirely clean, there is very few positively charged inorganic molecules in my intestines for the negatively charged urine to wash away in my intestines, hence not going to the bathroom Also I'm at the start of an experiment where I'm living off of urine, sunlight and love; this is in response to my recent urine fasts where I felt amazingly energised, without any need to eat, so naturally why should I eat when I feel completely stated by urine? In addition, I sleep for 2 hours every night, sometimes I do not sleep and just meditate instead, and use the time I sleep to meditate and keep surrendering to the light of God within my heart. (As a side note, studies have shown that one hour of meditation is equal to 8 hours of sleep). I am full of energy all day, and it is consistent no matter the time of day. And best of all the urine tastes delicious, a beautiful sweetness, a subtle coconut water taste. So its been pretty amazing. I'm grateful that I decided to explore the unknown even if it went against my strongest and most beloved beliefs at the time. It was hard to begin with because of my beliefs, and the initial detox symptoms and the taste was unpleasant; but with anything abundantly good, it takes work, dedication and perseverance which led me to where I am today; completely independent and whole as I am now. Fully self-sustaining on what my body produces. I hope that opens your mind. I have been drinking urine exclusively for almost 4 months (instead of water), and this is what has happened. Other things too like visions and what not have happened due to the decalcification of the pineal gland, coupled with meditation. Check my journal for more specifics. Love and Oneness my friend.

Fluoxetine is a artificial drug that will mess up the natural functioning of your brain, leading to addiction, and even brain damage. The drug is used to release serotonin so that you feel happier. Long term meditation for 10-20 minutes a day will have the same effect without the drugs side effects, and connect you more with your deepest spiritual self. There are many studies on this which show that meditation causes serotonin to be released by the brain, thus leading to less stress, and ends depression. This is the meditation I recommend: Next is diet. Even more important than exercise. Buy only from your local farmers market: the fruits, vegetables, nuts and seeds; and have some fun creating new delicious meals for yourself to enjoy. Eliminate all dairy, and wheat, canned food, and that which has any man-made chemicals inside of it Your body, mind and spirit will infinitely thank you for this.

A Week or two of Deep Inner Transformation I have enjoyed fasting, and meditation so much that I want to dedicate at least a week to these practices, perhaps longer. During this time I'll be off the internet, and enjoying the smaller things in life. I plan on spending most of my time for the next few months in meditation to reach enlightenment, so I wanted to start off with a strong start. This is again a natural thing for me to do, not forced, it was always destined to be. This is a culmination of everything I've learnt, coming into being. After this retreat anything is possible. I may finish this week realising that I am one with God, or come out as a true Breatharian. For certain, the practice of focusing on my heart will become a habit in my subconscious mind, which means all of these gifts I mentioned and more will come. When you are heart-centred, sooner or later the never ending bliss that we already are will dawn upon us, it is a win-win on all levels. Energetically one who sits and meditates upon their heart is raising the vibration of an entire planet for the liberation of all unawakened souls to see how brightly they already shine. It is so with my deepest love for humanity and for myself that I embark upon this adventure on a deeper level than I have before, and see just what there is to find. I will keep meditating until I know myself as oneness, and have fully embodied my higher self, which may take a few months. I'm ready for this adventure. See you on the flip side everyone, and have a lovely week

It's amazing that we have the same thoughts. I knew there were people who know this wisdom, that we do not need to eat physical food. In fact scientific studies have shown that the amount of food that we eat (in kilograms) is exactly the same as the amount of food that comes out of our bodies. So what are we consuming then when we eat? Simply our bodies turn the non-physical energy of the food, into it's own life force energy it can use. And the energy of non-complex foods like fruit, and vegetables is easier to change than that of meats. How eye opening this is! This is why urine is so full of life force energy because it comes out of our body, not from somewhere outside of us and hence is a different energy. The love of in our hearts can feed the physical body, the emotional body, and the mental body. Thus heart-centred anything (especially meditation) is the most nurturing meal on all levels, and all dimensions. Belief in your eternal nature, as the perfection of divinity having a human experience is all you need. That trust that you are God will open up those channels of love in your body, and it will overflow that there is so much to live on; thus creative expression begins to share this love with everyone.

