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Well, I suppose it does not mean that we have to share our every dark thought as we don’t need to act on it. Apparently we are not our thoughts anyway so, is being authentic something to aspire to? If yes, then to what degree? I just want to be true to my nature and I always thought that lying is not a way to go if you want to achieve it. Maybe I am censoring myself by adjusting my behaviour and communication to others. Maybe it is not a useful approach.

Sorry - I will put it as a bit of an off-topic but still related (didn't want to start another JP subject ;)) It is Leo and Jordan as a team Internet is great

As a woman I feel devastated

It is indeed so relevant. Since I am not enlightened I will leave that perspective to those more competent. I can only say that we don't know everything. It is so easy to judge on appearances and impressions but we don't know a thing about this other person and why (motivation and purpose) they do what they do. We do not know what would happen if they did not. We simply have hardly enough data to judge. We can only cut a piece of the reality as we know it and form an opinion. From where I stand a mouse or a bug does not have less value than a person. It might have less value to me at this moment though but I would have a problem to say it is worth less.

@ROOBIO I am a total wage slave doing meaningless work for a big government institution (a nightmare for the 16 y.o. me ;)). So I do aprreciate when somebody else finds a passion. I have had many short lived passions and now I am stuck. Good luck with your journey

I found this tips interesting and quite practical, so I will share with you in case you might think so too: https://kirantrace.com/blog/the-abyss-of-emptiness/

It might not be typical spiritual position for this list but it did give me quite a kick of consciousness when I was reading it. Maybe because it is a great example of shift from a blue stage to orange with even green on a horizon. It is a true story of a girl brought up in a very idealogical Mormon family with a father with bipolar disease (that made him also very paranoid and dogmatic). She goes through enormous effort and internal transformation to get out of the paradigm she was brought up in and she is describing the process. I found it very hopeful and something you may learn from. I have always loved stories about progress and transformation - my favourite kind

Jung is simply fascinating. You may like his theories or disagree with him (or pick and choose) but he was a man with a wonderfully open mind and in the same time he was trying to apply it in a scientific manner (in a good sense of this meaning). He travelled, he met different nations and cultures and he digged dreams like nobody else. He had amazing intuition and he trusted it which does not happen that often. I listen to it in a form of an audiobook (as I often do due to lack of time) and it was well narrated. It did encourage me to follow up with more of his work and I am planning to read some more.

Would that be something like squishies? They have been extremely trendy among children not so long ago.

As it is hardly possible to avoid the system you have to choose the way you want to be the part of it. I would say being a vet is not the worst way to do it You may choose to do it in the most conscious way and to be the most independent e.g. not doing research for big food companies but indeed focusing on animal welfare or whatever your dream is. Just do it the way that they don't write the terms how you work and live. That's how I see it anyway.

Not that it has anything to do with the subject but I suppose you are focusing on healing these?

What Leo presents in his vidoe does not shock me at all, I figured it out more or less when I was 16, so I should have been on a good way to acheive a life purpose. The problem was that even though I figured out the first part, I still don’t know what I want to do in life (and I am almost 40). So I did not focus on it all my efforts and have not achieved it. I worked on my character, so it is not all wasted (time) but still the purpose has not revealed itself to me. I am on a verge of insanity now because I know time is running out and I feel trapped but... nothing. I have no great talent, I have a curious mind but it is not fixed long on one subject, it is interested in everything, so in a way I know nothing well enough. So beep beep I’m a sheep... A black sheep at least

I’d say to try to simply be aware of it every time it occures. Eventually you should be able to see the pattern and the source of it and hopefully heal it. That’s what I read anyway. Still struggling with it myself if you come across a better solution, please share!

I watched only a half (didn't have time to finish) but I did not find it so very orange. In fact he thinks very much into the future, he is not so much goal and money driven, he does things simply for fun, he is worried about the wellbeing of the world. OK, he is quite geeky and scientific, I'll give you that but not by all cost. I would never call him a simple case of orange.

I have been a book junkie for a while now (since I read my first book in childhood) so I can only say I definitely see point of reading. But... sometimes I wonder if it is not going to influence my perception and expectations, like a placebo effect - I will project my pre-read knowledge on my experience. How will I know I am not simply interpreting stuff according to what I learnt instead of to what I experienced? For the rest... books are good pointers for where to look. Just make sure to think for yourself after, not to absorb author's point of view as your own. I love fiction - some can be great to open your mind, to study society, way of thinking, imagination, language...

