SgtPepper

Dude. I am sorry to hear about your experiencing with your mother man. I have compassion for both of you because to not be able to Love someone with all of your heart is truly a sad thing. I would die for my child and I don't even have one. But to not experience authentic love from someone, let alone your own mother feels like a crime was done to you, but I truly believe you can heal from that and experience the same kind of love from yourself. May you find healing in your path. There are many people out there ready to give authentic love, you just gotta find one. As for staying on topic. I think Jealousy is a very natural emotion. We all want stuff for ourselves and have expectations regarding those things. Having a partner have sex with someone else I think would raise a lot of jealousy and fear in me, simply because they would be enjoying a serious intimate experience with someone else which is a valuable experience. I am not really interested in explaining how intimate sex can become, but its definitely not like it is in Porn. Sex is probably the most intimate and sensual experience I've come across, definitely not like playing tennis with someone... as I have heard someone here compare it to lol.

You say man's nature is to polygamous, but ignore that man's nature is also to be possessive and jealous.

Bro, you're just going to have accept what you did and most likely be honest with her. Because she will want an explanation of why you're breaking up and lying is definitely not the way to go. Next time, try communicating your issues with your partner. It's okay to want sex, but she's gotta know that you want bad enough that you're practically ready to cheat on her for it.

I would not equate LSD with alcohol, they are nothing alike. I consider LSD medicine, but I respect that you don't want to try it. It's powerful stuff. I would still urge to try it if you want to see dramatic change happen though, just do your research and start slow. Otherwise, you just have to open up yourself through other means. Maybe start acknowledging your feelings. Are you afraid of your feelings? do you try to hide from them? Try writing in a journal and acknowledging your emotions. Cry, laugh, anger, do it all, but feel it consciously. Then try to be more okay with showing this side of you to people. Women love it by the way. Women are sensual creates compared to Men, so they love men who can be stern and tough but still be empathic and in touch with their feelings. Seeing a therapist can help a lot too as they will help identity self-esteem issues and they're trained to have sober methods of dealing with it. A therapist is a great resource.

You only base your value on another girls opinion probably cause you like them and want them to stick around, so you don't want to act in a way that repel them. Nothing wrong with that. It's actually natural, we're social animals. So essentially youre asking how to be more vulnerable and open. You gotta, stop hiding behind the wall you created behind you and your feelings, once you get that down. destroy the wall between yourself and others. I used to be a bit closed up yes, it really helped to just stop being afraid, love yourself no matter what. Go to do stuff that takes you out of your comfort zone, like dancing at a party. Or better yet, Take some LSD, it'll make you extremely vulnerable. It'll bring out a lot of fear out of you but you'll be better because of it and more connected to yourself and others.

I think polygamy can work for some, but I am not interested in it cause I don't want other men to fuck my girlfriend. Monogamy, Commitment and Marriage is actually a beautiful thing. People talk bad about marriage because their ability to interact with their loved ones suck and a lot of other reasons. Just like we can infinitely connect with ourselves deeply we can do the same with someone else sexually, emotionally, and spiritually. Yeah and other men are conquering his girl lol. How he sleeps at night knowing that other men's dick are in his girl's mouth is beyond me. Miss me with that shit. Some people get turned on by that stuff. That's great and I respect their freedom to engage in that lifestyle.

because its processed and a supplement not actual food. Get nutrients from food. I mean I guess whey protein is okay if you are okay with milk and its sources, but not 'healthy'. You don't need whey protein to go to the gym and be healthy. Plenty of people hit the gym without using supplements and see results. If you're that worried about your protein levels consume more meals with protein, but from good sources.

this thread is cool as fuck

Man... I am sorry to hear that. I apologize for assuming, you didn't try psychedelics, it just appeared that way from your post since I have never seen pink elephants or anything close to that on psychs. Psychedelics can definitely be challenging. I have also contemplated suicide from many angles myself many times with and without psychedelics. Delusions are definitely possible on psychedelics, but I see that as coming from the mind and not psychedelics themselves. It's better to ignore all of those interpretation - quiet the mind- and embrace breathing and being.

I agree with everything you said. Psychedelics were why I even got into meditation which lead me to finding actualized.org (Leo's how to meditate video). I definitely felt conflicted when Leo originally claimed psychedelics were a distraction, but I still could not shake my personal experiences and kept doing them anyways for consciousness expanding purposes. When Leo came out advocating psychedelics, I was literally shocked and even more excited than I already was to see where his videos were going.

