Leo Gura

Your framing here is rather simplistic and one-sided. JP has helped plenty of people, even though I think his politics is paranoid and reactionary.

It's such a tiny issue it isn't worth regulating or worrying about. If you're going to go down that road you should start by not letting assholes reproduce

I didn't start meditation for pickup. I was into personal development and got into pickup and meditation at around the same time, and I was motivated to do meditation more by Owen Cook who was big into meditation to improve his game. But I never meditated to improve my game. I meditated because I wanted a clearer mind and because I was interested in Zen at the time. It just so happened that a lot of the guys who were into RSD at the time were also into self-improvement of all sorts. Owen is really into that which is why I liked Owen's work. Moreso for the personal dev than the pickup. Although the pickup theory was good too.

Thanks for sharing. Sorry that happened to you, but it is a pretty common thing for those doing hardcore spiritual work. I have a book on my book reviews list about Kundalini syndrome, how to deal with it, and how to avoid it. Yes, lot of intense breathing can trigger it. Which is why Kriya yoga was invented, to slow down the breathing and to active the kundalini in a more stable, gradual, and healthy manner. If you decide to return to spiritual practice, Kriya yoga is what you're missing.

False

Metal stirring rod with flat end.

I didn't get into psychedelics because of pickup.

And it will forever remain a mystery until you awaken to what other is.

Actually all things are equally beautiful in the mind of God. In a finite mind beauty is biased according to one's survival needs and other such factors. So, absolutely, a goat's pussy is beautiful, you're just way too biased to recognize its infinite beauty. You can construct relative notions of beauty based on majority opinion. That's fine. But you must never forget that this is a purely relative notion. It doesn't actually equate to real beauty. It's true to say that most men would find Megan Fox more beautiful than a fat girl. This is relatively true. But only relatively! You cannot then go around saying that fat girls are not really beautiful. That is the error. In the end, majority opinion doesn't mean shit. Nor is your dick the arbiter of truth. The whole issue here is majority rule which excludes minority perspectives. 100 years ago the majority of Americans would say that black girls are not as beautiful as white girls. That doesn't make it true. Although personally I prefer white girls, the difference is I acknowledge that as my bias. I don't try to make it normative or absolutely true. Whereas someone like JP tries to make it normative and absolute, and this is the mistake. This is where the topic of self-bias comes in very handy, and why I teach about bias a lot. You need to become conscious of your own mental biases. It's okay to have biases, but it's problematic when you deny they are biases.

I've done both. 95%+ of my trips are eyes open.

You see your bias of formlessness and call it Absolute. Missing the other half. You're not fully conscious of what Truth is. You've misapplied "Truth" to formlessness only, overlooking that form is also Truth. This is a bias. Change does not imply time. Time is something your mind imagines on top of change. Consciousness is obviously changing right now and it is Absolute Truth. You're missing things. But you are so stubborn that I will not argue with you any further.

"There"? Maybe there isn't a single "there" here.

That strawman is not something I subscribe to, obviously. Your brain is a lot less malleable than it seems. Psychedelics prove how limited your natural brain's capacity is. But this should not be turned into an limiting belief. There is lots of room for improvement.

I unlocked this journal. Anyone causing disturbance or drama here, within a private journal, will be issued warning points, so watch out!

Always everything on empty stomach.

True. Effort does make a difference. Although the question remains how awake they really are. And there is always the question of, how predisposed were they for that way to work? - - - - - FYI, I had an enlightenment from 8 days of vipassana meditation, and it wore off. So it is possible. But none of that is Infinite Consciousness or God-realization.

It's not that Musk is insincere. It's just that he is biased by his business pursuits. And I don't even mean money. His is biased by his desire for control over his companies. He doesn't want to share that control democratically. I'm sure in Musk's mind he thinks he can do more good for the environment by having full control over his businesses vs having government lead the effort. Which is how he justifies to himself voting for Republicans who don't give a damn about climate change. Such are the biases of oligarchs. But none of this is healthy governance. To sacrifice democracy just because of SJWs and unions is a deep mistake, one that will tarnish Musk's entire legacy in the future. History will remember those who enabled Trumpism. No amount of Telsas or Starships is worth that.

Genetics obviouy play a huge role. I have met people who claim to have been born awake and/or with radically expanded states of consciousness, as though they are tripping on DMT naturally all the time. Such people are not even that rare. All psychics, shaman, and most mystics are like this. They do not meditate to get their powers. They are born with them. It's also obvious that if you had the genetics of a dog you would never become God-realized. Without the right genetics and brain chemistry, you are spiritually fucked.

Formed reality is the imagination of differences. You create "reality" by holding one thing as distinct from another. These are divisions in consciousness your mind is making, even though you are not yet conscious of how your mind is doing this. This is otherwise known as dreaming. It's not complicated.

Be careful assuming that. How do you know that's true?

1) Stop assuming I have all the answers to your relative problems. I don't. 2) It may lead to monkhood, but that should be a happy conscious choice, not something you are forced into kicking and screaming. Like I said, be careful treating this as some spiritually significant thing and rather treat it as a medical condition. Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar. In general, you should be able to enjoy sex and pursue God-realization. The world doesn't need to be renounced. The world is God.

The bias is that you are assuming the Absolute to be changeless and something other than form or experience. This is a subtle duality stemming from incomplete awakening. The Absolute is changing all the time. That's what your life is. You cannot exclude anything from the Absolute. You're not conscious yet what Absolute Truth is. Your entire experiential field is Absolute Truth. I'm perfectly clear on these points so it would be wise to listen. But do as you like. You guys here seriously overestimate you degree of awakening/consciousness. You are missing the basics, never mind God-realization.

1) Be careful holding me as your guru. I'm just a guy sharing ideas online. 2) You have some specific medical condition/disorder which needs to be addressed as a medical disorder. I'm not a doctor. I can't help with that. I would not make any spiritual assumptions about your disorder. Do not make it personal: Why is God punishing me? Try researching it deeper and try to find people who had the same disorder and found a cure. Stay hopeful that a cure can be found. Try changes to diet, supplements, etc.

Schedule a free consult with a doctor and he will answer all your questions.

Don't kid yourself, it's never gonna be entertaining. Make time for rest, fun, and off-time. Recreation must be taken seriously. Or you will burn out.