@pluto It's a pleasure to share this deepest knowing, the most universal perspective This is only the beginning. It is your words too that warm my heart, and help me evolve to bring more of this love into physical reality.

It does. The body easily adapts to this eating schedule after the first few weeks, depending on how much detoxification is needed. And you start to feed more so on the love energy received abundantly through meditation, sunlight, light stretching, urine, and expressing love in any way. It feels amazing. And I think heart-focused awareness especially was the key. Eating less is just a gift received from the core practice of love. Gentless with oneself, trust in your body, and consistency.

And to celebrate this how about another urine fast! Oh how I love fasting nowadays, it is wonderful. I love exploring the potential of the human being to no end. I am dedicated to becoming the oneness that I already am, and living with the all-knowingness, kindness, compassion, generosity, bliss, omnipotency, love, and peace of the God that I am. This seperate identity I have is a deeply fascinating manifestation of God consciousness that deserves investigation, and I will, as the God consciousness itself that I am. I want to see through the eyes of God, because why not? It's possible, so why not go for it, no matter how great the challenge is. We all have this potential, abiding the laws of this universe of course But to what extend these laws have upon the physical dimension, and astral dimension and all dimensions is uncharted; something I am pioneering in the search for the infinite creator.

The internet really pulls you back in. There are already cravings again to search for more sources of entertainment, and just to think that I few days ago I was content sitting in a room, staring inside of my heart. Such is the nature with food. I felt a bit peckish last night and decided to have a 10 cashew nuts with my superfood mix; oh how I regret it. Having just a little bit of solid foods makes me crave for more. But after a few days without solid foods, the body somehow adapts, and the cravings subside, leaving only more love for this present moment. I'm glad I have feel back into these addictions just to see how entrained my subconscious mind is to physical stimulation and entertainment. It has woken me up to how a few years of constant instant gratification can mess up my mind, it scares me, yet makes my resolute stronger to let go again and again of the internet and solid foods, to feel the joy of surrendering to the cravings, and arriving in emptiness, then connecting to love on a deeper level than ever before I forgot to mention that once I spent a few days fasting, with no instant gratification, I could finally see the true source of all addiction which was my subconscious mind which manifests as thoughts and emotions. Without being attached to anything externally, I could successfully reach a state of no thoughts by focusing on the heart. With being attached to dopamine inducing activities, the willpower and focus was not enough to overcome the lure of the subconscious mind. To truly overcome the subconscious mind, complete focus and deep meditation is required I found out. I am blessed and grateful to have realise this, that addictions are cycles the subconscious mind uses when something uncomfortable in the present moment arises to avoid such a thing. When rooted in the heart I have experienced that everything is accepted and embraced in the present moment, this is a part of meditation. Another part is that the love in our hearts purifies the subconscious mind over time by releasing anything low vibrational and retraining it so that it only knows pure bliss. That's why staying in the heart is the most important practice I know of, no matter what the furniture of life looks like, and I'm not alone in this observation. So too does Ramana Maharshi teach this, and Lincoln. My intention, at this time, is to do things that help me surrender into myself on the deepest level possible to see myself as oneness. That means meditation. Once I realise this, well, then I can create from this understanding that I am one, and live that truly expresses my souls desires. I am afraid to jump into meditation for days at a time, and unsure whether to go to a temple to do this because my family is quite unreceptive to my greatest dreams. Yet I know this to be perfect, for if they were receptive I wouldn't have the motivation to do this, I wouldn't be in enough suffering to meditate for those first gruelling few days, to see the happiness on the other side. As Lincoln said meditation, which involves focus upon an object, reduced thoughts, physical movements and emotional activity, is the only true way of realising ourselves as the infinite intelligence and then, as the consciousness that holds everything. I have the time, I have the space, I have the means, and the willingness, and so I choose to meditate willingly and fast for days at a time to help me surrender. This comes very naturally to me, all of this monk-like lifestyle is my dream as of this time. For how could one ever not meditate endlessly for hours when they know that infinite bliss is on the other side? And when suffering is all that is created when not rooted in the centre of our hearts? It is time I self-actualise further in this journey. I want to say good-bye to the internet for the time being, and to anything but surrender into my heart. I am going to make this inspiring change. Whether in my home or in a temple I am still getting advice on, but regardless the surrender will happen. Fear holds me back of facing what IS. And of facing my family whose dreams for me are different than the dreams I have for myself, whose doubt for everything on my path has been almost as unconditional as my love for them. But my love is more unconditional than any one dedication to fear, or worry. Even that is their attempt at finding happiness given their understanding of themselves and life. A new environment sounds amazing and fun such as to be in China, yet I will still need to practice hours of meditation and restrict caloric diets for the next few weeks before making any move. I need so little physical sustenance to live, in fact I believe that I only need urine, which makes me unbelievably confident when travelling to other countries. I am a nice, benevolent, and kind hearted soul; and I treat others as such. I'm also not afraid to ask for help, and reach out to others. With those qualities travelling the world, and staying in temples, or camping would be such a joy. Yet whatever decision is a good one, but an environment where people have the same goals as myself, and similar practices would be better. I will not dive into this recklessly, I will take a few weeks of surrender first to everything, eating only my baby cup of superfoods, and meditating, and see then if I still desire to go and travel. My family has gotten better with this, and there is a possibility that we could work together such that I can stay at home and do this work, but if they become a major hinderance (which isn't their fault, they do it out of love) then I must leave and find a more peaceful environment. This is because I deserve to live in an environment where I'm allowed to be myself, without my family telling me that I am going insane, or am hurting myself without knowing it. I can handle it, but when it becomes the only words they speak to me, it becomes a place I'd prefer not to be. I have trust that the best outcome will happen, likely I will move to a temple in nature for a few months and travel, because it would mean I'd be able to experience the world while evolving into oneness. And it just seems so exciting. So I shall prepare and ask myself once more in a week or two. If I still want to I will talk to Lincoln about it more about ways to prepare, book a plane ticket, and leave. You may as well follow your excitement if there are no wrong decisions in life, as long as you do so from a surrendered place. Feeling much lighter from that mental dump. And so the journey continues with renewed flare, of these exciting realities that I'm creating in the inner world and possibly in the outer world through travel. Peace, and oneness everyone.

