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@kieranperez Yes, understandably. But it will be a concern regardless of when you do it.

@kieranperez Another option is to do the opposite. Focus on getting off it now, while you're not so reliant on earning success. Once you get wrapped up with a job and earning success, it will all the more difficult to find time off to deal with your drug problem. But I'm not you, so I'm not telling you what to do. Just offering ideas.

@kieranperez Yes, it might. The thing you gotta keep in mind is that you've been taking these drugs for so long that they've now solidly become your crutch. So there's little chance you'll get off them unless you're willing to take a temporary hit in terms of time, energy, productivity, emotions, and body feeling. Like a heroin junkie, coming off won't be easy, but then again, what's the alternative? A life of addiction?

@Max_V I don't need to go to the Netherlands to trip.

I other words you're a junkie

@electroBeam You gotta learn to read the intent of the proverb, not to read it literally. You are using the word "experience" in a different context with a different meaning. "Experience" here should be read more like "suffering". Finger pointing to the moon.

Being aware of a thing is one thing. Behaving in a cute and cuddly manner is a totally different thing. There is some correlation, but it's a loose one. Just because someone is a good mathematician (understands math) doesn't mean he can't also be an asshole. So why do you expect that someone who understands Truth would immediately behave like a saint? The problem here is over-idealization of enlightenment. Strictly-speaking enlightenment is nothing more than knowing what reality is. You are then free to act however. You could decide to become a cannibal and there would really be no conflict.

@Monkey-man Generally speaking, yes. Key word there being "generally". And there are many half-baked enlightened folks out in the world.

@egoless All those people worked much harder than me. I'm actually pretty lazy.

@Serotoninluv You haven't woke up yet

@Adam M Good work. Keep it up every day.

A good opportunity to notice the mirror for what is. Some folks on here do mirror meditation deliberately. Push yourself a bit.

@Monkey-man Because enlightenment is strictly-speaking NOT about being loving or caring. It is about being conscious of what reality is. You can be conscious that 1+1=2, and still be a rapist. Purifying all facets of the mind is a much harder task than enlightenment alone. You could get enlightened in 3 years, but stopping being an asshole can take a lifetime of work.

@Lauritz On 100ug of AL-LAD, you will be able to function mostly fine. Just don't drive a vehicle.

@Kallan If you don't have access to lesser psychedelics (mushrooms, LSD, etc) then just ramp up your self-inquiry and meditation practices. You could also do a truffle trip in Amsterdam prior to your 5-MeO.

@phoenix666 There are definitely some ways which are objectively more effective than others. The trick is, discovering those ways, and then making sure they actually work for you. Just because a method is highly effective on the average population, doesn't mean it will be effective for you. Your cultural upbringing plays a big part is how effective some methods will be. Enlightenment teachings must always be tailored to the culture and the era of the audience. Teaching enlightenment to a scientifically-inclined urban Westerner is very different than teaching enlightenment to a rural Hindu.

Becoming a millionaire via your gf's business is not a life purpose. That's just the path of least resistance. And anyway, it's sounds sketchy. You can't depend on other people setting you up with stuff like that. What happens if you two have a fight and break up? Your entire life goes down the drain? What you need to focus on is facing your fear and finding yourself. You have no idea what you want out of life and you're already 21! That's a big problem. You should have spent the last 10 years already working to develop mastery in your passion of choice. Now this means you can't really create anything. You're just a leaf blowing in the wind. There is still time to fix it, but you're way behind, so there's no time to lose. Invest a lot of time and energy getting clear about what you want, what you don't want, and where your passions lie.

Depends on how screwed up your social conditioning was as a kid. If it was real bad, you might have been so brainwashed that you're really disconnected from your authentic personality now. But for most people I don't think their personality will change much, it will just get purified of egoic distortions and various social conditioning. So if anything, this work should make your MBTI personality stronger. But also it will balance you out. For example, as an introvert, you can learn to function pretty well as an extrovert when the situation calls for it, for short periods of time. Masculine/feminine tendencies in you will also tend to balance out with more and more spiritual work. That balance is nice to have.

@0ne With psychedelics, you have to go slow, gradual, and steady, sometimes taking months to integrate a trip before going back for another drink from the well of nonduality. If you just blast yourself with it, that's going to be traumatic, and it won't grow you properly. The process leading up to enlightenment is just as important as the enlightenment itself. That process is necessary to prepare the mind to surrender. If it take years for some people, that's sometimes because that's what they needed. Of course other times they were just dragging their feet. The problem with psychedelics is that you can easily shortcut this ramp-up, which sounds good on paper, but in practice it leaves you unprepared to handle the Truth when it reveals itself to you.

@Klaudia Not so fast! You speak of nothing but you don't know what that is. Your ideas of nothing are NOT it! There is a way, beyond the mind. You don't yet know what there is in deep sleep.

@Edvard Yes, for me up to 40 mins is pretty easy. After 40 mins it gets tricky. Usually I make an adjustment or two after 40 mins. But that's for regular sitting (not strong determination). I almost always sit on my plush couch. It's not ideal technique and I tend to be lazy. But what your mind is doing is more important.

@Slade Yeah... that's almost exactly how my first sober glimpse happened. The mind gets so caught up gawking at the amazement of it, it kills the thing it's gawking at. I like how Terence McKenna once said the DMT elves told him, "Focus! Do not get lost in the amazement of it!" It's a real problem. It's too amazing for the mind to handle. You need repeated exposure to handle it without creaming your pants.

@Edvard Pain when it comes to sitting is mostly BS pain. Monks sit that way for years, so you should be okay. Sitting pain is good for meditation practice. Other kinds of pain you will want to use more as a check engine light. Like back pain while lifting objects, tooth ache, head ache, etc. The only danger I know of when it comes to sitting is screwing up your knees. But that's with very long-term cross-legged sitting. So maybe watch out for long-term knee-aching if you get that from your sits. Numb legs are okay. You should be able to sit without moving for 60-90 minutes without much problem. Of course, it will take time for you to work up to doing even that. After 60 minutes is when it really gets psychologically frustrating.

@egoless That has been answered long ago in the old Myers-Briggs thread.

@egoless Watch the show and see how they live. You'll see. I'm not the one here who started a thread about needing extreme loneliness.