He is very seductive - I had a period of time when I was jumping on every new video he posted. But... that was when he was posting his lectures, talking about creativity, art etc. He is very intelligent, well read and knowledgable. He is also charismatic, he mastered the art of conversation and not too many people are able to stand up to his level. I even took his personality test - and in fact I learnt more from it about him than about myself. He is not yellow. He cannot put himself outside of his own paradigm (judging by the way the questions were created and analysed). He is digging deep, he needs to understand but he is very intellectual. Anyway his view on women has something fishy regardless to what he says and I always feel there is something about him I do not trust (might be this shadow he keeps talking about). But that of course is difficult to discuss since it's very subjective.

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I din’t have the pleasure so I will take your word for that.

I don't know - I met some who love intellectual topics but might have a closed mind about certain things. They are usually more scientist types INTPs, like. They like to discuss but it is not easy to convince them. I don't think it is pussy and success only that drives them then. Unless it is an intellectual success to win the discussion.

@Leo Gura I would be very interested to hear more about it. Hope you'll make some more videos. In the meantime I have ordered some books but they will be coming from the US to Belgium and it might take time...

Well, I am trying that. I am still not sure if I should continue with the breathwork etc. I seem not to be able to stop with meditation and some spiritual videos, reading (not too excessive, I don't have much time). Other stuff seems to bore me now :-/ The energy is a bit calmer now, I got some synchronicities, dreams that I don't always (regrettably) remember clearly. I suppose it will resolve itself somehow one way or another. Any extra tips always welcome if you people have had such experiences. Thanks for your replies - much appreciated.

Since the beginning of the year I have been experiencing some kind of shift of consciousness or at least that’s the term I can produce now. It propably started a bit earlier when I cleaned up my diet, started to consume supplements to decalcify my pineal gland (I had a theory that it would help my migraines). Anyway, then I started to watch a lot of videos about food, TED talks, psychology and I stumbled upon Leo. Then I started my meditation and after the first try I had a weird experience (I wrote about it here on the forum) and in fact it progressed I had my body vibrating in a strange way and then the energy (I suspect kundalini) was filling me up (I don’t think it is fully awake, there was no spectacular bliss or anything like this), I was feeling so big, like I had no boarders, but I had also troubles sleeping, brain fog, bit of nausea and I stopped with watching videos and meditation. I had a backlash and went back to my more regular life. Less Leo more Netflix Now it is back again, I am in my maniac stage and am watching his videos like crazy, the energy has taken over, is not as intense as after the vibration episode but quite constant. It got interesting after the shamanic Breathwork I tried, more intense. Now, my question is what I should do, persevere in meditation etc. or rather calm it down and integrate like the last time? What will happen if I continue? I have a family and job... My family does not know a thing and they would not understand. I am stage yellow mostly. Any advice?

Find books on topics that interest you and start from there. It might be whatever, sci fi, thrillers etc, just to get a habit of reading and to discover that reading is fun. Plus to get your attention span longer than 10 min. If you a brave I recommend that for a week or 2 (or how much you need): It’s worth giving a thought doesn’t have to be for ever.

Thank you for your replies. @Solace It is indeed exiting and scary at the same time, I would feel better if I knew how to approach it best, to do it safely (I have no one to gide me). I am a bit worried that it might impact my life and health and at the other hand I wish it would just go on with it and give me some breake through or something. I also know that I have no time and place to just focus on the experience and I have to be there for my family. It is buzzing in me, I can focus my third eye (or something), I can feel-see the light-darkness-space (or something) when I do that but I don’t know how to pursue it. The other night I could feel my heart as if I was holding it in my hand. But I feel no wiser, no enlightenment comes what to do or how to be, so here I am, asking you. I feel like I am only at the beginning of the road and no sign is there. @cetus56 I may as well try that, although I must admit, I don’t feel complete. I feel that still have so much things to work on, so many to improve... Only recently I started to be a bit more confident about myself, although I never had very law self esteem, I just thought even though I had stuff to share no one would listen. Maybe you could explain what you mean a bit more. @Martin123 Today I am watching Netflix. But something that Leo recommended (documentary about Osho), what does that say?

I put solid yellow but I have probably touched a little turquoise and am still slightly in green, most likely I have some unsolved issues from other colours. I do not identify with turquoise so far although it intrigues me, I am nostalgic about the past rainbow of my experiences, I think they all had something to offer and something beautiful to appreciate. I must say that I must be in yellow for a long while now though because I remember being greenish/yellowish as a teenager.