Everyone is doing their best in every moment to reach happiness. Everyone, even one who has killed a person was getting a superficial happiness. The greatest happiness is the experience of love, love is found in the heart. Live from there and everything will work out Surrender deeply to this love, it's that simple. It doesn't matter what we do in this physical world, it matters how connected we are to ourselves as divine beings. The idea that we need to do anything external to make us happy is an illusion, only do that which your heart yearns for if you so desire. But even that desire is rooted in the soul, the soul is not divine oneness, so we must to connect there first. You highest excitement is rooted in the soul, and not in divine oneness. The universe doesn't impose any desires on you, and that is what we need to realise, and will do either in this lifetime or another. Surrender into the heart in every breathe. I love the videos, they get you pumped up to follow your excitements and passions, follow that but also remember that there is something even beyond your soul. Imagine what is beyond the soul? I'll see it no matter what! That is my dream. Also, thank you for the videos. On the last post a week ago I turned off FaceBook and didn't look back. I then took a few days off the internet and realised how calm I felt without that thought in the back of my mind whether someone has texted me, or posted something interesting on here. I could truly concentrate. Such effects were amplified with Bramacharya, urine therapy + superfood diet, and hours of meditation to levels of consciousness I haven't dreamt of existing. To be able to get up and lie in the sun, and meditate all day is truly a blessing; because that is what I am excited to do. Society may feel that this is too simple, or too solitary and lonely, but for me I feel truly at one while doing that. It's challenging releasing all of those fears that love uncovers, and facing my social conditioning as the light of God; but it is also apart of the fun.

