Leo Gura

Yeah. That's how many Blue parents are. They are a different generation, not this New Age hippie crap. They have pretty simple minds.

Lol, what?

No. Nothing in this work is done simply for discipline. See book list. There's a hardcode meditation book there. I already shared sources about this on the blog.

And none of them believe in genetics

I don't know what he is.

Could be. Or just symptoms of expanded spiritual consciousness. But it is also probably tied to your early life, trauma, lack of development, mental health issues, or just sloppy use of the mind. You need to develop your mind, so you are not lost in negative thoughts and bad frames. Something like CBT might help you. You gotta start trying various methods and see what works. Therapy might be great for you. Or even just consult calls with a spiritual coach. Find a coach who understands all these issues. This is not new stuff. Spiritual coaches deal with this stuff all week long. There is a lot of action you could take on this issue. So you don't have to sit there and just be a helpless victim.

Well, to be fair to me, Musk really has fallen. He was never this bad. But also hard times reveal one's true character in a way that soft times do not. But yes, I did misjudge a handful of people as Yellow when they really aren't. It's hard to judge famous people from a distince without direct contact. Especially if we are talking about higher stages. The lesson is that you must be very careful in labeling anyone as Yellow or Turquoise. Almost no one is.

I know of him. Is he Yellow or just a smart neoliberal? Hard to say. The problem is that a smart healthy balanced Orange/Green can seem like Yellow.

Jed McKenna

When the US crashes, all the other markets will crash with it.

What I can tell you is, if you have kundalini problems seek out a kundalini expert. I am not one.

@khalifa I think what you need is to embrace the spiritual path for real. Do serious meditation practice, introspection, contemplation, ego work, maybe therapy. All of that combined will raise up your ego's development and allow you to actually appreciate your reactivations. You are stuck in a cycle of resistance which creates most of your misery. You have an opportunity here to really turn these reactivations into a gift. I would gladly pay $100,000 to have weekly 5-MeO reactivations in myself. Yet you take them as something awful. It is very much a matter of perspective. I suggest you get proactive about that work rather than sitting around in fear and misery.

You need to do serious spiritual and introspective work to gain clarity around all that. This state of confused not-knowing is not good. It just leaves you miserable. You need to get serious about sorting out your issues and fears, getting to the rock bottom of them, so you get closure. Yes, infinite consciousness is freaky at first, but it's actually a beautiful thing if you understand it properly. I think I understand what happened to you. You had a huge 5-MeO breakthrough but your ego was nowhere mature or developed enough for it. The ego is freaking out about death and infinite consciousness and just wants to go back to being an asleep human. You need to bring up the development level of the ego to be in proper relationship with the spiritual. It's like your ego doesn't want spirituality. But you opened that spiritual doorway with 5-MeO: which is it's proper function. See, when I do 5-MeO, I am wishing for what happened to you to happen to me. That's why I do it. But you don't have that kind of spirutual desire. So in that sense, yeah, 5-MeO is the last thing you should have done. You opened a door to things you didn't really want. But now that the door is opened the solution is to learn to love the spiritual domain.

Sorry to hear of your suffering. What are you afraid of? It sounds like you triggered a spiritual awakening in yourself but your mind is resisting it and misinterpreting it as something negative. You should research how kundalini awakening works and issues associated with it. This is known territory. People do get problems when kundalini is activated but incomplete. I think you need to do a lot of inner work on how you are making sense of this whole situation. It seems like Awakening in trying to happen but you are resisting it, which creates double suffering.

@OBEler Spirituality cannot be learned through a book. That's the bottom line. Stop reading spiritual books and invest that time into your own serious philosophical inquiry, from scratch. You need to transition to generating your own insight. The insight in books is dead to you. It's like buying dead fish to stock your aquarium. You need live fish that you catch yourself. Selling dead fish by the ocean.

No

That's not true. There are many other good books. But after a certain point they start to repeat and give diminishing returns. What you can learn from the books about mastering yourself is quite limited. The real work is outside the books. Most new books published today are marketing gimmicks. But occassionally you find a gem.

After a certain point, after you read 150 books, few books are worth reading. Many books these days are just padded with time-wasting fluff. Still, history, biography is good and necessary. And sometimes you just find exceptional books which have serious unique content. You gotta distingush between fluff rehashed books made for profit, and serious books. Much of the self-help or business or pop-psychology mainstream books are purely made for profit. They are gimmicks and marketing tools for the author more than real books. They were probably not even written by the author.

@Raskara I'm not going to be a master. I just wanna play consistently at 2000. But thanks!

When you realize God you will laugh at your own question. Humanity is just a flea on God's ass.

@OBEler My God! Why does every face look like a heroin zombie?

I gotta milk you guys more. My milking game is too weak. I must learn at the feet of the milk-masters.

@OBEler Is that Lex Fridman? Haha!

1) Guilt over Holocaust. Zionists are masters of milking the Holocaust. 2) Zionism is nowhere as bad as Nazism. It isn't aggressive towards other nations beyond the Middle East. Zionism is a much more subtle and sneaky ideology that slips under the radar unless you research it deeply and know all its tricks.