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I would definitely be open to dating 21 year olds once I'm 37 lmao. Not sure about 19...

I disagree... 2016 Leo was pretty fucking edgy, and it worked beautifully. His sharp attitude was actually what got me into spirituality in the first place. Obviously back then he wasn't fully developed though and he has lost that edginess overtime, but I don't think edginess necessarily equals corruption. Behold, 48:50 to the end

Hello, I read "boobs" and here I am. This, maybe? My favorite is "What is Actuality?" which has been mentioned many times on this thread already

wowww the first essay post by leo in months! (years??) this is delicious

I am 148lbs (male, 21) with the goal of putting on more muscle (aiming for 152lbs by February). I exercise and take roughly 135g of protein every day. I am mostly vegan with the exception of eggs. I believe the internet calls people like me "ovo-vegetarian" lol As a woman, you probably don't need as much protein as me. Optimal protein intake depends on weight (heavier people need more protein than lighter people). Optimal protein intake depends on your goals (are you looking to be more fit? or just to maintain your current health?). Optimal protein intake depends on the frequency and intensity of your exercise (athletes and bodybuilders need more protein). A quick google search says 60g of protein every day is a healthy range for the average woman, which seems right because most women aren't heavy athletes/bodybuilders looking to maximize fitness.

And you had the GALL to say "I have average looks" in a different thread??? Shut up, you beautiful beast!

"The Unanswered Question" By Charles Ives (1908). I interpret this music as representing Reality: Man, God; All of it. It's as Meta as it gets. It blows me away that such profundity can be communicated without any spoken word. (Do note that there are many other interpretations of this work. Such is the beauty of art. Nonetheless, Ives himself has given us some hints on how to interpret this, as we'll see below.) The following excerpt is from Wikipedia: Ives provided a short text by which to interpret the work, giving it a narrative as in program music. Throughout the piece the strings sustain slow tonal triads that, according to Ives, represent "The Silence of the Druids — who Know, See and Hear Nothing". Against this background, the trumpet poses a nontonal phrase — "The Perennial Question of Existence" — seven times, to which the woodwinds "answer" the first six times in an increasingly erratic way. Ives wrote that the woodwinds' answers represented "Fighting Answerers" who, after a time, "realize a futility and begin to mock 'The Question'" before finally disappearing, leaving "The Question" to be asked once more before "The Silences" are left to their "Undisturbed Solitude". The piece ends with the strings "humming softly in the distance, like the eternal music of the spheres." I consider the woodwinds to be the mind of Man, frantic to answer the "Perennial Question of Existence": Why is there something rather than nothing? Who or What am I? The small army of woodwinds each have conflicting answers, making a meaningless mess of noise. Who's answer are we to trust? The question itself is fascinating, posed by a solo trumpet. It is "nontonal," which roughly speaking, just means that it doesn't make musical sense. Isn't that incredible? THE PERENNIAL QUESTION OF EXISTENCE is represented as nonsense! (e.g. unintelligible, absurd) By the end, the mind (aka the woodwinds) realizes that there are no "external answers" to this most intimate question, and they cease to answer. They've finally "let go." The meaningless question rings out one last time, but all that remains is the strings, or "The Silence of the Druids who Know, See and Hear Nothing." This is like Absolute Nonduality, completely void yet perfect, All-consuming and Eternal. The whole of the piece represents the collision and eventual collapse into unity of the confused seeker and God. If you listen to it enough you may cry.

Orange alllllways thinks himself Yellow

This^ My heart goes out to you @ern

Hopefully link in my tag below helps. Maybe read through my whole journal from the top also

See, you get to tell me, "Please spare me the outrage," because I'm loyal to you (& I'm not outraged to begin with lol). It won't work like that when the mainstream starts digging up your quotes. The context of what you said was perfectly clear to you and me but not to everyone universally. To the average ignorant person (and even to some advanced people who simply don't share your frame of reference), there's actually nothing "perfectly clear" or "obvious" about what you said. This makes all the difference It may seem negligible and stupid to you now, but to someone else it may be the difference of whether they accept your teachings (as a whole) or not.

@Leo Gura I think there is some deep truth in this, but it comes with a lot of caveats and conditionals that need to be spelled out. For example: time, place, mood, energy, trust; the seeming paradox between "wants" and "raped"; etc. And you ought to be more clear about what you mean by "rape," because the word "rape" inherently comes with the cultural baggage of being an ugly unwanted act of deprivation whereas I believe you are intending to speak of a beautiful gift that is desired by both parties. This is tricky because I do believe that "rape" is actually the correct word to use, it's just that you need to use it with an asterisk afterwards and some appropriate context. So on one hand it's in your best interest to rephrase your claim for the sake of clarity and communication but also on the other hand for your public image. Public image, Leo. Public image. You sound horrific in this quote I love your work and agree with your thinking so I see past it, but others won't.