Speechless. The Truth here is simple, and makes me feel not alone in it's embodiment. He said (paraphrasing) that focusing on the heart is more important than the physical things we do, that struck me to the core. That surrender, and meditation into, and upon the heart is the gateway to our freedom from the body, then emotions, and mind; to dissolve into bliss, and create from that beautiful empty infinite space. Every second we are always trusting this moment, trusting that the past will be of a similar nature to the future. So when trusting the heart, why do I think it of a oddity when my whole reality is predicted upon trust? Any moment this world could vanish, yet I trust it. Then it seems only natural to trust the most fundamental part of myself, my heart, if I, and humanity, is trusting, and has trusted since the beginning of time something as random, and changeable as the external world. Why not trust in what is constant, and in a constant state of bliss, and of which makes a difference in physical life; our heart? Why give trust to thoughts when they constantly change, or to people, more generously than to my heart? Since when has a thought helped me surrender into this present moment? Since when has an emotion helped me surrender and trust my heart deeper? This has distracted me from my eternal nature, as well as made me identify with a personal self that represents such malleability to change given the thoughts and emotions. It makes sense to surrender into every moment. Especially when you don't need thoughts to take actions, the heart now takes the actions. The heart is like a infinite brain, with infinite wisdom; our brain is one of thoughts and emotions and has a limited perspective of reality. It is useful in receiving information from this infinite brain of course, but we were never meant to identify with it. To choose to identify with infinity in every moment is this path of spirituality. The light of the heart will purify everything, as long as we keep surrendering to its divine love, wholeness, and perfection no matter arises in our reality.

Fruit is a high pranic food which is healthy in the Summer months, but in the Winter months you should have more steamed food like vegetables, and nuts because these foods create heat in the body, which balances with the coldness in the winter Simply by eating whatever is in season (from a local farmers market) is the best diet long term for balance according to Chinese medicine and Aryuveda. I would only go on a raw food diet for only a few years at most, otherwise disease is likely to develop in the body. Regardless, everyone can benefit greatly by eating much less than they are. For me, I've been eating about 6-10 pieces of fruit daily for the last few 4 months and have felt magnificent. The heaviness I used to feel is gone, and their is an easiness in my mind, body and emotions that has slowly developed as a result of eating these simple foods. I've loved it so much that now I'm just eating 150 calories a day of spirulina, and flaxseed; and transitioning to a more breatharian type lifestyle. Much thanks has to be given to urine, the most highly pranic food, which has allowed me to eat so little, yet maintain the same weight that I had when eating 3000 calories per day. As such, I'd only recommend fruitarianism as a way to transition to Breatharianism, or as a short term way to help the body detoxify. Remember fruitarianism is a new-age western concept that is not rooted in thousands of years of evidence where as Chinese medicine is for at least 5000 years by all written accounts. Veganism is also an incomplete western philosophy, as Indian yogis drink raw cows milk, and many people have honey because they are both full of life force energy. Blessings.

Update on Technology I felt so grounded, and relaxed without it. I could surrender into my heart in response to whatever arose with greater ease, my heart rate was slow, and the mind contained little thoughts or emotions. It was nice. Relationships became more intimate, especially my connection to nature was heightened. The question is, does technology help people surrender to the moment or help them avoid the moment? From my experience it mostly takes us out of the present moment, just a red flag for those who know the way of surrender. It is all about priorities, what are you using it for? etc. When I made surrendering a higher priority my intentions changed, to mirror that, and so my words and actions became aligned with how I responded in each moment. Update on Fast Food also changed. I'm now eating a small pot of superfoods at night because I started to feel weak on only urine. The shift was too dramatic for the body to sustain forever, for me and my family (they respond with fear). So I'm gently easing into it. What to expect? My body will start to adapt to eating less food, by feeding more on pranic energy and as the body detoxes, less urine will be produced. At that stage it will be safe to be a breatharian. It is something that is naturally happening, I haven't thought about it at all, I have just found myself eating hardly anything. This did create temporary fantasies yesterday when I realised how natural this had all been of how amazing life will be when I need nothing to eat, then I noticed that I was creating suffering, and made surrendering my highest priority again. For the 3 days I fasted there were no detox symptoms aside from feeling less energetic. It felt expanding, and helped me surrender by further quieting the mind, increasing focus over long periods of time AKA meditation. I'm glad I've got to this place, through trust in my heart it became a reality. It shows you don't need to be enlightened to follow your hearts desire, but that when you are enlightened you become your hearts desire so acting on it is second nature. We were always meant to know ourselves as God, and always meant to be able to live on love. Every cell is filled with love, every molecule, every speck of dust, that's why we are complete, and don't need anything. We only do things because our hearts want to play with the furniture, to express its love. That is it's innocence.