1. Just from your post, I can easily tell you have not tried psychedelics. Pink elephants? your placing faith in propaganda instead of your direct experience. 2. That's because psychedelics are a tool like anything else. set and setting needs to be accounted for. So if a seeker wants to gain insights into reality, he should set the intention to contemplate what is happening in his/her direct experience while on a psychedelic, as well as do it in a space where contemplation can be done. In addition, many people do not easily go beyond the ego because they do not take higher doses. Most recreational users I know don't go higher than 2.5-3.5g of mushrooms or 150ug of LSD. They distract themselves with movies and video games or they may end up confused by what they experience. Psychedelics are complicated to describe, but they essentially raise your 'consciousness level'. To OP, I have actually wrestled with the same question you are asking and seeking enlightenment is definitely a niche path. At the moment, I am content with my psychedelic adventures and daily sober meditation practice (although sometimes I miss, need to work on discipline). I have always been naturally curious about the universe, reality, and God since I was a kid. As a result, my lifestyle has been giving me many insights into reality. I am often in congruence with Leo's video, but definitely feel he has more depth in understanding reality. Being 23, I do not feel I am a point where I can devote my life to becoming enlightenment (meditating 4 hours+ a day) because I still have a career to build and I want the wife-children set up. However, my practices have been sufficient, I have gotten DEEP non-duality experiences and insights about myself and the universe through my practices. I advocate psychedelics because they've definitely sped up the process. However, it can easily change. I would say enlightenment path is worth it. You're essentially asking whether knowing the Truth is a waste of time or not. Just answer that for yourself and then let your intuition guide you.

what is your issue? It seems like you're just looking for conflict. Also, It's so easy to criticize others...

have you considered traveling somewhere else to try it? I understand if you can't financially, but psychedelics are seriously worth your time if you can. An ayahuasca retreat for example would be a wonderful experience. You can also go to South America and find someone like Dr. Octavio to receive 5-meo DMT from the toads:

excellent question. Really helped clarify. Thanks for posting!

yes of course my dude! I'd recommend seeking mental health services that don't require medication, a psychologist or counselor is a good choice!

when it comes to psychedelics. Gurus dont know anything. They've literally spent no time or experience studying its effects. One guru says it dull the system. LSD apparently has no effect on Maharaji cause he's so enlightened. Another person on this forums told me they act like fire works! so which is it? lol I could see his point for marijuana, but marijuana and psychedelics (LSD and psilocybin) are very different. Edit: I am pretty sure OP supports sev3rige. so c'mon dude, if you'll try raw foods like that, you can try some psychedelics yourself. There's no need to wonder if its trick. Try it for yourself and see if that assumption still holds. Spoiler Alert: Everyone I know who has tried psychedelics has ALWAYS been wrong about their assumptions regarding their potential and effects before they tried it.

I really agree with you. your claims overlaps my experiences

I think your overreacting and completely misconstruing Leo's words.

I guess when you RE-CONTEXTUALIZE it like that, it's not so bad. I have never been to one, so my judgment strictly comes from what I see in movies.

yeah I'm going to agree with Joseph Mayor here. I do not think it should be illegal or anything like that. I personally have never attended one because its not an authentic place as others have pointed out. It cost a lot of money, and I don't really like the culture of objectification. I am biased though, I have been in a loving relationship for the last 7 years, so I kind of have my needs for the opposite sex met.

"The deep web,[1] invisible web,[2] or hidden web[3] are parts of the World Wide Web whose contents are not indexed by standard web search engines for any reason.[4] The opposite term to the deep web is the surface web, which is accessible to anyone using the Internet." - wikipedia Dark Web is absolutely real. It's not government owned, its the same shady stuff humans have been doing for centuries but on the internet with digital security to protect identity. People do sell stuff like drugs, fake passports, or otherwise very illegal stuff... hitman, you name it. It's not really an organization as it is more than just people getting together to do unconventional discussions or business. However, there are websites that are only found with deep web access and that would be an organization, for example like Silk Road. You can look a lot of this stuff up, but yeah it's real. If you were motivated enough, you could probably buy a legit looking Passport, from a competent person.

are you breathing during your movements? make sure you are exhaling when extorting force and inhaling when setting up for another pull.

It's cause you want to connect with the opposite sex. Nothing wrong with that.

I enjoy it casually because I enjoy the competitive nature and skills involved to play.

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