@The0Self I feel that so hard

I'd like to add that there is a component of mindset as well. If you have sex with the mindset that "oh no what if I cum too fast I have to prevent that!" you're gonna cum in 3 seconds flat lol. If you have sex with the mindset that "I will cum on my own terms and she will feel my fire" you're gonna last forever. I used to sprint competitively in high school and that really taught me a lot about mindset: If, before the race even started, I had the mindset that "I know my competitors are fast, I'm gonna try not to lose," I would always lose lol. If, before the race even started, I had the mindset that "I will give this everything damned the costs. I will win," I would actually shock myself and pull out some wins! The performance of your body is HIGHLY dependent on your frame of mind. P.S. as you and others have mentioned, Kegels + Body Awareness are critical.

@somegirl Hey I'm trying to start an online brand using my name as well. It's comforting to know that someone the same age as me (I looked at your birthday on your profile lol) has similar goals~ Looking forward to your art

I strongly disagree. - Don't take advice from women about sexually attracting women. They are totally unhelpful in this domain and it's far better to listen to men. - Do take advice from women about the actual relationship aspects (post-attraction). Listening to only men in this domain is like shooting yourself in the foot. The whole point of a relationship is that you listen to the perspective of your partner (in this case, the female perspective).

Leonard Bernstein is a mind-boggling, legendary musician, scholar, and educator. He oozes mastery to the point that I want to cry just listening to him...

I constantly think of sex with my ex in moments of weakness too. At the end of the day though, that is always my lower self rearing its ugly head. My higher self still loves sex but does not prioritize it or yearn for it desperately with a girl from the past. My higher self is in love with life purpose first and foremost

It'll all be over one day anyway, no matter how hard you cling. She is not yours. That is the simple Truth. I am 99.9% confident that you two will break up sooner or later, and although it will suck, you will come out the other end stronger and wiser, and looking back you will feel like a total moron for letting her have so much power over you. You realize that her being "yours" is a story that you invent, and then you spend every single day defending and reinforcing that story? And when that story is threatened, you feel helpless despite being the architect of this entire situation! You're a total fool for caring so much. Life is infinite and this is what preoccupies your time? Focus on greater things.

All of your top values should be higher consciousness/noble (if you care about living an exceptional life) e.g. Freedom, Purpose, Wisdom, etc. <These are some of my top 10 higher consciousness values. Sex is also a really high value of mine, but I've made the choice to put it at number 11, underneath the more meaningful values. Why? Simply, I'd rather lead a life of wisdom (for example) rather than a life of sex. Just because I prioritize wisdom, doesn't mean sex suddenly vanishes - the key difference is: which value is YOUR ENTIRE LIFE ANCHORED TO? In your case, I would strongly advise not to put video games in your top 10 values. You can still love and cherish video games - just like I love and cherish sex - but you have to have some foresight and be dignified when you design YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. Think about your tombstone in ~70 years... "Here lies Sunnyboytoni. His life was about video games. RIP." Hey who knows - maybe that sounds good to you right now because you really like video games. But hopefully you see how this scenario is not the greatest of possibilities. How about this? "Here lies Sunnyboytoni. His life was about adventure and connecting with others through video games. RIP." Notice in this new scenario, video games are still included in your life, but they are no longer the centerpiece. In this new scenario, your life is about adventure and connection, and video games are merely a vessel through which your higher and more authentic values shine through. Don't just take my word for it: really ponder this, hard. Good luck!

@Leo Gura AW shucks I was really rooting for you there. She'll come to you one of these days.

This is untrue at the deepest layers. You cannot be Truly Selfless without Self-Love, and you cannot have True Self-Love without being Selfless. They are identical. The selflessness you speak of is partial I understand. Good luck!

These same "selfless people" you see "getting shit on" due to their lack of boundaries end up complaining for days and weeks and months and years about how they keep getting shit on. Why? Because they're fucking selfish. They're not actually selfless. It's so obvious. Listen, maybe selfless people without boundaries do exist (in the form of sages and saints). But these people never complain because they have real self-love. Unless you're literally a saint with 50 years of cosmic contemplation under your belt, your best bet toward selflessness is to set firm personal boundaries.

"Emotional/Caring" people are NOT necessarily "Very selfless" "Emotional/Caring" people can be just as selfish as narcissists. You're not doing real inner work if you consider yourself "very selfless" just because you happen to be "emotional/caring." Why? "Emotional/Caring" people tend to use emotional vulnerability as a way to bargain with someone else: "I'll be emotional for you, now you must show me approval and love." Caring can also be egoic attachment (in fact, 9/10 times it is egoic attachment. If you insist it's not egoic attachment, you're kidding yourself). Consider that narcissists and "emotional/caring" people get together because they're BOTH SELFISH. A truly selfless person would have enough self-love that their emotional vulnerability is no longer a bargaining tool; their caring, no longer mere attachment. A truly selfless person would have enough self-love that they have high standards and crystal-clear personal boundaries. A truly selfless person would have nothing to do with a narcissist out of respect for themselves and the narcissist.