RendHeaven

Spiritual ego.

Congrats on the surgery. I read you as being very vigilant and wise. Indeed you took every precaution - it's hard to find any oversight in your mindset or actions. Personally, I'm not so guarded about plastic surgery. I think it's totally cool and entirely up to the individual. Maybe I'm only able to take this stance because I am a monkey-brained male (i.e. I'm not the one going under the knife, so my emotions are not personally involved. This "insulates" me from the downsides of plastic surgery, while I only experience and observe the positives) But fundamentally we must ask, is it so wrong for a woman to willingly want to be more beautiful? Like, really? How could you possibly fault any girl for wanting this? There is something so pure and honest and celebratory about wanting to be the prettiest flower (independent of the male gaze. I'm talking about pure aesthetics - consciousness admiring its highest instantiation of structured orderliness). I reject the idea that beauty is a totally arbitrary "standard" wrought by the whims of society. Human aesthetic beauty at a high level boils down to proxies for health, fertility, sexual dimorphism, and geometric balance. (key word: PROXIES. For example, being beautiful does not guarantee you are healthy or fertile and vice versa. However, there is a high-level abstract association which is undeniable. The is a reason we celebrate glowing skin, hourglass curves, thick long hair, etc. rather than dull blemished skin, brick-like bodies and whispy damaged hair. This is not arbitrary whim. Also notice how youth favors the former and not the latter. Again, not an accident) There is a real deep intelligence behind my preference for an instagram model over an obese saggy crusty grandma. This is not a mere social construct. Though, of course, from GOD's POV both are equally beautiful - but that's beyond the scope of this convo lol tl;dr: you are faultless for investing in your aesthetics - especially since you already accounted for all the physical/psychological traps. P.S. your politics are very impressive as well, very stage yellow.

Right, which means psychedelics must be a fuel, by your logic, since they leave me so charged!

gotcha. just be good looking AND have the most fun. simple!

He's not lying folks, total chad. Damn 80%+ reject rate ... That's inspiring!

This all pains me. Spectating aggressive, willful ignorance and bluster physically hurts. You want to slap them across the face and FORCE them to see the obviousness of their wrongness. But you can't force these things, you can't argue with stupid and expect to win. And more fundamentally, the need to change people for their wrongness is a lack of acceptance on my own part. The best move may be to just stick to your epistemic guns, and vocalize what you see as right (+be willing to admit your wrongs). Reach the people who are willing to hear you, completely ignore the rest (you can't change them). Trust higher Intelligence to course-correct eventually, whether it be through the organic growth of truth changing minds one at a time - or more likely, everyone suffers until we snap and begin to guillotine the devils (karma).

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No wonder I feel so charged after a psychedelic trip

This is really impressive. It's a strong description of the Intelligent Self-Organization and Self-Comprehension of Consciousness. Peak states for me play out much like you describe but taken to the nth degree. However, in ordinary life, my faculties appear more limited (whether that's true or not), and much of my time is spent going through each node in linear one-dimensionality. But I'm fond of it so it's ok.

Year 4 of eating beef and rice every meal every single day. 26 more to go

@CoolDreamThanks That sounds very authentic for you man, Godspeed

This is palpably wrong to me. My deepest trips have all been traumatizing, teetering on total panic/meltdown territory. This is a category of terror beyond anything I've ever experienced as a human. All of my daily mundane fears are an offshoot of this greater primordial fear of confronting Consciousness. Nothing scares me more than psychs.

Because my human life is Love.

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@Schizophonia I thought you were scared of 5meodmt lol